Wednesday, August 17, 2005
11:53 AM
i had my first fractured in my 14++ years of life!!! i fell from de stairs on saturday... my whole foot is lyk... as swollen as a pig's leg... yeah` tt's how bad it was...when i reached home, i was lyk in pain till tt i wan faint liao lor... went to changi hospital de next day... sunday... put plaster cast... walk wif crutches for a month lyk tt leh!!! tt means i'm going to miss a lot of things... veri sad leh... i will pray hard tt i can get supernatural healing... i noe i will get healed... i have faith in HIM... i wan thank all de pplx who really veri concerned about my condition... a big big thank u... :) heex... i'll be having de cast for a week plus... same goes to my mc too... n i'll have to be on crutches for maybe more thn a month!!! oh my, how m i going to go around? haiix... i miss school... services... cgm... haiix... i miss the orignal life that i lead... i miss my frens!!! i go everywhere also bu fang bian... den now i go back sch liaox mahx, den is lyk go everywhere also veri xian lor... de stupid crutches... den i have bother cheryl to help me take bag...my bag is lyk so heavy lor... so pai sei... n tt guy from 3t... he send me back to class... de destiny lies on my hands, no, is my leg... hahas... change class wif 2e3... den de classroom not good de... veri hot... no wind...
i went for de church anniversary celebration!!! it was so great!!! i'm so glad lor... but thn i also caused de whole family to quarrel... cos it's lyk so dangerous for me to go in crutches... my jie n ma cried... denm quarrel until dunno lyk wat sia... haiix, i went wif pamela n gui xiong... den sit wif pamela at de ground floor lor... i cried n cried n cried during de praise n worship tym... it was so great... den i went home wif gui xiong n samuel... when i reached home, everything was fine de... until de night... ma say tt i shall not go to de church anymore... she flood me wif all de stupid excuses... i just cant stand lor... i doesnt make any sense at all... den at midnight lyk tt, i msg xiao ting n tell her... den she taught me wat to do... n we prayed over de phone... i have faith tt i will go to church again real soon... faith is de key word... eugene words really knocked some erm... some... sense into me bahx...
cheryl n i din went for our cca today... den she go my hse... i slept on de 3 seater de sofa... den she fell aslp on de 2 seater... lolx sia... hahas... den we chatted more than study lor... lolx... she told me tt she seems to be lyk starting to backslide from God liao... cos she read de book, purpose driven lyf... it's suppose to be a christian book... den she say, maybe too chim, den she start to have doubts about God... i really pray tt god will do something to let her feel his presence...
i succeeded fasting today... hahas... i overcame de temptations... n God really bless me... cos i got pizzas for my dinner... i got so so so full... tml will continue fasting... he's going to make me overcome everything... cos of one word` -FAITH
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Monday, July 18, 2005
2:34 PM
just now being watching de korean show... wo de ye man jia jiao... den been start wondering when i'll have a boyfren tt can fight all these...lyk ver man lor... how nice would it be to kiss next to a lamp post on a rainy nite... bring me to you le yuan... starry starry nitex... laying down on the grassy land starring at the lovely stars...to 'save' me when i'm in danger... [ya... i sounded veri despo... i noe...i also human leh...]
but thn on a second thought, maybe y isit tt i dun have bf now mayb cos god wan me to concentrate on other things lyk studies or wat lor... god alrdy have plans for me many thousand years ago... it's being pre-arranged... i'll be wat god's wans me to be... heex... bye~~ nitex...
