A big thank you to you :)

2nd Final year post. There is certain specific people which i want to thank them for the help and also for being such great friends through out this year. (thinking of sequencing is taking me ages so will start from the 1st fren i know onwards)

Ian
Yes indeed always the first guy on my list if i got any problems and i need someone to tok to and never fails to give me valuable help which i don't use 90% of the time. I think he knows that i just say for the sake of saying and relief abit of my trouble but he still goes the extra mile for me giving me the solution despite i might never use it. Known u since P4 and the memory is always vivid in my mind on how we met and know each other. Been such a great friend since P4 and i never regret knowing you. Although we don't meet often now but i still regard you as my best friend thank bro for being there.

Ricky
Hey i know you exist since P4 also la but you only know me in sec 3 -.- when i am also in the same cca as you from sec 1. You always had the lao da look and but i know you don't like to lead things... Miss those days where you still live near us and we can drop by your house and have fun together. Now we rarely sees you but let's keep in touch :)

Sherman
Hm by right should post you as the 1st guy as i know u since P1 but we are not that close? You are also 1 of those very zai friend i got, i find you also an all-rounder able to balance everything so well. Since we left sec sch we seriously in need of many catching up....

Keith
Woooo the guy that always holds a pencil and also known as katamata haha. If one wan compare blur i bet you are blur-er than me =X at least you look blurer. Know you exist since sec 1 as we are from same CCA and you had a hard time remembering my name... hm we get close because we played maple together? and next dota together at lan you and ricky introduce me to gaming world lol.

Kah Meng
Same class with you in sec 1 and 2 but barely talk much and you used to have a dangerous aura and a guy i seriously hate alot last time. Since graduate you joined us for lan slowly i see your good points you are a great friend to have very 讲义气 and a super joker but the jokes you cracks sometimes overboard.... also the guy who loves little kids and wish to have a 8 yrs old daughter.

Elvin
wahahahha the guy that never fails to let me joke about. The guy which we claims to love old man and always tio make fun of when he sit next to a old man. You always have a dam good temper which i really envy. Even I gets angry at times but i never ever see you blow up but just follow the flow. The current you had changed now start to joke alot le good change elvin ^^.

Duane
The guy that i always quarrel with for every small details at 1st i thought we would never be friends... but now we seems to be on same frequency somehow maybe becoz all problems are cleared up and we can work together better as a dota team and also as friends. But then i still abit dislike your temper though but game is game friends is friends i have drawn the line clear so when we quarrel in game we won't affect friendship.

Sandra
hm the only girl in my lan clique who hangs out often with 6 guys to play lan together or garena online. Quit impressed that you can easily blend in as it took me ages to blend into this clique and organising things for them.

Shall start talking about those I know in polytechnic

Xing Xian
I think you are the 1st close friend i had in polytechnic. Know you since Ba_Comm camp and had been building up our friendship from there. Probably one of the few that i look for to entertain me when i am bored and thanks for all the help you have given to logistics can't have managed without you :)

Suern
Knew you during stagewerkz 07 and always encourage me to sing during that time thanks for the help haha. I find you very easy to talk to and always on high mode haha. Also we work together as logistics this year always there to help me and cover up the work which i missed out. Thanks alot for the help/encouragement you have given this year appreciated.

Derek
Knew you exist in sec sch but we only know each other on the Bus 74 which we take after ba_comm. Thanks for all the advice you had given always goes the extra mile for someone low in confidence like me giving me all the encouragement i need. Also thanks for the help you given and helped ba_comm during this year.

Jeff
The ever most dependable soul in ba_comm. 1 of the few i disturb on msn this days although i stop le. Also giving me the title: shadow man -.-lll The guy that is very wary of me and always on guard against me haiz... i not so scary la... He is also another guy that gives valuable advice to people and a super joker in ba_comm can say he often brings up the mood la.

Baka Leo
Honoured right leo first time i blog about friends i know online sia! lol. the person i disturb the most in the entire year i think. lol thanks for entertaining me so much and always 安慰 me when i got problem. thanks.

Chu Hao
My Shifu for both logistics and Stagewerkz 08 taught me alot and guide me through alot of problems. He encouraged me to contd despite many times i almost felt like giving up being exco. He is always available to help me with the problem i faced at estates sound and audio and help me start the gd relation between EM and ba_comm and making my work easier.

Hui Ying and Pei Shan
Many the times i did not do my work well and i really appreciate the chances both of you gave me. Despite both of you are already busy with the work on hand you still helped me during stagewerkz to coordinate the sequencing and collection of -1 i duno how much i would panic if your help isn't there. Also the encouragement you gave when i felt like giving up teaching the new batch of logistics.

Logistics Team (AVA)- Edison, Ziq, An Qi, Sharon and Xin jie
You guys are great i seriously was impressed with your commitment and speed of learning. i am not a capable logistic to do teaching but glad that you would bear with me despite me being so muddleheaded.

i think that's about all though will edit again when i thought of more people for now i shall post i am late crap 12:51 le so much for year end post

Reflection for the year 08

Yes the final post for the year, originally decided not to blog about it as i seriously could not put it clearly in words bout how this year has passed for me. Although i decided to blog but i shall not go into details of what i had done during the year. I did alot of thinking or should i say self-reflection, although i go out alot this few days i still manage to take time out during gaps which noone notice to do my reflection. During this period normally people say i am emo but i call it normal at least for me. When you think of happy things you laugh but when you think of something regretful or sad it is normal to feel abit bad about it isn't it?


I truly think this is a year which let me taste the different flavours of life whether it is sweet, bitter, sour or even spicy. Shall talk about the 2 most common taste of life that i had been through i bet many also feels the same way as i do.

Sweet is because i really enjoyed this year as an overall i made alot of friends and i know i am changing for the better or worse i don't know is for you guys to determine but i think it is a good change though. I had seriously had lots of fun this year be it online, CCA or even with my sec sch clique. I like the bonds which we share the link called friendship that kept us together i know with you all I would never face a problem alone. I truly appreciate all the help you all had given to me and wish to say a thank you.

Bitter is due to the many problems i had faced and encountered during the year. With my CCA although we had lots of problems but none of them is a obstacle that is stopping us but instead a stepping stone to achieve better results. Each problem we faced we always able to overcome it despite how stressed up we are i am glad the event that had passed had done well although it might not met up with our expectations.


I felt that many had impacted my life this year and perhaps the you reading this had change my life directly or indirectly.

i can say this year i truly had fun with many of my frens be it my lan frens who hang out with me every sat night and always be there for each other. Although what we did is gaming but i believe it is also gaming which bond us together and everything starts from gaming.

Ba_comm clique which we often go out together for study or even had fun. You guys really changed me more than any1 else i am slowly able to communicate better because of you guys, thanks for all the encouragements you have given me throughout this year.

