2007~

Finally the last day of 2007~ many things has happened this year good and bad experience and i felt that i have grown in this yr.

shall start on my part time job with my best fren Ian on January, it ism y 1st job and i being super blur and muddlehead really could not make it for those hamper job. but i am very glad la, Uncle Aw ( is this how u spell his surname) and uncle Peter is willing to slowly guide me. This job really change my opinion bout working life, i thought that at work will have abit of backstabbing here and there... but this job is purely bout BACKSTABING and using relation to work... Me and my fren having no relation or link wif the people there was on the weaker party and often got bullied ard... ok la maybe juz me coz Ian is btr with people around. before i got in Ian has already established a close relation with the part-timers there. i am so sorry Ian becoz of me u cut ties with them and help me out. I am so very sorry bout that. i can remember how Wee Ching, u and me took revenge by not buying their meals properly lolz...

9th feb the day i got my results...
ok la if i say i did badly ppl will bash me up as some of my frens didn't score well but it is really way below my expectations... 11 for L1B4 and 14 for L1R2B3. i was like aiming for 10 points wif at least 3 A1s. haiz guess sometimes things dun turn out the way you want. But well i still got in the course that i wanted since sec 3... diploma in Accountancy.

April 16 ( hope i didn't get the date wrong) BAOC
i am no very close to my BAOC group mainly becoz i dun tok much and we are all doing our own things oso... but i made a fren Joel Han. he was a nice person to tok to, he is able to trigger a chat very easily and even i who dun tok much can go chatting wif him at ease.

After knowing Joel, he ask me join Ba_comm wif him, initially i have no intention to join any clubs or CCA in poly but since a fren asked me y not go try try. yupz i guess i nvr regret joining i hope. Altho Joel quitted buti am glad la i made alot of frens thru ba_comm i was an anti-social and i nvr thoght that i would have any frens in poly but ya ba_comm helped me open up abit. i had close frens from ba_comm like Derek, Xing Xian and Suern.
lolz i nvr fail to chat/disturb Xing Xian at least once a day... haha sry Xing Xian bored always muz find u crap de.
Derek can say is my mentor, everytime on the way home without fail everytime i bring up a problem he can gimme as many solution as u can think of. and somemore we are from the same sec sch i think that makes me closer to him ba? lol able to tok abit more freely with him.
Suern i think is the closest fren i have in ba_comm? but i am abit useless la everytime she got problem i nvr seems to be able to help and the solution/encouragement i gif is like photocopier....

Ba_comm have many events i participated in 2 events this yr the stagewerkz and Motion. Stagewerkz i was taught by Jenn and she guided me thru. i from an inexperienced, introvert got slowky reformed and encouraged to have the guts to stand at atrium and sing... Thanks Derek, Weekok, Peishan, Xing Xian, Suern, Jenn, Clement, Marvin and Cheney who motivates me to perform.

Under Talk event: Motion, i joined the radio component. It is lead by Marvin and Ruby, i think i messed up on the final exam as my voice is not projected in to the mic as i duno y i keep shifting away from it... It is quite discouraging la to see people reducing in numbers from a strength of 8 to the pint whereby onli 4 took the exam..

Oya very sry to my IAC/LMS team becoz of my work i am unable to commit alot of time to the Projects so very sry. I have a very fun time working wif u all in the video haha sure is funny.

Ah yes my 1st sem class TA06, again sry i nvr attend any of the outing due partially laziness and 2nd outing clashes with my part-time... sry sry.

my current Class TA03, i dun think any1 of u wil read this as i doubt any1 know my blog and we are not very close wif each other in class. I sure hope we can get more bonded ya, i hope i wil be of any help during FFA ( as i am saboh-ed to be the rep).

I shall throw away all unhappiness of 2007 and lok forward to 2008!
If i missed out anyth tell me on msn!

Finally blogged

so long since i blogged~

Well i guess this blog is dead le but well i guess i still need to blog once in awhile? The 2 weeks break has been almost burned up by my gaming time at home except for a few session of LMS and IAC meetings, my projects(my portion) are all half done, really bo xim go do sia...

I very happy bout my LMS at least now we are getting work done and finally we are doing things tgt and finally show some cooperation( i hope we have the team spirit there? ). LMS video done! altho i haven't seen the final product which wan ying haf completed but i think ya it should be very well done! wanna praise them abit =D

thx yusheng for being the old man lolz the 老不死 of the video, hannah the wife who got the most takes out of the video! altho u alot of NG la becoz forget script laugh etc but ya cannot blame u all the scene got u de. Ying Qi who edited the script and ensure the whole things flows duno how the team will do w/o you haha. Wanying who helped us complete the video and acting as daughter in the vid.

i find myself in this break too slack le... MYOB barely started, BCA nvr even bother... which i hope i will do it tmr, Blaw i will definitely do tmr and BGMT which i duno what i suppose to do. well i will have to stop all the online gaming le cannot stand leaving my work undone...

麻烦~

最近真的好烦，我好不容易撮合了我的两个朋友但似乎他们的感情最近不是很顺利。而我也得但他们的和事佬。麻烦的是双方都很倔强-.-， 要他们好好地坐下来谈一谈却没有任何人肯退让...

头痛...

Bon voyage

Been sometime since i last posted, the ytd was the last group meeting for my clique as ricky was about to leave for indonesia and be would not be back till april... haiz ytd i was planning a sakae sushi for the clique, sry sherman i made everyth so rush for u despite u had a tiring day u still make ur way down. keith has left for m'sia and would be back on wed i think, sigh the clique wun b tgt le i think duno how things would change after april the distant between us is like widening...

my 1st and onli clique in sec sch is reducing, from 9 to 6 and down to 5 wonder how things would change, time can really change frens to strangers

ricky enjoy ur trip back and rmb to remain contact at least login msn once in awhile if u can

PON sch!

lol juz woke up and guess what i pon sch today lolz since it is juz BCA and BMGT lect i dun feel like going oso rather rest/mug since last nite i mug till 3am...

well juz pon 1 lesson onli mah dun think will coz me to get barred so ya after exams will still go for lessons de so haha. MAEC i think i revise enuff le now half way thru contract 2

MAEC - revised
FFA - yet to revise...
BLAW - revising

Dilemae

haiz i feel like particpating in D-day both acting and events but i dam scared becoz of my own involvement in CCA will hinder the progress of my projects. haiz what should i do? some1 teach me a way to have a win-win situation haiz...

Friends

Rainy days can really let people think alot, at least for me. Somehow i starting to think i really dun have any close friends, friends that i normaly go out with are just playmates none of them are close to the extent that i can pour my thoughts to them. The only really close friend that i had wif during pri sch and sec sch life seems so distant. I can remember the days where by i just could talk hours with him and in sec sch chat on msn wif him, somehow such scenes seem to be lost. although i turn to ba_comm to talk to but they are not really close to me, i cannot 100% tell them my thoughts and i don't want to be said to be asking for people pity by telling too many people my probs. i really hope to have a friend in poly that i can just sit at a place and chat over a drink for hours...

I think i have just going out with friends now just to follow them or just help them have enuff people for a game of LAN.

ba_comm meeting + pool

Today was FUN! let's start right from afternoon (coz i slept till 12pm =X)

2pm was ba_comm meeting for D-day and i was abit late la coz missed 2 bus + was bz and left home at 1pm so haha. then they are like discussing bout RED camp, i finding hard to add on to the conversation coz my voice today was totally croaky and very pain! after meeting we walked to Bukit Timah plaza and on the way xing xian keep asking me entertain him when my voice is almoz gone, purposely de lo -.-!

then reach Bukit Timah we went Canteen 5( reco by alex) the nasi lemak was not bad la but wasted xing xian nvr jump up and dance lolz jk jk dun kill me xing xian when u read this =X. then played pool! lolz i am a noob and i don't dare learn from my frens becoz i scared i waste their time but i am so glad that Ba_comm willing to teach me. then played a match wif xing xian, he let my on purpose de lo... always purposely dun hit in then i win oso find it like so unreal de... then xing xian used my laptop to take photos lolz. the photos turn out abit dark as there is no flash haha.

then photos time! look at the hunks play pool, sad the pics are too dark to be seen but well they are proz....

lol? wat is wif the advertising of PSP xing xian?

haha end of my post =D shall post more if got the time cyaz

RED camp de 感想

the 2nd day of RED camp had ended and moving towards the 3rd and last day of the RED camp. i guess i was to hyped up and shouted too much my throat now is very sore and painful. well i practically got too hyped le la shout and shout non-stop since 3pm i clock in even fabian say i very enthu in RED camp lolz. Well i want to change, i don't want to be the old qingfu that really sit at 1 corner and listen. I wan to be more participative, this is the target and mission i set for myself in the yrs to come in ngee ann. i want to convert from and introvert to extrovert altho i still super not used to it that i am so let go during RED camp. but at least i tried la and will contd will i have the courage and ability to interact with people.

tmr last day le and yet i nvr let any RED campers rmb me at all, i doubt i even gave them an impression of who i am. Tmr i gona be super hyped up ( i hope) and cheer wif them till the very end. jy qingfu u can do it, juz that r u willing to put in the effort. show them the viking spirits!

how to lead a stress free life?

