So many things vying for my attention,
tempting to distract me away from my firm gaze-
Upon the cross.
He who is the beginning and the end
The author and perfecter of our faith
The King of Kings
And Lord of Lords
The way, the truth and the Life.
Who is to blame really
for all the confusion on this earth?
What with sappy unrealistic romantic idol dramas
What are they making out of today's generation of instant gratifying souls?
To waste precious time on living unrealistic dreams.
And not truly living.
What about social networking websites?
Well one would be wise not to delve into such places too often, if only, ever.
Where if one weren't careful,
one might just be spending precious time away on things that the world thinks is important instead of what God he thinks.
Too much information, too many areas of temptations.
But who is to be blamed, really?
Let us fix our eyes on Jesus,
the author and perfecter of our faith
Who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
Tuesday, May 04, 2010
Monday, December 28, 2009
Dreams to reality
The future
what lies in it?
That picture seemingly distant
what would it turn out to be like?
It would be nice
to have on the square hat
and the A on the slip of paper
it would be even better
if i had that ticket to financial freedom called
'A Job'
to have the assurance that
I was on par
Or above that
of everyone else
but there lies the fault
the picture
something's missing
something's not right
Like an empty dream
because
You are not inside
I wish that I had things easier
that i could have things go my way
without the effort
without the struggle
Perhaps
You wanted to teach me
that it's ok not to be perfect
that it's ok to feel stupid
that it's ok to lose out to the world
that it's when I can choose
to trust in Your power
to be made perfect
in my weakness
And find my victory in You.
So in this new picture
of the future
I will know that because
You are in it
Whatever happens
will happen just the way
You imagined
And it will be
A 'Reality'.
what lies in it?
That picture seemingly distant
what would it turn out to be like?
It would be nice
to have on the square hat
and the A on the slip of paper
it would be even better
if i had that ticket to financial freedom called
'A Job'
to have the assurance that
I was on par
Or above that
of everyone else
but there lies the fault
the picture
something's missing
something's not right
Like an empty dream
because
You are not inside
I wish that I had things easier
that i could have things go my way
without the effort
without the struggle
Perhaps
You wanted to teach me
that it's ok not to be perfect
that it's ok to feel stupid
that it's ok to lose out to the world
that it's when I can choose
to trust in Your power
to be made perfect
in my weakness
And find my victory in You.
So in this new picture
of the future
I will know that because
You are in it
Whatever happens
will happen just the way
You imagined
And it will be
A 'Reality'.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Me to Me: STOP NOW and WAKE UP!!!
God knows what best. Stop trying to force things to happen when they shouldn't stop lumping things together when they are totally separate issues. Compartmentalize the circumstances in life but do not compartmentalize God. Coz He remains the same in all circumstances. God, teach me self-control and a focused mind. Teach me obedience and discipline. Please catch my mind from straying to things unimportant and forming ridiculous thoughts that lead to foolish words and actions. Lord, Give me a restraining order! Rachael needs you to stabilize her. Rachael needs to say:
" On Christ the solid rock I stand and anchor!"
" On Christ the solid rock I stand and anchor!"
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
Better
Wasted.
useless.
Unfilial.
The lethal tongue.
Can I ever salvage this damage done?
So much in a day.
Hope deferred.
trying to see His grace through it all.
The waiting time is so painful.
The test of faith.
i don't want to just survive and say "phew". thankfully I survived today, I hope tomorrow never comes.
I want to overcome and shout "Hallelujah!" now I can't wait for tomorrow!
I wish I could be better.
I wish I could shut out the voices in the head.
And the multiple lies of the heart.
I wish I could be more grounded.
I wish I could start living my life
and stop regretting, dreaming of a better life
without even wanting to move a single finger.
Too much whining and hemming and hawing isn't good for me.
What precious time am I wasting!!!
But why is it so hard!
Dear God!
Please tell me You have better things in store for me!
Better family relationships.
Better definitions of success in life.
Better plans to help me grow in You.
Better opportunities to help me be the salt and light.
I wish I could just be better.
But I couldn't be better
If I didn't have you.
So Lord,
I cling on to you.
I'd better.
It's definitely for the best.
useless.
Unfilial.
The lethal tongue.
Can I ever salvage this damage done?
So much in a day.
Hope deferred.
trying to see His grace through it all.
The waiting time is so painful.
The test of faith.
i don't want to just survive and say "phew". thankfully I survived today, I hope tomorrow never comes.
I want to overcome and shout "Hallelujah!" now I can't wait for tomorrow!
I wish I could be better.
I wish I could shut out the voices in the head.
And the multiple lies of the heart.
I wish I could be more grounded.
I wish I could start living my life
and stop regretting, dreaming of a better life
without even wanting to move a single finger.
Too much whining and hemming and hawing isn't good for me.
What precious time am I wasting!!!
But why is it so hard!
Dear God!
Please tell me You have better things in store for me!
Better family relationships.
Better definitions of success in life.
Better plans to help me grow in You.
Better opportunities to help me be the salt and light.
I wish I could just be better.
But I couldn't be better
If I didn't have you.
So Lord,
I cling on to you.
I'd better.
It's definitely for the best.
Sunday, November 01, 2009
DEar God,
please give me direction now. I feel lost and am so tempted to give up. But Lord, my feelings cannot be trusted. So Lord, show me the way for I know You make all things beautiful in your time. I want to be a good steward of what you have given me- for now, its time and intelligence. Help me Lord for I am helpless and lost without you. I will look to You.
