Sometimes it just feels as if anything and everything is worthless. Maybe i'm just feeling lousy. Watching tv just now somehow made me think of my own life. Some ppl are just so damn lucky, arent they? How i wished i was as lucky as her. I just hate it when i smile and speak as if nothing happened just cos i have to do so. I dont know why but i feel hurt when you say that. Maybe i'm oversensitive or maybe i expected too much. I dont know. Some things are just plain ironic la. Blardy hell. And somehow i always end up in such situations. Honestly, i felt and feel like shit. But who would ever understand? Only if you have experienced it for yourself that you would understand and feel for me. Really. Damn it la.

Dont ask anything.

Sometimes i really wished some miracle could happen to me. I wish my dreams would come true. Wells, at least some of them. I'll be contented. My life is just so screwed up that i dont know what to do about it anymore. I feel terrible. All i want to do is cry.

I'm living on empty dreams.
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After an approximate 3 months hiatus here, i suddenly just had the urge of blogging here again. Life has been a mad rush, with many complications here and there.. But well, one has to make full use of things that come their way.. and get something good out of them. Am i not wrong? Haha.

I am feeling damn tired now. May update here soon. Haha. Take care everyone! :)
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Hey everyone..I've moved HERE! :)

Relink k? And see u all there! Loves. :)
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I'm moving soon! Haha. Will update everyone of my new blog website on 1st June 2007. Lol. For those who alr know, visit me there! Love all! :)
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I dunno why but i woke up today feeling damn dizzy. So dizzy that i can't even walk straight. I am still feeling quite dizzy now actually. I wonder what's wrong with me. :(

Gotta head off for school soon. Hope i won't walk into the drain or something.
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I cannot believe that my boss just called me to tell me that THAT woman will be supervising me! Like wth. She will DEFINITELY report bad things about me cos she hates me so much wad. Stupid stupid stupid. :(
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Haha. I am facing dilemma now. In many areas.

On whether i should switch to livejournal yet.
On whether i should trust them.
On whether i should make some decisions.
And many many more..

Well. I dunno. I am indecisive. Haha. Oh well.

Met Xiu, Fio and Hes for mj session yesterday. Had fun with the girls. Love all of you! :)

Nowadays so many teens are putting on makeup. They so '没脸见人' meh? They may appear pretty but are they really so? They might be hiding all their flaws under their thick makeup. Haha.

I saw this group of 3 girls on the bus yesterday. They wore identical outfits and footwear. All they were talking about were about makeup, manicure, accessories and yes, vulgarities. They kept piling powder onto their faces on the bus and kept taking self-pics using their handphones. -_-

I dunno why but i kinda feel disgusted everytime i see girls putting on makeup in public. It just make them seem so vain and bimbotic. Why can't they do it at more private places instead?

Hmm. I think a lot of people have misconceptions about 'good school' students. When ppl ask where you are studying at and you say 'uni', they respond, "Wow! So smart." When they ask what secondary school and jc you were from and you reply, "Rv and Nj." They are immediately impressed. Then they will say,"You are so clever! Must be very hardworking and always listen attentively in class rite! And right after school dismissal, you go home and study rite?" -_- Haha. AS IF! I do the direct opposite la. Ok. I am a bad example maybe. Lol. =X

So many things have happened in such a short period of time. Sighs. Too overwhelming for me to take alr.

Will have psych lect tml again. And work. I really really dread work. Just because of that woman. Why should i let her ruin my life? Argh. But i am a weakling. I cannot help it. Damn. So irritating!! :(

My sis is going for her school Malaysia trip tml. Will be back on Wednesday. Will miss her. =X Nevertheless, May God bless her with journey mercies! :)

I feel so unsettled. So 不安. I cannot calm down. But i don't understand why. Sighs. I need an outlet! But i don't think i have one. Will have to face conflict tml again. Hate this feeling. I prefer peace and harmony much much more. Really.
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