The Excos 08/09 i believe we have been through alot this year and i can say i am not very close to many at the start although i know u all exist but i always did not talk to you all. I am seriously happy that i am in this planning committee and because of encouragement from you all i am able to pull through all the problems i had faced. Also you people helped me explore myself find out what i can really do the limits of myself, i used to be a person of no endurance and i believe in some what i changed and had reached where i am now.

Anger filled

i feel like punching smth real hard and vent out every ounce of anger in me. i tot this I&E team would do well end up i am just getting myself fking pissed and discouraged by their actions. Some people are just not self-motivated and is so bloody irresponsible i am so not having a gd impression of that person. i want punch smth real hard nb.

BBQ~~

the ba_comm gathering cum bbq session has ended finally... i am dead tired and now i am hm sitting infront of com enjoying my instant coffee and waiting for my time to slowly pass by. i seriously miss this lazing ard days, hm ok this is not important lol. the highlight is that i finally finished my 1st event planned for ba_comm, i dun usually plan anyth except for my lan clique but i tot why not giving it a go. And there mite be abit of prob in communication as i failed to tell them everyth which they nid to know to go sam's place and also not clear in my smses. i sry bout it will work on it and hope next time it will be btr.

Seriously i sux at starting fire.. how i wish i bought the liquid fuel to speed things up be coz of my muddlehead-ness i ended up delaying the cooking process... sry suppose to start at 5.30 end up food til 7 oso not ready yet haiz... Lucky wei xuan and derek is there to help me or i seriously will have alot of prob with cooking.

Glad XX help me with cooking i seriously lack experience in such areas... altho i cooked b4 but nvr once did i bbq food alone... thx for helping lol... the bbq is fun la and also not to mention we celebrated jeff's bdae and the gift exchange.

anyway had a talk session but i did not talk much i was pondering on my own stuff and i did not want to share. Derek said that i do not wan to share becoz i lack trust in them but i am juz being selective in ppl i share with. i dun share with ppl i study with unless i grad. somehow that has been a habit since pri sch. i am sry if i dun wish to say anyth i do wan to share but now is not the time maybe some period ltr when i think it is a gd chance i will but for now my mouth is shut and would not say anyth bout my prob.

Another year...

omg in juz 3 more days it will be christmas and juz 9 more days it will be the end of 2008. Time seems to be moving so fast and soon i gona start my reflection for 2008 again. gona do some thinking bout how i had spent my year and of coz i'll get emo again lol. should start thinking onli after christmas i do not wan worsen my current mood. BBQ with ba_comms ltr in the day hope everything turns out well.

Mask mode on 24/7 and i think i am over-hiding the fact that i am becoming abit out of norm in front of my clique outing on sat is like giving myself away. They can tell i got prob oh well. gona stay low profile again.

oh my juz typing this post i am pondering alot le gotta stop and go slp soon

Spicy

i juz notice that whenever i feel bad i eat alot of spicy food. hmmm muz cut down too much spicy food not very gd for throat especially when i juz had a sore throat last wk.

Tea/coffee/coke+milk

Inspired by my NUM-BO-WAN fren - Ian which got me thinking as i tok to him bout his new picture blog/wordpress as i saw a cup of "tea"

here goes the conversation

(8:17 PM) Blur_Chap/qf : s:
y a cup of tea?
(8:17 PM) Blur_Chap/qf : s:
lol.
(8:17 PM) Blur_Chap/qf : s:
dam random leh
(8:17 PM) Ian:
coffee
(8:18 PM) Blur_Chap/qf : s:
sama sama la
(8:18 PM) Blur_Chap/qf : s:
both oso got caffeine
(8:18 PM) Blur_Chap/qf : s:
u put coke beside oso can call it tea la. juz add milk
(8:18 PM) Blur_Chap/qf : s:
colour come out should b the same

so food for thoughts will coke + milk turn out to be a look-alike to coffee/tea? so next time u go restaurant will ppl ask u coffee or tea or coke + milk instead of coffee or milk? hmmmm

Bad progress

Audit is more or less done. infact i quite confident with audit i put in effort is making notes and drawing mindmaps. getting a B abv should not be a prob unless really screw up on theory which i did for all 3 past yr paper -.- but more or less i grasp what i nid to know le. Revised abit on MA ytd. seriously my MA i think i am screwed totally i keep dun get the concept of opportunity cost zzz.

Ytd had an interesting mass convo with huiying, suern, xing xian, jeff and samantha. by rite should spent time studying til 2am de end up become some toking session lol. oh well i nid a break sometimes too. i dam scared i screw up this sem again. haiz stress~!

Study outing

been sometime since i blogged. Went to study with xx, suern, samantha and salny today. Quite a fruitful 1 manage to finish all the summary of audit and revised til chap 3.

alrite how the day goes. woke up at 10 asked parents if they r going out in the afternoon or nite and ya they decided to go at nite so ring xx up to ask meet where and whether settling lunch there. I think i woke him up with the call and i sms suern if we having lunch there as xx ask me to ask her. and yet again i think i woke her up too abit sry if i really woke both of u up psps.

suppose to meet xx at 12:30 at amk but suern sms saying she will be late, he delayed 15mins. ltr on as i left house board the bus he sms me say 1pm -.-? end up i read at 12:40 so i went to buy some bread and went over to mrt station at 1pm... but he is still late by 5mins lol.

took a mrt there and we alight a dhoby -.- becoz xx find it squeezy but it is juz 1 more stop before we alight at city hall like dotz?

we met samantha at marina square and headed to millenia walk's Burger King and settled down to study abit. after awhile suern called initially we wanted to change place to eat but end up due to soe miscommunication we settled on BK still... i am quite ok with BK except that i dun haf much variety to chose from but oh well their chicken and fish burger is gd.

Ltr on we chit chat abit and salny came and joined us. it is quite weird that suern said i could go far in future becoz i am being punctual etc... i think not only i am punctual alot of ppl r. oh well. we chit chat abit on politics and ltr started studying. manage to do up all then notes for audit and some mind maps. also read up abit on FMGT.

we went ltr on for dinner at foodcourt, xx and me took sometime in buying food as we got no idea wat to buy and walked 2 rounds b4 deciding on curry chicken noodles which is quite nice. after that we went to esplanade and sit down to tok abit. on the way suern said again i can go far in future becoz i said thank you to her when she press the open button for us...

we sat at the top and chat abit. i intially wanted to lie down and look at the stars but apparently there isn't any tonite sad... after ard 9 samantha left 1st as she got curfew and i left at 9:10 as i got proj discussion at 10. lucky manage to reach hm in time for proj.