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i went for cell grp meeting yesterday... at de same place as last week... at bedok dere de... de feeling was really veri great... i cried alot of tyms... when xiao ting walked over, prayed in tongues wif me, told me about wat god told her about me... i cried even more... de presence of god is really veri strong...even stronger than some of the services in church...i lyk both the cell grp meeting n the services... all of them were crying... chee siang, eugene... peter... and of cuz, de gals... it was simply great... after tt cell grp meeting, i could felt god's presence all the tym... he's wif me... [i love u my lord...]
went home n celebrated wei lie kor kor de birthday... actually quarrelled wif elaine over the memory card thingy... went to wan ying hse to chat... the cake is veri delicious!!! not frm angie, all those famous de lah... but is from 929 de bejing dunno dunno wat name de shop... veri nice... heex...
today wei lie kor kor de grandma passed away... guess he must be veri sad de... shud be crying at this veri moment bah... haiix...
i met samuel n go gui xiong hse to knock today... he still didnt open de door or pick up the phone... haiix... met wei ming n fredi... did i spelt his name correctly? ok nvm... ya~ went for service... i pledged... at first i'm still thinking bout the amount of money... but thn god suddenly reminded me tt, 'hey cyndee, how bout the money u took frm ur father every weekend?'... den i remembered... thank god~~ from now to jan, i cannot eat expensively... is either i eat alittle, or i dun eat... i noe it's tough... but i also noe tt god will guide me, bring me thru everything... i noe... i have faith in *him*... waited at the cafe... chatted wif louis they all... den go home... eat!!! slp!!! lolx...
i' live for my god... him alone... every breath i take, everything i have belongs to him... he loves me more than i can imagine... he feels the pain, bitterness, sadness n happyness in me... i love u my dear lord...
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Thursday, July 14, 2005
2:01 PM
tt nitex gx n cheryl helped me ask him... it was a disaster... he sorted of indirectly rejected me... cos cheryl n ii pretended to be on private lah... my heart was abit... yah~ but i didnt cry...den cheryl bluff him n i tt they two stead... i dun believed it at all... den onli samuel believe.. oh my... den gx ask him wat to do lah... b4 he answered, i lyk 'come back' into the conversation lah... cos i dowan to noe the ans... after chatting, i called larry... chatted wif him lah... told him wat happened... he advised me to focus on studies lah... i also feel so... haiix... i decided tt within this one month, i'll try to give him up... den if he say to me tt he have feelings fur me or watsoeva, den i'll think again of wat to do lah... den if he didnt say within de month, i'll have to give up totally... lolx...
went to church too... didnt c him right in the morning lah... go dere wif jonathan, eugene they all... cos samuel went to knock on gx door to wake him up... but gx still didnt come at last... haiix... god spoke to me tt sunday morning... while i was worshipping, i suddenly heard a voice, saying' cyndee, i'll never let u go...'. ,i cried immediately... i really felt his presence... den went home wif wei ming... he seems to be veri quiet quiet type de... but actually tt tym, he got chat wif me lor... den told me about himself lyk tt... hahas...
went home n slept... tired... thn went to newton circus to eat... it's veri ex dere n de food is not tt tasty lor... they earned on tourists... not for locals... i still prefer 800+ de coffeeshop there... nicer... hahas...
all the ppl went for obs le... there's onli 7 of us in class... boring... we slept, chatted... do nothing at school... sian lor... but htn we made cheesecake during fnn... it wasnt tt nice lah... maybe cos it's straight from the oven... i got sick of cheesecake!!! tml we'll be making brownies... lolx... recess wasnt tt bad... i usually go n find larry n 'xiao bai' awhile before going to the library to find sam chng, gx they all... the sec 3s will be returning soon!!! it'll soon all be over!!!
today went to watch intial to de show was great... edison is sooooo handsome!!!! jay too!!!! the next show i wan to watch probably will be charlie n the chocolate factory... n harry potter!!! lolx... i thnk will be watching harry potter wif wan ying bah... i misses her n cheryl damn much!!! haiix...
i fasted to six pm today... it was abit tough... wanted to give up ... but didnt... i noe tt god's power is within me to resist the temptation... god is wif me alwaes... never apart from me...
