How do you want to live??

yet again, it's been a long time since my last update...

in the three over months that i've been missing, i must say that my views on life and my way of thinking has changed quite a fair bit. yes, as u might have guessed, this is more on the serious note.. howeva, the part of me who bitches bout things in life is still around.. a lil more toned down...

in just a short 3 months... hmm.. less than that actually.. i realise that i'm growing up! (like wow.. haha.. wad took me so long??) it's not about being gorgeous, not about looks coz that'll definitely fade in time to come unless u go for plastics.. even so.. u might juz melt one fine day if u do too much of that.. haha.. ok.. back to the point, i realise that it's never too young to start planning for the future..

the thing about singapore.. well, facts show that costs of living which includes basic things like housing, transport, household items, communication and technological things like handphones, internet, and the works.. absolutely everything we do nowadays requires money.. and wad's worse is that most of these prices are increasing.. at the same time that all this is happening, the price tags on people working for others is getting cut more and more each day as we have more people who graduate with dips/degrees/doctrates/etc. starting pays are decreasing.. working hrs are longer.. even to the extent that quite a handful, if not, a majority of people actually bring work home with them everynight or even during the weekend when the time away from the office is clearly for people to rest and enjoy themselves be it with family or friends..

SO..... the ultimate question is.....

are you gonna let circumstances around you determine the way you live life and the way you retire?? are you gonna succumb to the way you were brought up to live?? or are you one who dares to dream for a better life?? one that enables you to take full control of your life?? one that'll allow you to earn the income you want?? to be able to have financial security or for the matter of fact, financial freedom?? at the same time, do you want to be able to spend every moment with those closest to you instead of having to slog and slave away for somebody who clearly underpays you??

imagine a time where you decide to settle down and start a family. do u really want to wake up early in the morning, get stuck in morning traffic, get to the office and (more often than not,) get f***ed for things that you may or may not have done, play around in office politics, worry about people stabbing you in the back (you sometimes get slapped in the face too if you have cunning people in your organization) worry about underperforming in fear of getting retrenched, settling for a budget lunch coz of money and time restraints.. and at the end of the day, you fight the traffic conditions once again and make your journey home only to find that you've exhausted most of your energy wrestling the tasks and the people at work.. would you really get to enjoy that few precious hrs of time at home with those you love the most?? would it be fair for them to get the a small fraction of all your efforts?? i mean, sure... you go to work to upkeep your family and yourself as well. but in order for the people whom you work for to earn money, they have gotta make sure their employees (which in this case, would be YOU!) produce more results and bring in more money for the company than wad they pay you (which is the paycheck you take home everymonth).

Do you think that that is the best solution to life?? is that how you want to live??

some of you out there might say i don't have the experience. but personally, even though i've only done part time work, i've been to companies who really make people work for their keeps.. and trust me, it isn't fun when you're held responsible for things and don't even have time to have a proper lunch. well, i'm still quite ok health wise except for the gastric problem i have.. but yeah... over the years in which you work for people, your 1 hr lunch is sometimes cut to a mere 5-10 mins.. enuff time for you to buy lunch back and eat in the office while doing work.. some people get indigestion... some get gastric... most people give up their health and their beauty... (YES!!! people do get fat in the office coz they sit down to do work most of the time..)

why sell your soul to people who don't pay you wad you're worth??

given the choice, and an exit strategy, would you dare take the risk to get out of this vicious dog-eat-dog cycle??

well, i would really love to hear wad you people out there think..

30.01.07 to present

haha.. yup.. that's da day after i juz blogged.. haha.. well, many many things have happened.. and.. life's been good.. except for all da assignments in school; that have thankfully finished. yay me! haha.

hmm.. an update on my life if people actually still read this place, well, it could easily be fixed.. but.. not too sure whether i'll put my add back on my msn.. haha.. for starters, i've cut down alot on clubbing.. yeah.. more or less have la.. now it's a few time a month... da WG people have been complaining that i've gone missing.. well, more or less have.. but yeah.. thankfully it's not all on da surface coz there are the few who i do keep in contact with...

as for v'dae.. came and went... din go all out of da way coz everything's way over-priced... and besides... had to send his uncle to da docs for an appt.. den.. in da evening... had reunion dinner... so.. yeah... there goes my day.. haha..

