although its already few weeks into 2011. my real 2011 is just starting. im finally leaving army. now that when i think back. the 2 yrs does past quite fast. but think of much i wanted it to end when i first enlist its still a torturing 2years.
I need to do this reflection for them of this 2 years so one question they want us to answer is whether we think we had wasted this 2 years.. I honestly think what i feel cannot be compared to others because of different work environment and work nature. and im grateful that i serve my time differently. slack or not. i dont really think so, it is just that we dont have to be kept in a place doing nothing even when there is no work to be done. we just have that little bit more freedom. and i am lucky that i work with some nice people around throughout this 2 years. nice team mates nice superior. except for some. i dont get to know a big bunch of people that u go thru all sufferings and enjoy all the good times together. But i still enjoy working with this small group of people ( not that i enjoy the time serving ). and 2 years. i definately learn alot of things. technical skills. and things and situations i usually dont like to get myself into. like working in black oily dirty dusty greasy environtment. touching them everyday smelling it everyday its quite horrible until i got used to it. and i learn how important being flexible is when working. solve the problem with whatever u have and not strictly follow to what you need. communicating with people. also end up learning "survival skills" which may or may not make me a better person. but it will make me a less vulnerable one. and i realise no matter where in this social world, never trust and never be too kind, or u will be eaten up. and really, i hate this type of environtment.
now that im leaving i actually think that i might miss these days. not that i will choose to go back to it. but its a 2 years when there is really nothing to worry about. the "stress" that we faced is either unneccessary like how to escape from this and that. or its something that we can easily not be bothered with. its the period where i get the most free time and when its free time its really free.. but i think i wasted it away. i could have use it to do more things which i might not have such luxury in the future. but something about army days i picked up a hobby which im never really that passionate for my other hobbies i had in the past except for music. expensive hobbies but it allows me to be able to put down whatever "stress" im facing. hah.
ORD troubles! now that im not being paid. how am i going to survive without a regular income! i need a job! and i really really hope the job i wanted can quickly get to me! and 2011 resolution.. i want to succeed in life!
oh and although im excited about school im really confused at what i should study! economics or design. i like design more thats for sure. but not that i dont like econs. i do enjoy studying econs and i have more confident that i will do well in school if i take econs. but i dont want such jobs in the future. im not considering how much each career will pay me. i prefer satisfaction in life and able to live well with some luxury. than to have a pile load of cash but u can do nothing more and flaunt your wealth. but again the reality is.. its not just about how fun you want your job to be. the types of job u holds affects what people see u as. it affects the impression of you from people. u can be successful according to your expectations. but u will never look successful to others. and i just realise... this is very true in this reality its not just some people think this way.. most people do. even those u least expect they would. any kind souls want to give their advice just sms/msn me.
i want to be happy in 2011. happier than my past 21 years. is this hard to achieve?
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