Nowadays time seems to pass so fast it is like 1 day 24hrs not enuff to use at all! haiz things are juz popping up 1 by 1 after motion immediately there is a RED camp. well but sort of ba_comm helped me to managed my stress abit. having being "counciled" by derek, kwee gek, suern and some sec sch frens sort of 想通了abit. at least got somebody to talk to and share some thoughts with one in awhile is quite beneficial i guess. Thx ba_comm =D

Bad transport day....

omg this mite be my 1st time being late for a tutorial, when i left home early! how suay can this be sia, got stuck at Outram MRT station for nearly 20mins missing 3 rides.... i duno y sia but somehow 1 of the mrt is out of service and it stops at outram and the crowd on the mrt are forced to alight at outram. Then i missed 2 MRT becoz of the over crowding but lucky manage to squeeze in the 3rd. somemore today got graded class work for FFA and i was like late for 10 mins. lucky that the test haven't start but i was too flustered and cannot concentrate.... wat a time to encounter a MRT breakdown!? argh pek chek not gona do well for this graded class work le!!!!!!!!

I wan contd the sai kang....

well originally wanted to blog ytd night bt went out wif my clique and ended up reaching home very late. Well the graduation night is tmr and i am so surprised that i am nominated for the "best voice"? lol? well i was the worst in the group and probably the most freaked out among those that took the test. how can i possibly get nominated the best voice when no1 can hear what i am saying?

well i so wish to do sai kang tmr.... rather b usher than be the 1 sitting there and be audience.... haiz i suppose i shall give D-Day a pass le altho juz 1 more event i can complete all act-sing-talk in my 1st yr. but i shall leave it for next yr y finish everyth in a yr and leaving the rest of my 2 yrs in ba_comm with nth else to do?

tmr i see if i can squeeze in sai kang or perhaps sneak in =D

Radio ends~

it all boils down to 1 test after 5 weeks of trainings from marvin and ruby. i don't think i did well but at least i tried my best and i am happy with it. There's so many help from various people so glad to know them, without them i dun think can even come up with my script.

hmm gona thank them 1 by 1, firstly ricky who help me cut my SFX but a pity i cannot use them as the sound turn out very weird when i did my sound check.

next leonard who stayed up till late of the night to help me draft up my script, giving me alot of info on WoW, it certainly is a great help thx =)

The english pro, ian who helped me edit my anime script thru msn, w/o him i am so gona make a fool out of myself due to the tons of grammar mistake i got. and wei xuan who help me edit the WoW script in school.

Finally the 2 teachers, ruby and marvin who guided me through the 5 weeks course for radio many thanks to both of them i had a feel of being a DJ

blog more after school this is DJ kaze signing off =)

Enjoyable stress

OMG life have been so stress since the new sem haf start! other than the usual schoolwork stress, there is stress from BA_comm but ironically this mite be the 1st time i got so motivated wif it. Despite it cramming up my study time and force me to stay till late of the nite, i am actually enjoying it i really dun mind spending time for some reason. My frens are like saying i am crazy stay overnite juz to do up some stupid script but well maybe i am. Juz 2 more days to the final event and i hope i can really manage this stress and turn it into motivations. Shall not blog so much till the actual thing is over =D.

1st blood!

wow so long since i last posted and my blogs seem so dead.... well nowadays i am super bz hardly had time to blog becoz my CCA currently have an event on planning and i am bz preparing for it... shall not divulge too much =X.

well today did my FFA marked assignment 1st test of the sem i will now score well le haiz tio draw 1st blood sia, by rite can discuss de and oso open book but duno y my tutor dun allow i borrow correction tape oso kena.... Suay hor! and i nvr found out i did wrong sia i tot i do everyth swee swee even got enuff time to rewrite then last min chen yu tell me got error i was like huh? got meh? my eyes duno is blind or what cannot tell it is an error.... i got poa background de end up ake such stupid mistake haiz, this is y over-confident kills!

live journal sort of haf let me dis-stressed alot since i started blogging there 1 wk ago. tho i haf been blogging there i'll try to maintain here oso.... dun bother ask for my live journal URL u wun be able to read, the corner is purely for me to vent anger and all negative thoughts.... well nth much to blog nid rush IAC

Demoralised

haiz.... i definitely not a making to b a ldr haiz.... i am so screwing up the IAC proj.... i am not a decision maker, unable to steer the grp thru. sigh so stressed, if things dun work out i think i dun wan b ldr le.... i am so demoralised now, hope at least can settle on a topic and get things started.

The missing piece: Confidence...

omg i really lack confidence how???? any1 know how to build up confidence?? argh my 1st test in this sem is so tough... haf to lead a grp in IAC! omg is this within my means??? haiz headache sia, everytime i lead smth will cock up, hope this time will turn out well.... i dun wan becoz of me whole grp get C or below, they place their bet on me to lead i hope i can put in my best and pull thru this trial...

Jyushin Enbu

Currently watching Jyushin Enbu in sch, a new anime i found on web =D. Due to sch's poor internet i am still loading the anime well watch about 50% of the anime and it looks great.

The story roughly goes: there is 7 stars in the sky and each is assigned to a human on earth wif Hokushin Tenkun mark on them. Among the 7, 2 stars namely, Tonrou and Hagun dominates. the main lead Taitou had the Hagun mark on him and his has the ability to use the sword, kenkaranpu. The drawer of the kenkaranpu sword will have the power to rule the world. And Keirou, the bearer of the Tonrou mark is after the sword and Taitou would cross his path to stop him from doing so.

it is quite a nice anime at least for the start, i like the way it begins well watch it if u r an anime fan, i think u will enjoy it. Oya forget to mention it is a masterpiece from the creator of full metal alchemist, if u like FMA, u muz watch this

i hate it so much when i inform ppl 1 wk ago that i planning smth for the grp and end up all pull out on the day b4 the actual day.... some ppl are worse they dun even bother to reply me, always having prob contacting them, then when we go u w/o them. they will then make noise say nvr ask them when they r looking forward to watching this movie wif us... the prob is u all r so hard to contact and i am always finding a slot that fits all of u all, i cannot like cancel the whole thing juz becoz of 1 or 2 unable to make it.... if u originally say u can make it pls clear all ur stuff on that day dun waste my effort pls, u all plan smth i always try my best to turn up y u cannot do the same?

this is not the 1st time i going out wif juz 1 or 2 ppl in the cliche le, duno when wil we haf a chance to b like laz time haiz

the start of a new sem! have to start working hard le laz sem did not fair well muz buck up this sem or i mite not b able to get in Uni 3 yrs ltr.... Sch stuff aside let's tok bout ytd =D. went out wif Ba_comm ppl to Kbox and celebrated Kwee gek's bdae, well duno y i am always so quiet cannot help it la furthur more i juz notice i tend to stand away from the grp, even if they pull me closer i will slowly move away. i didn't even notice i am shifting away la.... well i'll try to b more active next time, perhaps i juz dun wanna tok and often alone too often that i am not used to crowd? well mite b too late to blog bout this but still happy bdae kwee gek =D

xing xian was diao-ing me on msn for being so early to go sch.... lol can't help i like to b a weirdo and go early....

END OF SL CAMP

Well ytd was too tired to blog so i decided to blog now... Frankly i dun enjoy much of the camp especially the night games... they should not use food to play la and almoz all stations r using food and making the whole game dirty... well at least still enjoyed in the mass dance, which i think is the best of all activities. altho they say there should not b any tribe call BA_comm but still where ever u look u will still see ba_comm ppl gather in grps, hmm at nite i heard they gathered at eco park and had supper?! coz they ate at 5+ i think saw them but was too tired so i went back rm and slept... well vikings won the PT part at least *clap clap* =D

After the event juz now i think i rather blog bout anger b4 i leave for camp... somehw anger is smth that's so hard to control and perhaps it would b easier for anger to control us. i dun get it y ppl r so vulnerable to their emotions especially anger... it can coz ppl to lose control and do things that r beyond their character and explode into fury and the wrong time.

bonding often broke becoz of 1 pt getting angry wif the other or wif each other... short-tempered ppl are often ppl that lose fren easily i think which is probably my case i can flare up so easily especially when irritated or being very annoyed bout smth... being able to control ones temper isn't at all an easy task, i doubt any1 would haf full control of their temper and know when is the right time to get angry.

i muz try to control my temper btr orelse i mite really lose alot of my frens...

