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Friday, December 31, 2004 Around 4 hours and 30 more minutes before a new year. Haha. With only a few minutes writing this. This is my commitment for 2005:
Let's start off this year well by renewing our love for God and our pledges to Him. I truly belong to him and everything I have is His. I will answer and fufil His calling in 9 years time. Let's remain open to new things and live a live of adventure for Christ. Amen! aCKj
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Wednesday, December 29, 2004 Been rather busy with preparation stuff for the thanksgiving cell group this Friday. Haha. Editing lyrics isn't that easy as it seems to be. And Christmas has come and go. So sad. Now with the festive mood dying down, I realise that its 4 more days before school starts again. Haiz...
The tsunami incident that happened so near to our sunny island is devastating. Killer tsunami. Killing 100,000 people. That's ALOT. Luckily our island was not hit, because of the neighboring countries that are surrounding it. My church sent out a six-person team to help out. This isn't much but we hope it helps. Thank God if not the whole of Singapore would be washed out. But something is definitely not right about this incident. Could Christ's Second Coming be near? This incident seem to fufil the prophecies in the Book of Revelations. Then is the end times now? I pray its not. Because I still want to see millions saved in my future ministry a decade from now. Pray God for protection. Will update on more of this incident soon. Pray for the survivors/victims and their families ya. aCKj
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Monday, December 27, 2004 Why must my mood swings happen during this times? It seems that most of the entries nowadays talk about my mood swings. I don't know why, but I seem to have mood swings more frequently than ever before. Is it Satan's attack to me for taking 4 souls from him? Or I am just being too over sensitive to events nowadays? Why do I have to think about all these things? Haiz... I just don't know.
Ouch... I hurt my back and my leg. Yesterday at Suntec, I twisted the veins of my legs and was limping (although people couldn't notice) and recovered after walking for a while. I hurt it again while at City Hall. What on earth is happening to me? And a few people are in bad mood these few days. I believe I'm at fault. I mean, the way they talked to me means I must have said something wrong or treated them badly. Sorry. Enough ranting. Although my mood swing is in clearing mode. Today went to JAMs Christmas Big Day! This is my 3rd contact with intellectually disabled children and it seems I do not feel afraid anymore. I am like more open to them. Haha. Which is good. But after the whole thing, I felt very tired. Alot of energy wasted on entertaining them. They're cute! aCKj
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Saturday, December 25, 2004 First of all, I would like to wish all of you a MERRY CHRISTMAS! Haha. So do I deserve some presents?
Okok. Two days of service at the Singapore Indoor Stadium! Woohoo! Watched the drama two times but its still as funny and touching during the second time. Haha. Went to Orchard on Tuesday and Friday (countdown), fun! Our church singers, musicians (Strikeforce!), breakdancers (yep. we have a breakdancing ministry) and choir are all down at Orchard! Most of the events on stage were hosted and sung by our church and our guest ministry. Friday was crowded with much pushing. Haiyo... didn't know that Singaporeans could party. Haha. Ok. Back to service. Congratulations to Meiyi, Karlong, Cheryl and Dianna for accepting the GREATEST of all gifts. They have decided to take the step and open up the gift they have not opened. Hey guys reading this, if you do not know this gift, it is the gift of salvation. Yup, it is right there before you and what you need to do is to take the step and unwrap this gift. Anyway, welcome to our family! Tomorrow gotta go to the church building for JAMs Big Day. Haha. Good right? But bad thing is that my kor ps me. He really bad right? Nvm. I shall tell Daddy. =) LOL. aCKj
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Thursday, December 23, 2004 Just recovered from a mood swing after listening to one full CD of Praise and Worship from Hillsong United's "More Than Life". I mean, I don't know why I get these mood swings. Is it because of what happened just now? Or is it because the devil is always trying to make life difficult for me everytime when I reach out to friends. I was almost killed after reaching out to my friends during the Ulf Ekman service in SIS. I had a very terrible mood swing that almost led me to commit suicide last Thursday when trying to reach out for the Sentosa Outreach and today, I had a mood swing after my friend, who agreed to come for Christmas services at SIS, said that my church services are too scary. I mean if he wants to back out at the last moment, just say directly.
Am I being too sensitive? Am I overeacting? I don't know. It seems like when my depression attacks, I seem like a student from JAMS. No joke. I just can't control my feelings and emotions when I have depression attacks. It seems like that there's no human that I can trust with my feelings. Yep, not even my parents. They would ask me what for I have mood swings when I do not need to worry about anything. They just don't understand. HAIZ... aCKj
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Wednesday, December 22, 2004 Hahaz. Finally change layout! But I shall find a Christmas layout. Hopefully by tomorrow. Yeah. I have been pretty busy this week [PTL!]. Today went with Cecilia to Lifeworks! Activity Centre at Bedok. 6 hours of rehearsal for the JAMS Big Day! I'm not involved but still pretty tired after the whole thing. Find it funny? Haha.