shall stop here le... cos very tired... lolx... bye bye~
signing off~ cyndee~
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Sunday, July 10, 2005
1:17 PM
i long long tym never blog le~ realli veri long... attending church regularly... and cell grp meeting too... these few days were great~
he broke up liao~ i'm de first one to know!!! he abit sad lah... i feel tt it's not fair... i almost got over him... with the help of god... but why isit at this period of time, he came to tell me tt he broke up? which made all my feelings come back... y? i was veri shocked lor... cos i never tot tt he would call me up and tell me all these~ the things he did made me sensitive... mayb things werent the way he meant it... yesternite i prayed to god... saying tt i'll tell him my feelings on de phone when he reached home... but he didnt call... does tt meaning tt god doesnt want us to be together? i dunno~~ gx told me to wait bout a month later or wat~ dunnos... cheryl was saying tt i shud tell... my mind is filled wif dunnos...
i bought a pig de cup for samuel de birthday... i wrapped it full if newspaper... den when he opened it, he was abit fared up lah~ cos really alot of newspapers... lolx...
went to gx house to watch de passion of christ... jian xiong uncle lent me de... m18 de leh~ mai xiao xiao... i cried the most there... de guys passed me a roll of tissue paper... oh my... i cried till my eyes swollen...
i fasted... for 12 hours... by right should be 24 hours de... but cos of my diabetes... ya... i prayed to god tt i will not lead into temption... i actually did it... praise the lord... the strength of god is really veri strong...
yesterday didnt go fur guitar again... went for prayer meeting... larry, xiao bai tu,maggie n sam chng they all lor... it was great~ [i wouldnt wan to miss any opportunity to pray to god, to communicate to god, to feel de presence of god]den went to suntec to find pastor... cheryl accompanied me... shop till 8 lyk tt... den we went to esplanade... did i spell it wrongly? hope not... den we took lots photos...lyk wat eugene ang did... quite silly lah~ den reached home bout ten...
went for cell grp meeting today...veri fun arx... at bedok...
i shall stop here... cos he's going to call in a few minutes tym... haha...
may god bless...
signing off~ cyndee
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Monday, June 20, 2005
2:45 PM
well well well... lots of things happened tiis few days... lett miee typee iit down whiile i'm haviing moiix great wiine... quiite strong. 16%... hahas...
dee raptors got chalet... ii was haviing a biible study class wiif xiiao tiing... at bk... yeah~ just beforr she left for israel... iit was great but ratherr... quiiet... cos there's onlii two of us... hahas...
ii waiited forr kellie for full 2 hours... diidnt met her iin de end...
ii heard tt he got... ahem lle... ahh~~~ ii was... feeliing lykk... awfull... yeah~ dee feeliing was awfull. wanyiing n cheryl was telliing miee lyk... 'dun feel sad...' etc... ii told guii xiiong... he was ablle to tell out who dee person was... n ii also able to makee hiim promiise tt he wun tell outt... ii noe he wouldnt cos hee also dowan to iinviite trouble... hahas...
moiix legs became abiit yellowiish all diis... mama veri worriied... iin fact, everiione got verii worriied... except miee... goiing for check up on 27th...
yeah~ ii was coughhiing lyk hell thiis 2 weeks... ii kept sayiing to sam tt ii'm haviing cancer... iiniitiially, he beliieved~ lolx... louiis n hiim sort of cannot stand moiix cancer thiingy liiao le... sam was de most concerned wiif moiix legs thiingy de person other thn moiix famiily.... [ pls dun treat miie so good~~~ wo huii pa~~ nii shii bu huii liiao jiie wo de xiin de, u'll nv ever underrstand how ii feels...]