Apology

Sry taizhong for being so rude juz now pls accept this apology dun wanna lose a fren like u

Happy Bdae to me =)

HAPPY BDAE TO ME! finally i hit 17 =D and as usual i dun let much ppl know my bdae and this yr i told none until today i set it as nick on msn. haha i muz b a weirdo to hide my bdae from ppl, well i dun like to celebrate bdae so sry to those that i nvr tell them bout my bdae =X. thx Taizhong, Ian, Suern, Peishan, Kah Meng, Wei Xuan and Derek who wished me on msn after they spotted my nick, u all sure made my day =). On top of that i wish Ernie happy bdae oso but i doubt he will see this coz he duno i got a blog haha well should juz wish him rare to see some1 born on same day wif u =). hehex nowadays lazy to blog, well will blog again after my SL camp last day of work tmr well gona miss times alot...
*edits*
juz an hr+ more b4 my 1st day of 17th end =D

A post on my stupidity at work =X

well my fren ian suppose to blog bout my stupidity at work, well u no nid le i shall blog it myself!
hmm b4 that shall blog bout my lost mac lunch!!!! argh my boss 1st time wan treat us to lunch and gave each of us 10 bucks each for mac... well we even took a bus down to mac even tho we could walk and quite happy that we finally get to eat someth nice w/o afraid that our pocket will burn a hole. well guess wat after we alight at our stop we headed towards mac a guy ard 20 stop us and seek us for help. well we stop and guess what he asked? he said he nid to get a EZ link card(which cost 15 bucks) and his wallet is left wif 4 bucks. he even told us he got a stroke mother at hm... so my fren gave away his 10 bucks which is from the 2 of us and we decided to turn and go he say he nid 1 dollar more, my fren gave him the 1 dollar then he turn to me and asked for $. his eyes is set on the 10 bucks on my hand and i said i got no small change, he say 2 bucks oso can, i open my wallet indicating that there isn't any 2 bucks in there. BUT HE SAY CAN GO CHANGE TO TWO 5 bucks and gif him 1 of the 5 bucks....

stupid sia but he keep bugging us so bo bian muz change and gif him! and he say he got a drug addict father, a stroke mother and needed EZ link which cost 15bucks to work tmr... he have 4 bucks in his wallet and his hand is holding a pack of cigarette and coffee. if he saved up on the 2 item he WILL have 15 bucks... well we gave him 16 bucks for nth! and we suppose he is a cheat, how stupid i am sia to gave him them money and have to eat at hawker instead of MAC! well we kept it from our boss so she wun gif us money again as base on her character she will coz we got scammed.

well now the stupidity of me so ian dun blog i shall save u the trouble...

we suppose to move 2 pallets of bks up to 3rd floor and there was this narrow path which we muz steer the pallet thru and i suppose to b infront giving him the direction to turn... and guess what i mistaken my left for his left, hence when i say turn left he turned right and knock onto the shelves continuously! he was so annoyed at me for being so stupid to get left and right wrong! HOW BLUR CAN I BE sia! haiz but ian say i btr than boss coz she onli say this way that way nvr state the direction to steer =X.

readers dun laugh pls i am juz being myself BLUR =X

the job at Times is getting boring each day and my name there has changed overtime oso.... from qingfu become qf become ah Q then become Q onli.... lolz.... haiz today even had go work altho it is a sunday! and today 1st of Oct is the bdae of 1 of my best fren =D, happy bdae sherman! sad that becoz of job cannot organise any outing to celebrate but i try plan a belated 1 then combine u and keith's bdae celebration tgt XD. 1 more week of work b4 freedom! endure~

well i think i shall try to contd blogging ba....

hehex i went to work today! help times to pack some books, the work area is like cramped up and stuffed wif items... well as my 1st day i did some untagging of price tags from mr midnight and here's a picture of 1 of the small mountain of bks at my work place

yups they r the Mr midnight, i untagged like 3 or 4 moutains of such bks? but it was easy job tho time consuming...

a zoom in view or the price tag small but after 30 mins of untagging it became...

it was messy so i juz crush everything into a ball la...

lunch was discrimination! total unfair! ian and i went to a coffeeshop we ordered the same food but he got served by the assistant while i was called back by the auntie to take my own food! so unfair la... and guess what things dun end here.... she charged me 3 bucks when my fren who got askd the same food as me paid 2.50 onli! wat's this? price discrimination to the blurs? if u think the discrimination ends here u r wrong.... the drinks seller she actually forget my order omg... what did i do to deserve such discrimination...


today went well at least cecelia (supervisor) was treating us part-time quite well and i hardly feel any stress from the job... hope such carefree mood will contd and last till my job ends =D. so tired gona crash soon, even cecelia ask me to wake up when we r released, apparently she thinks i am slp walking thru the job coz my eyes r so liveless....

today went to get my passport, well regreted going today... so crowded and my queue n. was 2572 and when i reached the queue was at ard 22XX... well duno if now is the peak period for poly student to overseas or what but weekend is sure not a wise day to collect ur passport...

i dun think i wanna maintain a blog, or perhaps juz stop posting le la... finding it so troublesome and always having prob coming up wif the contents, maybe shall stop blogging awhile ba... my mood like not very gd these days oso... kinda despise being me and maybe becoz of my uncle's illness and him being admited to hospital has dull my mood by alot...

shall blog soon i hope if not this blog mite be closed for gd...

Found a job!

ok i juz signed a "contract" for my part-time job =). well i duno if this is gd or bad la coz got quite a few things going on soon... by rite on 28th of sept i should go back to indonesia, not that i am a indonesian but i can say i am part indonesian ba. my father is from there and i am suppose to attend a wedding wif my parents there, well i think i would missed that since my job starts from 25th. then i think there is a chalet for my class ba not to cfm no updates from any1 so let's hope there isn't any and if there is any it wun clash wif my job which would end at the 1st wk of oct easliest.

well suppose to make an apology but some words juz seems to hard to be spoken la... haiz what a failure i am...

*edits*
since there's some passerby that see my pic not happy and wanna comment bout it fine shall remove the entire post... well if u dun like my blog dun bother coming in i rather it catch dust than wan a person that i dun even know to come and disturb my blog... whoever u r jing, not happy dun come in, not that i even know u keep the comments to urself

The guilt behind a friendship that's once so close

originally the title was "a post for my best fren" but as i type i decided to change it... The reason for the change is because i am the worse fren u would ever wanted to haf in this world and guess what i did?

Guilty act no.1:
my best fren had been feeling unhappy for sometime perhaps weeks le and i juz found out... And the worse thing is i duno wat to do to help him! he has always been my support helping me in all ways he can but now he is facing a prob i cannot do anyth for him...

Guilty act no.2:
i had onli found out he is back to blogging today and i admit it wasn't an intentional visit to his blog. this shows how much i really place him in my list of frens and i still assume he is my best fren...

ian u dun haf to brought up what happen at the age of 10, i dun really care a bit. And who says all ur frens r gone? i am here i will regard u as my best fren, my brother u will simply be irreplacable! the onli thing i am guilty about is i onli turn to u when i needed help... i oso duno y it isn't like old times that we can chat freely...

but somehow seeing a fren upset makes me feel bad too. ian if u r reading this post i am sry for not being there when u needed a fren, i am so guilty... i shall apologise to him when i m going to the interview wif him...

job opportunity!

after rotting at home like 1mth? i got a job opportunity le and it all comes from my best fren ian =). i am so glad taht when there is such job opportunity he did not forget me la and intro me to the interview. well such frens r hard to come by nowadays ppl r like thinking for themself onli. if this interview is a success i shall say by to maple and msn.... well i think i nid to take a break from all this ba i heard i would b working till oct so i may miss the chalet oso la which i heard is on the 8th. kinda sad that didn't had a chance to go out wif TA05/06, well let's hope i can make it for the chalet if there is 1 going on.

well le's juz hope there's a computer so at least i can logon msn well shall try my best to get thru the interview and put my heart into completing the work given to me =). oya nid get my hair cut asap orelse impression for interview tmr will be bad~ great chance to avd excuses le, had been like avding cutting my hair since 2 weeks ago.

hehex i manage to register into the class 03 and if everything goes well i gona be in he same class as Chen Yu, TaiZhong and Jeremy again! well due to my lousy results i think i haf to set a target for myself le orelse i would not work hard at all... hence taizhong u shall be my target and i gona try my best to reach ur score! poor chew yan she like alone liao well she can make new frens and we still will be able to meet at lecture hall.

it's been sometimes since i go blog surfing le and i shall do it ltr and perhaps tag some ppl if i can squeeze in a topic =)

i haf developed a habit of typing out/quoting certain phrase of sentence into msn personal msg... actually i have been doing it for sometime le but it has been like daily routine this few days. i guess it mite be becoz of my sudden liking of listen to songs this days, since 1hr ago i haf been surfing ard youtube for KTV version of chinese songs. i really enjoyed 张栋梁's song the lyrics r so beautiful... well i maybe converted to be his fan! any nice singer? or songs? can reco me, wanna listen to more songs hep me kill some time.