Oh and speaking about JAMS [Jesus for All Minds]. I've decided to join! Yup. When I first saw the intellectually disabled students, I felt that although they were different from us physically and cannot express themselves well, they are still children of God! They have a carefree attitude and are actually cute! I don't know why on earth does the world treat them like aliens! And some go to the extent of calling them "crazy" or even "hopeless"! Well, it isn't even their faults idiots! This society is too class-minded! Go and look at yourself in the mirror. If you call them this, I assure you that they are better than you. Go and repent! Haha. Scolding done. By the way, SCROLL DOWN THE RIGHT HAND SIDE BAR TO TAG IN MY TAG-BOARD. aCKj
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Thursday, December 16, 2004 Yay! I finally kept myself busy for these two weeks! Praise the Lord! Haha... after being bored for 6 weeks. I'm damn tired now.
Just now was the Sentosa Outreach (The Incredibles at Sentosa...). It was fun! Something like the Amazing Race. Our team didn't win any prizes... but we won souls for God! Hallelujah! Played till 5 plus then went to MCD till 7 plus. After that took a train to Changi Airport to send Cecilia's dad off. He's going to Laos. Nice, friendly and cheerful man! When I came home, it was already 11? Haha. I'm tired! Tomorrow going to AMK to help out in JAMS. Then next tuesday going down to Orchard for a Christmas Celebration. Anyone want to come? Then friday and saturday services at SIS... with countdown at Orchard on friday. Sunday gonna help in JAMs again. PTL... I'm packed full but all these are with connection with God! aCKj
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Wednesday, December 15, 2004 I mean, there were events I'm supposed to write about that many people would like to know (Like my visit to City Harvest Malaysia and about today's D&D at Swissotel) but I guess I really need to write about my feelings. I'm in a terrible mess now. Nono, not because of the wine I drank. Its a feeling I had since yesterday. Its like, I'm totally bored out. Bored of everything. Even bored of chatting on MSN. I just feel that there's no human around that I can talk to. Its like people is coming to me for advice, but there's no one I can turn to for advice. Maybe Alexcia's right, there are periods where you will feel down. (Nono... don't think dirty. I'm not having mensturation. I'm a boy btw. Haha.) But seriously, I think its the after-effects of this mental problem I have called depression. GuiXiong thinks he has depression. But I guess he changed his view after seeing me. But thanks anyway for really helping me to find my way in God through this problem. Alexcia, Peter and Cecilia too. And especially Bro Jae who helped me snap out of this depression.
The last thing on my mind is something about religion. You can skip this paragraph if you want to. You see, there's a difference between "on-paper" Christians and "true" Christians. Look, true Christianity isn't a religion, its a personal relationship with God. I have an aunt who baptised as a Christian, but she's what I classify as an "on-paper" Christian. The identity papers classify her as a Christian under religion, but she's not. She's not kingdom minded at all. Rather, she's society and status-minded. I mean Christians aren't supposed to hold joss-sticks at any gathering. But she scolded a Christian so severely last time for not holding. And she follows my mom to temple to pray to other gods. In the Bible, these gods aren't gods! They're satan in disguise! And she's a Christian! And during the visit to City Harvest Malaysia, she criticised the church so openly. And said something like, "the pastor said he scolded people, means we must scold people always too". Its part of discipleship! Scolding people for something they did wrong means you care. And during the praise and worship, she laughed alot and made funny actions. Imagine a Christian laughing at a church event! They're your brothers and sisters! She also lies alot, and uses me in lying. She said to be able to make money, you got to lie. C'mon. Look at our church's businessmen and businesswomen. Do they lie? Cheat? Steal? Do un-Christian things? NO! And they could be so successful that for example, Sis Elim Chew (77th Street founder) could be the top Businesswoman of the Year! I guess she's going to stop me from being a pastor. But like how pastor Kong did. His uncle begged him, on his knees even, not to be a pastor. Because it would be a disgrace to family. Pastor Kong continued to be a pastor because God told him to do be a pastor. Always remember that God's ways are higher than the ways of man. And now, he's impacting millions of people in Asia and the world, and is famous throughout Asia as a dynamic preacher of faith. And his uncle? Having a broken marriage and business now. See the difference? God also told me to be a pastor and I guess I'm going to have alot of barriers. Satan, you're not overcoming me! God will love and protect me throughout! Anyway guess I shall stop writing. Its a damn long entry today. If you've read through the end, thanks alot for reading my thoughts. Anything to comment, just comment on the tag-board. I would really appreciate that. Have a good day/night and God bless you. aCKj
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Tuesday, December 14, 2004 Hmmm thanks to alot of people (Cecilia jie, Guixiong kor, Bro Jae, Peter and Alexcia)... Im finally over it! PTL! But entry stays coz I want to keep my memories.
