17 again today (:

& met up with Lester at night for dinner, caught up abit.

He's going for camp tomorrow and I think I'm going to miss him!

A LITTLE BIT ONLY okay, not alot (: But still. Haha. 

You know sometimes its like holding a butterfly in your hands.

Its struggling to get out, but you resist.

Then it stops, stays still, and gives up altogether.

OR SO YOU THINK.

You open your hands to check on it, "Oh no, did I kill it?"

And it gracefully flies away, not looking back. 

It bears no grudges, no. 

But HELL its not coming back either.

And do you look back with regret, having fallen for its trick?

I say no. 

At least I had the chance to embrace nature the way it was meant to be. 

Free.

Well, would it be stupid to admit that I have no idea what I'm talking about? Heh. I duno what's wrong with me, but this week I'm finding it REALLY HARD to concentrate on my work. I really don't get it. Like, what's with all the distractions all of a sudden?! I'm trying to get over it, but unfortunately, as of now, the status still remains at trying. RETARDED. Mar should just stop thinking about piano righttttt? Lol today I dragged Joane to camp in the LT with me just cuz there was a piano there. Ah, but as usual. This probably is just a passing phase, as with all my other crap about learning this and that. BUT HOPEFULLY NOT!!!

Meh, I feel so emo. BUT I have no idea about what. So I guess I should just be happy la huh. Haha. Need more entertainment during school time ): No one to sms haha. Everyone's so busy! ): I know I should be paying attention... :x But.. okay I'm not going to argue. 

Simple things in life can be the hardest to appreciate.

K, been lagging behind quite a bit in terms of posting, but I'm getting quite lazy :x Quick update of pics for now..

B&J Free Cone Day! 

Met Alyssa there :D:D:D Lol, was pretty shocked to see her, and wuz queueing with my sister at that time.
And here's a pic with my sister. Apparently she eats icecream faster than me :x

So after B&J's, I headed down to SRJC for ROCKFEST, because Maxy was playing (:

Overall it was pretty okay, though the only performance I really enjoyed was his.. :x Adam was my saviour for the day, hanging out with me and keeping me company even though I felt like I was holding him back and stuff :x then again, appreciate the company! :D Couple'a pics after rockfest courtesy of Alton.

Joshua + Maxy, the two zai guitarists (:

MAXY! (: But damn, did you have to bend down? Now I look even shorter. =.=" Lol. You know its like those.. really tall guys when they take picture with little girls they always have to bend down.. its giving me that feel now :x 

K that was tuesday. I duno what I did the whole week but by thursday I was plain broke =.= Friday, bowling + tuition, nothing particularly interesting there. 

Saturday! Went with Adam and Maxy for Suki (((: No photos, but a satisfying meal it was! :D Lol. Caught up and stuff... Went home and stuff... Dinner at night was with max and family at Pete's place, where I drank one tiny glass of wine and regretted it BIG TIME. Ended up feeling sick all the way home. ): My alcohol tolerance is so bloody CMI and that sucks. Well at least I can never get drunk.

Sunday! Philyouth day! Lolz. Nothing much. Went for prac, sectionalz, dinner + jokez, ben&jerry's, homed. Fulfilling though, if nothing else, and I couldn't ask for more.

Monday = Monday blues. As usual =.= The feeling of waking up LATE on a monday is even worse. Actually was supposed to sleep at 11.30, but ended up HTHTing with my sister until around 12.30. So that was one hour of sleep gone, but well I guess it helped alot. hahas. Spent most of the lessons stoning, reading shopaholic (and finished it!!!) and thinking 'bout stuff.. , but all's well that ends well, I guess. At least I'm feeling alot better than I was last night. :x I'm home early today too! This means... I GET TO PRACTISE MY CLAR!!! FOR ONCE IN A BLOODY MILLION YEARS!!!!!  :D Which I am going to do now. (: 

When you're down and lost
And you need a helping hand
When you're down and lost
Along the way,
Oh, just tell yourself
Ah, I'll be okay.

Trust.

TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST TRUST 

I trust you. 

NEWS

oyeah.

I love the feeling that we can read each others minds (:

♥

And wth, i'm still darn happy. :D :D 

The longer the day drags on, the happier I get. 

I think I'm just going to die of happiness.

How can this be, when everyone around me is emo? 

This isn't right lols.

I just don't get how I can be so happy, when everything is going wrong. 

Maybe I appreciate the small little things that people say or do, and they're making my day.

I feel like I'm living in lalaland, and MAYBE I am! :D :D 

Lol I realised I've been sending "thanks babe" to alot of people today hahah. So unlike me, but yeah LOLZ. 