Results r out and i guess i predicted what will happen le but at least i think there is a 2nd chance to carry on and double up my pace... well manage to scrape thru and luckily nvr fail any modules but well it is definitely below my own expectation... i tot at least a 3.2 but i guess there is no more rms for regrets all i haf to do now is to buck up and work towards my target le...

well grats to those that scored well and work hard to me and the rest who did not do well or meet their expectation... pls dun ask for my grades le i now super emo... haiz...

well juz less than 12hrs le b4 results r release... after hearing sherman( he from TP takng some biochem course) he got 3.48 and he is not happy bout it... i sort of envy ppl that really gd at studies they no nid mug like mad and still top the class/sch. well i admit i nvr put in my 100% in preparing for the sem exam and kinda deserve it if i nvr score well...

and i shall wish for the best ba and to all other ngee ann poly students gd luck!

wow cool w/o knowing i hit my 100th post... i duno what to blog this days la, my frens r saying that my post r like dull, no pics no nth juz daily routine stuff... well not that i dun wanna post pic is that i dun haf any pic to post... well i am not the type that like to hold a camera and take snap shot of myself... i dun haf even haf a digital camera btw!

well life nowadays is getting rather dull, so stuck at hm and having the tension of recieving results... i duno how to explain la it is like getting result for O lvls but less stressful ba. well and oso the choosing of timetable after that haiz i duno which timeslot to choose... well tok to a few bout it and it seems that majority if them r having trouble in picking a class which can enable them to be wif their frens.

i dun quite get it y muz we choose a diff time table for each sem. y not for each yr? i am juz settling down lor... if i happen to be in a class wif no1 from my former class i think i will haf problem toking and communicating again...

hmm if u got anything that u can suggest so that i can improve on the post pls type in the comment so i can see what i can do bout it...

haven't been blogging much lately due to me spending most of my time mapling... well indeed it brings back many memories la, used to have loads of frens in this virtual world... and guess what it is the onli place i can get myself to be super high and active in chatting...

i always haf a prob speakin and chatting wif ppl in real life and let's hope la thru maple i can develop my character and be more outspoken =). oya and those who maple hor and r ACTIVE pls add me my buddy list is super empty add me my ign in kirifuda a lvl 91 crusader wif a noob dmg of coz... haha

now chew yan's actually i feel like copy and paste everything i wrote for hannah de but well shall try to use my brain abit more and churn out some stuff

List out your top 5 birthday presents u wish for:
- well wishes from frens
- forget all the wrong things i haf done
- share wif me ur cold jokes
- no gift allowed dun spend anyth on me
- forget that i ever haf a bdae

1. The person who tagged u is:
Chew yan!!!

2. Your relationship wif her is:
classmate

3. Your 5 impressions of her:
- always the boss of the class
- sociable
- chatty
- like to gif weird nicknames
- ????

4. The most memorable thing she had done for you
-dun think haf ba... maybe call me fu lu shou de fu ba, that's y i say she like gif weird nicknames

5. The most memorable words that she had said to u:
- dun haf

6. If she becomes your lover, you will?
i doubt la so no comment

7. If she's your lover, what she has to improve on:
i dun think there's a possibility so no nid improve =)

8. If she becomes your enemy, you will? :
change sch? lol she da jie da muz escape XD

9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason is:
she become my enemy then say ba coz i have no idea how ppl be my enemy sia

10. The most desire thing you would like to do for her now is? :
meet her on maple and disturb her?

11. Your overall impression of her:
she have all the requirement to be da jie da

12. How do you think people around u will feel about u:
ask them dun ask me, but 1 thing for sure i am too shy and quiet

13. The character u love about yourself is:
being blur

14. On the contrary, what character u hates about yourself
too blur to be true

15. The most ideal person I would like to be:
get hyper anywhere any place and be more sociable ba

16. For the people who cared & liked you say something to them:
thx for being there for me and i'll hope to be there for when u needed some1 too

crap this is basically copy and paste except for some rephrasing... lol the 10 lucky person dun ask me redo or i gona close this blog sia.

oya happy 17th bdae to ian my buddy haha ps this yr nvr buy present coz broke le... well next yr will make it up for this yr de =)

well i nid to do some quiz for hannah and chew yan i guess i nid to do 2... due to time constraint i do hannah's 1st then tonite then do chew yan's

List out your top 5 birthday presents u wish for:
- well wishes from frens
- forget all the wrong things i haf done
- share wif me ur cold jokes
- no gift allowed dun spend anyth on me
- forget that i ever haf a bdae

1. The person who tagged u is:
Hannah!!!

2. Your relationship wif her is:
classmate

3. Your 5 impressions of her:
-talkative
-smile alot? always see her smile in class
-activity planner
- ??? (fill in urself i duno le XD)
- ???

4. The most memorable thing she had done for you
- dun think haf, maybe always ask me play hexic wif her when i am online?

5. The most memorable words that she had said to u:
- dun think haf oso seldom tok to her much

6. If she becomes your lover, you will?
no comment nth to say bout it..

7. If she's your lover, what she has to improve on:
i dun think there's a possibility so no nid improve =)

8. If she becomes your enemy, you will? :
lol? me dun wanna haf enemy if she is my enemy i'll avd her sia

9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason is:
hmm irritate me too much? but i dun think that's possible

10. The most desire thing you would like to do for her now is? :
play some other games other then hexic will play till sian de....

11. Your overall impression of her:
very chatty ba and is like a boss and overall planner for activity

12. How do you think people around u will feel about u:
ask them dun ask me, but 1 thing for sure i am too shy and quiet

13. The character u love about yourself is:
being blur

14. On the contrary, what character u hates about yourself
too blur to be true

15. The most ideal person I would like to be:
get hyper anywhere any place and be more sociable ba

16. For the people who cared & liked you say something to them:
thx for being there for me and i'll hope to be there for when u needed some1 too

17. Pass this quiz to 10 people that u wish to know how they feel about u.( i writing 10 names down for the ltr part this is optional for u all u can dun do, dun suffer the fate i suffered)

1. ricky
2. sherman
3. ian
4. hannah
5. chew yan
6. edward
7. cai hua
8. suern
9. peishan
10. wen jun

Who's #2 having relationship with:
hmmm i thik he got a crush but i duno who

Is #9 a female/male:
female

If #1 & #10 be together, will it be a good thing:
pls both r boys

How about #3 & #4:
#3 is attached and he is too inloved wif his gf that it i oso impossible

#2 studying about
he is in JC (wanna know him i can intro)

When was the last time you chatted with #3
erm ages le ba he working and bz wif gf nowadays

What kind of music does # 8 like:
hmmm base on Kbox she like ye liang jun and song snag by guo hao i think

#6 has any siblings? :
yes a sister i think

Will u woo # 3? :
dotz la he my brother ok i not ghey oso

How about #7?:
nopez fren for life and she is attached too

Is #4 single?:
hmmm ya definitely orelse wun haf time to ask me do this

Surname of #5:
ong

What’s the hobby of #5:
singing?

#3 studying at:
ngee ann poly info comm

Have u try developed feelings for #8? :
chances r 1 in a million sia... impossible lol she too high for me

Where does #9 live:
bishan i think

What colour does #4 like:
duno leh i ask her on msn she nvr reply...

Does #1 & #3 best friend: (the eng abit wrong leh?)
they can be best fren but i dun think they know each other

Does #7 like #2?
nopez

How do you know #2.:
i know him for 11yrs since pri 1

Does #5 has pet:
duno ask her urself?

yes it is done finally if u wanna do tell me then i can read hehex, well still got chew yan's 1 to do haiz... sian 1/2.... such things very strenuous sia...

yep new skin have been placed altho i dun like this skin much but at least btr than the old default skin i used...

certain links i haf forgotten and if u wan me link u pls tell me... edward and wen jun i nid ur link sry forgotten le =X. oya credit for this new skin goes to ricky thx dude. gona crash so tired blog tmr

i wonder how parents' thinking are like... i duno bout the rest but my parents r super traditional and conservative la... i am juz gaming wif my laptop onli and they muz make a fuss over it and wan me to switch to my desktop... what's the diff wif gaming wif laptop or desktop? haiz they r still using the tradional thinking that younger siblings at fault oldest gets the scolding... i dun mind if they r strict but pls their thinking and my thinking r completely different i sometimes duno if should juz listen to them or ignore them due to this fact...

well i know i shouldn't get too bothered wif it but juz now while gaming she disturbed my game and coz my char to die... it isn't the dying part that anger me is that i told her gif me another 5 mins but she wun she insist that i switch to desktop to play.... i muz at least like tell my online frens that i gtg or smth orelse i juz leave is kinda rude she dun even gif me a chance to do so...

i am currently sick, down on flu and a splitting headache... haiz my body is so vulnerable to such probs...

the 1st half of the day is totally unbearable.... nth to do at all i was like staring on the screen and awaiting for some1, any1 to chat me on msn but of coz la the whole morn ppl that online is like less than 20... my frens r either out having fun or working... haiz felt so left out when my fren r working and i am alone at home...

well my day is saved thx to leo, keith and rick who went lan wif me and thx to ricky again i finally found motivation to play maple again. yes maple the game that is so forgotten by me... well he helped me scroll my DSR which turns of to haf 6 out of 7 60% scroll pass which allows me to haf a wa 109 str 6 DSR quite weak tho but 6 60% cannot expect much... so perhaps tmr i will be going to rick's hse to play maple abit and pray hard i can lvl to 89 tmr ba...

well juz receieved an email from clement base on RED camp... i was interested in it but i see the qualities needed i think i should not la... the emails say a SLs should be friendly, be outspoken, likes to interact with new friends, have initiative and able to work as a team, have the discipline to carry out instructions. till now i cannot be outspoken haiz, and i do not haf initiative de i am a follower not some1 that can like volunteer myself out to do things i rather ppl gif me things to do... i guess i shall gif it a pass ba haiz...

life gona be bored haiz... hope 1 day my laptop can connect internet and allow me to maple at hm again...

juz came back from a long day... well so exhausted... hehex went back to sec sch juz now, kinda sad both ms ong not in sch when i went there sad sia... from what i heard ms ong(CL) her great grand father had passed away... well hope she will get over it soon...