aCKj
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Monday, December 13, 2004 There's no one I can turn to. I just want to end my life now. Satan's like throwing every attack at me at the same time. Cecilia told me to read a verse. It dosen't seem to help. I don't know. It seems like there's no one I can turn to at all. Alot of people turn to me for help. I help them to solve their problems. But I can't even solve mine. I'm a useless idiot. I just want to end my life now. NOW!
aCKj
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Saturday, December 11, 2004 Seems like I can find time to go online and update my blog. Hehez. I'm now at a hair saloon in Times Square in KL, Malaysia. And please, Singapore is not part of Malaysia or China. We're independant since 1965. LOL.
Did nothing much though. Morning went to Petronas Tower to queue up for tickets to the Skybridge. Going later at 2.45 pm. Queued for two hours. Now finally found a queue worst than the one at church. HAHAHA. No offence la. Then after that going to Klang (another place in Malaysia) through train to eat the Ba Kut Teh. Heard its nice. Channel U got go there once for a special feature. Then going to City Harvest Malaysia. I'm damn excited lor. Hahaz. Pastor Kevin Loo's church and one of the 15 branches of City Harvest Church Singapore. Goody. Then the stupid kor of mine haven call up my friends regarding tomorrow. In the end had to waste money to call them up. Haiyo. Lucky now login MSN can talk more. But he's busy lor. So like maybe too harsh on him. Haha. Sorry kor. Nothing from here. Im ringgit-broke. =) KKz. I shall end here. And final word: I MISS YOU GUYS ALOT! Cya and buaiz. aCKj
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Friday, December 10, 2004 Here I am in KL, Malaysia after a 5-6 hour drive from Singapore, Singapore. Haha. I am typing this on the bed, facing a fantastic view of the Petronas Twin Tower and many other buildings in the Golden Triangle. But I still miss cell group. Boohoo. I’m terribly tired and haiz... Will try my best to make the best out of this trip. Haha. Lunch was great. Now waiting for my dad to wake (he has been driving and he’s tired. UNDERSTAND THAT.) Haha. Then can go out. Sunday I’m going to City Harvest Malaysia. Yay! Excited like dunno what. Lols. Hey, the sun’s setting. Let me enjoy the view as I end off here. See you on Thursday!Here I am in KL, Malaysia after a 5-6 hour drive from Singapore, Singapore. Haha. I am typing this on the bed, facing a fantastic view of the Petronas Twin Tower and many other buildings in the Golden Triangle. But I still miss cell group. Boohoo. I’m terribly tired and haiz... Will try my best to make the best out of this trip. Haha. Lunch was great. Now waiting for my dad to wake (he has been driving and he’s tired. UNDERSTAND THAT.) Haha. Then can go out. Sunday I’m going to City Harvest Malaysia. Yay! Excited like dunno what. Lols. Hey, the sun’s setting. Let me enjoy the view as I end off here. See you on Thursday!
aCKj
- traveled on - 6:56 PM
Sigh... Going to Malaysia in about 4 hours time. Yeah. I know the correct behavior is to feel excited. But sigh... I'm missing a full week of cell group and service again. And this is one of the last few cell group meetings of the year. This is the last entry I will write before leaving Haha. Okay. Now charging my laptop. For like the second time today. It's my one and only chance of NOT missing you all. Wahahahax. Hmmm... So now what's left is a few reminders for some people:
Chiuwen, Guoxiang and Sharon: Please confirm whether you are able to make it for cell group meeting and/or service with Guixiong by this Friday. GuiXiong Kor: See above. Remind them. Thanks alot bro. Also forget about the event. Cecilia Jie: Confirm with Sharon bah. Try to make her feel integrated ya. Thanks sis. Alexcia: Don't think so much le. Carry on with life ya. There are many more guys out there for you. And for the rest of you, take care bah. Byee. aCKj
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Thursday, December 09, 2004 Quote from Yiwen's blog:
"really like going out with the cell members... every time an outing with them nv fails to profits me spiritually and metally." Haha. That's abit lame but its true. Went out with cg members after prayer meeting yesterday and they really brighten up my day! Especially John. Who was making a fool of himself in public. He sang so loud in public until everyone was looking at him. We pretended not to know him. Haha. Then I suggested we go Orchard Road, then John walked in front. Then I signalled the others to walk the other direction. Haha. That's lame. Today had makeup cell group meeting. Went with Carrie to E267/E344 CGM. She was sick and is still going to China. Haiyo. Speaking of E267/E344, they were mostly younger people. Unlike our cell group where almost everyone is in upper secondary and JC/Poly. Their games were more fun and they had more outings than us. But I still like my cell group. Close bonds with all my cell group members. Haha. Hmmm. Just finished packing my luggage. This may be my 2nd last entry before going to Malaysia. I'm reluctant to go because I'll miss the CG. Boohoo. But just try to make the best out of it right? Haha. But best thing is I'm visiting City Harvest Church Malaysia (one of our branch churches)! So maybe I'll scribble an entry later. So cya. aCKj
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Wednesday, December 08, 2004 Did nothing yesterday. Only chat on MSN lor. Bored mah. But the conversation really very interesting. Hehe. Today went out with GuiXiong kor and Alexcia. So boring. I'm the one doing the most talking while kor was giggling. So shy hor. Alexcia didn't sleep yesterday so she was in a pretty bad mood. Haha. But fun to talk to. In the end, they managed to talk abit. Alexcia asked why he kept giggling, then kor answered don't know in Chinese. Like what Alexcia said in her blog, it was a silent conversation at BK. Damn funny. Especially this bro of mine. But shan't elaborate on it because it would get abit *ahem* if I do so.