In regards to suern's comment on me going far in life i seriously doubt it. all i ever wanted is just to get a simple job enuff for me to support myself and my family in future. i would already be contented to live a simple life. although certain ups and down would make my life more colourful but for now i dun wish for any extra-ordinary i want to live a life which i can let my surrounding ppl be happy. share their problems if they have any, share the joy with them, have a laugh with them over how clumsy i am and even if it is just having a chat or meal with them would get me contented. I dun wish to standout it is not my style nor character to be that somebody i just like my quiet life which i am having now haha

Bdae celebration at sentosa

Friday was Sandra's bdae abit out of norm for me to not sms my fren happy bdae becoz duane ask me not to so as to surprise her on saturday with the dinner. I heard she was kinda sad that no one sms her but it was all part of the plan sry =/. Saturday by rite we should leave early to search of the Mega Tian Jin Hot Pot restaurant at sentosa but ricky and keith was late -.-lll. End up we have to delay our reservation by 30mins to 8pm. We reached vivo at 7.45 and recfm with duane that he and sandra is no longer at vivo before we set out to go sentosa...

The whole journey to the restaurant was dam tedious, first we over shot the train ride by 1 and went to beach station when we should get off imbiah station (super lack of sense of direction here)... then backtrack to the merlion and called the restaurant for directions. we could not really get it so we went to the imbiah station information counter to ask for direction end getting false information. Went up 4 lvls to imbiah look out and found that we nid walk all the way down.... After like 20mins we found the restaurant at an isolated place... The place was dam empty la i dun see the point of reservation.

We waited for like 10 mins before kah meng reached and another 15 before the duane and sandra reach... Pls lo let the old wait for the young lol no sense of punctuality and 2 of you should reach 1st base on plan. oh well, i duno why i end up doing the ordering for them and end up coordinating things when i am not the organiser... Ricky u didn't do much! how could u~!~!~!

After dinner we took a train back to vivo and walk around. At this point of time i notice sandra was abit unhappy bout duane duno bout what didn't ponder much. I used buying bread as excuse to go get a cake (of coz i am still hungry tho the dinner wasn't filling) for duane to pass her. Quite impromptu here la but it worked well she's happy and no longer angry with duane so great haha.

On my way to and back from sentosa i was slightly emo. had abit of thinking there again regret certain things here and there but dun wanna let ppl notice so i put on my "emo device" (they call it that becoz i look emo when i wear that dam not in mask mode that time) but hey it is a present from my cca y call it emo device -.-

The entire train ride back to serangoon i did some major pondering, my mind juz could not stop thinking and enter auto reflection mode this days sigh. Ok i recovered i got great recovering power but also i sank in to reflection dam easily oh well that's me haha.

Emo Emo Emo

eh i wanna get smth right and that i am emo-ing is not becoz i liked some1 so dun bother guessing -.- u know who u r dun haf to let me name oso. i emo becoz of thinking too much more of like personal reflection and u find that u did alot of wrong things and feel slightly bad bout it that's all (altho slightly mite b an understatement). i am trying to adjust my mood back to norm but those thinking juz keep getting me worse. Like snow ball effect.

thriple emo = jack pot ok random =/

Seasonal emo-ness?

this is sian. my emo days seem like it wun end any soon. last time my record is i felt emo for like 3mths?

i wonder if i will break this record muz get over this and find a motivation to keep myself going

Emo Bug

I felt btr this few days after like playing dota and had some catching up wif my frens. it shift my focus away. i dun think they know that i am feeling emo and such but ya i am even wearing the mask infront of them. It's not that i dun wan show my emotions juz that sometimes certain things i must keep within myself.

Sometimes being alone isn't so bad at all. I do not need to care bout how people think bout me or look at me. I dun have any need of wearing mask infront of people or fake a smile when i dun really feel gd bout certain issues. sometimes i dun get it myself oso i gets all emo bout certain things and most of the times, infact i dun really share with people my probs since i got into poly.

Oh well. the emo bug is almost gone and i do hope i can recover from it soon, i dun wish to have this feeling again. It feels dam bad and it demotivates me alot tho i wish it could b my pushing force.

Nights. Pondering. Emo-ness

I hate sleepless nights. It keeps me thinking and the more i think the worse i become and the tougher it gets to fall aslp. How silly of me to get so emotional over something trivial. I'll nid find a solution myself to solvemyself this a learning experience for me too. Sry for those who showed concern for me and asked me on msn.

Sigh emo-ness

I just had a brief chat with my best pal on msn during EAA tutorial and sort of both of us are moody bout issue which is rather similar. I heard from him he went drinking to dis-stress abit which i had also thought of ytd.

I wonder how does it feels so relief one's prob through numbing the body with alcohol.

Smiles

Was looking at the blogs of members last night and sort of it gives me a push to keep moving by seeing their smiles and everyth. Certain blog post also says they saw a diff side of ba_comm: the fun side.

The smiles on their face gives me a sense of accomplishment and i guess with the smiles i could really move on.

StageWerkz Finale 2008

StageWerkz has been a great success! though tiring but i guess it is worth it and everyone has enjoyed the performance.



Anyway i had performed last tues at student plaza. I am so glad that lecture rally was over b4 my lect for that wk starts. Hence sort of lesser stress as other then ba_comm there is hardly any1 i know around. Phew...


The Finale was a success and every1 that put in effort deserve credit for making it happen.

Thanks Hui Ying and Pei Shan for assisting me so much. Helping me rmb what i would have missed out during finale and w/o both of you i think logistics mite screw up as i kep forget minor details

Nadia thanks for helping me out during tech run for finale organising the singers etc and help me take note of what went wrong with my plannings for logistics. Sorry for being so slack for tech run and ended up you did almost everything which i should have done for 1st half of tech run


I was quite glad that logistics side did quite well with the help of the Ushers: Darren, Xin Jie, Xin Rui, Lee Feng, Xiao Dong, Boon Chin, Gladys, Cabrina and Dacia. Thx for being so organised and doing things swiftly.

Not to mention the VIP ushers: Joshua and Edison who is so professional as a VIP ushers. i guess i did not chose the wrong person for the job. Both of you sure got the 气势 haha.

Next Kang Yi who is picked by me rather last min as i notice he got the initiative and responsible when i 1st saw him cutting the slips. I felt quite glad that you ensure all the singers are there promptly and ensures that everyth goes well. I like your efficiency when you do things keep up the gd work.

The AVA crew: firstly suern who did me a great favour to train the AVA crew thanks to you i had a load off my shoulder and could concentrate on other areas. You keep saying i help you so much but you nvr notice that you have been helping me with so many things that i could not even list them down.

An Qi and Sharon (indoor AVA) thanks for supporting suern and both of you sure are fast learner. Being able to take up the task of being lights and sound for stagewerkz thanks alot seriously.

Ziqe, Xin jie and Edison (outdoor AVA). 3 of you have also done well for outdoor ava managing the outdoor performance quite well. jy in other events and jus on a side note you will be doing indoor ava for next event.

alrite my vocab is not so great so all the words are like used over and over again... pardon my bad english so long as you get what i meant gd enuff haha.

