ok... so my blog's in need of an update again... but i got no idea wad to put.. not ready to put anything... heh... *shrugx*

so tempted to juz skip all my parties... dun feel like going no more.. dun feel like doing anything...

heya...

i'm back after a long long time... anyway, some updates, bowling camp was DA BOMB!!! haha... except for the few slips here and there... but i guess it's normal.. shall not commment too much on it.... had a lot of fun... faggots.. fairies... water bombs... lollipops... follow thru... interior cleavage... haha... did i miss out anything else?!? oh... the 17 yr old thing... hmm... Alt+F4... haha.. what else... wad else... can't think of any at da moment, be sure to add it on my tag if u remember... oh... one more.. da stick thing.. haha... gosh.. u guys are a bunch of total mad guys... but... very fun... and very caring... glad to be in the NP bowling club and not anywhere else.. yay! haha... :) had so much fun!! will definately never forget it... i think i've made plenty of friendships that i'll keep for a long long time... if not, foreva... i'm hoping... haha...

besides that.. yesterday's event was counted as a disaster larh.. but what's over is over.. so let's not dig it up... stuff like that are meant to happen... *shrugx* hmm.. but the BBQ was fun... although dunno where the host went.... hmmmmmmmm..................... haha... nvm.... din sleep da whole nite... yay me! haha.. and i'm still the most awake of all the GUYS there.. hahahahahaha... ok... so i was kind of like the only girl since deone kind of spent some one on one time with derek.. but yeah.. that's another story... crazy nite... so fun... drunkened prawns.... da best manz... betta than any other restaurent.. but a BIG BIG waste of drinks... did i mention BIG?!?!?!? haha... u get da message larh... hmm... ended up playing to games of mahjong.. and.... 3-4 games of daidee... haha... da rest was spent.. playing.. talking cock.. drinking and eating... nice photos too... but i lazy to publish... sorry.. haha... and they do take a long time to upload too.. haha... *shrugx*

oh.. den this morning, went for mac breakfast with jun liang, bennett, deone, derek and weijie.. everyone was so sehx.... haha.... hilarious i tell u... and we observed some pretty interesting things too... but yeah... private joke.. haha...

oh well... time for me to go soon.. gotta shower and leave the house... hmm.. did i mention that my grandma had no idea i didn't come home last nite?!?!?! haha.. damn farnie larh...

ok.. i've gotta go now... gotta have lunch with a friend, high tea with my godma who i haven't seen for like..... eva... haha.. no larh.. maybe more than a year... but den gotta dress up and look feminine.. haha.. after that.. gotta do last minute christmas shopping... den.... buy food for the platter i'm putting together for tmr's cell party.... and it's party party party the wkend away... anyone wants to book me for sunday nite?? i'm free.. that's surprisingly the only night where i don't have a party on....

23 Dec.... Cell Christmas Party, 1800 @ cactus crescent.. off YCK road...
24 Dec.... Family Christmas Party(but opened to whoeva wants to come..) 1900 @ jln rindu... off bartley road...
25?!?!?!?
26 Dec.... SB-MS Christmas Party, 1900 @ somewhere out there... and......
Christmas Outreach, 1900 @ MGS auditorium
(help someone.. i dunno which to go for.....)

yup.. for now that it's it larh.. hahaha... i wanna party on da 25!!!!! haha...

ciao!

Just a note for everyone....

Don't mess up your life like i did... it's extremely difficult to sort out... and it's not fun being where i am...

well.... i was ok for awhile.. but now, it all seems like i'm just falling back into the bottomless pit that i have been in for quite some time... i guess i just can't take everything i'm doing... like.. bowl... and train on a regular basis.. i'm always so tired... everyone's complaining... work... hmm.. let's juz say, i dunno about that... gotta go think it out... planning all my events and all.. trying to calculate the cost of everything etc... whole load of crap there... my school work.. which now, even my classmates are complaining that i've slacked even more than i normally do... (that is soooooo....... NOT GOOD!!) and fyi.. i do feel guilty about it... heh... dunno larh... there're so many assignments now too.. hardly have time to do anything.. it's juz work work work and more work.. heh...

end..

time and tide waits for no one...

feel like crap now... it's supposed to be my lunch break.. but i ate earlier... well.. at least i ate rite?! i'm so on the verge of juz giving up every blardy thing... at least there's a quiet corner i can chill at in school... not telling u where otherwise it won't be quiet anymore... heh... feel so crap.. feel like crying... argh... no mood larh... wadeva...

ok.. this is so so so so so overdued...

well.. life has carried on.. even though i still miss my cat.. haha... yup.. besides that.. had POL-ITE games last wk end... well, it was fun...

and these few weeks, assignments galore.. haha.. total madness.. haha.. oh well..

and my personal life... well, it's been a total mess.. heh.. not funny... still very stress... sigh.. but i think it's slowly coming along larh...

sigh.. dun feel like talking much....

i'm supposed to be doing my assignment.... but.... i can't help but want to blog...

it's thurs morning... it's been 3 over days or so... well.. everyone misses spady... the house seems and feels so empty without him.. there seems to be nothing to look forward to when i come home anymore.. it's like, i'd normally peek in from the outside when i get home everyday to see where he is... i guess it's habit.. but i find myself doing that everytime i come home... at da same time, mommy keeps looking on the rug when she opens the room door coz he used to sit there and sleep... sigh... raquel misses him too.. and i think grand too... to a certain extent anyway.. the house is just..... so... empty...

besides that... there are so many things on my mind.. my bowling.. my assignments and schoolwork, my work.. and.. my personal life... there's just so many things going on nowadays...

oh well...

And spady is no more....

I'm not sure whether what i did was right... I'm not sure if he wanted to fight on.. The others said it was right to put him out of his misery... But i'm really not sure...

Came home to say goodbye. Had no guts to see him thru... Stayed home.. Will I regret it?

Argh... I miss the old him... I just miss him... I want him back... but that's not possible... I know it's not...

It's just so hard to let go...

okok... haven't blogged for eons... partially due to my laptop being stolen... well, i'm kind of back... or at least on my home pc... reformatted it again... and yeah.. it working.. but.. i haven't really been in the mood for blogging... juz don't feel like it... haha... yup...

ok.. life nowadays.... like i said before, total havoc... but in that sense, i'm extremely lucky to have many many good friends around... people like....... the girls in class.... eileen, saleha, sutha... my club friends... weijie, derek, deone, lionel, nadiyah... uh... these few in particular.. did i miss anyone else?! hmm... leong and lala... hmm... edwin and lynn (who although got me quite annoyed, actually sorted things out with them.. and yes.. it was kind of my fault...) and nell.... yar... basically these few people... thanks to all those in church who were praying too... oh yar.. last but not least... alpha... for just being himself.. haha.. =)

well, in particular, i'd love to thank the 3 babies in class, nell and weijie... coz these few people have had to bear with all my shit throughout the entire month... it's not like once a week.. it's more on an average of 4 days a week... yar... so.. thanks a million to all of u out there...

hmm... at the moment, i owe an incredible amount of testimonials to various people.. well, yar larh.. it's not that bo liao coz the people that asked.. or actually, juz mentioned are quite good fwens... haha.. yup... oh.. note to self... remember to take peoples contact number... yup..

life's been slightly better larh.. can't really complain... well, i know no more bad events have been taking place... now, it's juz time to fix everything back to normal... yarp...

that's about it... i'm now juz gonna continue sitting and stoning in da atrium with my mp3 blasting in my ear...

tata for now... this has been a pretty long post...

life is falling deeper and deeper into the deep blue sea.

hmm... it's amazing how your life can just suddenly crash so badly... and burn.. thing is.. the burning has kind of never stopped... as if my life wasn't hard enough to juggle all my activities, from work, to school, to bowling, to church and to other stuff like the people around me... friends and family and alpha... ok.. so this post is definately gonna be me drowning in my own self pity... yes.. drowning... but i can't take it anymore.. so juz let me whine k? if u don't wanna read, dont! not forcing u... heh...

ok.. this is it... 2 major bowling tournaments that need me to go all out of my comfort zone of doing my own work without disturbing other people... heh... now, need to do a lot of paper work.. and at the same time, work everything thru with my advisor... adding on to that.... it's almost all the same all the time.. busy busy.. no time to do anything I want... (note the capital i...)

the really morning's latest, or should i say the week's latest, spady doesn't seem keen on the way we're treating him.. therefore, the vet had to remove the catiter (or howeva it's spelt..) some tube thingy stuck in him so that we can put liquids in thru it... yar.. wadeva larh.. so yar... our only alternative left is to jab him directly now... everyday... well.. thing is, mom and i can't bring ourselves to jab him... and i can't do anything else... wad's left is to let him lead a good and comfortable life... i can't stand the fact that i juz have to sit there and watch it all happen without doing anything....... probably everybody's "cursing" has really come troo... everyone's saying that they wanna cook him in curry... or saying that we should juz leave him on the streets and let him suffer... or stuff like that... why i cant' i do anything??!?!?!?! argh...

other than that, my laptop got stolen in the canteen during lunch yesterday... all in a span of 5 minutes... that's like the saddest larh... now i gotta rely only on my brain to retrieve all the info i have in there for my club and my school work and all... and why me? why not someone else?! hope i remember all da details in my laptop... otherwise, i'm so dead... heh... anyway, laptop thing is a long story.. but as u can kind of tell, using my friend's lappie currently... as for me... well, i really got absolutely no idea how my mom or dad's gonna find the cash to buy a new one for me... insurance haf larh.. but how much can u claim!?!? police report, also have.. but how much can they do... NP student population 10 000 over... and it's like finding a needle in a haystack... so frustrating larh....

this is one time i definately can't take anymore shit... everyone's so stressed already.. and me being me, i'll still sit there and listen to any stories/complains... but i'd juz wish people would stop thinking only about themselves for once...

won't be bloggin anymore for awhile.... i think.... won't be online other... home pc got virus... yar... oh well...

but i still don't understand why me?! what on earth did i do to deserve all this?!?! argh....

bye...