CNY... that time of the year.. haha.. all so excited about everything.. get new clothes.. new shoes... den.. me being the "genius" that i am.. had to sprain my foot on da eve... while walking back to stephen's car... heh.. yes yes.. i'm still as clumsy as eva... *shrugx* hmm... had an ice pack on it all nite... hmm.. that was after i got home from his reunion dinner actually... ooh.. and da nxt day... haha.. yeah.. i was dumb again.. if u wanna put it that way.. haha.. wore 5 inch heels for church n visiting... that day.. went to church.. den to my aunt's place... back to his place.. to his grandma's place.. back to pick up my grandma... den headed to granduncle's place.. den to grandaunt's place.. back to his grandma's place for dinner.. den to another one of my grandaunt's place.. complicating ain't it?? 5 places in one day... pretty crazy.. hmm.. everything was pretty normal.. money also about the same.. =x oops.. not supposed to say this here am i??

shodown at MoS... Chloe's last wk here.. well, that was fun... haven't danced for so long!!! haha.. felt to good to hit da dancefloor again... =) and for the whole nite too...

phoebe's party at momo.. was juz crazy as every other party we've had... glad to see that they're still partying hard.. thot they all died down.. haha.. maybe it's becoz i'm way off limits to them.. (which i'm glad i am..)

had badminton with da gals last wk.. it was so good to see all of u... quite fun playing too.. gosh.. i really need to work out... haha.. hmm... besides that.. my mind's really malfunctioning.. can't remember too much...

ooh.. 2 more things...

1.. mel's chalet... hmm.. well, it was.... interesting... haha.. that's about all i'm gonna comment about... ssshh.. it's a secret....
2.. PROM!!! haha.. had prom nite on fri nite.. it was quite lame.. but not too bad la.. emcee was quite good... and da drag queen they got was quite hilarious... no offence to muslims... but.. pls remind me nv to sit at a halal table as far as i possibly can k?? i miss my chinese food.... i'm sorry... this is one thing i'll nv give up.. my love for food.. haha.. =)

ok.. and i end here... =)

Boon or Bane?

computers.. such a pain in da ass... to me.. to mom... to alot of people.. especially when it comes to documents.. projects... animation... wad nots.. heh.. video editing.. these type of things.. i think.. some people have a thing for it.. and some others don't..

gosh.. i really dunno wad i'm doing in this course la... -_-" i got no patience wad so eva... and since it's eva so difficult for me to grasp anything.. it's a hell lot of effort to try to get things perfect.. and it's really really frustrating when u juz can't figure it out...

enough said la.. i juz hope i can graduate this sem.. i really do...

Why can a day not have more than 24 hrs??

argh.. so frustrating.. it's like.. how can they throw so many assignments at us all at da same time and expect it done well within a short span of like.. 2 to 3 wks or something when these type of things really take time to do.. it's not like we're pros at wad we're asked to do either.. so going mad la.. everyone is going mad... i am going mad... and.. feeling quite useless as well.. heh.. nvm... i'll be thankful if i get out of NP at da end of da sem...

in addition to that, wad's with all da modules with rather irrelevant ssignments like "be creative and express in anyway u like how singapore will be like in da yr 2030".. or some shit bout writing ur resume and cover letter and wad nots.. argh...

i'm somehow juz really really tired la... heh.. maybe too hectic life.. or maybe juz pms-ing.. heh.. who knows.. but.. i wanna rest.. i wanna not think about work.. i wanna... for now... do nothing... but.. it's singapore... no one surives doing nothing... coz u can't have nothing in singapore.. even if u wanna die.. u need $$$... heh..