BBQ + Belated present

So busy lately with StageWerkz that i don't have anytime to blog. I recently just planned a bbq session for my clique altho it cost me a bomb resulting in some major financial difficulty now but it is still worth it.
At least every1 enjoyed it but i could only stay for 2hrs+ b4 i muz rush home to settle Stagewerkz performance in the following day.
I received my belated bdae present from ba_comm and quite weird feeling la like ages since i got a gift abit bu xi guan and dun feel like accepting it... oh well still thank people who gave me my present: Xing Xian, Suern, Derek, Hui Ying, Pei Shan, Samantha, Salny, Ben, Hong Wei, Jeffu and Boon Chin.

Thanks for remembering my bdae guys :)

StageWerkz Finale

Everyone, the event you've been waiting for is finally here!

The finale for our very first event - Stagewerkz, will be held on 8th NOVEMBER 2008 at LT68e, 6pm.

Tickets are available for FREE at the STUDENT PLAZA on 4th NOVEMBER 2008, from 11am - 6pm.

Performances will also be held at the STUDENT PLAZA on 4th NOVEMBER 2008, 5pm.

So do come down and support your friends!

Hope to see you there (:

To support BA_COMM and help us publicise Stagewerkz, click on the image to visit the BA_COMM blog for the codes!

Happy bdae KEITH

Planned my the 1st bdae celebration for my fren, keith. Originally wan plan it on his bdae which is 22nd oct but i was schooling and had no time for it so i postpone the celebration to 25th Oct a saturday. And ytd i went with elvin and sandra to get the cake at 3pm by right ricky should be there but he was late. oh well but we still move on to Glacier a bakery at serangoon which sells quite nice cakes and look for something orangey (orange is keith's fav colour). Then we settled on a baked cheese cake and there after bought the tissue and lighter which is nvr used in the end.

Went to the lanshop to drop the cake there where i have tok to auntie before hand to allow us to keep the cake. We then went elvin house after ricky met up with us since it was not time yet and ard 5 we went to grab a bite. around 6, i suddenly rmb that i forget tell keith that i change the time to 6:30 and my six sense tells me that he is oredi at the lan. with elvin i went to the lan leaving sandra and ricky at the coffeeshop to prevent suspicion from keith.

During the lan after 2hr of dota and TF2 i went to get the cake but my initial plan is nearly spoilt as sandra attempted to drag him down( the lan is double storeyed). lucky elvin is fast (for the 1st time in history he did the right thing) he stopped kei and manage to keep him at the 2nd floor. Then ricky and i hurry up light up the candle which took a dam long time becoz we forget light the middle candle and end up scalded by the candle juz to light the middle 1.

overall it is a success as every1 enjoyed the cake and kei is happy bout it. i really enjoy planning such thing somehow. i like to see ppl happy and their bdae remembered. In a way it also build up frenship and strengthen bonds.

A blog which can't blog

i was loging in and out of blogger for like 3 times thinking of wat to blog. there's a thousand and one thing that i mite wan to blog or vent out through the usage of blogging. but i am so afraid that i'll affect ppl. in the end i nvr blogged bout any of the things that i initally wish to blogged. I finally understand what it means that there is no freedom of speech in blogs and it defeats the purpose of having a blog....

It's hospitalized!

My laptop is admited to Acer General Hospital.... apparently it seems that 1 of the vital organ called graphic card or the monitor is toasted and the doc say it must be admitted to hospital for immediate attention. It seems i have to say gd bye to it for like 5 days... Omg what am i to do w/o you computer... Currently i am using my desktop which takes 30 mins to start up and there is no games and msn to login to. Apparently my firewall block msn and i am trying hard to login...

sad.... for now contact me via hp while i try figure a way to login msn.... i'll be dead bored at hm so pls invite me if u have plan anyth haha.

mixed feelings

Should i be happy that i passed everyth or should i be sad that my gpa drop so much...?

Bleach movie 2: Diamond Dust Rebellion

Diamond Dust Rebellion was released 1 wk ago but i onli watched it ytd nite. This movie is currently the best movie out of the animes movies that i have watched. Indeed the maker did not disappoint me after movie 1 memories of nobody which is so well done.

For Diamond Dust Rebellion, the storyline was great i like how the maker twist the story here and there and the climax. What interest me the most if that every1 in gotei 13 fights at their 100% so you can definitely see alot of cool fight scenes from the animes compiled and showcased in this movie. However 1 thing that aroused my curiosity is that the time line is abit off from the anime because after chad mastered his arm and ishida obtaining his new bow they went into hueco mundo. i wonder how r they suppose to fite in seireitei or real world? perhaps this is an alternate time line or the maker made it such that the fite occurs 1 or 2 days b4 ichigo and gang enter hueco mundo.

overall incomparison to naruto shipuuden movie i think Diamond dust rebellion is way btr and i would like to intro this to the rest.

Bad attitude pawns me

I do admit i got a bad attitude bout life. i know i am at fault that we quarreled 2 nites ago but i shall not apologise yet till the day i can play well and match up to u guys standard. Also till then i shall not play with u guys anymore. I am sure u guys will have fun without me dragging u all down.

Miss the old days....

Finally a post! lol. Today sure brings back memories as i met up with my 不打不相识的华文老师。Been so long since i met her la since last yr she change sch i almost tot i lost contact. Then on teacher's day celebration as i scroll down my phone contact for Ms Ong(form teacher) i saw Ms Ong (CL teacher) oya both my form teacher and chinese teacher for sec 3 and 4 r Ms Ong. I was like lol? i still got her contact. So together with Keith and Zheng Yih we went to meet her today after contacting her and negotiating a time. Been so long that i have met her and indeed 90% of the memory of us is gone.

So much for 1 and 1/2 years not meeting her 1st sentence is wah ur hair so beng. I was stun -.-? beng meh? is lazy cut so quite long but still i did cut 3 wks ago? ah well. so we went to eat at kebab the chicken roll is nice duno why i chose subway over kebab last time. Shall have it again next time. We sat down enjoy food and chatted and of coz the topic of gf is brought up apparently i am the only one that nvr jio gal b4 abit sad but nvm... Oya i manage to find another person who got A for chinese during my class for Os: Clement and i proved her wrong that i am the only A in class haha.

After eating the chicken roll she is still hungry... so we went to this hong kong dessert shop to continue our dinner. but i onli got a drink though and i canot believe how much Ms Ong can eat sia... 1 chicken wrap, 1 float, 1 carrot cake and 1/2 cup of horlick.... And she is very skinny... we talked for another 30mins b4 we headed back hm.