Sigh.. it seems like all my posts are becoming really depressing... maybe i'm depressed... maybe i'm too stressed... maybe it's just all a big test... ah! i know! maybe it's all a dream.. come on... tell me i'm dreaming... it seems all too disastrous.. wish i were a kid again... carefree and all...

on this quite fine sunday nite... instead of just checking mails, playing games and watching tv, i find myself evaluating more about this morning's worship session with desmond, at the same time, giving weijie (publicity head) and arthur (asst. projects head) details about the events... on top of that, i've got my mom screaming at me telling me that i shouldn't go over to alpha's house too much juz becoz they've got more facilities there.. and she's also shoving the article about people with insufficient sleep may be more prone to cancer and stuff like that... den a minute later, she's asking me to quit my job coz they don't pay when we get sick for working too much... she doesn't want me to work late coz she's worried that i won't be able to get on with the next day's activities... i know how she feels... but there's no other shift i can take.. not even on weekends becoz of training and church... so... bottom line is....... if i quit work, i got no money to bowl.. if i don't bowl and work, there's a high chance i'll spend more cash on shopping and eating... sigh...

and besides that, mom's upset coz spady's sick.. and he's being naughty.... we're doing the best we can for him, but he's doing the best he can to not help.... heh... and... besides that, she's spent 500 plus on his medical... ex larh.. my pay oso need to go there liao.. another of her "headaches" is that grandma is still thinking that raquel (her care-taker aka maid) keeps cursing and screaming at her... basically, she'll find someting and anything to argue about... oh... she basically tells me everything.. so hmm... not exactly in that good a mood...

will continue next time... for now, i gotta do a proposal for the NP invitationals... gotta train hard to stay in the school team... gotta work hard to keep spady and my bowling leisure thingys going.. gotta study hard to not disappoint people... gotta put time aside for church friends, and other friends too... they're all important to me! =) besides that, gotta find time for my family.... and lastly, gotta keep time for alpha too... oh... i forgot... i need to sleep... hahaha... so yarp.. the alpha thing's the second last.... the last is i need time to rest... i kind of found out that napping on buses doesn't really help much....

til next time... =)

okok... to all my silent readers out there... thousands of apologies for not updating my blog... been busy.... really really busy...

well.. since my last update til last weekend, i've been busy working.... my original intention was to have extras to go bowling and to buy christmas pressies.... ( it is coming ya noe...) anyway.. yeah.. so i worked 4, 3, 4, 6 days each week for the last month... but i guess my money has to go to more important causes like bringing spady to the vet.. his medical fee has already cost mom more than 200 bucks.. he's done an ultrasound.... a blood test... den a jab of antibodies... and other stuff... we've gotta like pump saline into him to flush out all abnormalties kind of thing.. and.. yeah... oh well.. he's got kidney problems.. so troublesome... but i'd rather be troubled than loose him on da whole.. so oh well... my poor baby.. he looks so uncomfortable... sometimes larh.. not all da time...

next update.. school's started... like duh... and... i've gotta crack my head to make sure all my events get executed.... argh.. so much to do.. so little time... 1 proposal... 2 budget plans... booking of lanes... ladidardidar... wadeva larh...

next up... alpha's moved... i shall be his official announcer... haha... hmm... well, i love his place.. and for once, his wardrobe is nice... nicely packed... neat... haha.. done by urs truely... so happy... happy for him.. and well.. half of me is happy.. but da other is not... happy coz of da obvious.. nice new place... he's happy, i'm happy.. other half of me is thinking whether we'll have enough time for each other.. reason being my world kind of revolves around town and amk area.... and he's at like.. far far away.. sure it's near school.. but how long will i be in NP for? sigh... i'm so tired already... but i don't really have a choice do i?! oh well....

cheerio!

am back from a long day... well.. the week has been quite havoc... plenty of work stuff to do... like work itself.. and also this partner's communication board thingy where we're supposed to have our name, fav drink, description of drink and pic of ourselves on da board... it's not so much a simple straight forward thing coz we'll be judged on creativity too... heh... am suffering a lot coz everyone seems so busy... and alicia.. well, she's just plain tired... but i guess... what i've committed too... i muz keep to... rite?

haha.. well.... one thing to look forward for to is that my two annoying cousins will be done with their exams for this year.. that'd mean... no more tutoring them for da rest of da year... yay! haha...

bad thing.... i think i'll have to work 6 days next wk... for one... the whole of starbucks is lacking partners... so yeah... haha... but at least i've made known that i don't wanna do back to back shifts.. haha.. so yay! =)

hmm.. besides that.. did i mention that i mention to meet alpha on tues when he had his nite's out... and we went for a show... and we took neoprint.. well.... actually, juz a neo card.. haha... but it's still cool anyway... ohoh... and besides that... i din go for lily's farewell chalet... too tired.. din feel like staying over... wanted my own bed... haha..

hmm.. gotta start cracking... tata!

my last day of work for this week... well... i definately say, i'm extremely relieved.... hmm.. yeah.. i only worked for 3 days this week compared to my normal 4 days for da previous few weeks... but yeah.. today was especially tiring.... had to get up at 6.30 to get to united square by 8.30 for my shift... was a lil late... so... i took a cab down...

well... kind of felt nice to be the oldest partner... not in age.. but like.... date of employment.. haha.. okok.. besides me.. store manager was there much longer.. like duh.. hahah.. ok.. nvm... anyway, had lunch slam.... everyone got pretty pissed... couldn't really cope... but oh well.. part and parcel of working life ain't it... yup... kind of got affected by it too... and juz becoz of the lunch hour, the whole place was messed up... da bar area... da frap area... sigh... haha... oh... did i mention?!?!? i had quite a good morning before that... from 8 to about 12 plus was nice... had a lot of time to chit chat to da individual customers... got complemented twice for good service... yay me!! haha... nvm... crapping a lot... well, i must say... today was a heck of an experience...

a little note to those i've worked with.. dunno whether u'll ever get to read this....

gloria - don't fret too much.. you'll get used to it over time... oh.. and congrats on passing your bar test... =)

huda - you go gal! haha... hmm... not much to say larh hor... but yar.. very hardworking gal.. break still go and work.. i think she's done a good job considering she's only been in da system for 2 months... keep it up!

aisha - don't worry if today was a bad day... shit happens... yup... juz have to learn from it and pick yourself up... i'm sure u'll be a pro in no time.. =)

lily - my dearest MOD... haha... thanks for your patience... and even though it was a tough day... a round of applause for keeping da starbucks standard... she really goes according to standards.. really admire that bout her...

alicia - my dearest girl.... hmm.... glad u could cope even though i was kind of breathing down ur throat... was tired... and was annoyed... yeah... and... honestly, hope i dun work with u too often.. especially during slam... otherwise, i think u'll cry... heh... anyway... glad you've come this far since you've started...

for everyone above... and everyone else out there... maybe except lily... i dunno larh k?! hm... last thing.. there's always room for improvement... in anything you do... even for me.. haha.. must strive for a spirit of excellence in everything you do... and also.... find da courage to face your fears or worries.. or stuff u don't like...

that's all for now.. shall continue when i'm free..

ok... back again... this will be a very short post coz my fingers hurt like hell... this happens all da time... but only during da selections for IVP... or this yr, juz IP... it's a big inter school competition held on a yearly basis..... so... juz after 3 days of 6 games each day.. my fingers hurt.. and are really swollen.. hard to do anything.. haha... *shrugx* anyway, i'm glad it's over... yup... oh.. glad to still have people reading my blog after so long.. haha... that's about all i can take.. tata..

it's me... finally brought myself here to blog again.. well... don't know if u all know.. but yeah.. haven't been in the best of moods... i probably lack the R&R i really need... and yeah.. all i can say is thanks dear.. coz i guess i'm most relaxed when with him.. but then.. due to everything else.. i kind of have a very short attention span.. and tolerance level.. so yar.. i'm not so easy to handle.. or bear with.. yup.. so thanks darling... haha.. sigh...

even though it's the holidays.. i've never really gotten the time to take a break.. what i mean by break is no agenda.. nothing to plan for.. nothing to think about.. waking up late... doing what you want.. or in this case, what I want... sigh..ever since my papers finish... i've been working a lot.. it's been 2 weeks of 10 days of work... kind of burnt..

the weird part about me.. i still haven't learnt to say no to people... if my partners ask me to replace them on one of my off days and i have nothing on, then.. i'll just do it... no questions asked... if friends wanna meet me.. they give me a date.. and me... if i'm busy.. i'll propose another date... as for my cousins.. sometimes, i give up bowling and going out with friends just for them... unless i'm fully booked, da answer would most likely be a yes.. heh.. which is why i'm in this state now..

being busy has it's pros and cons... they used to be pros... til now.. they've kind of become cons.. sure it keeps me busy... involved... up to date and all that.. got loads of friends.. but... when friends are concern.. how well do u get to know them with the little time u get to spend with them... and for the few that do get your time.. how much do they appreciate u?

sigh... why is it human nature to think of yourself more than others?? hmm.. i guess it's kind of true that u mention the word "i" more than the word u or them or they.. or maybe...... sometimes even all of them put together.. don't believe me?? try it out for yourself.. just pay a lil more attention to yourself and to those you spend time with... you'll definately realise that it's so true... it's sad... but *shrugx*

i think i shall end here... don't feel like saying anything else..

i am pissed.. everything i typed has been wiped out... so therefore... i shall type it another day.. heh..

i'm finally home quite early tonight.. haha... well, am already very tired... and definately looking forward to sat... or fri since i'm hoping to change that shift.. heh..

well, this is what happened today...

i had to kick myself out of bed at 8 so that i could go to work by 10... and on top of that, it was raining..... very unpredictable weather... was quite tired in da shoes i was wearing.. feet hurt too.. heh... den after that had training in da evening.. was ok at first... den after that... my release went mad... it was everything but right... sad larh... haha.. and everyone agrees that i need more sleep... oh well... talking about pressing issues with alpha... dun worry... we're fine.. nothing to do with us... discussing stuff only....

catch up later...

yay! haha... well, it's already past 12... but happy birthday to esta and mommy... haha... take note... their birthday was on da 18th... yup..

well... hmm i guess... a lot of things have happened.. hmm... nothing obvious on the surface (so far)... or.. nothing noticable to the public's eye... what i mean by that is that if u're not really close to them... or do not have their trust.. u won't know nuts about what's going on in their life.. for this... i really thank god i've got my close circle of friends...

hmm... on to other things... i've been really busy... and at the looks of it, will be very busy still.. haha.. now, i've got work... and since i've got a number of big tournaments next sem, i'll have to start planning now... sometimes, i really hate my schedule... it always clashes with alpha's... it's either he's free and i'm working or have a tourney.. or i'm free and he has worship prac or not out yet.. heh.. kind of feel bad for not spending time with him during da wkends... but it's a job... i can't exactly do what i want..

den... just today........ i realised... ah.. nvm.. not the right day...

too much of other stuff to think about... and worry too... (that's bad.. but can't help it..)

sigh.. this is gonna be another depressing post... heh...

well, first things first.. exams are over... hmm... that doesn't sound too depressing does it?! well... u're right... it isn't... but the bad part is that i've srewed up 3 out of 4 papers... i really hope i can pass all of them... or at least 2.... and even if i fail, i do hope i get BETTER LECTURERS... those who can SPEAK properly... heh...

anyway, went back to work today.. was at united square... quite disoriented... tired too.. sigh... like wadeva larh... made a mess out of my apron... got mocha all over it... not good... aiyah... i'm tired... dunno wad to say...