17th... moiix fiirst cell grp meetiing... ii met samuel fiirst... n dennise...( diid ii spell iit wrongly?)... guii xiiong coulld make iit at last... de moment ii reached there, start talkiing to louiis... iin de bus, we even siitted together... chatted all thiis llor... he supposed to go workk de lor... den iin de end he diidnt go... hahas... over de meetiing, we played games lor... ya~ hahas... den we sang...eugene's testimony was verii touchiing... siis meiiyan preached... ya~ thn she led a prayer... to let us receiive de gift of speakiing in tongues... ii still couldnt do so... mayb moiix relatiionshiip wif holy spiriit not tt strong... bbq... ii was verii afraiid of falliing iinto de pool... ii cannot swiim!!! ya!!! piit too much ppl le!!! so we went down to kfc all thiis lor... to have moiix diinner... ii eat lot siia... thn we went to jurong entertaiinment centre... de mac... chatted awhiile lah... on tt traiin, ii asked eugene n samuel tt all quiite alot bout god de thiingy...reached home bout ten plus bah~~~ ii try prayiing to god, askiing hiim to touch miiee iin a speciial way tt ii can feel hiis presence... diidnt really worked out... nvm... mayb iit's not tt tym yet... ii believe one day god wiill surelly let miiee feel hiis presence dee...
19th... today~ went to church... brought kelliie along... she behaved quiite well lah... she cliings quiite well wiif de rest of dee grp member... guii xiiong still couldnt make iit... ii feel tt iit's verii wad lor... fiine~ yii qiing n hiis frens also came along... on de traiin, john paul verii crappy... hiis siister verii cute!!! ya!!! duriing de preachhiing, kelliie so bored tiill wan slp le... ii today talked quiite alot wiif iriis...
ya~ went to cafe after serviice... thn went to jurong poiint lah~ had our meals at mac... at dee table, kept talking bout lame thiings... thn went shoppiing all thiis...kellie told me tt sam say her pretty... heart... abiit... on de traiin, ii was de onlii one standiing... weariing skirt. went reached tampiines there, sam n ii demo on de diifferent types of shakkin hands to kelliie... den he waiited for us to board de bus thn he go lor... reached home, had diinner le, verii tiired... slp~ ~
tiis iis how ii spend tiis few days~~
siigniing off~~~ cyndiiee
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Monday, June 13, 2005
2:02 PM
ii havent bllog for long long daes...lett miee summaryy watt happenned...
from 2nd to 6th... ii worked as promoterr... at yiishun there... de iinterchangee...kiiddypalace... iin charged of de diisney de dolls... n all these lah... miickey miiniie... pooh... lots... gotta noe dee cashiier... liian hua... she from malaysiia dee... then a few other siide de cashiers sae miee verii cute wor!!! lolx... bhb ii noe... 2 other, joe n yong qiiang... liian hua iish 23 thiis year... joe 19... n yong qiiang, 20... yong qiiang dun looked lyk 20 at all... more of 16... hahas... moiix legs were sooo paiinfull... lyk goiing to break le... ii onlii worked a few days lor... suppose to work for a week de...
ii went to church on sunday... ii told feliiciia tt ii not feeliing well...[god pls forgive miee] ii met guii xiiong... he late... for 40 miinutes... den we took cab... he pay... hahas... on de way... we chatted lorx... hahas...
den went back to work... iin mrt, ii was lyk siiao cha bo... yeah~ reached dere bout 4 plus 5 le... omg... haiix... ii told feliiciia tt ii want to stop workiing le... den she say tt iit's abiit lyk abiit irresponsiible lyk tt... so ii say dunno lehs... ii can feel tt she wass abiit lyk buaii song wiif miee lor... ii didnt work on 7th n de last dae... sick... ii dun wanna work aniimore... workiing, earniing money iish sooo diifficultt... ii wan to treasure wat ii have now...
7th issh chc dee emerge... a great dae... met samuel chong... gx overslept!!! just as sam chng n i prediicted... thn meet up other church frens... take mrt... reach dere, q lyk hell... veri hot... when we get into de auditorium... sang songs tt praised the god... i cried... lyk duno wat... i also dunno y i criied... maybe ii can realli feel de presence of god... ii'm soooo shock to c louis dere... moiix guitar de senior... guad liao le... realli veri surprise... Q for talenttym... chee siiang sat by moiix siide... playy gamee... louiss bought miee sandwiiches... nn waterr... so g0od w0rr... lolx. dee wholle talenttymm wass so0o n0isy... pplx shouttiing... iit wass lykk... lolx... hahas... durriing tt, gx wass lyk nott feeliin well lyk tt... offeredd hiim waterr... actuallyy he wass juss tiired... yeahh... hahas...