Today seriously reminds me of the chinese lesson we had and how i used to debate with her in class and make her angry. But well this is past tense le and shall be kept in my memory bank. And ya trying hard to change to be an extrovert still haha.

Hopeless

Seriously i duno what am i doing i feeling so useless and demotivated by today cost accounting paper. I felt that all hope is lost and i could not even do a proper paper by myself. I tot i did all i could to get myself to pass the paper but i juz duno why my mind blanked out when i look at qn 3 and 4. i recap so much on the chapters for the past 1 wk and it just dun come to me. I duno if i could een furthur my studies. I duno why i am not like this is sec sch i used to be so confident wif my studies and now i feel as though my world is about to end. I could barely handle all this i duno if i could move on to next sem being a norm student i dam scared of being a cross lvl.

I felt very bad when i told my parents i mite fail this paper my father just nodded and kept silent. i rather they scold me for letting them down.

Disappointment....

I don't know why i am so paranoid about but i simply hate waiting for people that's super late. It might be a phenomenon that guys does not have a sense of punctuality. However if you got smth on or you are gona be late, why can't you just inform me then i can shift the thing back. I won't have to be waiting for god knows how many hours everytime we have a gathering. Seriously i hate people that are late and if i can put an effort in being punctual why can't you?

Next i think i am seriously not being respected and often being looked down. Sometimes i just hate playing with you guys you win and gets arrogant, lose then show attitude. since last wk i dun intend to go out with you guys le i dun see the point that everytime i go out i must wear a mask act like i am ok with all ur insults. I dun wanna blow up becoz i treasure the frenship but seriously i really wanted to leave this clique and just be alone. I had experience lonliness and i am not afraid to experience it again at least this way i feel more myself. I wun have to act infront of you guys. Yes i am a weakling last time but now i have my own thinking, my own way of living my life and i wun go back my old path as to 看你们脸色做人.

i doubt any of you will be reading my blog and even if you would what i say mite be bothered by u guys. Since now i dun think i am close to u all anymore.

Table topic

Completed my table topic assignment for b_comm. 1st topic: it is not what ou say but how you say it. i find this topic was ok as i can talk about communication and presentation skills but i was too nervous that i forget certain points which i have planned to say...

Today qn was a killer, what i learn about life from snow white and the 7 dwarfs. I was stun literally stun how suay can i get to tio this topic, i think hui ying will love this topic but i totally duno what to say. 1st thing that came to my mind : time to bull shit. i sat down for the 3 mins and think about wat to say. my mind was blank, i was so no childhood that i dun know what morals about life are there in the story. my turn came and i presented about the jealousy of queen bull shit for 1min+ i think, then talk about how isolated dwarfs' are that they dun accept snow white initially oh wait i think is only one of the dwarf dun accept her only, well nvm. so suay sia... table topic tio such topic -.- haiz haiz haiz.

Good Game

ROT!

i am so bored that i decided to type an entry. i tot the worst is last week's BCJ when i only attend 1hr of lesson. Today was worse, 40 mins of lesson the sensei say sayonara. i was like huh? we just finish quiz and learning how to buy food in jap and now we are going off? Bah, now i nid rot for 3hrs at OurSpace till it is time for stagewerkz training which i initially do not need to attend as it is cancelled.

unbearable 180 sec

Today had b_comm table topic but i am not talking for today =D. but i volunteered to be the time keeper. YES qingfu volunteered, miracle rite? A super introvert volunteering to be time keeper lol. Partially because noone volunteer so i must as well do it la since i not presenting oso and i was suppose to time 3 mins for them.

1st speaker is taizhong my fren la he got a topic which goes something like mastering something is needed before u add in creativity. So i started timing 4mins of preparation then start the 3 mins table topic test. When he was into the 1 min 30 sec he sort of ran out of points to say and hinted to me to stop but the tutor ask him to go on... and i have to carry on timing. Each sec seems to be crawling and passing by so slowly. then finally 3 mins up. the next classmate went up and she did oso got stuck but i still need to carry on timing despite she got nth to say.

Even the best speaker in my class have problem talking for 3mins. being a timer i have to stare at my phone till the timer and seeing the time 1 sec by 1 sec slowly crawl by. I now find out how long 3mins actually is. 180 sec can be so long and unbearable.

such a short but long day

today is the shortest day yet the one of the longest day i had. Suppose to only reach sch at 1pm for my IS BCJ but have to meet Ms choong in school to requisite mics and end up hearing that we might not need them during sing trainings. Then i slack till 11 before i went lunch and go study abit of jap before i go BCJ.

The best but yet sad thing about today is that after u finish speaking test u may leave. So i was like praying i get the last since i got sing practice ltr at 5 and i dun want to rot anymore. And here i am rotting at Ourspace. I so sian pick tio 3rd for the test and could not change with the person beside me who got the last slot...

2 ironic points
- come sch entire day juz for 1hr of lesson
- people want to get the 1st few slot when i want the last slot lol.

anyway today is unlucky day shall not elaborate on it. I am so not going to do well for BCJ speaking test and ltr there is singing practice which i hope everyth will turn out fine as i am unlucky enuff today le.

National Library and the 7 Golden Coins

When with xx they all to the NLB for the 3rd times and each time we go the seats we got will be degraded. here is what happened, 1st trip we got the sofa seat > 2nd trip we got the individual seat not that bad but no plug nearby > today we got plugs but we have to sit on the floor! Cause all the seats are taken.... So sad right everytime out seats degrade haiz.

Today is a totally slack study for me. Starting of the study at NLB xx borrowed my laptop to tok to kwee gek and guide her on how to use flash animations. They took quite sometime to settle it as there is pixelated problems as it animates and when the file is send to xx he took less than 10 sec to settle the problem... i was so stunned. OMG how zai can u be to solve it so fast. Next i took over the laptop and type in 1 paragraph to my 90% completed report and it is done lol. so much for 1 project being completed that day. then study abit of jap, abit of tax(totally lost), IFA the tutorial was quite manageable and cost i barely touch.

then xx used my laptop again to start gathering his models for his IS photography he needs around 10 people and he got 4 currently interested pls go his blog and tag him. But pls tell him b4 tmr.

