johnny depp! meltz!


i had raspberries & blueberries yday. strawberries today.
they all contain anticarcinogenic activity to breast & cervical cancer cells. yay!
breakfast was Danablu on biscuits heehee.. my goal is to try all types of cheeese available in cold storage. wahaha!

on a sad note, i wasted my entire day. one less day to study for my paper. so i'm left with 2 days now. -.- oh well wadeva la. at most just S/U. heehee

i like this style

& this too :)

i'm watching This Is It tomorrow!!!! :D :D :D
n it's halloweeen!!! wooooooo!

Saw the funniest thing in e toilet today. there was this girl in a silk bathrobe tt looks smthign like that:


But she's not that pretty, n the colour & pattern of hers was more like this:

cmi to the max.

perfect life

year 4 逼开了我的咪咪眼睛。。。让我再次地　experience 更多 ugly truths of life. 才不久前，idealistic 的我 was filled with any possibilities a human can think of. 好像没有限制这回事似的。　怎么越长大，就变得越胆小，　总是觉得　life's out of my control. without realizing, my perception of 人生也就渐渐变得黑暗去了。

可是就是因为失望, 我才会对 life 的要求比较 realistic。 虽然有时候会怀疑自己是 becoming more realistic 还是 giving up on hope， 但是至少我学会看开一点。 这是大人所说的成长是吗？其实如果是这样的话，做父母的也不容易。。　不想打碎孩子的梦想，也不想让孩子“执迷不悟”。 却又不能给什么 sure advice 因为 whether or not it's “执迷不悟”，没有人会敢肯定。

actually life is quite an interesting journey. 所以是起还是落，千万不要气馁！　我们都在成长之中！　

went taka w my darling and ate yummy good food all in a day! :)

Sushi Tei
- Golden roll (super yummy)
- Hiyashi chuuka ramen (super super yummy)
- Salmon sashimi (always yummy)
- Milk pudding (tastes like white rabbit sweet. yummy!)

Cold Storage
- Kyoho! (SUPER DUPER YUMMY!)
- Raspberries (yummy n healthy~)
- More salmon sashimi (always always yummy!)
- Mekajiki sashimi (also very yummy!)

happy.. :) :) :)

a promise to myself

this' a promise to myself: i'll not fall into temptation and cut my hair for the next 6 months. at the most, only trimming's allowed.. i'll give my hair some sorta treatment when necessary. what else..

while nurses on ground level are working their asses off like shitty bananas, there're ppl like Stomper Keny who just don't appreciate it at all.

i love my darling so much. i can't imagine how life wld be like w/o him. AHHHHH I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!!!!!!!

all about foooood and $!

swensen's chicken rice sucks!!!! oh my tian. it costs $13.90 so i thought it shld be of $13.90 standard. turns out to be worse than hawker centre's cos of expectations. :( still! dinner was grt~~~ *^___^*

the chicken rice @ NUS alumni house 11 years ago is still the best! where's e chef?! Chatterbox @ mandarin hotel in 2nd position.
mm...suddenly kuishin bo came to my mind...endlesssss sashimi hohohohoho

champagne grapes are damn nice. they're 100 times nicer than those big grapes.
bought raspberries and blackberries from cold storage just now. NOT CHEAP! but i think we need the anti-oxidants vits etc. why r healthy food so expensive huh. 1 small box of raspberries costs $9.90. blackberries slightly cheaper. $7.90.
oh bought cheese too! Babybel! comes with red wax. Tried brie cheese previously. nt bad. Both purchases made due to influence frm Mousehunt -.-

state of life

escapist extremist

guess what the school can do to my mind.

i was lying on my bed, and it started raining heavily. all i was hoping for...was either a tsunami or a typhoon thing to flood the whole of sg so that i can escape from all these. but the thought of my bf came in. so i started thinking how i should escape from the flood to meet him. i wont be able to open my door with the currents and all. won't ve enough force to break e windows in water too. and then the picture of me drowning with no attempt to survive came in. damn morbid and depressing.

Long overdue

Sheryl Crow - Always On Your Side (feat. Sting)

My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
When you knew that I was always on your side

Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
But my demons and my angels reappeared
Leavin' all the traces of the man you thought I'd be
Too afraid to hear the words I've always feared
Leavin' you with only questions all these years

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be

Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
But this isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be

Well if they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay
If butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wondering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side

4th year = experiencing an infinite number of self-inflicted setbacks

BUT IT'S OKAY
that's how we learn right?

reminder to self: THINK before speaking! we got 2 ears and ONE mouth for a reason!

when i'm angry... omg. i won't stop complaining! i'm v. sorry to the ppl around me. esp my bf... but how come it still can't appease me?!?!?!

