Thursday, September 09, 2004
i just did a good deed. i pei esther wait for her bus home at sengkang busstop there. Den i went opp to take my bus. My bus didnt come so soon. Den 156 came and this blind man was talking with the bus uncle for quite a while. Den he alright. But cos got construction works, so the bus uncle stopped quite a distance away from the curb. So the blind man was fumbling with his stick and trying to locate the curb. When he finally locate the curb, he was asking if anyone was around.
I was sitting behind him, quite a distance from him. But i could still hear him. There was this indian girl sitting very near him. I'm sure she could hear him, but apparently she ignored him. Den the blind man walked further and further, and asked louder and louder. So i ran up to him and asked him what help does he need. So he told me he missed his stop and asked me if i can lead him to the stop before this. So that was like leading him to cross two roads. So i say okay, i bring u there.
Den he ask can hold my arm, den i lead him. I've seen him quite a few times around here. Sometimes he take 86, and i will see him. And ppl will help him along. So okay help. Den along the way, we didnt really talk la. I feel abit malu also, cos along the way everyone was looking here la. So weird, a student leading a blind man along. Eh... okay den we reach the block he wanted, so i left him. And den i retraced my steps back to my busstop. Haha feel very shuang. I did a good deed. Eh... not that bad after all.
Den i told my mother when i reached home. Den she said haha i did a good deed. Den she told me how my sister ganna pian this morning by someone to pay $5 for a buddha statue. Eh... counter ba... help my sister ji fu also, so she wont meet bad ppl again? Haha. Shuang shuang.
Its just me and you <3 .
6:34 PM
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
stressed.
STRESSED OUT! Yep very stressed. If you get my message.
Why? Crap, i'm answering my own question. Anyway tml's my exam. Piano Exam. The last few days, i wake up, eat, play piano, until my hands suan and stressed up den stop, den eat, den walk here walk there. Go out. Still eat. Den come home. Play piano or slp. Den watch tv in the night. Den read through esther's book on history of music. If i'm abit mad, i will listen to the cd and try to guess their period. Sometimes, eureka, yeah i'm CORRECT!! Sometimes bleah, wah shit, is this composer meh?
So. What have i done since this break started? Eh... other than slacking and piano and finally understanding what concerto or minuet or variation mean, i've not done any WORK!! Yeah... no work done. And i'm going to sch for bio and chem on thurs! Hows that possible when i haben done my work? And my revision? And my promos? And my history?! And i get retain? Ok... i'm hysterical. Officially. Arghhh... What do i do? Arghhh.... okok here's the plan...
Eh... go and visualise what will happen tomorrow in the studio. Mabbe my scales will fumble. Eh... i miss some notes in my pieces, screw up on those trills, mispress the pedal. Den ok... to aural... damn. I will definitely pissed the examiner off... with my vocal skill. Off-pitched... bad timing... he finished playing, i'm still singing. Eh... wrong period Baroque say until romantic, composer scarlatti say until beethoven??!! Wah the hell. wad style, texture, variation, dance, period, composer, key, modulation, candences, perfect, plagal, imperfect... Yah... precisely imperfect. After that... sight-reading, i've got this premonition... i gonna.. FAIL it!
Eh... great. Thank you very much. You're welcome. Okay... i'm officially screwed up. i hope i will forget to bring my piano pieces the book... AGAIN. mabbe i turn up at the wrong time? Or i didn't even register for the exam? Or the examiner got food poisoning? Or bird flu? Eh... or i get bird flu? Or ms ong gonna kill me on thurs... cos i didn't do genetics... YET. Or ms wong... she wont she's better. Eh... wadeva.
Argh... should i go and slp now? Or ya... visualise... i almost forget, some report i think in reader digest, say visualising is good, can cut down dunno what thing by 15%. Eh... i should do tt. Eh... why did i even come online for? Ya... i was trying to find someone to talk to.. ya... and i ended up here... crapping. Who's online?
eh... stupid soh ee cant stop ** me, kimkwek (eh same sch still), hui loh (where are u), waisan ar (what u mean in ur blog eyecandy?), thiam boon ar (need some inspiration for nick not, same one for so long), sharon (u lost ur eraser?), yuying (who keep insisting i'm mugging), jasmine (weird nick, cant make it out), linyan (i saw her some days back only), stupid sheena (wah more can i say, stupid sheena), ong ne (still ne-ing?), manda (A-MAN-DA, still the same nick also), stupid wanxuan (i just feel like calling her stupid xuan), my di benedict (why tat email?), my mei (technically amanda's), my senior waiyin (long time no see), lim teck (always very eh.. short concise and dun understand nicks), YY (who noes who the baby is), felyna (woo, wonderful performance at the teacher's day), Churn Pang (dunno where he went to), edric (sends me all those wonderful emails), lynette!!! (just excited to see her), winnie!!!! (long time no c... but today too stressed)!!
OK... i conclude... i'm officially...............................................................
MAD
Its just me and you <3 .
10:50 PM