Then 1 dam stupid thing happened to me! the sandwich vending machine! i only got $10 notes in my wallet so i wanted to change the note xx say he will pass me $2 note if we buy set A+B. then he go put the $2 note in the machine i stun. coz if u press refund it will come out 2 $1 coin. but the machine at NLB states smth like : notes put in would not be refunded unless purchase is made. i was like sian... dun wan buy oso muz buy le. I place my 10 bucks in press then 3rd button and smth like i hit jackpot or smth coins rolled down to the money return slot. And guess what it was a dam 7 $1 coins! argh! the weight of the coins in my wallet...

and that wasn't the worse my loose pants was on the verge of dropping thanks the additional 7 $1 coin sad sia. what an interesting day at NLB with my 7 golden coins LOL

StageWerkz Audition

Had my 2nd audition for stagewerkz in my ba_comm life i think it turned out worse than last yr. I duno why i am more tense than last yr perhaps becoz i know the judges that"s y i feel more tense? I duno why i literally screw up my audition i reach early in the morn at ard 9:20 to practice my song end up still could not control my tempo and gone haywire. But at least i am the 1st to go for audition i get over and done wif it la (早死早超生）. Then i became the camera man for the audition.

i think in ba_comm i seriously learn alot. yr 1 i did stagewerkz trained abit of singing(but still sux la), talking did radio and acting i did backstage. now yr 2 i came in contact with video-ing. But of coz neither of the things said abv i did well i think i am still cmi in all areas. still got around half a yr more to go i duno if there is any more learning experience for me but definitely i believe i can improve in the areas said above =D.

currently at NLB with XX studying and waiting for derek, samantha and suern to join us.

Slacker....

got my tax results today as expected i did very badly for it. i seriously nid to buck up, have decided to start a study plan of 2hrs per day dedicated to studying but i guess it isn't working well.... But today is my 1st day testing it out will slowly focus more time on studies manage to do my cost tutorial to qn 3.... it is a torture super tough... the qn is so indirect...

Well started on inuyasha manga duno y i juz have to spoiler myself 1st by reading the last chapter and it was a happy ending (like duh all stories end with a happy ending). Shall not continue spoil myself by reading how naraku got defeated after reviving so many times...

tmr gona get back my cost test. i expected at most a just pass la... i am mentally prepared to even fail the test... haiz

BCJ!

had my 1st jap lesson! Omg it is both fun and annoying to learn jap, fun because it is a new language, annoying is because it is a new language and i must learn everyth from the start including writing 习字....

I am glad that the class isn't as dull as normal language class i have taken in pri/sec sch there is more interaction between students in communicating with jap. My tutor a.k.a sensei, Chishiho she would take time off to allow us to apply basic jap sentence like greetings among classmates. I find that it is a good way for ice breaking among classmates and also learning jap.

time to recap some jap stuff here hehex =X
konichiwa, watashi wa qingfu desu onamaewa? (good afternoon, i am qingfu. what's your name?)
watashi wa XXX desu douzo yoroshiku. ( my name is XXX, please to meet you)

goshuushin wa? (what country are you from)
watashi shingapo-ru jin desu.

there's somemore line but i haven't really figured out the spelling... haha. haiz still got 习字 somemore~ Gambatte! shukudai hajime mashou

Comm Camp

It has been 3 days since comm camp ended and i finally hardworking enuff to blog about it. This year comm camp i think it was gd and every1 has enjoyed themself during camp from wat i heard all the 3 workshops are fun and the campers really enjoyed themselve during this 3 days of camp.

Day 0 was quite tiring i have to drag myself up from bed early in the morning and i tot i would be early end up i waited at clementi bus stop for 20+ mins just for a bus that goes to ngee ann to arrive... i shall not blame the efficiency of sbs as it is a sunday ppl normally sleep in late wun blame them for reducing the frequency. but i still manage to reach sch in time but peishan and xing xian actually reached earlier than me by at least 15 mins. xing xian called me and told me ard 10 excos are w8ing for me at blk 51 -.-lll. apparently i knew it was a lie.

It was tiring and i was kinda not feelin so well on that day and every1 was like asking me to rest. But my work is undone and i really wish to get my work done b4 i rest and even after mass dance practice which ended at 2+am i still couldn't slp partially becoz i am excited and my Day 0 ended without any sleep

during the camp to sum it up i think i did nth at all. basically nth other than to setup equipments and dodge ball game IC i think i had the slackest job among exco. There is no excuses for me not doing things and i dun deserve credits for the games which is being planned by suern. i feel so much like a freeloader in this camp wat i have done, time contributed to camp seems so mediocre compared to the rest. Every1 is like slogging their life out putting ba_comm as their priority and i am juz being a typical freeloader in this CCA.

during Day 3 thrash out sessions i found out many people has been sacrificing so much for ba_comm. seriously i feel wat i have done is nth compared to them, i'll do my best in putting in my 100% in ba_comm and do my part for ba_comm and not let others do my work. i shall not be a freeloader in this CCA.

Gd Bye WiThOuT

I thought it would be nice to help ricky get his AC through my own guild's private zak but end up i am wrong. Totally wrong. I stayed up late last nite during the midnite to play my fren's priest as i thought i can help my own guild in their zak but i so goddam noob that i died at B1. Having Dc-ed due to time limit to stay in a map when dead i got no idea wat is going on inside Zak's altar.

Yes it is my fault that ricky burn so much potion for this zak and i tot i would bear full responsibility in paying up for his pot so i spent my own money buying potions for him and hope he would forget about it. i remember smsing him b4 i sleep that forget that he ever been to without zak just let it pass. he replied me: "since u insisted there is no in saying no" doesn't that means he wil forget about the whole issue? But whatever for did you go forum and list out the details u scared whole of forum people duno bout it?

Have you all ever spare a though for me? Here my 6 yrs of real life fren blaming me for inviting him to zak, on the other hand my Guild master telling me that my fren is bad mouthing guild. Seriously which side you want to to take you tell me? got a saying: 手心是肉 手背也是肉 both have almost equal position to me. I am quite attached to this guild but i guess i have to leave this guild le i dun wanna face such pressure ever again. Gd bye WiThOuT.

life is sian

I seriously need some precious time off from this hectic life. Everyday not occupied by project then is used up by CCA planning. Seriously i need a break, i miss dota for 2 hellish weeks!

I am so wishing that i can push all my work aside and go out have fun.

OMG i am busy with work yet i am blogging so ironic rite? currently chionging Bcomm and ltr IFA tutorial.

Haiz my life sux! can't wait for hols

3 cheers to ISP grp!

Inaug was on saturday and i practically did nth during inaug. As expected la i will be in the shadow and no1 will know me de.

Anyway today i am quite happy finally my ISP grp is showing some teamwork and we manage to get things organised. I am very glad la that finally work is done and also we are being praised by the tutor! to be 1 of the more efficient and well-organised group in her ISP classes. 3 cheers for my ISP grp YAY! From what i heard my ISP assign 1 did quite well which is a motivation for me to work even harder for this assign 3.

2 emo guy at Cash studios lolz

Listening ear

Work load piling up, tutorials not done, stress from various sources and rants that i have to keep within me. I seriously lack a pair of listening ears. For quite sometime i have been lending my ears to others and having to keep all this secrets and not leak even a word out is seriously tough. Ironically i have been lending a ear to people listening to their problems but actually my problems i had nvr shared or mention to any1. I practically kept everything in and try my best to get over it myself.