Q'ed a lonng long tym for de nightt session... p0s... samuel n yiing yiing performiing... chatted wiif hiim thrgh outt de wholle Q'iing... yeah~
gotta noee a lady... thiink frmm australia or watt... herr name iish sofiia... dunno spell wrong nott... hahas... she askeed miee some of de thiings bout p0s thiingy...
when pastor kong preachiing, ii cannot tahan le... go toilet... so malu... ii was de only one rushing out of de auditoriium... omg... haiix... denn sessiion ended le... wanted to meet gx... but den miisunderstood his words... went to de iinterchange instead... den meet samuel n hiis frens dey all... n took cab homee... along de way chatted all tiis lah...reached homee bout one iin de morniing le... end of emerge storyy...
those days~ class chalet... but didnt go dee fiirst daee...
checkk iin wass exciting... go buy food... hahas... piink freak... lolx... hahas... den play play... wiine... hahas... dey drunk... ii was abiit.. seii liiao yeah~ cos thiink too much sad thiings le... ii usuallyy dun gett drunkk so easilly...
biicycle... piillow fiights... r all our memoriies... bbq... got some shuaii gor kor help miee set up after ii triied forr 2 hours... hahas... kelly de frens... saw edmel... came to dere awhile... hellp miee bbq awhiile... yeah~ workkiin at cheers... they fell aslp verii early... viisiited de 3e4 chalet... all boiis... zl...yh...kk...wl...e.a... n lots... yeah~ chatted wiif edmel... den jonathan... last but nott least... samuel... chatted tiill bout 1 plus 2 lor... driink up all de wiine... yeah~ check out... went home...chatted wiif samuell... ya~ sleep~ yeah~ end of happii storyy
miee chatted wiif yiingqii... found outt tt herr wurlld filled wiif saddness... hatred... ii wan briing her hope... she foundd miee veri iinterestiing... hahas... ii used to be lyk her de... feltt no love iin moiix wurld... feel lyk briingiing her to church... cos god changed miee... ii no longer feel de samee... [praise the lord]
12th... todayy~ wake up~ samuel chong called... morniing call... ya... at 8... he wass late... den iin traiin lor... yiingjiie joiin us... den chee siiang... took de chc de bus dere... b4 tt went to buy breakfastt...reached there... samuel verii crap... yeah... den ii receiive christ... xiiaojiia prayyed for miee... samuel too...first tym heard hiim prayed iin tongues for miee... actually iis for those who havent receive yet de den go down lah... he accompaniied miee down... he veri good hor veri good hor? lolx... hahas... at de end of service, he suppose to go for anotherr de... but den he didnt go... he told xiiao tiing tt he wan peii miee... omg... [dun treat miee so good... pls... i'll scare de...]
den go jp dere eat lor... not enuff $$$ cos just topup moiix hp... haix... managedd to eat yeah~ they had meetiings... denn we went homme lorx... by traiin... siit besiide yiingjiie... they abiit viiolent lorx... denn ii was lyk wantiin to slp... samuel they all go orchard... so they go off at raffles or city hall ii thiink... wasnt verii sure... ii accidentally called samuel... ii was slpiing... [so sorryy] aliighted at kembangan...
reached homee... onlii mama n kelliie at homee... kelliee kana canniin... forr beiing rude to mama... nott quiite sure watt happened... yeah~ den mama make piizza forr me... yA~~~ tmll got biible study... hahas... stop here le lah...
byebye~ Cyndiee~ ii love g0d... ii cant liive wiifout hiim
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