the winds of change.. haha.. =p

nv thought u'd get another post from me so soon did ya?? haha.. anyway, i'm sitting at my desk.. with like.. 5 assignments to complete by da next week... and.. i'm here typing a post.. heh.. not very smart am i??

juz got home from my cousin's wedding.. so far away... at laguna la.. near expo.. like gosh.. so ex to get down.. heh.. mom n grand.. (grand especially..) got really disappointed when she (grandma) didn't sit at da main table.. coz she's da bridegroom's dad's half mom... heh.. and da only living grandparent left.. oh well... but.. da food was quite ok la.. not too bad..

as to why i'm typing this post.. i've come to realise... (and so has da rest of my family...) that.. times are changing.. and instead of attending da wedding dinners of my uncles and aunties.. they're now mostly my cousins... scary ain't it?? haha.. yeah... da people i more or less kind of grew up with are getting married...

and being a teen for da last few months.. well... i've only got this to say.....

I GOTTA START SAVING!!!!!!!!

few reasons being..
it's singapore.. everything costs something...
school... in s'pore.. that cost a lot too...
my other expenses... can't rely on mommy foreva.. n betta not rely on stephen either rite?? heh..
wedding?????? haha.. well.. not so soon la... definately not in da next 3 yrs.. (i think..)
basically... life in da future.. mom ain't getting younger.. and i ain't staying a kid much longer either..

okok.. i shall end here n start doing work.. tata...

A new yr... a new life..

ok.. so this post is like... almost a month overdue.. actually, it's been more than a month since i've last updated this... lazy la.. sorry.. but anyway, many many things have changed... and.. wad can i say??? life is good la.. haha..

hmm.. since i last left off here... hmm.. i know a bit fast la.. but ya.. i've got a new bf.. =x no.. i'm not a player... no.. i'm no fickle.. but... wad can i say???? hmm.. da sabaran was really nice.. but.. i think.. need to mature more.. and adding to that... education wise... way off.. and.. definately never converting... so ya.. one chapter closed.. another one opened...

ok... new guy.. he's stephen.. really sweet... hmm... chances are, all of u reading this would get to know him sooner or later la.. but anyway, a lil bit of info.. he's 25.. that's like... umm... 6 yrs older than me..

here's a pic..

hmm.. well, got to know him at a club... yes.. da whosgoing website actually.. but.. he's not really da clubbing sort... haha.. he's a giant too... heh... 1.9m.. yeah.. even in heels, i'm like half a head shorter than him... heh..

ok.. on with life.. still been partying quite a lot... rather tired lately... drains quite a lot of energy when u spend da nights partying and da days doing other stuff like school and wad nots.. heh.. not da best and most enjoyable thing to be doing.. feel like taking a break from da clubbing scene.. but den again, most of my friends have been complaining that i've gone missing lately... (not really my fault.. they're da ones who don't really ask me out.. they assume too much la..) haha.. but anyway, still do my once a wk kind of clubbing kind of stuff..

besides that.. last 2 wks.. been a good gal... haha.. but that was by force la... ankles kind of swollen... so.. not allowed to wear heels.. and I DON'T CLUB W/O MY HEELS!! heh.. can't dance properly.. (btw.. lutfi say's THIS is strange..)

oh.. going back to end of last yr/ early this yr, i actually went to church on NYE.... haha.. ya.. shocking la.. but.. mommy wanted me to go.. so.. ya.. bo bian.. i din club.. ya..

besides that.. nothing much la.. graduating soon.. (thank god.. i'm like dying here la..) hmm.. bf doesn't want me to work.. -_-" juz wants me to sit at home n wait for him... haha.. doesn't want me to work even when i start my degree course.. says mom n him will pay for all my whims n fancies.. heh.. dunno how they're gonna do that.. but ok lor.. if they insist, good luck to them.. haha..

btw.. i'm only updating this coz da people i've hardly spoke to for a long time are complaining that i've gone M.I.A. ... so.. here's da rough update la..