Seriously now i think i nid some1 to share my problems with haiz but there isn't any1 i can trust in poly...

Over-demanding?

Sometimes i just dun get it am i being too over-demanding or is it just my teammates not serious in their work. I am the very impatient type i hate spending time waiting for ppl take their own sweet time over things. Yes i tend to rush people for work, but if at the end of the day when i ask u u can produce results from your work by i wun be so angry that i haf to shout. Why am i always the one doing solo work and the work i passed down is always not done. Some just do their work without even reading the project guidelines, wat is the point of doing without following instructions? I am sick today fyi i really wanted to rest but end up i have to the work myself. I am so pek cek and stressed up does any1 understand and make life easier for me?

A man with no goal.

i have just visited my fren who hav just started a new CCA at NP not so much of a CCA yet though as he need go probation. Anyway the CCA is about Frisbee if you are interested in the sport Frisbee you can get more info from me and my fren is finding people for his CCA oso.

After seeing my fren and his newly created CCA i can really see that he know what he really want to accomplish in life. Since young he have always been successful and a very dependable guy which i look up to. I rmb meeting him at P4 and that time he is already very independant and acquire leadership skills. After seeing how much he sacrifice and lead his CCA i can reassure what i have seen the past few yrs and looking back at myself, i am still a very dependant guy which could not accomplish anyth in life. I really do wish i can join my fren's CCA but i am nvr gd in sports and i have too much stuff on hand that i duno if i am able to commit anymore.

If you wish to join UFO - ultimate frisbee organisation (i think is like this la abit forget the full name smth lidat) pls tell me thank you.

Recruitment Drive

Recruitment Drive have finally ended. It has been a great experience for as this is the first time i met with obstacles when it comes to planning. It is a new learning process for me. In the midst i often had the thought of giving up as i am not exposed to such pressure often.

i really must thank chu hao for being there to guide me and advised me through everything be it logistics or personal issues. Also Suern for helping me alot during RD settling all the admin side of work, rushing ernie for songs etc. Really i could not do this on my own and i hope that in the future we will be able to work better and produce better results.

i have been quite harsh on people ytd as everything just build up and i hope all the logistics and helper would forgive me for my bad temper. i guess 1 thing i must take note that i must not get impatient with things and lose my temper. Frankly i am really impatient la i hope if next time i lose temper again just scold me la so i can stop.

i not good with words but thanks to all exco, ex-exco and seniors (marvin, melvin and alex) for being there la. Throughout the 3 days without your help and encouragement i would have given up actually i am not stressed up at all. Really! i am just tired la which i think everyone is sry if i make any1 wry.

RD has come to an end and it is time to start the yr going. i really hope i can pull through all this and work well with the exco. I do hope i can control my temper and gain more confidence through this year. there is definitely one things i must learn : not be too demanding when i take charge of stuff. i just notice i am being demanding as i take charge of projects in sch and ytd logistics matters. I must control myself more le sry ppl

Incompetent

i am seriously losing alot of sleep recently. no matter what i do in all areas i seriously think i am a hindrance to ppl. basically i did nth but increase the problems which ppl got, always wanna act smart and do things end up need people clear up my mess. i was really wandering sometimes am i the 1 holding every1 back?

i dun wan the 1mth+ effort to be ruin by me. haiz so incompetent of me

...

it's been sometime since i have posted. many things have been going on during the hols and it is driving me nuts.

firstly i was under the agency TCC and worked as a banquet waitor the job is challenging la and of coz i made alot of careless mistakes here and there but nevertheless i made it through the 3 weeks work. but slogging my life out i only earn a pathetic 420 bucks in 3 wks.... -.-

next is the planning for Recruitment Drive for Ba_comm! i am under logistics and i can say i slack through most of the meeting becoz i got nth to do till they finalise their events and items needed! i am super dependant on ppl for now i still duno how does TLC work and i hope after a few trips i would get a hang of how logistics work.

Currently sch reopen and i am still in holiday mood i totally not in the mood to study yet and i almoz wanna gif up hope studying due to my low GPA grade. haiz. the class i am in this sem is competitive 2 4 pointers in my class i heard sibeh stress!

BA_comm Recruitment Drive
28th to 30th Apr
10am to 6pm
Canteen 1 (recruitment booth)
Student Plaza (Performance area)

do drop by to have a look and enjoy 3 different events we have - Act.Sing.Talk
PS: onli open to all BA students

Sakae and unlucky events~

Today went out to Sakae wif my gd buddies. Supposedly to meet at Plaza for Sakae but somehow Sherman got tricked by his frens and ended up the Sakae at Dhoby is onli for take aways. Well end up we went to Kovan for Sakae and we arrived 30 mins earlier for the lunch buffet -.-lll.

Sry i nvr check the time cause u all u turn up too early, well the sushi was nice and we r like 80% full they started bringing out stuff like Takoyaki, Crab meat ball etc.... we r like got so many nice things behind we ate so fast and end up too full for them. The Tako at Sakae was dam nice! But the serving is little and small so we wait for the next plate to come. Wait for like 5 to 10 mins none come sia, ended up sherman say we r paying to wait oso so we gave up -.-lll and went to the arcade.

after that originally wan go Movies de but haiz my phone spoil haf to rush home w8 for my Part-Time job leader's call. so haf to pang seh keith and sherman to go home.... today is dam suay, now i ruin the lan of sherman who wanted movie and oso lost 3 days worth of job becoz my boss cannot contact me as my fone is spoilt. i dam pekchek sia. haiz originally tmr start work, end up start on fri as the booking is full!

Unlucky day

Job interview

Originally wanna blog ytd but i end up blogging at my guild blog on some scandal acts of Sunny and Leo XD. haha

ytd went for my job interview as a waitor well i am suppose to take an injection but my parents say no nid leh. So i duno if i should still go and take the injection mah. well i think chances of me getting the job mite be slim altho my frens say like cfm get de. Ytd interveiw there is so any applicant sia i wonder if there is really slots available. Fri haf to go for the training session for 3hrs!!! ouch. Muz cut my hair again! becoz of my fringe maybe juz ask my father help me trim trim abit can le la.

fri cfm cannot go chalet le i quite hesitant wan go sat de chalet mah. go there like meet virtual world fren abit >.>. so i think i shall juz see if i got the mood and courage to go meet them or not lo.

For now i hope i can get the job la wanna work and earn $.

Exam; Online gaming; Guild

omg got nearly 1mth bo blog le and this blog is building up spider webs. by rite on fri nite wan to blog but i end up playing too much maple until i too high le... well sort of now i am kinda free too lazy to game oso le so i blog.