sad things aside hehex met mr tan 1st and he said i had grown fat lolz... ya indeed i have and i hope i can slim down soon... will work on it mr tan dun wry. next is ms chua, hope i did not let her down she taught me POA for ur info so my interest in accountancy is like develop due to her teaching... well i hope i can do well perhaps get an A for infa... lastly we met mrs Koh the teacher that used to teach us chem, did not tok to her much sherman did the toking coz he took a course related to chem and me an accountancy student how to fit in their conversation... s0 waited for the chat to end b4 we go keith hse...

and guess what keith suppose to join us to go sec sch and however he is uncontactable... no matter how we spam him calls it is deem useless! then we reach his hse spam his doorbell until like mad b4 we heard him scold some vulgarities and opened the door... he had cleaned forgotten that we r suppose to go sch... argh he slelpt thru the whole afternoon gosh how can he be so pro in slping... then play abit of deck b4 we went plaza sing and watch ratatouile nice movie la quite funny at later part but i find the starting abit boring well overall it is nice still =)

then arcade abit more b4 go hm. oya my record for basketball(arcade) has improved now 98 le hehex gona hit 100 the next time muahaha. well gona crash le blog more tmr i hope

omg i can't believe how bored i am i am actually replaying my pokemon fire red omg omg omg!it's been ancient since i last touch that game la... lolz it seems so childish but hey i am enjoying it lolz...

can't wait for tmr! gona visit my sec sch teachers at 2pm miss them so much! i wonder what will ms ong(CL teacher) reaction be sia lolz can't wait to disturb her again XD... i think she is the onli teacher that i joke ard during class hehex... and ya mr tan hope he dun catch me for my hair coz it kinda long now lolz he used to spot ppl wif long hair and fine them mars bar! but i nvr kena b4 hehex. so many teachers that i wanna meet! i duno if they r free tmr for a chit chat session...

hey rick, leo and keith if u wanna join sherman and i tmr pls cfm wif me =) so we will wait for u

lol i was 1 of the "luckiest 5" handpicked by suern to do a simple game on my blog well here goes...

1) Each player of this game starts off by giving 5 weird things about themselves.
2) People who get tagged needs to write in their blog of their own weird things as well and state the rules clearly.
3) In the end, you'll select 5 people to be tagged and list their names

1) i gets emo real easily! *practically everytime i am alone im my rm i can auto get emo*
2) i am always shy when i meet ppl, but can get real hyper wif ppl that i know for ages
3) i am super blur, equivalent to a sotong
4) often read ppl's blog over and over again for no reason(maybe haf i am bored)
5) me being in this world is a weird thing le

well since i haf done this b4 and ask 5 other ppl do it le i shall not extend the misery and ask 5 more ppl do again so well be happy that i nvr ask any1 to do. but if u wanna do u can do la but tell me so i can read =)

crap how come whenever i feel bored i turn to blogger to kill time... omg i seems to blogging alot in a day argh... i think i am addicted to blogging some1 send me to rehab centre! and once again the bloody rain coz me to be stuck at hm!!! omg sia for 2 days rain spoilt my plan haiz...

yay i and so addicted to D.Grayman now,cool anime, but i heard current season is a filler how sad if it is fillers T.T but even if it is filler i still enjoy it! i can't wait for allen walker to release his 3rd form! seen it from a fren (also a anime craze) it looks so cool...

well i am currently shedding skin that got dried up due to sun burn... at least the pain is gone so and my skin no longer red... i dun care bout looks so even if it shed until my face turn white at certain portion i dun mind oso la but i can't wait to peel the dead skin off, making me feel uncomfortable to see certain parts skin is tearing out...

ok i finally saw the dark side of suern after looking at her livejournal haha but it's ok to vent anger la... but lol i feel uncomfortable reading blogs that often got vulgarities... but well i still do enjoy reading blogs it let me know ppl btr and try to haf something to tok to la if we met... Blogs r important source of info of frens for me la...

sat i gona look for a job le pls wish me luck if got lobang chat me on msn =), coz i dun wanna idle at home rather earn some extra allowance myself =)

Great juz now was walking to stadium tok i can go for a jog for a change of lifestyle but walk half way suddenly rain suay sia... bo bian i go pack my lunch then go back hm who knows i eat finish le rain stop! wth sia... rain u playing tricks on me issit, i go out u rain i come back u stop =.=

ok let's try not to get emo again coz spilling stuff out to ppl can really get me emo... muz control dun think of it then ok le... been quite awhile since i last emo la so let's hope i dun divert back to become an emo-kid again =) blur_chap gd enuff dun emo_chap... well let's hope tmr dun rain la i really wanna go out jog abit burn some fats, my weight is gaining la dam scary some pants i cannot fit in le...

yay i final feel more energetic le! woots gona go jog abit ltr sweat abit cannot stand at hm doing nth... then coming weekend muz go find job le! cannot at hm slack, waste of parents resources onli. this week most likely no time for job seeking until sat le... tmr i nid go out wif fren, but trust me either than food i wun spend anything tmr... wed go sec sch visit teachers! wee wonder how my sec sch teachers r doing le... is mr tan still trying hard to quit? haha i wonder joke wif them for the 1st time, cannot go there by guai kia le i no longer sec sch wed muz try be more like a joker. i know i can at times coz i joke wif B.A.N.A.N.A alot when we go out so wed muz tok to teachers like they r frens...

friday is a muz burn money de... going out wif my cliche in sec sch for the 1st time after exams... so muz spend abit la on movies but i shall control abit on arcade =)

well that's the plan for this week so gona blog more ltr after my short jog

juz watch the 20 min short movie of jj based on his latest album killa, it is kinda gory la in the movie he slice up the gal he like into pieces like omg what he do taht for crazy guy... those humans part r so well made that it looks so real la... dam u can see like blood everywhere in the rm, the background totaly gif the eerie feel. altho i like jj song but i think the movie too violent le if u all wanna watch beware la... maybe not as bad as i said and i exagerated but for me i think should be a m18 la type of movie ba

yawnz yawnz and yawnz... i slept from 2am till 10am in the morn so hesitated but i forced myself to wake up... muz buy breakfast for her orelse ltr she starve...

well altho slept 8 hrs but i am still sleepy in the middle i took duno how many short naps of 30 mins to 45 mins la practically every 1hr interval i slp 30 mins... i am slowlly changing from blur chap into blur pig le la keep slping... >.<

crap i cannot concentrate now my blank is so blank la... duno what to blog, blog more tmr! muz regain some energy from dinner... (Things done today: slp eat and blog *fullstop* = job of a blur pig

sentosa trip~

phew so tiring... been spending so much time wif ba_comm, 1st time i ever spend so much time outside wif frens! and guess what the super indoor me had finally set foot into sentosa today!

an account for today...
meet up wif derek at 9:30 at serangoon mrt then on the way to harbourfront derek met his fren la... and seeing how he tok to her is like how he tok to peishan, lol and as usual la i got sandwiched in between... i dun wanna get involve lor, i wanna maintain my mr nice guy title so i dun wanna side derek but on the other hand, derek same sec sch and some more my fren leh dun side him abit bad lor... haiz everytime i keep quiet he muz drag me into the picture lolz >.< but seeing them tok/bicker is quite amusing la... and thx to them the journey to harbourfront was an interesting 1 =).

then at harbourfront, we waited for pei shan to come b4 we go buy tidbits... and there goes round 2... as usual i got sandwiched between again T.T

then we went to a supermarket, we took duno how long sia juz to pick 3 packs of potato chips. we meet up wif hui kin after that at bus interchange and took a shuttle bus to sentosa... it was sian my dress code for the day is totally off la... instead of wearing sandals/slippers i wore covered shoes... haiz this shows how inexperience i am in such outings!
*muz remember go beach wear slippers*
then we head to siloso beach and hunt for the rest of the ba_comm ppl and after like 20mins? under the hot sun and scorching sand we found them... ok actually is they found us la we waited at sapphire pavilion for them to come pick us up... we shifted the tent and set it near a volleyball area.

then we r splitted into various teams and get ready for competition... 1st match was against ME(mighty eagles) ding ren was so tall la so difficult to prevent him from getting the ball hence we got thrash initially by 4-nil. but hor i duno how we scored 6 goals straight and won lolz miracle do happens occasionally=). then we went to get some food and becoz i no slippers lazy wear my stupid covered shoes i walk to 7-11 bare footed... my feet can get cooked sia super hot la the ground, u can see me and derek like hopping ard becoz of the heat and guess what we walked that route twice and each time bare-footed...

and well we lost the volleyball but it was close la 13-15! then i took a short nap and i think no1 notice me slping at 1 corner ba, duno y i was originally emo-ing at 1 corner but suddenly fall aslp. but well played too much and slp too little this is the result lor emo until enter lala land...

after that played some card games wash up and we took some pictures at the beach b4 we go vivo makan... at vivo saw suern and her frens no wonder she didn't join us, but well we know le coz ytd at k box she said le... then huikin, derek and me went BK to buy dinner.

after dinner was pocker time! played and i guess i lost touch wif dai dee and lost abit la but no harm since no money is concern =). played until 10 then final picture takings b4 we go hm... haiz didn't regret going for this outing and definitely i am looking forward to the next =)

weee today (or should i say ytd since it has past 12 midnite le) i have ended my sem exam!!!!