*shrugx*

ok.. another short update... went down to SB-US for or a bit of studying and also the grand opening... they had this auction thingy... which to me, i think was superb... good idea to auction of da lanterns... but i think they could have auctioned a few more... the bidders didn't let it go so easily... the bids started at 50 bucks er lantern.. da first went for a thousand sing dollars... da second.. the same thing.. and the third... it would have been 1000 too.. but da guy that bid for it raised it another 500... for charity's sake... so yeah... haha.. but it was quite fun... a lot of very happening stuff.. anyway, way to busy.... got tooo much to handle... hardly have time to breathe... tata..

hmm... ok... here's da lastest update... i completely screwed up my paper... hmm... narh.. actually da paper was meant to be horrid... i swear the lecturers are all out to get us.. haha... blardy pain in da ass.. now i feel i wasted my nite away.. and should have gone to sleep last nite instead of stress over my work... heh... oh well.. it's over.. and i have decided that i shall study now and go to sleep at nite... my body clock's off enuff as it is... haha... :)

i'm pissed... tired... close to can't be bothered... heh...

got a paper later at 9... and yes... it's 4.20 now... and i'm still awake!! horrible... tired... sleepy.... but still got stuff to study.... yuck... probably da worst module i've taken.. non of these module's things are in order.. everything's jumbled up... heh..

oh well.. gotta try to study some more... tata..

ok... figured i had time for a short update...

besides me not getting enough sleep coz of my fri and sat paper.... thing's have been fun.. ok larh.. quite relaxing... yeah.. been surviving on 3-4 hours of sleep at nite for the pass few nites... din get the chance to sleep in today either... but yeah.. think i'll go sleep at 10 plus 11... haha...

spent da wkend with alpha although poor him had to live with my extremely tired face... hee... sorry darling.. can't help it.. but good news is.... it'll be all over by nxt wk..

yay! then i'll be a free woman!! haha... but... i'll be working quite a bit for extra cash....

A Note For Friends..........

Pls let me know on the wednesday the week before if u wanna go out... i gotta fill in my work schedule every wednesday... so yup....

ok.. that's it for now..

ok.... so it's like.. it's probably been the most f***ed up day of my life in a long long time...

firstly, get kicked out of bed for an early paper...
then, get nagged to death by my grandma even before leaving the house...
when i leave the house... almost choke on my breakfast...
on the bus... dropped my notes on the floor and someone had to tell me that they'd dropped...
in school.. paper was do-able...
after the paper.. weather was so freaking hot... alicia wanted to go SB-US... so... save money.. kind of walked to KAP...
at the same time... she complain like nobody's business...
den decided to take cab... cab take long time to come...
getting off the cab... drop phone on the floor...
after that... nell bad mood... (everyone has her days.. who can blame her...)
cheered her up... =) that was nice...
tried studying oop.. no mood... too tired...
at US... all i thot about was going home to sleep... couldn't...
2 plus 3... went down to MS for coffee sampling...
bloody hell.... kenna coffee all over my new sweater... and my jeans... and my hand too...
need i add that it was freshly brewed hot coffee?!?!?! got a big bad scald on my hand which hurts...
no one except... probably nell and zhuang asked if i was ok when i got back...
stinging sensation.. not good... hard to hold stuff...
juz damn sore now... still hurts abit...
decided not to be the black sheep... joined the rest for store outing.. aka dinner at marina south..
heat from steamboat = burn pain...
but oh well... had fun larh... den after that....
go home... nell's staying over.... we're 2 OOP idiots... heh...
am tired... am cranky... am thinking of sleeping but i'll so fail my paper...

wondering why there're such BAD days...

yay! i'm back to blog now.

well.... what can i say?! i'm 18 now.. haha... another "new" stage in life.. but in general, more problems... more commitments.. more worries.. but by God's grace.. i believe everything will be fine.. wait.. betta than fine.. it will be great. world watch out... coz i'm coming to get u! haha...

first things first... i'd like to thank all those who made my birthday probably one of the best i've had in my life.. call me dumb.. but i really didn't suspect anything... i was just hoping i'd have a nice dinner with alpha, esta and andrew.. but.. i ended up having a surprise and a dinner with the 3 of them and also judy, clara, alicia, cher hao, jo.p, clarence and ben sng...

adding on to that... thanks to all those who left me a sms or a testimonail.. or even those who greeted me on msn.. had to change my msg tone coz i'm quite scared of it.. haha.. but yeah.. thanks once again..

..end..

Happy Birthday to ME!!!

haha.. ok.. so i'm being thick skinned... but i'm kind of bored now.. at home watching my nice tv show while waiting for people to get ready to go out.... so yeah... aiyah.. talk later.. busy.. haha...

=)

it's gonna be a day to my birthday in awhile... and honestly, i'm not too sure how well it'll turn out...

at this point in time... i don't know what to feel... i guess everything put together would be called defeat... maybe i shouldn't be posting it here... but then again... i don't know... wanna see thru me... this is ur chance..

well... today... was having dinner at mac with mom.. coz it was the coolest place at the ave. 10 market.. saw this couple.. probably a sec 1 gal and a sec 3 guy... and guess what?! like life isn't hard enough... mom just had to say that why is everyone throwing away their life at such an early age? why's everyone closing all the doors so soon? she's been saying the same about me since 3 yrs plus ago... well, i honestly thought she was over it... but she's apparently still hoping that i'll leave alpha... why's the world like that?? worst of all... why must she be so direct... so straight forward.. why does her words always slap me across the face every now and then... just when i've more or less forgotten, she'd come and throw more comments my way..

on top of that... well, i guess this is not too serious... depending on how lionel takes it... i was juz curious as to why they broke up then got back together again... sigh... i got my info mixed up.. and i did type it on the msn window.. that i mistook ivan's ex with lionel's current/ex.. wadeva larh.. apparently she got pissed and he got into a lot of trouble... it's like... if u're attached... there should be TRUST.... where's that?! next.... why on earth should either party in the relationship get influenced by an outsider...

like HELLO!!!! come on.... don't be so naive... there's only so much time we have on earth... why think so much?!?!?! sigh...

oh... it's past 12 now... haha... just 1 more day til i turn 18... in case i don't get to say this tmr.... i'll say it one last time...

"HI!!!! i'm pui yee(or shirlyn... which eva u know me as...)... and i'm 17 plus!! yay! haha... =)

my apologies... i know that i've disappeared... but i'm back!! haha... anyway, to be honest, i have absolutely no idea wad i did.. but yeah... haha.. i actually have nothing much to say... for once in how long... this is gonna be the end of this post..

ok... i think i promised to blog more after my assignments...

yup... they're finally over! woohoo! i'm a happy girl.. quite larh... well, i really really really thank god that the week's over... i think i wouldn't have been able to handle it anymore if the week was even a tad bit longer.. had quite a tough week.. ok.. so maybe tough's an understatement.. and a extremely shitty sat.... BUT.... it's all over now.. so... who cares?!?!?!? heee... i juz love my attitude...

hmm... motto for this week....

life's too short to restrict yourself... so do what u like, when u like... haha...

oh... injured my hand.. so shall not type too much...

ok.. today is like... totally break day.... this is how it all happened...

alpha's out of camp! block leave... haha.. i juz love it... missed the times like that when i was still in sec school.. anyway.. yeah... i kind of woke up at 9.... was still kind of sleepy... dozing in and out of sleep.. decided to call alpha... haha.. we were holding the phone for like.. 45 mins.. but i hardly thing we were saying anything for most of the time... we were both kind of falling alseep on da phone... haha.. ended up meeting at 11... i skipped school... =X hmm... call it no interest at all... haha... (hope u weren't expecting a betta answer like i need rest...)

met him at amk bus interchange... yup... guess where we went.... haha...

okok.. had lots of fun.. felt like a tourist... went from amk... hmm... if u still dunno.. it's da zoo... haha.. so fun! started walking... and continued walking... and more walking... but of course.. at da same time, we were taking loads of photos... =) both of us had cameras... so fun... but some of them turned out blur.. but i guess that's juz common rite?! anyway, i'll be posting my photos up when i have time.. they're currently on my laptop.. haha... so fun!! hmm... i think all in all, we saw about 4 animals pee... haha... a few of them crap... and i think a couple were mating.. haha.. or at least i think that's wad it supposed to be...

after a bit of walking.. went to watch the animal show... but sadly, it started raining half way and they couldn't continue... but they brought the sealions out.. so fun... so cute.. so big.. so cuddly... haha.. ok... felt like cuddling it... haha... got kissed by it... got it on camera.. haha.. but i din capture it from my digital.. so too bad.. haha... if u wanna see it, u gotta either come to my house.. or bug me long and hard enuff for me to show it to u.. haha.. sealion mouth smell like fish... but surprisingly, not as bad as spady or midnight's cat breath.. haha..

hmm... after that...... oh.. we went to the childrens place... da thing that's like a petting zoo... alpha moo-ed at da cows... and guess wad?!?! da cow actually moo-ed back.. that was seriously quite hilarious... while we were walking there... the zoo suddenly had an increase of sheep... as in.. many many... standing on 2 legs... haha... so many people there were meh-ing... oh.. and i also realised that sheep's fur has got the texture of my sheep skin rug.. haha... oh.. the snow tiger was lying in the position of a tiger rug.. haha.. quite hilarious...

had ben and jerry's at da end... yummy...

extremely fun day... thanks darling... =)

Assignments galore.... haha... 5 to be exact... so... u'll either get a lot of posts when i'm pissed... or... not get any til i'm done.. so tata...

ok... i think it's about time for a short update... will update more when i'm more awake.. haha.. anyway... my weekend was quite shit except for sunday nite.. ok larh.. well... the events were quite ok on sat... sun afternoon was total shit... total i tell u... sigh.. oh well.. life still goes on... today... or more like yesterdae... aug 1... well.. that's not da actual date... it's by chinese calendar... haha.. so yup... that's about it for now larh... i'll get back soon! ;)

in school now..programming lesson... and it's damn cold.... stupid rain... but even without da rain, still cold larh... hahah..

well... life... it's been quite ok until yestedae... heh.. i suddenly realised that i had no cash left in my account... =X i think lately... i've been spending a lot on cabs... always late... always too tired to wake up... always everyone's little girl that can't go home late at nite... and wad do ya noe...