Overlook of my Exam : my exam is a screw up cfm my BMGT wun do well le; FFA quite confident but CT sure pull me down like no tmr sigh regret CT nvr study well; Blaw should be can do well in short and but LAC 1st qn gone liao; lastly MAEC the whole paper is easy except Singapore economy part B which i scared i wrote too little. i really really hope to get at least 3.2 for this sem. i know a 3.5 and abv is impossible and the chances is almoz NIL.

hehex i feel kinda bonded wif my online frens especially my guildmates. lol i really like to disturb people online XD. SimplyLeo and Joscelin are always being targeted as my source of entertainment. =D dun say me that i am very obsessed with mapling or online gaming, it is a place where i can make alot of frens so ya =D.

Guild chalet this thurs duno wan go mah may end up being introvert again and not tok. i onli active in toking online not outside. i still thinking bout it sigh

The mood just isn't there; Slacker

argh juz ard 3 more weeks b4 it is exams... darn i still in the happy-go-lucky mood and totally no motivation, no mood, totally lack the feeling to chiong my study despite my super low GPA!

i nid find a study group to study together cannot concentrate when i study alone cannot stand it i too slack le. must find a way to force myself to study. any1 wanna form any study group? i really in need of people to push me to study.

Feb 15 - FFA
Feb 16 - BLAW
Feb 18 - BMGT
Feb 21 - MAEC

i hope i got the dates right i must create awareness that the exam is near get rid of the happy-go-lucky attitude!
FFA must work hard die die muz at least get B+ which means this final exam i do very very well in order to achieve that since my CT i nearly fail it...
Blaw currently a B muz buck up aim for a B+ if possible an A
BMGT totally screwed nvr even touch yet shall study it the 1st thing study break starts aiming for B+ since the tutor say our project worth a B onli
MAEC die die must get B+ at least altho i am aiming A.

no matter what i cannot let my GPA drop lower than GPA i have the last sem. mus achieve 3.3 at least to pull my gpa up to abv 3... haiz frankly i not feeling any stress coz i barely studied for my exams yet. must work hard qf do or die.

O level results out tmr

how fast almost a yr have pass since i got my O level results in mid february and tmr O lvl result is going to be released again. I really hope that i can go back tmr and take a look at the statistcs of how well my sec sch did.. How uncoincidental that my lesson start at 9 and end at 4 dam...

but i am sure that my sec sch will do great in O level shall gather some friends and go back next week andtake a look i guess... Gd luck for those getting their O level results!

Embarassed

Today must be the mos embarassing day in my life! i had to run at Our Space and shout terrorist twice... wth lo so embarassing thx to the LMS... i hope no1 recognise me la, i am so unglam juz now i can't wait to hid myself after running at Our Space. sigh embarassing!

speaking of LMS i nid to blog for it le... got so many post not blogged yet must blog them liao

Regrets?

Today i got an unexpected question from a fren: What will u regret if u pass away one day...

I was like huh? i nv thought so far lo... i duno how to ans at all it sort of kept me pondering on it since morning till now... hm. well i am quite a boring person with not much thought or accomplishment. If there is any regrets i think it would be how i had lived my life so far. Altho ppl say a simple life could be satisfying too but i really wanna live a life whereby i can get attention and mix with people easily... but sadly i am quite an introvert, i can hardly talk to a group of strangers or people that are not so close to me. Actually i am the chatty type ba at least online whether it is online game or msn i am always the flooder or initiating a chat. but real life is sort of the other original part of me will arise and take control and just sit down and stone. Perhaps this is the reason why i game so much, i get to see the me that's chatty.

and yupz i regret living this life whereby i am too quiet but i guess it is just part of me, my character couldn't change it easily tho. will try la perhaps i bring a laptop with me anyth i chat ppl on msn LOL

DDay over! + some regrets on acad

D-Day over... last event of my Yr1 kinda nostalgic la 1 yr seems so pass to fast la... it was like not long ago i was in inauguration and now the last event is over. This is the first time i participate in an event not as a particpant but a helper: backstage crew.

New experience for me and altho it is tough and i screw up a few times but nevertheless it was a success and i enjoy it la but it seems that time really fly so fast lo...

haiz originally dun wanna blog this becoz it will definitely affect my mood but i muz blog in hope that i read it le will motivate myself to work harder... i not sure if some of my frens after readin this will still consult me on FFA or POA stuff but i scored a freaking low score of 22.5/40 for my FFA test i think i am the 2nd last is class... i have the shock of my life when i recieve my results i always score A for POA in sec sch getting a just pass for FFA now! i muz really work hard i cannot accept the fact that i actually get a D grade for FFA CT.

I must admit i am very demorialised at the results i totally got no mood for anyth ytd, during DDay i sort of drag myself to move. I duno how i am going to do next inorder to buck up i still couldn't get myself to study even tho i am so angry wif myself. I know i understand the concepts but i just couldn't sit down and study/revise. it was all my own fault that i am so over-confident with myself.

I nid some1 to push me to study pls... i lack te selfmotivation now dammit wat should i do... so pissed with myself

screwed up PPT

Why does Acer have problem connecting to the projector! dam my IAC presentation i think gone case. sigh i dun wanna retake IAC lo... i wanted at least a B+ for IS modules, pls i dun wan get pull down becoz of IS modules i'll try my best this term if i score another 2.X gpa i think the rest of my poly life i slack le since i no chance to get in Uni if my 1st yr is stuck to 2.X gpa.

So many other projects to do and presentation to make. having IAC and LMS done, i still got BLAW, BMGT, MYOB assignment and BCA to do. Sigh so much things to do not to mention i ghaven't even started my revision for any modules, frankly i still in holiday mood i totally no motivation to study at all...

some1 be my motivation push me to study pls.. nid to concentrate

Help me!

sianz.... who can tell me the exact time length of IAC presentation time! i am getting a wide variety of answers from different people. i dam scared that my team's presentation will be stop half way due to time constraint. i dun wan that to happen~

how how how! ppl that know pls tell me on msn. i really nid to find out the time given for IAC presentation...

D-Day

我总觉得自己好渺小，我的一言一行没人会去注意， 我总是被人忽略。我所提出的意见真的那么难被人肯定吗？

sad things aside~ today is my 1st ba_comm rehearsal for D-Day! i dam sian lo... the only backstage people ard... and i am so clumsy unable to get things done properly always must pester clement, ben, wei xuan or chun hao for help haiz... i hope on that day got more people around at backstage orelse i gona make alot of mistake~ Pls qf be more focus and not so clumsy dun screw up le...

oya if any1 interested in ba_comm acting event which is D-day and is taking place on 12th jan at 6pm in LT26. any1 wan tickets find me on msn pls... all tickets are foc de so dun wry! pls support us!

IAC/LMS presentation soon JY ppl!

Disappointment

i am so disappointed with my Blaw CT haiz... didn't even manage a B+ for it.. very disappointed i totally screwed up my LAC format i flunk it in fact... haiz.. nid practice on LAC more le