this means it is gona be the official sem break hehex 1st day into it, i guess i had overboard le... directly after exams i made my way to hougang mall and bought 2 three-quarters at 50+bucks!!! well been sometime since i get new clothing so 2 this time isn't much at all..

then i went rick's hse and he was like playing this game on his beloved wife PS2, some game that look like dungeon dice we see in yu-gi-oh but looks cooler and u dun roll dice of coz... but however i go at wrong time i guess he was sick and since i disturb him for 1hr+ it is onli reasonable that i accompany him to see a doc orelse ltr he faint on the way jia lat le... and yupz he manage to get an MC for it coz he was sick and nvr go sch i guess...

next gather a few men, my fellow frens! kah meng, keith, leonard and ricky to play LAN... i shall not go into the details incase it bored u all...

and the climax of the day! Kbox wif some ba_comm ppl who like having a final gathering b4 weekok leave for his attachement... sobz i will miss u weekok! and of coz go kbox muz sing la but starting i hestitate alot la coz 1st time go kbox then abit not used to it la singing in a rm... however still sang dong liang's dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shui. it was terrible the beat was totally off but well i onli listen to it at hm and nvr really sang it... but i really like this song and i hope i can practice until next yr audition use this song hehex =). sang a few other songs la but all wasn't sang so well but they still encourage me so i wun feel bad bout going off tune etc...

then hor duno y derek like to tease pei shan alot haha... frankly i was kinda impressed that he had the courage to suan a gal sia... i duno if i am able to do it la, but i prefer not to oso... thru-out the whole train ride from orchard to bishan i was trying hard to hold back my laughter sia the way they bicker kinda amusing...

hmm derek told me i muz get out of hse more la coz frankly speaking i nearly got lost looking for takashimaya... dun laugh at me, the number of times i go orchard can be count using 1 hand. no typo error or eye problem it can be count using 1 hand which is less than 5 times...

and worse of all tmr going sentosa and guess what thru-out my 16yrs+ i nvr step foot into sentosa b4... surprising rite, maybe becoz i am an anti-socialist and a super indoor freak ba... ok it is anime time i not gona sleep tonite! gona watch anime thru and tmr morn go sentosa for ba_comm outing, my 1st time going sentosa!

oya anw for this wk dun ask me out again le if possible very broke... went out wif 127 bucks and came back wif 24... nid scrimp abit b4 i really go bankrupt...

weee infa over... haiz as usual made a stupid mistake... cock eye see bank CR bal as normal bank... end up failed to balance... haiz original can balance and at least got hope for full marks for that section...

well tmr is the last exam for the sem! after tmr bid gdbye to TA05/06 mite not meet them for quite sometime le... haiz time juz flies in a bat of an eye about 4 mths have past le... i muz work hard le tmr miec!

ikuzo qf muz study nid more hardwork mouto mouto MOUTO!

i was kinda crazy bout zhang dong liang song nowadays la then come across this old song that he sang i like how the tune goes, and the lyrics is nice to, hmm wonder who will i think of when i am alone? the lyrics is below... i've removed the han yu pin yin take up too much space... if dun understand any words check dictionary =X

你的心情总在飞
什么事都想去追
想抓住一点安慰
你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊
你最害怕孤单的滋味
你的心那么脆
一碰就会碎
经不起一点风吹
你的身边总是要许多人陪
你最害怕每天的天黑
但是天总会黑
人总要离别
谁也不能永远陪谁
而孤单的滋味
谁都要面对
不只是你我会感觉到疲惫

*chorus*
当你孤单你会想起谁
你想不想找个人来陪
你的快乐伤悲
只有我能体会
让我再陪你走一回

你的心情总在飞
什么事都想去追
抓住一点安慰 \
总是喜欢在人群中徘徊
你最害怕孤单的滋味
你的心那么脆
一碰就会碎
经不起一点风吹
你的身边总是要许多人陪
你最害怕每天的天黑
但是天总会黑
人总要离别
谁也不能永远陪谁
而孤单的滋味
谁都要面对
不只是你我会感觉到疲惫

*CHORUS* x2

你的快乐伤悲
只有我能体会
让我再陪你走一回

hmm it is a weird phenomena that ppl count down for their papers/days to freedom. Looking at msn those from school of BA de was having either their nicks or personal msg bout 2 downs 2 to go or even 2 more days left... i guess all r looking forward till hols couldn't wait for the official term break le =).

today bstats was ok la easier than i expected, but my qn 3b mite end up getting zero... made a super stupid careless mistake... well what's done is done i shall look ahead and not let bstats demoralise me furthur...

infa tmr! finally smth i am confident wif muz work hard abit on the theory and i mite secure an AD =). qf gambateh u can do it!

hmm i shall be creative abit 50% cooked! =)

feeling so restless haiz bstats tmr one of my worse modules in poly... i really hope i had prepared enuff for it... duno y i suddenly have this feeling of impressing ppl but am i able to do it? my results so far are juz so-so, i duno if i am able to even pass my modules at this rate... i guess CIP really gave me quite a discouraging blow. But well i'll try my best to do well and next sem i'll double or even thriple my hardwork oredi, had a taste of 1st sem in poly can't slack any furthur muz pia my studies le!

great CIP is a total madness... almoz all the qn looks alien to me sia... and somemore at least 90% of the qn aren't from textbk la... darn, wasted my precious time studying for it and this is what i get...

hmm some1 chat me juz now using cheng's msn i think scolded me for no reason and said i am a sucker... pls la whoever the imposter is dun spoil the image cheng i have for cheng... no way he is the type that will scold ppl for no reason de, imposter if u r out there reading this blog pls if u wanna scold use ur own name dun be a coward use other ppl's account...

ok officially 25% cooked ( a joke made between me and my frens dun understand nvm) =]

something interesting i saw at xing xian's blog =)

There is a dangerous virus being passed around electronically, orally, and by hand.This virus is called Weary-Overload-Recreational-Killer (WORK). If you receive WORK from any of your colleagues, your boss, or anyone else via any means DO NOT TOUCH IT. This virus will wipe out your private life completely. Should you come into contact with WORK, put your jacket on and take two good friends to the nearest grocery store. Purchase the antidote known as Work-Isolating-Neutralizer-Extract (WINE) or Bothersome-Employer-Elimination-Rebooter (BEER). Take the antidote repeatedly until WORK has been completely eliminated from your system.

You should forward this warning to 5 friends. If you do not have 5 friends, you have already been infected and WORK is controlling your life.

haha interesting rite... this virus is so deadly la...
but well gd luck guys hope u all score wif flying colours =)

distractions...

sianz i am so being distracted from studies by this mysterious indian guy who keep calling my fone... i kept telling him wrong number but he is so persistant and kept calling me!
juz 1 more day b4 exams and i am hardly even prepared for it... sigh i am so slack!!!! my mind is so not focused i keep thinking of going out for a walk or doing anyth else except studying... haiz tmr muz go sch le orelse at home cannot concentrate...

oh well weekok had played yet another prank on me... The 1st time was saying derek got kidnap and ask me pay ransom 1 mil using derek fone. I guess they study too much le la the nerve abiy haywire so now use derek fone sms me some prank sms! lolz kinda weird la...

well quite a number of people are leaving singaporwe after the exams, chen yu going back his hometown chong qing to pay a visit to his relative there, jenn( my shifu) and weekok going for oversea attachement and janice oso i think... i wish them yi lu shun feng la all the best ba in ur attachement or visit.

juz played hexic wif hannah lolz kinda weird she chat me ask me play hexic wif her, altho i in the midst of studying CIP but well y not i had been studying since 10am this morn nid to relax abit...
so ya kinda lost touch le couldn't even make 3 stars made 2 for both games kidna pathetic... used to play alot wif my frens la but it has been 2mths+ since i last played so well bound to get rusty some days...

excluding today i am left wif 3 days b4 exams and i am in a hurry oredi... having some probs wif bstats and i duno i got time to practice and CIP i left wif a whole chunk to study! muz study le

will be going for a blog to blog gd luck wishing session ltr =) and those that pass by this blog gd luck in ur exams!

ok finally some work is done, my bstats is progressing juz nid to comfirm a few qn wif chen yu b4 i am done... So next i gona start on CIP, muz have lots of self-discipline for this le cannot get distracted nid do alot of memory work on it... ok haf to study CIP now

oya and...