ALWAYS NO ONE PAYING ME EVEN THOUGH I WAS ASK BY THAT SOMEONE TO TAKE A CAB!!!

well.. basically, i like nite life... i think i wouldn't really mind taking a bus home... but no... it's always.. u got school tmr... or... it's so late already... pls take cab back...

heh... ok.. so that's about half of the cabbing thing... the other is that i had to bowl twice for the college league.. once at safra yishun... and once at marina south superbowl... and the cab fare from kim seng to yishun.... from yishun home... from home to marina... from marina home... and from home to kim seng... well... they ain't exactly that cheap ya noe... especially the marina one... heh...

so yeah.. now, i'm damn broke... i'm hoping i'll get my pocket money in advance.. but wad are da chances man.... even with my pay... also not really enuff... *sobz* and regarding my last post...

i think if i ask my mom for cash.. she'll juz ask me to quite my job instead... but seriously.... i love my job... i like my friends there... and da customers are nice too... aiyah.. why she like that?!?!?! won't this prove that da job ain't of any use?!

just got back from work awhile ago... well, kind of enjoyed work today even though i was really tired...

kind of dread coming home recently... it's not that it's boring or anything.. just that i'm being driven mad by my mom, grandma and sometimes, my aunt... argh.. just the thought of it's kind of frustrating... i have absolutely no idea how they can sit and listen to other people's family problems but not realise their own problems.. i find it totally strange.. but they don't seem to notice a thing... well... maybe grand is different from their other friends they talk to and all... but i think the same problem's still there... bottom line is that they take their elders for granted... ok.. so i'm guilty of that too.. but i try... i really try... sometimes, i think she can go a lil overboard... as for mom, i think she really treats me like a small kid... gosh... it's like... so what if i went to watch the korean show "wet dreams 2" with alpha.. it's a romantic comedy.. not porn.. why does she think so far?!?!?!?! argh... so annoying.. and even when i get home at 11 plus.. must call her so she can come down and wait for me.. that's really annoying..

sadly, home to me at the moment is only a place where i can come home and sleep.. and bathe kind of thing... worst part is that i have to act like nothing's wrong otherwise she'll come up with some plan to counter what i tell her...

the me right now....
well... i must say that if given the chance, i'd seriously stop tutoring my cousins... stop schooling.. oh.. and move out of my house.. maybe get a cosy little apartment or something (even though i really like my little niche at da moment)... think it's strange that all this is coming from me?!?! haha.. u better chane your mindset.. i'd like it if i could just focus on the things i like... that's what mom says she wants me to do too.. but she doesn't know what i want/like... hmm... so taking away all that... things i like would be bowling and work.. it's not that i'm addicted to money or something.. i just enjoy what i do... the others are more or less a chore to carry out..

anyway, can't do much at da moment.. i think.. all i can do is pray...

ok... shall end here.. this is getting way too long...

oh.. did i mention.. i think i screwed up my 2 papers...

the pre common test nightmare..

i just hate it... there's a big big mental block in my head right now... programming's just become a total nightmare coz of the really horrid tutors i've been getting.. (if u tutors ever get to read this, i'm terribly sorry.. but i just have to let it off my chest..) thing is... i don't care if you're old.. or young or pretty... or not so pretty.. i'm not one who judges people on looks... but it kind of disgusts and turns me off when people can't speak proper english.. sometimes i really don't blame them.. coz they do try very hard.. but sometimes, it's just over done.. and not just to tutors.. but to everyone.. don't try to slang what you're saying when the tenses and pronounciation's wrong... one step at a time... i guess it's the same way i get so disgusted and turned off when people sing off pitch especially when in front of an audience... i guess it's been the way i was brought up... i've been trained for 7 yrs in the area of vocals so i think that's why i'm so particular about that kind of thing... maybe that's why i'm so particular about the way people speak too.. it's not that i've been for special classes... it's just conditioned in my head... i really can't help it...

shall end here and attempt to study..

strikes and spares..... hmm.. i must say that it's a common site to me.. especially when you play leagues at a national level... i think..... most of us get 3-4 strikes on a normal game... since the term started, my game has just been going down the drain...it's seriously quite depressing when your average drops more than 30-40 pins each game... quite pathetic... sad... and since we have no club training on sat... i wanted to go for private training.. but.... uncle richard's not around... argh... i really need to imrpove my game... and he's somewhere in another country attending the launch of some new ebonite ball.. cool yes... but i really wanna improve my game... ah!!! it's driving me nuts... and gawd... can't they maintain the back end of local alleys?? gosh... my bowling balls are seriously dirty... heh... needs a good cleaning... haha... =)

on the brighter side, today, i learnt that one can survive the day on a waffle pancake for breakfast, i small spinach and mushroom quiche for lunch and a chicken chipolata roll for dinner even when u need to work an 8 hr shift and bowl a league on the very same nite... haha..

Quote of the Day
it's how you work with ur fears that make you strong...

i love blogs... u can juz erase wad uput there and it no longer applies... or exists for that matter... nvm about what was said if u read the past blog post.. everything's ok.. back to normal.. i'm once again a happy girl...

yay!! i'm back to blog again.. haha.. so much stuff to blog about... but hopefully i remember wad i want to say... haha... today... has been good.. yup...

after school, went shopping... spent a massive 200 plus on clothes at zara... up to 50% discount!! so cool! haha.. bought 3 skirts and 2 tops for myself... mummy bought a dress and a 2 top too... i think it's quite a good deal... and while doing more walking, got a surprise call from my dearest alphonsus.. didn't manage to speak to him last nite... was training parnella how to do closing and all.. and i realised that i spent so much time explaining stuff... and on top of that, we had a new cleaner... so.... yeah.. was really short of time.. didn't even manage to explain the whole thing to her... so yeah.. and my phone was in da locker... and yeah.. basically, i only finished at 11.30... and by that time, he had gone to bed.. sad.. but oh well.. anyway, happy that i got to talk to him.. =) miss him loads... spoke to him for awhile.. about 2 minutes i'm assuming... den he had to go back outfield... *sobz* sad isn't it?! oh well... haha.. but still.. yay! i get to see him tmr nite... i think he's picking me up... although i finish at 12.30.. and he'll still have to go back to camp on sat morning, i think he will... haha... oh well... we'll find out tmr... n u will be updated.. haha.. *big grin*

ok... anyway, besides that, bought a digital camera... it's kind of been mommy's dream.. yeah.. it's a nikon 5.1 megapixel... quite cool actually.. yup...

i think i've got other things to say.. juz that i can't really remember wad... oh well...

argh.. i'm sitting here in class.. getting extremely annoyed by the way my lecturer pronounces her words... it's disgusting i tell u... ok.. so wad if i type very singapore-ish?! or so wad if i just join the crowd and go with the flow of the well known "singlish"?! that doesn't mean i can't switch back and speak proper english..

it's really disgusting... i think i'm like getting goose-bumps coz of the way she's distorting words.. yuck... can't stand it.. can't people pronounce their "r's" properly?!?!?! don't replace them with an "l"... if u were meant to, the word would come with da bloody "l"... gawd... juz disgusting... n why can't swing just be swing and not be said as shwing?! eww... ok.. shall stop freaking myself out... yuck...

ok...i'm here to update again... i'm here slacking in my photography class... there's nothing to do at da moment... and my friends and i are talking about airlines... anyway, i'm a very happy girl now... i got my new bowling ball drilled... yay! haha... hmm... oh... da club shirt is done too... so cool rite?! hmm.. i dunno wad else to do now.. dunno wad else to say either... haha.. oh well.. hmm... oh.. assignment due todae.. thank god i managed to finish it on time... haha.. now, i need to colour 3 illustrations and get it scanned by monday...

ciao...

I don't know what to do now... ok.. so this is gonna be one of my more serious posts... but i'm only human rite?!

it's not so much of a dilemma coz i don't really have much of a choice... i guess.. because of the way life is, my life in particular... there's no choice... wish there was though... now, i really agree with derek's msn nick... it says something like i've been so caught up in doing things for people that i've lost myself completely... actually, now, i'm not too sure about it myself... it might be just me creating all these problems for myself... but then again, i think i just have too many things to do... but i can't exactly prioritise everything coz to me, everything's important... ok.. so i'm beginning to mix you up...

let's put it this way... i've got school... i've got work... i've got bowling... i've got church commitments... and of course, things i want to do... like... spend time with alpha... with my friends like esta n also da babies in school... and more importantly, get some rest for myself...

what i really really really really wanna do now is go for the Jeremy Monteiro & The Chicago Connection... It's a jazz thing if u don't know... but yeah.. the problem is that they're only on for 2 nites.. fri and sat nite... but sadly, i've gotta work on fri nite and sat nite has been book by da mission team to prepare for missions week... i really wanna go!!!!!!! sigh... but it's not like i can not go for the missions thing... argh.... sad...

oh well.. forgot what else i wanna talk about... *sigh*

ok... since my last post on wednesday..... i've... umm.... oh...... now i remember...

thursday was normal in school... den i hung around... and i went down to work at marina.... was super tired... think i got ari, edwin n abdullah quite freaked out... haha... so.. da good news is... i doubt i'm working next wk.. haha.. they all agree that i should get some rest...

den fri... i skipped school!! so cool rite?! haha.. but that's not the point... was juz plain tired... and also... spent some time with alpha larh... haha.. i poor thing... he poor thing oso... he poor thing coz he seldom come out.. i poor thing coz i got no free time... haha... ok... nvm... i juz want a break larh... hmm... so yeah.. he just HAD to kick me out of bed at 9 plus for breakfast... cannot tahan him manz... yup.. in da afternoon, went to watch a lot like love... nice show... den after that, i had to work again.. n he had to entertain himself... went to da arcade... went walk walk... joined me for dinner... went walk summore... den went to play lan and stayed til i finished at 12.45am... so sweet rite?!?!?! haha... i know u're all jealous... haha... okok... i'm mad... but yeah.. he's really sweet... wad more can i ask for??