Hmmm. Tomorrow basically nothing much as well. Prayer meeting at 1 pm. Abit too early bah Cecilia jie? I usually wake up at 2 pm during the hols one. Then have to go over to Amanda's house. Haha. Okay. I shall stop here. Abit broken English. But tired mah. Brain's not functioning well. So cya. aCKj
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Sunday, December 05, 2004 Came back from church around 7 plus. Quite late le. Keke. Attended two services (one English and one Mandarin) today. Truly blessed by the services! Great news! Trinity Broadcasting Network wants to broadcast City Harvest Church services LIVE! during the month of August 2004! Delirious? (UK's leading Praise and Worship band) will be leading praise and worship for City Harvest Church too during that month! A guest speaker, Pastor Zhang, came and speak in the Mandarin service today. He cracked a few jokes. But to be honest, I can't understand most of what he's saying because I suck at Chinese. LOLX. Nvm. Shall try to improve. Bible Study class in between. Lesson 4 about Salvation through the Holy Spirit. Impactful!
After church went back home and I could catch the Graduation Service of the School of Theology Live! Pastor Kong says it is broadcasted to television networks all over Asia. Wow! I truly feel lucky that I am in a fun-loving church who aren't religious people but people who are truly on fire for God! So catch me at School of Theology in 6-8 years time. Hallelujah! P/S: Congratulations to Xiao Ting and Cecilia who got their Certificate of Christian Foundation today! aCKj
- traveled on - 10:18 PM
Hmm. Sudden urge to blog. Haha. Going to church soon and this is the first I time (I think) that I blogged so early in the morning. LOL.
Had only 4 hours of sleep because of MSN conversations yesterday. The people there simply did not allow me to sleep! I look like a panda now. Boohoo. And Alexcia, relax girl! Take the step, don't be nervous. Sorry can't tell the rest of you what is on. Hehe. Hmmm. Okay its 9.05 am. I'm tired and sleepy and will be ranting all the way in the church bus. Clever eh? Haha. Oh and I will be changing blog designs soon. This blog design is abit cramped. But I still can't let go of the picture. It's nice. Yeah. Nice! Okay. 9.10 am. Gotta go le. Cya! aCKj
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Friday, December 03, 2004 For the whole of today, I have officially done nothing. Haha. I don't feel like going out at all. Don't ask me why. I'm just lazy. Oh and I cut my hair. Yesterday at Chapter 2 in Bugis. Then went to Bugis Junction with my cousin Amanda. Then saw my friend and her friend almost at the same time. Then uh-oh, they thought we were *ahem*. I had a good time explaining to my friend. Haha.
Okay. From today on till the end of the hols I have decided to continue working on my website. For fun? Lol. Its at http://bluespots.shyper.com by the way. So cya soon. aCKj
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Thursday, December 02, 2004 Great night! Just came back from the second and last part of the "How Shall We Live?" Bible Seminar! I am truly blessed by the message. Today we learnt some of the Bible verses Antinomians use in their belief system. But they only take one verse and use that to say that the Law isn't needed now. But read further ahead and you'll see that the apostle Paul say "certainly not!" This phrase in the Bible when used dosen't refer to how an Englishman would say it (to mean that its not true in a polite way). NO! Certainly not is the strongest word ever used in Greek. So you could imagine that it is really CERTAINLY NOT. So let's go against antinomianism strongly! But not by force, but by love. Hallelujah!
And guess what? Taufik won in Singapore Idol!!! aCKj
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