MEH, I realise I say this every week, but I love Philyouth! :D (lolz im like having moodswings)

HAPPYMARHAPPYMARHAPPYMARHAPPYMARHAPPYMARHAPPYMARHAPPYMAR!!! :D

Happy until I totally forgot I had an econs test tmr, well at least until Nadh smsed me about it and i finally remembered :x But aiya... I want to read my story book :x 

ROCKFEST + BEN&JERRYS ON TUESDAYYYYYYYYYY. :D:D:D:D 

♥

WHOA. 

How did this happen?

I feel as if I'm losing. 

Last week I was like the ultimate winner. 

This week, because of one tiny detail, i've plunged to one stage before rock bottom.

On a lighter note, went out with Adam for lunch today :D Finally had something to do on a Saturday! Well, at least until like 1. Had a great time talking about the randomest things haha. Yesyes, we shall go on our Suki outing sometime soon (: 

Cheers to more entertainment on Saturdays! HAHA. Everyone is always so busy, and I am always so free :x (on saturdays at least..) Went for Mass at Risen Christ after a REALLY UNPRODUCTIVE "study session" at tpy, of which I spent most of the 2 hours sleeping.. zzz. The choir there's pretty good though! (: Came home after that, and well here I am. Just been stoning at the comp the past few hours, and deciding whether I should go for an early morning run tmr. As usual, no one is free to eat breakfast with me ): Craving for that sliced fish soup! ): 

Philyouth tomorrow... No comments. I'd say I was looking forward to it, but er.. yeah. Not in the right state of mind.

I really hope you don't let your ego get ahead of you in this, because what we have is a pure friendship, which i never want to lose, but i can feel it wearing down slowly, and all i can do is to hold on with whatever i have left - close to nothing.

CHILL MAR.

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Adam - next week lah next week :D

ShiChun - LOL emo street! You live on Happy Avenue, I am the one living on Emo street. Look at my condition omg. ): But okay la. At least I'm still living~

AYAM PENYET!

HELLO WORLD! (:

I ATE AYAM PENYET TODAY :)))))))) So much for not eating it in school haha, just couldn't resist! I was so jumpy and excited the whole day just waiting to eat my ayam penyet hahah. And hey, as it turns out. OMG YUM. 

Yup. Lucky Plaza, 01-47 if i'm not wrong (:

Stay away from the Sambal, I SWEAR ITS DEADLY ): Bad experiences.... that even my HAPPY SODA couldn't cure. In fact, it only made it worse! D:

Well at least I know where to go when I'm sad now. HAPPY SODA FTW! ♥ No Happy Avenue. TOO FAR! xP

Foodz! We ordered Ayam Penyet, Embal Penyet and some beef ball penyet thingy, whatever it was called. Lol.

After dinner, went to camp at a kool place. Where I wrote this:

& you can still wonder why I say my chinese sucks? LOL. two years of not writing chinese, already become like that. It would be a miracle if I can still remember how to write my chinese name man! HAHAH. But I had a great time tonight, with great company (: Laughing our ass off at stupid things LOL. 

& I still cannot imagine being with anyone else other than you. 

♥

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Adam - Chocomints are EVIL. lolz. and yeh, EPIC photo :D SUKI SUSHI SOON OKAY? IMY! :D

Ces - Isn't it like Judy Garwood or something liddat... Lol. I'm pretty sure it isn't Julia. Lol.

Philyouth/Easter

Extreme Makeover is bloody suicide.

Easter

Uneventful, didn't even feel like a proper easter sunday ):

Philyouth

Ownage, as usual.

If you can't see it clearly, click the picture. Its epic, really.

Photo post!

Heys! Lol finally I got around to doing this, although I'm still very lazy to arrange the photos in chronological order ):

First up, study sessionz at tpy... Nothing much, because i was actually studying, aha.

The EVIL fattening choco mini snack ):

HA this was evidently while I was alone. I got too bored with Chemistry ):

K dats all. Now... Service Learning!
Why is the sky blue? and the sand blue too? I have no idea what people are doing to the beach but it sucks man. And this the less populated area somemore.

Mr Krabs!

I thought the sky was beautiful on that day (:

Clique photos? (: Always missing one person though, lol.

K! Gloria Jeans! You guys should srsly go to Gloria Jeans for Coffee. Its imba cheap I tell you! 3 bucks for an iceblended after 3pm on weekdays, like zomg. The only downside is if you sit there for too long you will freeze to death. Its damn cold, even with my jacket on. But anyways, I decided to try out the food there and ZOMG its damn worth it? I paid 10 for a tuna salad, iceblended and a lamington.

Nice Pink Lamington! 

If you duno what a Lamington is, the white stuff is coconut i think, and the inside is sorta like spongecake. Yeah.