today... was utter rubbish... really utter rubbish... it's really amazing how idiotic some people can be... but nvm.. that's over... shall not rub it in... i think i've more or less gotten over it anyway... but yeah.. crowd was good for NP open... 67 peeps i believe... da crap part was that my ave really drop a lot.. coach says it's coz my ball dun match da lane condition... and of course.. i din see alpha coz of bowling... and this wk, he's in camp liao...

anyway, enuff about that larh.. after the game... wanted to drill ball but uncle richard busy.. so i'll get it done sometime this week... yup... and also... went to carraige bar.. my first time there.. quite a nice place.. but yeah.. really quite a lot of old people.. and old songs too... but nice larh.. and early in da nite, got karaoke but not much smoke... and from 9 plus... got live band performing.. den can dance... so cool... i like to dance.. think it's cool.. but not the clubbing type of dance.. da more defined type.. that has proper steps... yeah... haha...

now i'm home... i got a few assignments to do still.. but.............. heh... and time's not waiting for me either.. haha.. ok... enuff said.

i'm now being forced to update this... by my dearest saleha... haha... okok.. that's not it... juz that my update has been long overdued... yup... been very busy... lots of assignments for class and lots of projects for bowling... anyway.... hmm.. gosh.. i can't even remember when i last updated this... i believe it was some time last wk larh... lazy to open another page juz to check...

it's another boring day in school... and i'm freezing... no.. i'm not mad... and no.. singapore's not snowing either... it's juz this freaking room where i'm having my programming lesson in... and also... my inhuman classmates... say it's hot and stuffy in the room... heh... total madness i tell u...

anyway, teen games is finally over... that's one thing of my back... hurray to the guys for beating a lot of people younger than them.. haha.. ok.. so i'm being sacarstic... but who cares... they know it too... and so does uncle richard (coach)... haha... big bullies.... it was fun larh... one team came in first... da other third.... and they won da guys high game and guys high series too... ok.. i shall shut up... hmm... i'll try to post photos online if they dun turn out fuzzy....

besides that, i'm really kind of frustrated with some people... dun wanna name names... but they're really annoying... it's like... can't people in this world think of others before themselves?? it's always i, me and myself... heh.. hate that type of people.... i shall stop here before it becomes too obvious as to who i'm talking about...

on my list of things to do now.... basically, a lot...

Assignments
1) webmastering
2) graphic design fundamentals
3) database
4) photography

Bowling
5) Submit CCA points for teen games and the coming NP Open
6) Start planning for 9 pin tap
7) Pick up trophies
8) Make sure booth is ok
9) Get the comm down for NP Open earlier
10) Get new bowling ball!

Work
11) Just work lor... 2 shifts a week... one tmr nite.. n one fri nite.. but i dun think fri nite got
people can take over.... *sobz*

Others
12) remember to eat amidst everything
13) remember to sleep as well
14) remember to remember all the above

I think that's about it.... but i'm not too sure... haha.. will udate more if i remember... tata.. for now, i'm juz looking forward to dismissal... not becoz it's my last class for today already... coz i have to stay back to complete da photography thingy... and hang around da booth... sian larh... haha.. nvm.. da point is that i get to eat! yummy!!! *rubs tummy* haha... hungry!!! me hungry! i want food!!! now!!!! okok... tata... i think this post is long enuff...

i juz got back from work about 30 minutes ago... nice and squeaky clean now... and i really should be doing my school work... but i can't help but come online to unwind for awhile.... life's been pretty busy.. ok.. so it's been very busy... i guess i'm learning to live with it... but i think my body won't be able to take a whole lot more of this shit... dunno larh.. see how... see wad happens... coz i love all of wad i do... ok larh.. so i like to complain a lil here and there.. but i still enjoy everything...

hmm... ohhhh.. went out with esta on wed.... did a lil shopping.. and a lot of pigging out... haha... and by da time i got back and had my shower at 7 plus... i intended to laze around on my bed.. and after awhile, i juz fell asleep.. heh.. yes... i'm that tired... a lot of things are different now... i used to be very care free... juz going for training... and minding my own business... as for da rest of my days... juz go school and go home... and go out... heh... come to think about it, i kind of miss that life... now, i'm not quite sure wad i do.. haha.. i'm always up and about... oh well....

hmm.... thursday......... oh.. finished at 3... went to queensway with 6 guys... derek, arthur, lionel, kenneth, weijie and nicholas... yup... they went to shop.. but seriously... da guys who originally intended to shop left the place with nothing.. and those that didn't intend to shop, bought stuff... haha.. yup.. quite crazy dunch u think... den after that.. went to bum at weijie's house for awhile while derek went home to bathe.. and pick davin up... hmm... i juz realised that the chicken chop at victors is quite nice.. haha.. after bowling there for so long.. i never really tried it til last nite... it was quite good.. haha.. but da game after that........ hmm.. different story... wasn't good.... below expectations... sigh... oh well...

i think i shall stop here... tata....

i'm back to update once again... haha.. i better... otherwise people will think that i dropped dead somewhere.. hahahahaa.... not surprising... dun be surprised if u really see me on da front cover of some paper.. haha... now.. i'm kind of in da state of exhaustion... yup... but i'm still alive... haha.. oh well... wadeva i have to do still has to be done... Am tired.. and can't really be bothered to say more... catcha up with all of u again when i find da strength... ciao..

i'm now yawning my head off... hmm.. ok.. overstatement.. it's still quite firmly attached... anyway, as u can tell, i'm damn bored rite now.... having a programming practical lesson.... love these practicals... da tutor juz writes the whole program on her own laptop n we all juz follow wad she writes... heh.. how boring can life get rite?? anyway, this is one module i can never grasp the meaning of until a week or 2 before exams.. haha.. oh well...

ok.. so yesterday.. for the first time, i din have anything i had to do after school.. so i met up with my dear esta... n we went to eat our yong tau fu.. haha... explains the tag doesn't it.. haha.. yup.. we used to do it 3-4 times a week last time when i wasn't so busy... her too i guess... heh.. i dunno... anywayz... enjoyed my ytf as usual.. haha.. den after that, went to get swensons ice-cream!! yummy... haha.. i'm such a glutton... but i like sweet stuff... be it sweets or chocolates or ice cream or local desserts... oohhh.. yummy... i'm getting myself hungry now...

the good thing is that class finishes in about 45 minutes time.. and den... i've got no more lessons for today! woohoO!!! i'll be going to BTP(bukit timah plaza) for a nice lunch with my class girls.. haha.. pizza!! yummy.. haha..boy.. i'm really such a piggy... oh well.. i dun really care larh.. haha. i think i'm stressed enuff to be able to maintain my weight and size.. i think.. i hope... haha.. *shrugx*

ok.. this part... may seem like a total shock... i'll get right to the point larh k?! haha...

i think... i like.................................. or am starting to like......................
aiyah.. or should i say.. have gotten over hating green... haha... i kind of figured long ago that i can never fully avoid the colour... as everyone knows.. our lil country here's aka green city... heh.. sooo many trees and plants... haha.. yup.. but i think after about 1.5 yrs of not wearing green, i think i'm quite ok with the colour larh.. haha.. and... no... i haven't gone mad... neither am i sick.. haha.. i juz kind of figured that my wardrobe's getting quite boring ( i think some of u might beg to differ) ... i lack colour in my life... haha... oh well... oh.. n i like my starbucks apron... although i prefer edwin's... haha... *grinx* (it's black.. he's da store manager...) so cool rite?! haha.. ok.. i'm being damn lame... oh well.. that's all for now... tata

why do people always say... have a great week??? how would they know wad shit you're going thru... sigh... so i'm juz feeling damn frustrated now... but i really can't take this shit no more... da only day where i thought i could get a day off.. has now been officially destroyed... meaning, i was supposed to be able to disappear from training on sat... but now, coz of da committee meeting.. i don't really have a choice do i??? i don't have a decent day off... everyday... if it's not school, it's work.. if it's not work, it's tutoring my cousins.. if i do get a day off from all that, surprise surprise....... guess what spoils my close to perfect day... bowling... heh.. it's not that i don't love the sport, infact, i have always loved the sport.. and i still love it... juz that da planning.. da organizing.. and everything else is driving me mad... the fact that guys can't meet people (strangers) by themselves... or for that fact, call a supplier and talk to the person over the phone is quite disgusting... wait a sec.. quite is definately an understatement... yup... it way way way extremely disgusting... wad's happening to da guy race?? can't they do a simple job instead of squirm and try to push da job to others... if u can't communicate with people.. den how do u expect to be in a comm to hold people together... to communicate ideas and to carry out plans?!?!?! argh.. pissed....

it's a sunday nite... and.. he's back in camp again...
so what if he came out this afternoon?? not like the govt cares...

anyway, that's not the point now...
the point it...

me has no idea what me is here for...
me has a million and one things to do...
me has to put up with a lot of shit from alot of different people...
me is pissed and frustrated...
me is tired and needs sleep...
me has no choice coz me's not given one...
me has summarized everything...
me has said my peace...
me is going back to do da shit...

it's me again.. this time.. i'm not in school.. i'm sitting at my desk... eating a muffin... chatting with a friendand settling some bowling stuff... that's now.. before this, i was playing worms again.. haha... it's an addictive game.. and it's so cute!!! anyway, i realise that now, my life has seriously been nothing but packed with a lot of stuff... if it's not school, it's work, when it's neither... like at night, it's bowling stuff... talking stuff out with people... quarrelling with people... stuff like that... sending emails... replying stuff... hmm.. if it's not bowling, it's tutoring cousins... or... church stuff... out of my whole schedule... i think 3 impt things are missing.. i'm not saying that what i do is not impt... it's juz that... i really can't rank what is most impt to what is least... coz i think everything is juz as impt in one way or another... hmm... definately hafta find da time to spend with friends, family... and alphonsus... ( he gets pissed too ya noe...) aiyah.. i really gotta sort out my schedule.. and worst part is.. i gotta find time to revise work too... haha... gosh.. and there's this cricket outside.. driving me mad i tell u... has been outside for da past 2 nites or so... and it's annoying x 100... heh.. or maybe more.. but it's juz really giving me a headache larh.. infact, i'm wondering how i can tahan so long... haha.. da most tragic part is that i can't find da blardy noisy creature... heh.. otherwise he'd be squashed by now... hahahahaha... oh well.. tata...