Xing xian!!! >.< omg know u for 2 mths le still get my name wrong haiz..... the link at ur blog can change? i am qingfu not qinfu... dun type wrong liao =)

ok great i duno what i am doing, i am suppose to turn on my com and get some work done... but i end up staring at the qn paper for the past 15 mins... hey qingfu r u out of ur mind next week exams and u had barely finished even half of the past yr paper... if this carries on dun even think bout miracle!

i nid to get a hold of myself nid to make full use of the left over time and study le cannot be so relax, i barely even started CIP and CIP is my 1st paper... gosh tmr is no anime and no games day muz control the temptation! i know i can do it coz i had done it b4 , juz nid to change back to the old hardworking me that existed in sec sch...

time is running out, juz 1 more week b4 exams le haiz i still got alot of problem on bstats and i haven't even started on CIP yet... till this point i am quite scared that i am not able to keep up wif my scheduled study plan... haiz i seems to be so slack in my studies i spend most of my time watching animes or being out haiz and onli managed to finish miec that's all! i really nid a miracle to score in this coming exams...

time is running out, the clock is ticking and i dun seems to have accomplish much on the study break haiz wat should i do... no luck can help me this time, i am all on my own muz make up for the loss time tmr on i shall use less of internet and study more le...

tiring day sia... 100% fun and no study for today, well i muz at least try to make up tmr for today... so much time had been spend wif my frens la.

morning 11am i set out to meet my pri sch fren, ian and tgt wif his fren and keith we went lan... seems that i had lost touch of dota liao couldn't even get a single kill from any of the games we played... so i surrendered and changed to half life which was totally different story! i started getting my revenge and kept aiming for ian haha made him kinda pissed, then suddenly external ppl start joining us coz keith forget set pw... altho now more kills and more targets but haiz make the whole game lag like mad la... my screen is like go slide by slide how to aim sia... but still end up 3rd in the game not bad la got 51 kills in all! but keith still owns i think he got like 11X kills darn hope 1 day can surpass him, i shall make history and defeat u 1 day keith!

then muz buy lunch for my sis so bo bian have to leave haiz orelse can play abit longer de... but nvm la i meeting sherman to buy tix for rush hr 3... then went arcade, see sherman play 1 round of time crisis 2 then pool... haiz i sux at pool cannot make it la keep missing the stupid ball >.<

ok to cut some cost we stop pool after our 6th game and went lunch at mac b4 we go arcade again... we started basketball madness la, ok actually i started it... and we played and yay i got highest solo play among them a pathetic 90 points... wahahaha sux hor but 1st timer cannot blame will improve de dun wry...

rush hr 3 was super funny especially chris tucker the way he qn the master of the chinese wu shu was super funny la... oya the taxi driver oso dam funny, btr dun be spoiler reveal what happen so *zip* =X

haiz the old gang is done to 4... pals that r so close r slowly losing contacts, i wonder when will it be that we gather tgt and catch a movie or have fun tgt haiz... wish we r like old times but guess we have our own commitments and stuff to do so well i will find chance to gather all of us again =)

been sometime since i last posted... can't help i am behind schedule wif my studying plan suppose to have studied estimation and sampling distribution of bstats by now but i am still at my 1st chapter ungrouped data... i muz stop myself from the many distractions that i have la... kept watching animes... juz watched like 20+ slam dunk episodes from youtube and 3 slam dunk movies... wth sia i am suppose to like watch 2 or 3 episodes then study guess i got carried away.

anw slam dunk is kinda cool used to enjoy it when i am young, but stopped half way tho as ch 8 did not continue it le. so i continue now but the timing i guess was abit wrong la exams period watch slam dunk, quite inappropriate. but well i'll stop my crave for it...

haiz juz watching it make me feel like playing some basketball le lor... i am not a sporty type la couldn't even do a proper layup but watching those cool shots done on the anime really can make me gain a passion for basketball... that anime is gd la it isn't all bout serious playing of ball hanamichi sakuragi is a laughing stock, couldn't stop laughing la everytime he makes a fool out of himself. but rukawa is cool i like the way he play and the way he looks, react to things... he is like a wooden block at times no reaction to external events but on court he is superb, i wanna be like him but i guess it mite be impossible la but well having such dreams r cool...

ok qf btr dun indulge in such animes anymore btr go study liao orelse u mite fail this sem gambateh! muz work hard!

itazura na kiss~ such a memorable song...

was browsing thru the animes at youtube then come across inuyasha opening 6- itazura na kiss. juz listening to it brings back memories, wee ching, ian and me used to chat about inuyasha there at daffodil. wee ching used to play this song during work time almzo everyday... hmm i rmb that we hated leslie and his gang so much that we bought the lunch pack that they dislike. haha but they lazy go out buy wat so bo bian muz eat the lunch pack altho it does not taste gd...

used to had so much fun there it was a short period but we sure enjoyed out work there... can rmb how uncle aw taught us how to pack hampers from scratch, he was like our guardian there always helping us speaking up for us... 1 day muz really ask him out have tea or something miss him so much...

i really can't stand my sis she is out to piss me off la... i merely ask her dun keep eating the same dish then kena attitude she dun wan haf her dinner wth sia... get dinner for her what more does she wan? juz becoz my parents are busy wif their work and not home i muz attend to her? pls she's p5 oredi can't she take care of herself? i haf been settling stuff for her la... buy her meal wif my allowance she does not even nid to fork out a single cent la, it's my allowance she is using and yet she is being so picky bout it...



my mother asked me to watch her make sure she study but she end up watching the TV the whole day... ask her study end up she lock herself in the rm i gona get scolded ltr by my parents again. i really hate her attitude she is like a queen at home now w/o my parents y muz i do all this shit for her when she can watch TV thru the day? i got my exams to study y can't she juz listen to me and make my life easier? if she end up not studying who is the 1 getting scolded? me i really hate this kind of traditional thinking that if the young do something wrong the oldest 1 will receieve the scolding... y can't parents understand that not that i do not wanna help her is she doesn't wanna help herself...

i am having stress wif my sch work, pls dun coz me any more problems!

woots went lan ytd wif leo keith and rick.... haha i seems to lose every game...

1st we played ladder i didn't know i had such strong army that leo couldn't penetrate thru sia i cleared almoz all his armies str8 away when he attacked... then i was like camp at base wait for attackers but no1 come sia... so i go exploring, kei base was so huge that he almoz took up 1/4 of the whole map la... his def was totally inpenetratable... my 1st attempt made me lost 4 chimaeras, 3 hippogryph la and 2 heroes....
at the same time ricky came and disturb me... cleared my main base and haiz i decided to gave up liao i lost my main structure and likelihood that i can continue is zero...

next we played TD but half way the uncle ask us change com so we changed to CS, and again i tio pawned... free kill sia... whoever see me take me as easy kill...

then DotA, i tried a new hero blood seeker quite cool nice hero to use 1st game i was owning kah meng who is using rogue knight... then they say rematch so ok lor... but kah meng used his best hero liao lightning rev, no way to win la lightning rev keep harassing me, juz to survive took me a hard time le... then switched lane wif keith pawned ricky 1st blood it was easy to kill ricky, way easier than kah meng sia... maybe rikimaru life was lesser ba haha

but kah meng was nearly unstoppable he chiong in our btm lane and we r forced to def... but nvm we def until the lan time ran out so haha it ended wif a draw!

went rick hse while to and watch them play RBO (ragnarok battle offline) nice game i gona dl it in my laptop after exams... then ricky's mother treated us to dinner thx auntie! if u ever read this haha! then we watch rick play gunz b4 switching to gundam lucky kah meng nvr on seed mode lucky sia... afterwhich we went home at 12...

had such a long day and worse of all exams are coming but i guess it wun hurt so much if i had studied thru fri and played for 1 whole day... hmm today gona spam study again days of no life gona start...

No life~

haiz no sch = no life = nth to blog... dam sian sia at home nth to do study lor... pia MIEC today found out alot of things needed to clarrify... like on wat circumstances is economies of scale beneficial? i read up on extra stuff i wrote it can be a bad point oso for monopoly kinda headache. more study more luan haiz... juz found out that my fringe actually reach my nose le wow the longest it had ever been sia... but can't help bout 2months nvr cut le! omg i am so not myself la... muz cut it b4 exams i guess if i bother to visit a barber shop...

juz had a chat juz now wif a few of my old maple frens they r like saying meet tonite at some lan shop at jurong and maple overnite. if lucky can go zak, but who would wan a pathetic crus lvl 87 at zak?! and i am too lazy to play back or even make my way to jurong la so far lor like 1hr 30 mins ride? somemore they meeting at 3am! can die sia... i tmr maybe going for WCG wif ricky, leo and perhaps keith so i dun think i gona go to such extend as to waste my money on lan shop juz to maple... rather play CS, dota etc haha

TA05/06~

This post gona be abit long-winded but pls bear wif me abit haha, it is written for TA05/06 people la

hmmm i had spent like 4 mths plus wif u all le but frankly speaking hor other than tai zhong, chen yu and jeremy i dun think i am that close to the rest of the class... maybe i am from boys sch la so wif gals can say i am quite unable to socialise so ya i felt distant wif u all lor... but hor i really hope that next sem can same class again lor, i wanna know more about u all la. time really flies, it seems that we have juz came in poly as a class and yet so soon we mite be on different path le...

hmm maybe i blog about certain people about their impression i have on them la...

TA06:
Tai Zhong: he has been like a ldr la really helped me alot gd times, bad times he is always there to lend a helping hand. he was 1st person that talked to me in class and asked me to eat lunch wif him after the 1st infa lesson we had... he can say is a fren that i dun wanna lose

Chen Yu: a person that totally had no communication barrier wif me i am the more chinese type and he is from china hence i dun nid to use my crappy eng wif him. he is always the very on type, hardworking and always the 1st to finish his hw... anything that i duno i would definitely find him. he had always been a great help to my bstats and miec.

hmm gals i duno well but the most stand out person i think is chew yan la she is like the boss of TA06 la always organising stuff for us which i pon the dinner outing =X but nevertheless i appreciate that she actually, make the effort to bond the class tgt...

Amanda: she is like the 2nd boss in-command sia... she can really talk hence presentation she would always be doing very well, envy her vast usage of english...