IJNIP,
Amen
please give me direction now. I feel lost and am so tempted to give up. But Lord, my feelings cannot be trusted. So Lord, show me the way for I know You make all things beautiful in your time. I want to be a good steward of what you have given me- for now, its time and intelligence. Help me Lord for I am helpless and lost without you. I will look to You.
IJNIP,
Amen
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Its time to take flight and Soar...no more chicken like flapping.
Recently,despite the 'turmoil' that I was going through, God did speak, amidst the storm. Let me share this article with you which I found online and which I believe was definitely, an encouragement, assurance and guiding from GOd.
Excerpts from an a radio programme in alifethatmatters.org:
Isaiah 40:30-31 , "Even youths grow tired and weary and young men stumble and fall. But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and now grow weary; they will walk and not grow faint."
These great soaring birds are ultimately not sustained in flight by the flapping of their own wings but by the currents that carry them. That's why they can go so far and so long. God is inviting us here to a new kind of soaring - it's for those who hope, who trust in the Lord - because they realize their wings can't do it for them. The King James Version says it's "those who wait on the Lord." It reminds me of (those)turkey vultures; they wait for those thermal currents to carry them before they even tackle their day.
...a lot of us are instinctive, addicted wing-flappers!...I can get it done if I make a good plan, motivate the right people, work enough hours, sacrifice enough sleep, have enough control. Listen to those wings flapping wildly in the wind! I'm flying as high and as long as my resources can carry me.
For too many years I settled for that altitude and the stress of trying to make things happen
myself.
But I'm learning something about waiting for God's thermals - to not push to make things happen, but to wait until the Lord does it in His way, in His time.
This doesn't mean that you're totally passive sitting there doing nothing.
You still plan, and prepare, and work hard, but only after seeing what God wants you planning, and preparing, and working on.
The issue is this: do you think it's just your wings flapping that will get you there?
No, it will be finding where God's current is going, and then you spread your wings to be carried that direction that day. That's what Jesus meant when he said "follow Me," checking with Him to see where He is taking you instead of trying to take Him where you want Him to go.
When you're totally riding on God's provision, you can fly when you have no fly left(AWESOME!!!).
I'm broke, but God isn't.
I'm exhausted, but God isn't."
I'm out of answers, but God isn't.
It's at that point where you experience the promise of Isaiah 40:29 -
"He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak."
I watched those soaring birds and I asked God to help me fly as they do. Not carried by the flapping of my own wings, but only by those warm currents of God.
Excerpts from an a radio programme in alifethatmatters.org:
Isaiah 40:30-31 , "Even youths grow tired and weary and young men stumble and fall. But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and now grow weary; they will walk and not grow faint."
These great soaring birds are ultimately not sustained in flight by the flapping of their own wings but by the currents that carry them. That's why they can go so far and so long. God is inviting us here to a new kind of soaring - it's for those who hope, who trust in the Lord - because they realize their wings can't do it for them. The King James Version says it's "those who wait on the Lord." It reminds me of (those)turkey vultures; they wait for those thermal currents to carry them before they even tackle their day.
...a lot of us are instinctive, addicted wing-flappers!...I can get it done if I make a good plan, motivate the right people, work enough hours, sacrifice enough sleep, have enough control. Listen to those wings flapping wildly in the wind! I'm flying as high and as long as my resources can carry me.
For too many years I settled for that altitude and the stress of trying to make things happen
myself.
But I'm learning something about waiting for God's thermals - to not push to make things happen, but to wait until the Lord does it in His way, in His time.
This doesn't mean that you're totally passive sitting there doing nothing.
You still plan, and prepare, and work hard, but only after seeing what God wants you planning, and preparing, and working on.
The issue is this: do you think it's just your wings flapping that will get you there?
No, it will be finding where God's current is going, and then you spread your wings to be carried that direction that day. That's what Jesus meant when he said "follow Me," checking with Him to see where He is taking you instead of trying to take Him where you want Him to go.
When you're totally riding on God's provision, you can fly when you have no fly left(AWESOME!!!).
I'm broke, but God isn't.
I'm exhausted, but God isn't."
I'm out of answers, but God isn't.
It's at that point where you experience the promise of Isaiah 40:29 -
"He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak."
I watched those soaring birds and I asked God to help me fly as they do. Not carried by the flapping of my own wings, but only by those warm currents of God.
Monday, August 17, 2009
Since when did loneliness become a problem for me? And the only possible solution is to start making friends? Why...isn't God enough? Have I believed wrongly? I need a break. I need to stop admiring other people's social lives and start working on mine. But problem is, I am too comfortable being by myself. This is pathetic. Am I my own disaster in the making? What does God want me to do in this case? WHy do I just feel like running away to another place and hiding away from where I am right now? Why do I feel like running away will solve all my probleMs? WHy am I always thinking tHat nobody cares about me and its just me caring for other people? WHY do I feel like everyone takes me for granted? Why is it that people think I am a joy to them but no one really cares when I am sad? Why do I not bring joy to the very ones that are closest to me? Am I being too selfish to want attention from people? Am I? Or am I supposed to assume that life is just like that?? I don't want to let my life waste my life away but that is what I am consciously doing right now! What's wrong with me!??! I don't want to post things that are unhappy. Enough of all this talk about only posting things that edify. Afterall, no one is probably reading this anymore coz no one cares anyway. So in essence, I am complaining to myself. ARGH! Hate this feeling! Hate this situation. How can I ever get out of this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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