okok.. told u i'd be updating this more frequently... haha... anyway, finished da first of 2 lessons for today... actually.. i finished my work about 30 mins ago.. but was doing some stuff... yup.. so gotta wait another 25 minutes to go for da next class... heh... haha... anyway, it's quite boring now... school's firewall doesn't really work on messenger 7.0... it's a sometimes yes sometimes no thingy... haha... hmm... besides that... quite sick of long breaks... yup... haha... can't think of anything to say for now.. so i'm off to play worms.. haha.. tata

okok.. i think i owe many people an update on what has been going on in my life... thousands of apologies for that.. but you'll be getting more updates and crap from me more often now... (or so i think...)

anyway, since my last update, life has been pretty sucky... quite bad... but oh well.. that's life rite?!?! sigh.. at least i'm still alive... anyway... where did i stop?!?! i think middle of da month rite?? yar.. remember myself complaining about work stuff and all... haha.. oh well...

now... i'm back in school... term started last week.. but compared to last year, i'm very busy... and what's worst, my grades... to me.... were about the same as my first sem's grades... and my fabulous mentor.... (whom i only see once a sem....) was complaining about my grades dropping... sometimes, i really don't understand him... haha.. anyway, time's really passing slowly today... got no idea why either... i've surfed blogs of other people already... and i realise i missed quite a lot... haha... think i've been too busy for my own good... but.. it's not like i'm gonna do anything about it anyway... now, i've got a specific time for a specific thing every day of da week... yup...

and now saleha's sitting next to me going "Wow... u're finally updating ur blog!" haha.. yes yes... can't stay away for long... not that long anyway... hmm... anyway, i'm really glad the bowling stuff i have to settle is more or less done... now that i've sent in stuff for NP open... i've gotta send in more stuff in about a week's time for the 9 pin tap open.. haha... really tedious work... heh... oh.... i've still gotta call some people... heh... kind of don't like my post coz gotta call a lot of people i dun know... sigh... oh well.. wad has to be done, has to be done... bleahx...

alpha.... sigh... haha... it's already been about 6 months since he's been in... (if i'm not wrong...) haha... time passes really fast, yet really slow.... it's already been 6 months.. but den again... it seems like forever...... heh... i don't like it... he can't come out that often.... heh.. came out on sat nite last nite... den now... sigh... nvm... heh...

anyway, that's it for now.. think i've typed quite a lot... dun wanna strain ur eyes.... haha.. (yar rite...)

oh.. did i mention i finally got a lecturer who can speak properly?!?!?! haha...

it's been a long day... well, it's supposed to be my shortest day.. coz i was supposed to be off.. with nothing to do... except tutor the boys... yup.. but since i had nothing to do, i decided to help adip take over his shift at SB-RC(raffles city)... yup.. so was there working from 11-6... pretty long hours... hmm... 7 hrs i believe... haha.. it is... blur liao... anyway, glad i've survived it.. thing is, i've got another day... which is... tmr... and sadly... da hours are much longer... tmr is 9 hrs.. i think my feet are gonna be extremely numb.... todae very numb already... tmr.... heh... i dun wanna think...... yup... and still.... no one to replace me or change shift with me for friday!!! argh.. i so wanna kill myself... it's madness.... i did 6 hrs on sun... 6 on mon... 6 on tues... 7 todae.. 9 for tmr... and i believe... it's either a 6 or a 8 on fri.. depending on how things work out... i'm already damn tired... i want my off!!! heh... nvm... forget it...

life now.... hmm... is quite unpredictable... and at da same time... very routine...

well.. wad i mean is... well.. it's mostly work... haha.. life at starbucks... it's been fun... love da part about getting to meet many many different people... haha.. everything else is fun too... hmm.. i think.. da worst part about it.. is counting money.. haha.. i dunno why.. but i think that's da most tedious part... anyway, i'd hardly count working at starbucks as routine... i thin k we spend more time having fun... but don't get me wrong.. we still make sure all our work is done... yup... anyway, schedule's done on da week before... in da middle of da week before... yup.. and so... now, my life can't really be that last minute anymore... but on da other hand, that's the problem with my life... or maybe in general, life in singapore... everyone's so busy that u can't really set aside a specific time for a specific event... which kind of sucks in this place.. coz this is da second time where i wanna change shift with someone.. but the way da scheduling was done, it's not really possible... can't find anyone to change with... well, there might be 1 or 2.. but they're only human.. so.. can't blame them... yup... reason why i'm bringing the whole thing up is because.. i'm honestly quite fed up with my bowling committee... wanna have a meeting, sure.... no problem.. but could they please have more cosideration and let me know more in advance?!?!?! unlike them.. i actually have a job.... and i'm not saying either is more important.. i think that both are just as impt.. so yeah.. quite pissed... ah... oh well.... hopefully.... someone can take my slot... crack brains!!! heh... oh well... tata...

it's been 4 days since my return... and seriously... for once, i love singapore... i guess... it's juz nice to be back.... familiar faces, and all... juz great to be back...

haha... am currently in school... some cca fiesta thingy... for the new freshmen... haha... yay!! i'm a senior! woohoo!! haha... ok.. nvm... and i'm in da committee... no biggie larh... but hmm........ kanna dragged down on my off day... haha... oh well.. anyway, quite a few people have signed up... juz that, when school starts, i got no idea how many will turn up...

week's been quite ok larh... just really glad to be back at starbucks... haha.. miss making coffee... and... of course, i got a shock of my life... i had no idea sales was that bad... hmm... edwin looks quite upset... yup.. it's not even equal to the sales in thomson... and... it's not half wad he expects... haha.. hmm.. those reading this muz come and support k?!?!?! come down n i help u customize drink.. u'll definately like it... =) yay!

sigh... later's gonna be so sickening... have to go tutor my cousins... but i really wanna go bowl... esp when there's a 50-50 chance that the guys will be going... oh well... commitments... sometimes i love them, and at other times, i really hate them... sigh... i'll have to pray that they either bring my ball bag to school tmr so i can go bowl at marina.... or... i'll juz have to wait for saturday's training...

heya! it's me again! haha... and this time, i'm not gonna apologize for disappearing... coz i did it intentionally.. and i'm definately not sorry for not blogging... haha...

a little update.... i've been happily employed by starbucks international! woohoo! it's fun making coffee... yupyup... and if u don't know, i'm working at starbucks marina square... and it's SQUARE.. NOT SOUTH!!!!! ok.. think i made my point.. do come and say hi if u're free... but u may wanna check if i'm working before u head down... haha... =)

next.... hmm... ok... on 30th apr.... i got extremely surprised when alpha brought me to watch "Lord of the Dance" yup... it was a superb show... why surprised?!?! coz i only found out when we got into da cab... and i was shocked... literally extremely shocked... haha... yup... really thank God for him <- alphonsus.. yup.. juz incase u dunno who.. haha.. wad are da chances manz?!?!?! anyway, as i was saying.. i really really thank God for him.. and da 3 wonderful years we've spent together... thru da good... da not so good... and da bad... yup.. coz every moment together be it good or bad brings u closer to the other person... =) oh... and 30th apr is one dae early actually... haha.. it's actually da 1st of may... but... i had to leave for a mission trip...

that's my next point.. mission trip... from 1st to 8th may... at da Lahu village specifically, Huey Paraai... which is at da north area of chiang mai... yup.. while on da plane, i realise that God's really really amazing... He's definately got a good imagination... ever realise that the clouds in da sky juz kind of hang there... they dun really drop... neither do they float far far away... they juz stay where they are.. and go where da wind blows... while on da plane, i juz realised that... yup... adding on to that, i believe that God gave da people who created aeroplanes da idea... so that.. people like us now... get to experience the world from a different perspective.. from high up there... looking at da nice clouds... that form interesting shapes too... haha... besides that, the week concentrated a lot on da children from da village and also the neighbouring villages and da town... yup... we held a children's camp for them... activities included games, craftwork n a short sharing session... 3 days worth of all that... it was fun.. but rather tiring... yup... we took a walk up to da waterfall too.... twice to be exact.. haha.. only to da base larh.. haha.. went for a soak da second time we went up... there were plenty of annoying dogs, chickens, lizards, other amphibians and bugs.... i dun like da last few.. haha... and.. i'm actually quite immune to all da noises they make at da most unearthly hours.. haha.. oh.. we painted da church on fri nite after service.. from 12 -2 am.. and da worst part, no rollers... we used paint brushes.. haha.. that was quite difficult... that's roughly wad we did during da trip.. yup...

anyway, good news!! woohoo! esta's got a boyfriend! hahaha... n andrew's got a girlfriend! haha.. if u still dun get it, they're together!! reason why i'm so histerical is becoz
1) she's my sister (unidentical twin kind of thing... but no blood relationship...)
2) he's a good friend of mine
3) saw the whole thing coming from da start
4) they look perfect together
enuff reasons?!?! haha... they're juz very sweet together larh... haha... =)
anyway, to the 2 of u, hmm.. is congrats da rite word to use?? anyway, now that u're together, hope that u'll both be happy... =) and... remember that i'll always be around.. haha... yup..

that's it for now! tata

THIS woman.. *points accusing finger at ms lee pui yee*..

returned with a working laptop and then disappeared from the surface of blogger.com..

let me tell you why..........

number 1.. she's busy..

number 2.. she's real busy..

number 3.. she's really really busy..

number 4.. i should shut up before she squashes me..

but you get the point.. *grins*.. but blogging for her is kinda fun.. except that i have to go.. its now 0856 hours on sunday morning! which means.. church calls!! byebye darling.. and byebye darling's blog.. (how les can i possibly sound.. gosh..)

i'm back!!! a million thanks to andrew for kind of cleaning up my laptop.. haha.. but now that i've got it back, i don't really wanna blog... i do have things to say.. but not now... no mood... haha... oh well... tata!

SURPRISE!!!!!

haha.. since my dear friend here can't blog coz her dear laptop is still being hospitalised under the care of Dr Ng (as he's now called coz i said that he was curing her laptop).. i'm here to add life! so here goes..