Omg the tuna salad was heavenly.  :D

My strawberry iceblended! I didn't wna order coffee cuz I already drank a cup that morning so.. yeah.

AHA. Took this a few days ago on the way to Max's house.  Had imba tiramisu there made by his parents. yumyumyum (:
Srsly, I don't know how you learnt to camwhore on the bus hahah. The RJC girl was laughing at us!!

And finally, some group pics.

SA171! ♥
Couldn't have done it without you guys :D

Sports Day (: Waste of time hahah.

Service Learning!
Cross Country 2009!

This is a group pic too okay! S28 bagpack class! (: ♥

And they say all good things come to an end.

OH btw I think I'll do a photo post tomorrow. 

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Terry -  haha uh I hope you like the shirt haha.

YY - YES YOU DO! And you like talking to inanimate objects too! Thereby making you weird (: ♥

Ces - TOTALLY HAHAHA.

imposter mar - >_<

zn - YAY that song is so addictive! hahah.

Max - HI! Lol don't worry I already posted the link there. (: 

I know for a fact that it's really rare to have moments in your life when everything is going right/nothing is going wrong, and I'm really really thankful to be having one of those times now. Its not like everything is going my way PER SE, but I'm certainly not having any problems and its more like nothing is going wrong for me these few days (: 

For one, I passed my VERY LAST Napfa test with a gold! :D I'm pretty amazed myself, because I've set personal records I'd never thought I'd achieve :) But thats just the beginning of my awesome life now haha.

PW results out tomorrow! I am not exactly excited, but I think I can safely say I'm not exactly very worried about results. Not that I'm thinking that I'll do very well, but mainly because when I handed up the GPF last year, I put my fate into the hands of our teachers, knowing that there's nothing else I can do to pull up my grade and I've already done the very best I can. I think if I get a C I'd still be devastated, but as of now, I'm not really bothered (: 

While I was listening to my (hehe) iPod today on shuffle, I came across a song by this artist I haven't really heard for awhile (like 2 months? lol.) and suddenly memories came flooding back. Those memories weren't really from very long ago, but they meant alot to me. I wrote a short piece on it in my notebook, so hopefully I will remember those times forever. ♥

Studies have been a major headache the past few months. But I think now I am so carefree that even studies don't affect me anymore. It feels good to be working hard and KNOWING that you're putting effort into improving (even though i'm getting worse somehow). It is hardly a chore as much as something I need to do to improve myself. To think I've devoted 2/3 my waking hours to something as mundane as that, and I don't even think about it half the time. The other 1/3 is spent on leisure, just in case you're wondering (: Computer time ( sometimes it scares me when I think of the number of hours I waste on the comp :x ), Philyouth, Reading romance novels (one every weekend from now on!), talking on the phone... etc. I cannot imagine going full steam just before A levels and cutting all these out. They are so important to me! Lol. But yeah, time flies when you're having fun. 

My beloved friends (the ones not from SA) are doing so well in school now (: Lester even has high chances of becoming House Captain! (: Kudos to him for being so awesomeeee, and wishing him all the best! (:

I'm thinking of stuff that I want to do before I die and one of them would be to learn the drums, and play with a band, even if its for ONE song, IN THE JAMMING STUDIO, even THAT is good enough for me. 

Stuff that I want to learn before I go into uni? Two piano songs that I've already decided, and guitar basics! (meaning to at least be able to hold my own and dont take that literally lol)

I've also just received inspiration from Julian Bliss (i think thats his name), the clarinet prodigy! He's so freaking good omg. I shall press on! 

I love, and am loved ♥

Actually, I'm sure there's lots and lots more but I think this is enough for now lol. (:

I think for once, I'm going to be able to say that I'M WELL AND TRULY HAPPY.

♥

OMG. You guys should totally go and watch this!! :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sGyNP0jsODk

& comment too! He pwns, like srsly!! :)))))))

ZOMG. I was just reading through my old stuff, and LOOK WHAT I FOUND!!!

http://suzyheartsmar.livejournal.com/

HAHAH. Joke!

I miss those times.

I realised to be really immature then, and to tell you the truth, I think I've hardly grown? LOL. There's another love-list blog I drew up, 10 reasons why I love certain people.. I feel like starting it up again haha ^_^

There's Philyouth tmr! :D Terence, don't worry. I'll give you your present then (:

K bye, going out to study at tpy now. I'm gna be all alone so if anyone wants to accompany me gime a call! LOL.

I wish I could say I miss you and not get judged.

Srsly, now I'm just going to DIVE INTO (yes really dive) my bed and snuggle under the covers and GO TO SLEEP, because I am so sick of studying (UGH!!!) and I'm srsly suffering from lack of sleep.

So..

Good Night World!