Shu zhen: she is really the hardworking type like chen yu and tai zhong and she actually rewrite her bstats answer sheet and print it out for us, that like shock me la... but i duno her well so cannot say much bout her

(the rest of class i duno well sia... will edit if i know more about them)

TA05

jeremy: had some fun joking around wif him and he always use my words on me la haha... but something i would wan him to change la pls meet the deadlines for project pls... always have to remind u de but nvrtheless he accomplish everything that he need to do tho.

i think the next boss of TA05 is hannah le... she did what chew yan did bond the class wif outings and 1 more thing dun ask me sing again pls... i juz now sore throat still ask me sing mei liang xin sia... haiz... my sore throat worsen how? lolz

Edmund: altho i duno him much but i heard alot of people commenting that he is hardworking and would go the extra mile for frens. he had always offered his notes to the rest and helped most of his cliques in their work such spirits is admirable...

hmm i really nid to spent more time knowing my class btr but it has all come to an end le... i really hope that time would move back so that i could know them btr and at least blog something bout them... haiz 4 mths+ and my info on them is still so little i really should reflect abit on myself... >.< hope the next term we would still be in the same class

TA05/06~

doing the last and final presentation ltr for CIP, i barely did and preparation or rehearse a single time la.... my cough is killing me sia... like so easily out of breath le! sigh... after today i am on my own b4 exam periods so stress sia.... i really nid alot of self-motivation which i lack, i hope i dun slack thru my study week... now i nid to prepare abit for my cip i'll be the 1st to present for my grp so nid rehearse abit b4 i go for it lucky my grp last hehex

gd luck for exams guys! all the best!

*edits*
lol dun even nid to present teacher presenting for us haha time to sit back and slack

sick....

sian so sick.... having a sore throat and juz took my medi.... i hate medi sia.... been so long since i last went sick... hope by tmr it will be ok la i dun wanna go sch tmr wif a sore throat and severe cough...

suay-ness sia had to fall sick when exam is close by...

Pictures on the finale of stagewerkz

group 2! mathiaus expression is kinda weird haha

the USHERS for the finale!

BA_comm quan jia fu lolz? kinda chaotic but we sure had fun

1st time i take so many pics sia haha i not the type that like to take pics de haha made an exception for ba_comm this time

More pictures!

Doing some AP for stagewerkz

BA_COMM group photos
From left: clement, weijian, me and marv

My shifu who had guided me thru all this and me!

Stagewerkz really let me learnt alot, not onli how sing but also how to open up bit by bit... i nvr knew singing was so profound la, i tot sing juz sing lor but who knows it can actually be quite tough to sing well la. i used to be using pure throat voice to sing but now i am learning stuff like, diapragmn(pardon me is i spell this wrong my eng is lousy), head voice etc... and certainly i am building up my confidence lvl la kinda scary to perform in public but it's ok la slowly learn i am sure i can make it de... 1 day u will see me at stagewerkz confident and singing!

i feel so attached to BA_COMM now that currently i wun quit unless something happens la which i hope nth will change my mindset now... and for the fun of it BA_COMM OEI! lolz so random

PICTURES!

Some of the group 2 members, spent great times wif them!

some photos wonder who that person is hmm.... lol? somebody singing zui jin at atrium....

photos r grabbed from Suern sry ar take w/o asking dun angry wif me lolz... i nvr online msn coz down and cannot ask from u directly so ya.

BA_COMM photos! they r the best man! close to 2nd family!!!

*edits*

i can sign in msn finally! yay

sian my msn having problem again for the 2nd time le la... wth had happened sia... couldn't sign in again... dam i am so bloody stressed up wif my msn nowadays keep hacing problems y sia... is my internet the 1 that had problem or issit msn's prob? how come my frens' msn all r on working condition except mine? haiz darn this sucks no msn = no life = boring days haiz

oops i pang seh TA05/06 and nvr went for the outing haha sry sia hannah and chew yan dun hold it against me, u nvr state where u all going and left me and tai zhong in sch so we no choice have to go home. the next time i am sure i will be there for the next outing i swear =X.today is such a short day sia reach sch at 9, study abit reach 10.45 get some stuff for tai zhong from jeremy go infa, 3 hrs ltr we r free from sch. time seems to be running so fast... i goan take a little nap b4 i pia my bstats and miec. And for those that wan me link them de pls tag me or chat me on msn wif ur URL thx =)

Frens that r lost

i juz walked past cheng but all i can say is hi b4 i walk off, he didn't even reply me. Felt so distant when i said hi like talking to stranger that kind of feeling. i duno wat i should do to salvage this fren he like dun seems to treat me as a fren anymore, and i could hardly communicate wif him since we left sec sch. haiz wat's gone is gone i shall try again ltr if he online msn i wanna salvage this fren, i wonder if he will still bother to talk to me at all....

wow i am averagely posting like 2 post a day sia....

anyway i juz came back from the long forgotten forum of NPCC, haiz it been some time since i last contacted or even talked to any of them ... We used to be so close, so bonded tgt challenging the NCOs, getting punished, even going out tgt at times. all this seems so unfamiliar out of the sudden. Was pondering on the qn asked by benjamin ytd," did u regret joining NPCC?" the 1st and onli answer that came to me was NO i was so firm, so sure of myself i didn't hesitate to answer him str8 away. But thinking back those used to be my squadmates last time now r so distant away, cheng he used to help me so much but now he dun even reply my chat. m i wrong to say i dun regret joining NPCC? looking thru the forum juz now memories poured in times that we suffered tgt, laughed tgt seems gone. do time really let ppl become distant?

what will happen to BA_COMM 1 day if we grad will we still be in-contact? there is so many variables that's unsure i really could not rule out the possibility that we mite lose contact. the pain of seeing frens or even buddies slowly leaving u 1 by 1 is really unbearable, i duno if 1 day i meet 1 of the stgab NPCC 2006 grad batch on streets will i even be able to recognise them. happen to see clement's picture on msn juz now he changed so much that i could hardly rmb him.

haiz i wanted to impact people's life make the rmb me for once that i existed in their life butmy existence seems like it is nth at all. i always tried my best to be helpful but m i always a hindrance to u all that even cheng i can feel that he dislike me?

hurray for the sai kang warriors! started by derek lolz? he is the boss of all sai kang sia doing most of the job that people deem to be useless. haiz stagewerkz 2007 has ended kinda sad i dun wan it to end >.< had so much fun wif ba_comm members but haiz duno will everything be the same after the long break from ba_comm. well i shall make use of the break and try to be more proactive in talking la cannot blend in most of the time because i cannot speak out much...

tmr suppose to go eat jap food wif my class but i duno if i am going sia quite broke nowadays haiz should try to save up abit le, my money seems to be depleting so fast when i nvr spend much on food, games or even other leisures la... haiz go poly my expense on transport really super high la...

*haiz i hope i juz had teh courage to admit what i wanted to....*

i'm so drained.... juz left abit in my battery to blog b4 i crash into my bed and go lala land.... today is totally exhausting, woke up at 8 and went to sch wif derek reaching sch at 10+. Then i acted as a coolie carrying stuff to and fro. so tired la those stuff so heavy but muz act man so carry lor... then i help publicity staple the organiser or whatever u call that... crap sia prick my hands so many times my thumb still pain la...

then ltr use laptop abit b4 stapling the guess the winner stuff kinda sian sia... messed up abit there but it went well. After which we setup the place, changed into formal clothes and i asked if i can be an usher too =). they AGREED yay! so i became 1 of the ushers then get lanyard which turn out to be some1 called yvonne's but i nvr gona change sex or name, so haha i canceled her name sry whoever u r i used ur lanyard >.<. then ushering starts, guess what i saw benjamin from NPCC de so qiao he came too, so talked abit then went off to watch the singing competition abit.

i am quite pissed wif some1 for the 1st time in poly, darn slacker la nvr help clear up the place sit there think what boss ar? and mind u i onli had a pieced of sandwich b4 i came and it lasted me thru until now, i nvr ate anything else, hmm maybe i too tired that's y after competition i nvr eat, but that git still say tired, make stupid excuse dun wan help...

nvm i shall gif him chance i will forget this after i wake tmr. hope the next time we meet he will change. pls hope that he realise him problem or he wun make much frens at this rate. gona crash blog more tmr. =.=zzzz

all gd things have to come to an end...

haiz stagewerkz have finally come to an end sigh... really had alot of fun la after stagewerkz i duno if i can still remain contact wif them, i really nid to change i wanna be more talkative, more brave in starting a speech y do i haf so much things to say but end up holding back?

haiz today duno y i like revert back to my old self i sat at 1 corner and watch alone again, the familiar but hated feeling returns.... maybe i am alone for most of the time that i dun find it weird at all.

feel so useless haiz i couldn't help much at all wif the preparation, i kinda jealous to see people helping out when i am juz standing ard using eye power... but it seems that i could not even help much la... haiz i tot tmr i mite be able to help out but haiz they had enuff ppl oredi but somehow i felt leftout, u muz be thinking: "he so silly, can slack dun slack wan go do work". ya maybe i am but however if my help could benefit them and let them save up some time i would go all out to help...

now i am all alone in my rm and started to feel emo le somehow haiz