LIFE LIFE LIFE LIFE LIFE LIFE LIFE!!!

..there..

corniest thing in the world.. like.. totally! (gosh.. how bimbotic is this.. )

ok.. till she comes back then.. haha..

signing off: esta-

thank god... the exams are almost over... but on the other hand.. kind of screwed up 2 of the 4 papers i took... haha.. yup.. sad but troo.. while some others are worrying whether they'll get their A's... some of us are worrying whether we'll pass the module... haha.. as for my class... it's most of us... haha... ok.. maybe it's no laughing matter.. but it's a habit..

hmm... this week, i've really been wondering... wondering why people like to dig up the past especially when it's not a very happy one... infact, it's the totally opposite... the tsunami disaster is so... devastating.. so sad... so many people have been lost.. and so many people sad... lost their loved ones... and their homes... etc... why on earth does mediacorp wanna dig up da sad effects??? aren't people tormented enough by the actual event? why do they want to dig it all up especially when it's probably just started to settle?!?! sigh.. dun understand... and now the earthquake... my grandma seems quite saddistic.. dunno why.. every news report on TV, she'll watch... den after that.. juz go on and on and on about it da rest of da time where she's not watching it.. gosh... it's driving me insane... sigh.. but yeah.. really pity them... so much destruction around... in times like this... i really thank god that we're so safe amidst all the chaos...

besides that... cat's finally eating again... had to buy new type of cat food... he's so spoilt... haha.. anyway, all my thoughts are kind of jumbled up and stored somewhere up in my brain.. everything's in bits and pieces.. so yeah.. haha... oh......... did i mention?? i miss alpha a lot!!! haha.. ok... enuff said there...

nitez~

it's almost 1... and i'll be sleeping soon... but while i remember some stuff... juz thought i'd blog it... before i forget... but first of all, thanks babe for da songs... haha... i'm a happy girl now... hahahahahaha... ok.. i'm mad... it's da tired kind of high...

anyway, what i wanted to say was.....

some friends are worth keeping.... others...... prob juz a casual hi and bye... i find that it's not worth all your trouble to treat others nicely... coz in return.... u really don't gain anything... seriously.... well... u might beg to differ... but i don't care coz this is what i think... when u find da rare few that will really stand by you thru think and thin... in good times and bad... good for you... and a pointer.... make sure u keep them... or u'll regret it!!! not that i've ever lost a really good friend... (not that i know of anyway...) i've met a few who're nice to u once in awhile.. when they feel like it... but that's condition love... aiyah.. i think at this age u all should get wad i mean rite?? not da lovey dovey sort... but even if it is that kind of love, there's still da basic friendship that's there... yar... as i was saying... well... i know everyone's human... but yeah.. there comes a point in life where u just get so fed-up... i've kind of given up going all out to look for friends... i'll juz take life as it comes... and so far... it hasn't been too bad... there are a few... although prob less than 5... or around 5 larh... and.. i think i'm really super blessed to have so many true blue friends... (this does not include God... heh...) anyway, dun try to think if u're in that category larh... haha... i think these few peeps i'm talking about should know... =)

yup.. anyway, this update is so not about me.. it's juz what i'm thinking... and no.. i'm not going thru a bad patch in life... everything's ok... haha... ciao!

mind's kind of in a mess... social issues... and study issues... and other misc stuff... oh.. my cat too...

hmm... exams have started.. first paper.. not too bad... so.. in short.. quite a good start to the exam period... wad i learnt is that... can't do it myself... only with His help... God's help... yup..

next..... my darling spady's sick... i got no idea why... but he's not eating properly.. and he's lost weight... he's so light now... can't believe it... i'm worried... shall bring him to the vet tmr...

besides that... i dun feel myself... i got no idea why... *shrugs*

haha.. since my dear friend here does not wanna go into detail about her hair.. i'll help her a lil.. A LITTLE.. =D

my dear friend is now a cute young coconut..

oh btw.. please don't kill me for typing this in ur blog.. hehe.. bye babe!! or rather.. cute young coconut.. *grin*

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ok.. so it's been eons since i last updated this.. hmm... life's been more or less the same... can't complain... yup.. alpha had his block leave last wk... spent quite a lot of time with him... which is nice.. haha... ok... and.. da exams r coming.. really really soon... but... no use getting too worked up rite??? ok.. besides that... i cut my hair.. doesn't look too good to me... i dunno larh.. argh.. dunch wanna talk bout it no more... tata...

today is definately not my day.
it's just not.
and i don't wanna talk about it...

i wish i had my own room...
but... not happening... sigh....

hmm... let's just say i attempted to update this last night.. but something farnie happened... prob their server.. and my update got erased... farnie isn't it... haha.. ok... well.. an update on last week... again.. man.. if this gets erased again, i won't update about my past week again... haha.. yup.. ok.. so last thurs.. had training... but only 4 people... not much fun actually.. but oh well.. juz play lor.. it's bowling! and i love bowling! haha.. ok... so most people know i'm an addict... *shrugs* i don't care... haha.. yup.. so that was that... ok... fri.. A level results.. enough said bout that... not me.. but a lot of people around me... haha.. ok.. sat.. had private training... so fun!! but so early in da morning... seh.. haha.. or so it was early to me... 10.30 training lehx... not awake yet... haha... hmm.. ok.. after the tiring morning.... went to play captains ball with da PoP cell! yeah! woohoo!!! haha.. i dun care who i'm playing with.. juz whack!! hahha.. ok... so i'm a little hyper... i can't help it... at least i'm not alicia... "i dun wanna play unless joe, mark, alpha n cher hao r on my team..." haha.... oh well...... hmm.. besides that.. monday was good... after school.. went to catch a show with esther and andrew... fun... hitch is a nice show... u should go watch it... yup... hm.. ok... tues.. after saving my group for their presentation.. fell ill.. really really ill.. think i really looked like shit... hope i din freak anyone out.. esp joe, euge n esther.. haha.. if i did.. sorry... din mean too.. yup... suppose to have met them for lunch.. actually.. did meet them for lunch.. but din manage to eat... felt sick.. was sick.. so went home.. and i was basically in bed for da whole dae... except when i had to go see da doc... yup... and da other time when i had to eat something... a little teeny bit of porraige... haha.. yup... den.. yesterdae.. went to tekong.. so fun... haha... the place there's so nice... yup... parade wasn't too bad either.. quite national day like though... national songs?!?! haha... trying to brainwash peeps.. oh well... *shrugs again..* yup.. that's about it larh.. now in school.. having lesson supposedly.. but teacher hasn't said a word since she came in... everyone doing their own stuff.. and me... i'm gonna go pass up my MC in da office... whee!!!!!!!! tata... *muackx*

hmm... it's really uncommon that i don't update that regularly isid??? haha... well, no mood to update... life's been normal... everything's been the same... routine life... not much... yup... oh... da O level results out already.... congrats to all those who did well... and for those who didn't, i think u tried ur best... but yeah... no worries... i'm sure u'll do well no matter where you go to... and.. i think.. it doesn't really matter where u get to.. coz i'm sure God has a special plan for u.. (it's from experience... haha...) my results weren't that good either u know... under performed... kind of anyway... haha.. no worries... oh.. and for the post A levelers... all the best manz... dun freak k?? i'm sure u guys will do fine... =) yup... not much to talk about now... yar... got 2 hr lesson now... den later got 3 hr break... after that.... got another 2 hrs class... sianz... sigh... oh well... haha... and tmr got another 3 hr break.. how boring can life get?!?!?!

i hate not being able to sleep...
i hate not being able to sleep esp when i'm tired...
i hate feeling like shit becoz i'm down with a bug...
i hate that i am down with a bug...
i hate having a headache...
i hate having a headache esp when i'm trying to complete my work...
i hate periods...
i hate periods esp at times like this... (i dun care if u're a guy!)

ok.. hate might be a lil strong.. how bout dislike? replace it urself larh... back to the grinding block...

friday mornings... hmm... actually... all mornings.... kind of hate them... they're so early... haha... (hmm... like wad do i expect rite? that's why it's called morning for a reason... haha.. anyway, supposed to be having a 2 hour practical now... but den...... i'm done... and actually.... have been for da past 15 minutes... haha... so.. i'm bumming around til 11.... for my next tute.. haha... hmm... lucky i never bring textbook... so big n bulky... haha... den she never use... hmm.. by right... dun even need to bring laptop... but.... oh well.... heh.... on da bright side... i dun have big bulky textbook... hee........ i'm bored........

oh.. now that i remember.. last nite.. had training.... hahahahaha.. i felt so stupid... haha... forgot to bring my guard.. had to bowl without it... haha... the difference is so so so so so extreme... haha... hmm.. now... i gotta train without guard liao... some advance bowling thingy... haha... yay!! i wanna make it into nationals!!! soon... maybe 2-3 yrs larh.. hehe... woohoo!! haha... yup.. but for tmr tournament, i'm gonna be wearing guard... haha.. not safe... i dun want to risk my ave score... haha... aiyah.. nvm.. i shall stop crapping... tata!

ok... i'm back! and this time round..... i've more or less gotten more sleep than the last time... but... still tired... dunno why oso.. haha.. yup.. since monday.... when i last updated... i took a ride down to school... handed in my assignment and went home again to sleep.. haha.. it was so nice and quite undisturbed.. haha... yup... hmm... i think i slept at about 10 am.. and woke up about 7 pm... haha.. that'd be superb if da am and pm were mixed around.. it would mean that my internal clock's finally working properly! haha.. but narh... haha.. i doubt it's gonna be happening soon... yup...

yesterday... was not too bad.. seriously, even though i was late, i din have much problem.. and din find it much of a drag to come to school... yup.. i think i came in about half an hour late... haha.. which reminds me... i din mark my attendance yesterday... haha.. oops.. hope my lecturer knows.. haha.. oh well.. anyway, bummed around school... a lil while at da bowling booth.. and a lil while in da atrium... yup... weijie tried to help fix my laptop.. but da naughty spyware thingy in da com hid very well.. haha... yup...

oh... highlights for yesterday... IVP team had a gathering at nicole's house.. it was fun... she's got 2 cute furry furry kitty cats!! ah!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.. ok.. i'm mad.. but they're so sweet! oh.. her place has a nice ambience too... yup.. ok.. so... we had dinner there.. and after that, we played blackjack... yup.. haha.. won money from da 2 bankers.. haha... and lucky for me, it was more than most people won.. haha.. yup.. haha... so yup.. only got home at about 11 plus i think...

