Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Anyway,
about FOOT I kan kai le...It's not about what's my version of FOOT or ODAC is...After reading some people's blogs (like may hwee, ck, yihui, jeremy, foot comm's), I finally understood the sentence "the most impt thing is the freshies enjoy the camp". (of cos I did get abit emo after reading...)
everyone goes for FOOT for a different reason. I felt very relieved when may hwee says, when she was a fake freshie, she feels the whole DARA move as one and they really enjoy themselves... I hope the other groups enjoy themselves too...
ANYWAY SORRY I CANT GO FOR POST-FOOT! Hope you all enjoy =)!
Anyway for FOOT, I guess the next time I'm going, it will be for an entirely different reason. I'm sorry for those who hope I would run for FOOT SPO, I really couldn't commit the time. AND PLUS I'M GETTING OLD LE! I wish the future SPOs & CGLs all the luck!
No matter what...
I thank all for the help and support they gave! Firstly,
the SPOs and Foot COmm! (No matter what the probs or conflicts we had.) Next
my beloved GLs....thanks for a job well-done..I couldn't have anyone else better! And of cos... most importantly,
the SENIORS! Without you and everyone else, FOOT wouldn't have been possible. A heartfelt THANKS! XOXO!!
No matter what tung & I have felt during the whole FOOT, I'm glad we had you all to fall back onto. Thank you. (I even feel like hugging ck...not chye kiat but cheekeong)
For 12th comm, I'm sorry we're nearing the end of our workyear already. Though we had alot of probs and politics in the start, we all ended up well now, din we? Tho we aint as close-knitted, let's meet up soon k! XOXO~
Love,
Ruyan~*
Its just me and you <3 .
1:12 AM
Just a rest from ODAC stuff.
Cos I just watch X-files: I want to believe. It....was....a....disappointment...
=X
But I still like to see Mulder & Scully together. For those who dunno, I'm a die-hard fan of theirs, a X-phile or Shipper if you may. I tried explaining the chemistry to the friend I was watching with, but I decided to give up. It's either you see it or you don't.
I love all the little bits they include at the start (which you will only catch if you watch X-files before), but the story seriously SUX! BIG TIME....A standalone monster episode of their TV series could have been better. *Sigh* WHERE'S MY BELOVED COUPLE??
Sigh...wish they will bring back William...AND I THOUGHT MULDER IS PSYCHIC?!
Ignore my musings...I'm one irritated bi*ch....
Its just me and you <3 .
1:06 AM
Monday, July 21, 2008
Day 6
The funniest thing after SP night was after I shook Shunzhang's hands, and he said I look like I was able to cry, I really burst into tears. I hugged him tight tight and cry. He was like don't cry don't cry, cos he told himself he won't cry cos last year he cried too much.
After a few minutes when I see him again, HE WAS IN TEARS!!! OMFG.
I laughed lol!
Weiling asked me why I cry. I don't know if she understand anot. I think I remember she said something like it's just a camp, she wun cry lol. I din bother to explain to her. I told her I was thinking of many more things (than just a camp).
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I was quite emo that night. After supper that night, when some of the seniors walk to the grandstand to talk, I followed them. There's one group that was made up of "freshie seniors" and another that was Renjian and a few. For those who know, the first group, well, is talking about the next comm. I see some people there and I got quite turned off. I wanted to join RJ they all, but I was too emotional then.
So I walked off the grandstand alone. RJ was shouting for me, but I just walked on la. Den Serene chased after me.
She pei me sit at the carpark for a good 5-10 mins when I just cry. I din cry because the camp was over. I din cry because the camp was bad (in fact the camp was good!). I din cry because I feel I did a bad job (in fact what I expected would happen has happened).
I cry because I tot of the next comm. And what I have done for the last workyear. I feel responsible for the freshies that are to come out of this year's FOOT. I feel responsible for whatever culture I or we incurred in the next batch of freshies and main comm.
The saddest thing of all, is I foresee a shift in the culture that I have deemed as the ODAC culture. To me, ODAC is having a friend to bring you a cup of coffee when you're camping in the rain. ODAC is having that friend scold you FU*K for staying in the rain cheng qiang when you should be wearing a raincoat. ODAC is having a friend to talk to while watching the stars at night, not having a friend to play wulinggaoshou with.
ODAC is not just fun and laughter. To me, ODAC has changed. And I was saddened by that. I feel responsible for that change, for not stopping that change. I told Serene I think I cried then because I know at the back of my mind, this is going to be my last FOOT. I cry because of the lost things. I cry because I may not join ODAC again.
That's the reason why I cry. And why I lost my motivation to run. I don't know if i'm wrong, but please prove me otherwise.
Its just me and you <3 .
11:56 PM