3 days of workshop: besides all that mustard/ cory and everything else, i've learnt that we should take ppl's interpretations with a pinch of salt...不管他是谁，是神还是鬼，我们都得用 cynical 的眼光来看待他们。 这个世界有够神经吧。 哪有谁会是真心要帮你的？

oh yay! i finish writing the bloody abstract le. hahaha good enough ba..at least i wrote according to the outline :P

time to enjoy myself. maybe prawning again tmr! and then fly kite on Sunday! yippee! i love my boyfriend! :D

Wah..i feel like killing myself... threw away ALL my moon's notes :( :( :( sai la...my precious scribblings... hai. lucky ke wei still have e soft copy... but my precious scribblings are goneeee! :( :( :(

gotta re-do my abstract too...cos it's too lousy. i'm sad :( no motivation. HAI
school's starting...i needa start my engine... time to press e start button for coffee intoxication program.

Burnt fingers? Scorching laptops? Introducing the new, the ultimate, sleek and saucy Laptop cooler! =D


Idea!


Stickers from Nicole. VaselinG pen from darling. and more stickers for myself :D

"Expectation is the root of all heartache." - William Shakespeare

familiarity breeds contempt

familiarity breeds contempt. learnt this idiom frm mushroom, the intelligent shitake.

for the sake of efficiency, we shld just keep everyone at arm's length during work. nevermind if there's no love. more importantly, there'll not be much hate too.

for admiration, be successful. but more importantly, be mysterious.

last but not least, extreme ppl...shld practice apathy.

first time kana accident. minor one. lucky. the bus came into our lane too soon. i think e driver didnt know that his bus was scrapping n dragging across our car. actually i didnt know too haha! damn blur la. jus 'huh' all e way. lucky my da shao n siblings know what to do. i think the driver was quite scared too...scully he kana fired liao...everyone else were copying down our car plate no. but too bad, not on 4d =P


first day surgery. very interesting experience. esp the part when u dont even know that u're asleep! i rmb commenting that the gas' smelly...n then everything went off w/o me knowing. so cool...
e ppl there were very kind n caring. :) esp this AN...wah damn nice. her voice's SO CALM i forgot all my laryngoscope fears. cos the night before, i was damn scared they'll use the wrong size and burst my airways! my doc's v. friendly too..but i think she was quite bu shuang cos i came late. >.<

second time watch 3d movie (ice age 3)...monsters vs aliens' better. dont wanna watch 3d movies liao..the specs' very heavy... headache

weirdest goldfish ever...caught in taiwan!

random

i got a new shirt today! a nice new shirt from a very special place that i can't say. secret! i jus love going out with my dearest partner. =))) it makes me happy~~~ i dont have to think what i wanna say, i just shoot it out from my mouth and i know she wont be offended in any ways. i don't have to hide anything too. i can be MYSELF! =D that's smthing precious and rare when u're 22 i think.

few days ago, i watched the ultimatum..last episode! zoe tay's really good in acting la. 演坏人也演到很帅！ love it!!! reminds me of her 双天至尊 days. ^____^

i've been staying @ home for the past few weeks and it's getting addictive. yes addictive! no need to do laundry/cleaning. no need to cook/ buy food (save money!). can even order wad i want. aircon! i'm addicted to a wormy life. even my mum's complaining. 不是吃饱就是睡觉，不然就是看电视。

prawning tomorrow! looooooooooooooooooking forward!! i've been waiting for so longgggggggg to do this!

L.O.V.E

i'm filled with so much love i think i can burst!
love from my dearest bf!
love from my family!
love from my friends!
=))))
i love u, u , u, u, u, u, u, u, u, u, u and U! =D

the "monster" u're fighting with...is not just neuroblastoma...
the monster...is the lack of super wealth.
the monster is expensive medicine.

wedding!

i never knew that weddings can be so happy! it wasnt very enjoyable when i attended my relatives' weddings...no feel. just gd food. except for one! cos he played GTO's song for the march in and ran into the ballroom with his wife. very cool~ :)
my brother just got married! and it's the most amazing thing that can ever happen in life!!! it's so special! everythinggg! maybe my relatives might find it boring just like how i felt for theirs. but who cares! the whole event was sooooo gddd. i've never seen my brother SO happy before.
can't wait for the day i get married with my darling :D i wanna be THAT happy too!

maybe i shld stop spending....and start saving for future plans. feel really guilty for buying everything that i like :( is this the youngest child syndrome? i think most first-child ppl are more careful with their money...

trying to be a good homemaker

Past few days were a little depressing. I prepare the same boring breakfast every morning for my bf...it's either oat with honey, or cereal with milk or oat with milo. Also, I couldn't iron his shirt properly that morning when he realized he didnt get it ironed. rush rush. don't know why it just couldn't get straight! \./ i ironed it TWICE hao bu hao! should have gotten the usual ironing board instead of a vertical steam iron. the lines just don't get straight. or maybe it's becos i'm not using the right technique. =S then yesterday, my zha jiang mian was a failure :( tasted so bad :( but he ate it all to convince me that it doesn't taste bad...
me: i know it's not nice. i got taste buds one. don't bluff me liao
him: no, it's really nice!
me: don't bluff me. if you're lying, i'll get struck by lightning tmr.
him: then i'll get killed in a road accident.
me: no, nothing's gonna happen to u.

haiya, i know he's just being nice. ^.^ keke... lesson learnt: steaming's my way to go. not frying. limits me to a million recipe..like the tradition english breakfast :( but nvm! 有办法的！

today's mission: Drunken chicken! hehe no frying. only need my rice cooker and fridge :D
Hopefully, i get a list of good steaming recipe before graduation. steaming eats up lesser time (lesser dish washing to do, allows freedom to do other stuff while food's cooking). it's also a healthy cooking method. conclusion: practical for my future career - nursing.

