Assurance

Some stuff that came randomly to my head while otw home, which was mainly about how people tend to seek out validation and assurance, on their choices, their decisions, their life.

Like everyone else, I always feel that much more confident/reassured when someone confirms things that I think or say. Be it a way of life, or just a weakness on our parts, it shows that people are still rather easy to be influenced by the decisions of others.

Had an idea to get a good/enjoyable meal every 1/2 weeks for myself, and found that I was telling that to some friends when i got the chance. Partly, it was to invite them if they wanted to join me, but also, perhaps I wanted people to agree that it was a good idea.

Fear plays a big part in the lives of people. Not saying that fear is bad in any means, as it keeps us controlled, and self-protecting. Would be bad if everyone shouts "Yolo!" and runs across any road without checking for traffic right.

I guess the important thing is to have friends around which you can consult/share about your ideas, people that help you better your life. It definitely wouldn't work being alone all the time. Hopefully can find more friends that I am able to share anything under the world with. I'm sure in time I probably would. But who would want to wait. :P

It's been a long while since I ever blogged, or even visited this blog. Doubt many people even know of it, or read it nowadays.

Anyways, just wrote a first facebook note about growing up.

As I grow up, I feel I'm better at noticing my surroundings, gauging people's thoughts and actions to a certain extent. However, I'm also better at blocking out such stuff, and living my life in my own shell i crafted for myself, with the rules i set for myself.

However, many things have happened which make me question the need to change.

People grow older, things happen, actions need to be taken.

Sure, I can just ignore and treat it that nothing is part of my problem. But the question is, should I be acting that way?

A friend of mine decided to dedicate her 21st birthday to having people donate money for the Singapore Children's Society, money which people are willing to spend on gifts for her. Although I'm pretty sure her friends will probably still get her a present or something for her herself, she made me contemplate, what makes her action so different from what many others are doing. I'm not saying that its wrong to want to make your own 21st birthday a "About You" day, but it is something different. I can only recall for my 21st, i was just thinking about it being my birthday, although i didnt do much, it was a day about me.

I guess, it will be tough balancing a "remember to care about yourself" and "not to be selfish and care about yourself". However, I feel that for me, that should be something I should seek to achieve to the best I can, less i end up regretting in the future.

Timeline for change: 2-3 months, or maybe up to 1 semester.