and now........ i'm back in school... listening to shit... haha... oh well.. that's life rite?!

hey hey hey... haha.. it's me... and it's 0621 at the current moment... it seems i'm on a marathon to stay awake!!! ah!! haha... j/k larh... stayed up all night to finish an assignment... deadline in 2 hr's time... i'm done with it already... but... yeah.. now that i've decided to stay home and rest, i've gotta find some kind soul to help me bring it to school... haha... i can hardly open my eyes already... heh... yar... and... wad's more, yesterday was a rather busy day... i'd say... it was busy and required more brains than i normally spend my sundays...

had the second day of da IVP bowling tournament... gawd.. i'm not typing properly no more.. if i were actually typing, some of the words may come out a lil distorted.... yup... haha... ok... update... IVP bowling.... it was superb! top bowlers... nice other bowlers... and of course... superb atmosphere too... i never knew how intense tournaments could get til i went for this... haha.. reason why... school tournaments... always no atmosphere.. no fun... haha... anyway, yeah... din win anything... din bowl well either.. below my own expectations... but oh well... nvm... not exactly pissed about it coz i'm not in da bottom 10.. but still.. what's more impt is that i enjoyed the time bowling! yeah! haha... no regrets going for this manz... so fun! cheer until siao... haha... i think it's sometimes noisier than....... a party?!?!?!?! but yeah.. some school's use their voices for their own teammate's encouragement... at the same time, to distract other players... haha... sho noisy sometimes... and the guys... oh my....... they strike like nobody's business man.... it's so nice to watch them play... but cannot watch too much... coz u'll start cheering a lot.. and u'll lose ur voice too.. haha... hmm... now..... i'm bored... very bored... and tired... i wanna sleep... but...................................... heh... i'm kind of doing everything in slow motion too... heh... well.. my right hand seems quite awake... the fingers anyway... oh man... it's such a torture being so free... so tired... and having to stare at ur bed without being able to ZZzzzzZZZZzzzzzz
haha...

this is utter crap i tell u.... shit lor... why me? why me of all people??? why all this crap at the same time??? i can't take it anymore.. i'm about to explode... i don't know what i'm to do... even if i don't sleep tonight, wad on earth are the chances of me getting everything done? and if i don't? wad will da consequences be??? sigh...

well.. the sad thing's that i've got 1 assignment due tmr at 8.30... another due on tues... and another, on fri... and besides that, i gotta help lionel and all get some planning done for the coming sat's tournament.... i've got no time... ok.. so maybe i was a lil last minute... but why? why on earth do people make my life so difficult??? damn bloody pissed off now.. as it is... for IAC... i've gotta read broken english... edit it... and change stuff to make it become a 1500 word essay... besides that, i'm to do the presentation slide.. and the presentation too... i was fine with that.. but now... i'm supposed to have 100 copies of surveys nicely compiled and easy to read... when what i get is 50 forged ones and 44 individual sheets... like wad on earth do they think i am? super woman or something.. and they can calmy come and tell me that they've got 2 projects to do... f*** larh.. u think i don't have isid?? bloody hell.. we're from the same school.. more or less doing the same modules too... so we've gotta do the same things... they think i so free like them go play games and pool or jio girls or wadeva shit??? argh... forget it larh... i'm tired... frustrated... pissed... angry... sad... fed up.... that's it's taken over all my happiness inside... ah!!!!!!!!!!! so feel like killing myself rite now...

it's wed... i finally get talk alpha after 3 days.... and what i find out... is that he kenna confined on sat nite.... not very pleasing... sigh... i really was looking forward to seeing him sooner... but i got no choice rite?? aiyah... i feel so depressed... it's like... my laptop hasn't been behaving.... got assignment to rush... already have no mood to do stuff... and now this????? like come on manz... u must be kidding me.... not to mention that i've got a tournament this weekend.. like... i really hope i can concentrate when i got so much other stuff to think about (naturally)... i remember i've ever told myself not to get too attached or dependent on him.. but i guess after... almost 3 years now... the chemistry is there... during the first yr.. or infact... even last year, things were fine... i had no problems with him going for holidays to god knows where for god knows how long... sigh...

anyway... here's the story of how it ended up like this... he had this situation test from monday til today... out field... so they're not allowed to bring their hp... no contact... anyway, apparently during their bag check to see if they brought any unauthorized items out of camp... he forgot to check a certain compartment which had wet wipes inside... therefore... they caught him... n now he's gotta get confined... if he's lucky, he'll only have to stay this sat nite... if not, he'll have to stay in on all the saturdays until he gets out of BMTC... which would be....... 3 long long weeks...

as dumb as it sounds... i think my body's trying to get itself drunk on coke light... heh... aiyah.. dun wanna talk no more.. sad... depressed...

by the way, thanks gals... had fun during lunch...

i am bored.. and pissed at the same time... so.... update!!! haha..

anyway, today, woke up late.. as usual... but this time, had to take cab to school.. haha... was still late anyway... anyway, i didn't realise until my friends told me that our 10 to 12 class is not supposed to be on odd weeks...(which is this week...) the really stupid thing bout that was that i brought my laptop for nothing... bummer... haha.. hmm... somehow, i haven't used that word for a long time.. haha.. whee!! oh.. hmm... yeah.. was complaining rite?? haha... den now, my com isn't behaving.. i think it's a virus again.. can't open mail with my laptop... think i'll just use my friend's one tmr... and try to find the time to get it fixed too... boy do i hate technology now.. haha.. this is like... the 3rd time i think... that i'll reformat my computer... the worst part is, it's so personalised that i'll have to take quite some time to get everything back in it's original place after it's reformatted... and that would take about 3-6 hours depending on circumstances.. bleahx.. sux larh...

but anyway, it was kind of ok too... went for lunch with joe.p.... den... came home.. did some work.. prepared some stuff.. den went for theory lesson and tuition... they drove me nuts as usual... but on the bright side.... i guess i'll be closer to them.. and tuition time kind of make up for all the sundays where i'm not home... haha... sigh.. lots of politics in primary 1 now.. can't believe what i hear every week.. haha.. kind of crazy... but oh well... sigh... bored... and nothing to blog about.. at least... not that i know off larh.. oh.. just remembered one last thing... i love my 7610... the photo that i printed out from the kodak machine.. came out so clear!!! didn't look like a 1 megapixel camera.. so happy!! whee!! haha.. ok...

end.

firstly.... before the day is up...

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

today's been a good day in general... excluding the fact that alpha's not around.. haha.. anyway, day went well... kind of larh.. haha.. decided to zhao school coz i had no mood... absolutely no mood... so.. went to town with alicia n justin for "tea" <- more like both lunch and dinner at tea time.. haha... yup.. hey guys... had fun today.. thanks! =)

after that... went to kim seng for training.. went with uncle richard aka coach to go eat his dinner.. haha.. like small kid like that.. if i dun go, he prob wouldn't have gone to eat.. haha... yup.. and training was just superb.. haha... it seemed effortless... and for the 2 games that the score was recorded for, first was 158 n second was 160... meaning.. i'm about a 150 ave bowler now.. so proud of myself.. haha... *pats myself on da back* and... yeah.. was kind of delighted when i recieved a msg from alpha... thru his sargent's phone.. haha... i kind of wonder whether his sarge made him do anything before he let him send a msg.. haha.. i wonder.. hee.. must ask him on wed nite.. haha.. ok.. now, i gotta do other stuff...

time for new post!!! haha... :)

this week has generally been good... spent about 50% of my waking time or maybe more... with alpha.. went to his aunt's place.. his dad's place.. etc... oh.. his dad's quite a nice guy if i might say so.. :) anyway, my humble apologies to all my friends which i have kind of neglected during this week.. hmm.. but can only think of 1 person which i had no time.. heh.. hmm.. let's juz say.. i hope u know who u are... wanna say sorry.. think u were kind of fustrated.. n i think by saying i was busy, it kind of made u feel worst than u already feel.. (or at least thru my experience larh...)

anyway, besides that, in 53 mins, we usher in a new day... n for people like me, a new week... haha... (my week starts on monday.. not sunday...) u might say it's a new beginning.. but yet again... it's the same shit u get in school everyday... as for alpha... let's just say i miss him already.. n he won't be able to contact me for the next 2 days.. he'll prob only call on wed nite... quite sad.. but oh well... we shouldn't think negatively right??? so let's just say... i'm really glad that i managed to spend a lot of this week with him... had lot's of fun together.. and a lot of good laughs.. :)

tmr.. valentine's day... but we celebrated it last nite... (ok.. now u know why i wasn't at eugenia's place..) went for a show.. den went for dinner.. gave me a nice pendant n necklace... sweet..... haha.. :)

hmm.. i think u'll prob never read this post.. but incase u do, thanks for being yourself. For sharing your life with me, trusting me.. and loving me.. love you babe!

as for my friends, thanks simply for just being a friend... just want u to know that all of you have your own special place in my heart..

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

Hope this day will be extremely special for all of you out there.. also, don't ever forget that any day can be valentine's day!! as long as you have your loved ones around.. =)

as for me, don't worry... i'll be alright.. i've got friends around.. :) as for alpha, i'll always be thinking about him.

hmm.. it's a beautiful friday morning... the sun is shining... and i SHOULD be in bed.. heh... sadly, i'm in school... *sigh* school's such a pain... and as sad as it may seem.... mom n alpha's such a pain in da ass too... argh... if not for them, i probably would be at home.... in bed... in a beautiful place called dreamland... hah... anyway, yesterdae was good... spent it with alpha's family... nice peeps... nice mahjong game... haha.. nice ang bao too... haha... =X anyway, i better start doing my assignment now... otherwise gonna get into trouble...

yay!! it's da lunar new year! haha.. da only time where we're allowed to rob adults in broad daylight.. haha.. okok.. kidding... but it's kind of troo larh.. da adults are always complaining bout how broke they are after cny... haha.. today was quite ok larh.. da normal chinese new year i'd have.. yarp..

hmm.. da farnie part was watching my uncles persuade their grand niece's to call my cousin uncle.. haha.. well.. ironically, da eldest niece that came today is 6 this year.. and my youngest cousin is 3... yarp.. so it was quite farnie.. haha.. anyway, don't wanna say much larh.. tata!