Holidays...and Chlorpheniramine.

Chlorpheniramine's a good cheap drug. Medicine's business really. Anw, i took Chlorpheniramine as recommended by my bf in order to get my body clock right. i better put a disclaimer to this...
Disclaimer: This is a blog. It is not a journal article and it's definitely not "evidence based" enough/ at all, even if i did get my body clock right after taking Chlorpheniramine. Pls see a doctor if u feel unwell or need some kind of adjustment to your body clock!

早起的鸟儿有虫吃。。。
早起的虫儿会早死！

online shopping binge

i'm still having the nocturnal effects from exams...haaaa...but i don't mind being an owl that sleeps from 8am to 5pm. it's complete shiokness to have 9hours of sleep with nothing to worry about. no 7am morning shift. no essays or reports to rush. no exams to worry. no uniforms to iron. no worry about PR issues. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO WORRY! woohoo! =D this must be the best time of our lives we can ever have in nus~~~ =))))

so here is my owl-istic life: sleeping from 8am to 5pm means missing more than 2/3 of the opening hours in e shopping malls..wanna spend my after 5pm time nua-ing with my bf when he's back frm intern...so left to spend my 12 midnight to 8am with e internet. few nights ago, was hooked on the korean version of F4...got sian of it (sorry xin ying!) and now on to gossip girl season II...sometimes to west coast mac with sis for supper/breakfast.

but last night, i put my savings @ risk with much joy. i did my ritual surfing to places like restaurant city..sadly, i am gg to places like that after exams. uni must have fried my brains or smthing...anw while feeding my restaurant city employees with bananas, i chanced upon this online shopping website. siao liao...that's it. i spent over a hundred on clothes that i haven't even tried on. but i AM happy. !?!? can't wait for the parcel to arrive =D hohoho pls pls pls fit me!!!

ignorance may be bliss.. but knowledge is enlightenment!

知道太多不好
但是知道比太多还要多就还好了。

希望六月十九日会过得顺顺利利！

情

完全绝交太无情
见到面时也无情
再也不能把这当友情
却又无法扔掉这份情
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谢谢你今天肯和我见面谈天
谢谢你让我肯定了身边还是有真心朋友
其实能做你的朋友是我的福气

the day i realized my brain appreciates the word "tmd"

tmd tmd tmd tmd tmd
dont know how else to view this whole crap in a positive light!
first, i handed in a lousy mgm essay. thought to myself..okay maybe it's not that bad. at least i can now confirm that mgm is not my cup of tea. (as if i needed a confirmation for that -.-)

now i'm suffocated by some stupid teaching plan and resource due on 8th may. okay right? today only 3rd may ma. NO! tmd! we still have a test on mental status examination tmr @ 1015am till 1110! wth?! case study do liao still not enough ma? cannot wait until after 8th may then ask us to do meh! TMD some more muz go 30minutes earlier. ok... so the msa takes about 1 hour plus only ma hor? mei you lor! TMD i still have reassessment of my NGT insertion @ 3pm. MUST reach 15min beforehand. shit la and i still dont know why my assessor wrote tt i measured wrongly. why why why!? i did ngt insertion for qte a few times during my community posting. so that SPI is not counted? MUST be my ttop then can be counted ar? wth... my ttop no chance la!
& after all these ridiculous assessment and reassessment, i only ve half a day left! where got time to study my contemp!

if only i ve the chance to fail their teaching plan too...

not forgetting that this blog is meant for me to focus on the gd stuff, i shall try to balance the above rantings with this:

i have finally printed out my contemp nursing notes today... / . \

Introducing it.

Instead of chiong-ing my untouched (STILL!) management essay, i went to KKH to get a second opinion for the lumpy. and now that i'm back, i'm STILL not chiong-ing my essay but posting my first entry in this new blog account. i don't know why i have the habit of creating a new account and then deleting it after some time. what's the point? i don't know. irrational.
For those who doesn't know who lumpy is: it used to be a super mobile 1.4cm lump in my R breast found in last October. Biopsy result said i shouldn't be worried (assuming they got lumpy's tissue instead of mine; suspicious because lumpy ran around and made it difficult for the doc to get it). Then it grew bigger so i went to KKH. Woah. It must be going thru' puberty or something. Now it's 3.4cm. Luckily it's still running about. Going back 2 weeks later for follow-up. I hope something can be done. Don't wanna leave it and continue self-monitoring.

p/s: CHECK URS TOO!