Assurance

Some stuff that came randomly to my head while otw home, which was mainly about how people tend to seek out validation and assurance, on their choices, their decisions, their life.

Like everyone else, I always feel that much more confident/reassured when someone confirms things that I think or say. Be it a way of life, or just a weakness on our parts, it shows that people are still rather easy to be influenced by the decisions of others.

Had an idea to get a good/enjoyable meal every 1/2 weeks for myself, and found that I was telling that to some friends when i got the chance. Partly, it was to invite them if they wanted to join me, but also, perhaps I wanted people to agree that it was a good idea.

Fear plays a big part in the lives of people. Not saying that fear is bad in any means, as it keeps us controlled, and self-protecting. Would be bad if everyone shouts "Yolo!" and runs across any road without checking for traffic right.

I guess the important thing is to have friends around which you can consult/share about your ideas, people that help you better your life. It definitely wouldn't work being alone all the time. Hopefully can find more friends that I am able to share anything under the world with. I'm sure in time I probably would. But who would want to wait. :P

It's been a long while since I ever blogged, or even visited this blog. Doubt many people even know of it, or read it nowadays.

Anyways, just wrote a first facebook note about growing up.

As I grow up, I feel I'm better at noticing my surroundings, gauging people's thoughts and actions to a certain extent. However, I'm also better at blocking out such stuff, and living my life in my own shell i crafted for myself, with the rules i set for myself.

However, many things have happened which make me question the need to change.

People grow older, things happen, actions need to be taken.

Sure, I can just ignore and treat it that nothing is part of my problem. But the question is, should I be acting that way?

A friend of mine decided to dedicate her 21st birthday to having people donate money for the Singapore Children's Society, money which people are willing to spend on gifts for her. Although I'm pretty sure her friends will probably still get her a present or something for her herself, she made me contemplate, what makes her action so different from what many others are doing. I'm not saying that its wrong to want to make your own 21st birthday a "About You" day, but it is something different. I can only recall for my 21st, i was just thinking about it being my birthday, although i didnt do much, it was a day about me.

I guess, it will be tough balancing a "remember to care about yourself" and "not to be selfish and care about yourself". However, I feel that for me, that should be something I should seek to achieve to the best I can, less i end up regretting in the future.

Timeline for change: 2-3 months, or maybe up to 1 semester.

10 yrs from now..

This post is here to remind myself, that for whatever i achieve in 10 yrs, it is not due to my own hard work, but due to the care and concern of those around me, especially my parents for without them, i will not be who I am today.

KPOPfied

Well, back from MAMA ytd, awed by the aura of concert + getting so see so many artistes in real life for the first time...

Me Like!

lol. cant wait for nxt friday to come, SNSD concert! would be great if got to see SNSD in person like face to face.


but still, no fish prawn also gd. satisfied with seeing from afar.

Congrats to all MAMA winners btw!

Time passes so quickly..

Time really passes by quickly, especially when u look back at wat has happened. Now, it is time to look towards the new yr. lol


7 days to MAMA
17 days to SNSD concert
23 days to Brunei
30 days to coming back from Brunei
39 days to last day of 2011. =)


ORD, here I come!

Turning point

First blog post as a 20 yr old!

no more teenager liao. lol

Somehow, today felt rather different. although everything seems to be the same, the feeling is somehow different. Perhaps it is a 20yr old thing. lol.

However, on a serious note, being 20 means can no longer act like a kid anymore, must start to act like an adult already.

also, for the first time in a while, im spending money on something for short term enjoyment. going to 2 concerts this yr. LIKE! >.<

update on goals for the yr:

i think i seriously have to lose weight. damn. increasing work load.
at least 30 crunches per night.
Run 3 times a week ( mostly at gym)
start reading books again.
( book list - 7 habits, the 8th habit, and also find How to save your own life. lol)

*must find Cheese for weight-loss* haha

progress

commited myself to my first run after work... damn short though, cant help it too unfit le =(

also not progressing with the jap studying. must learn the alphabet first. lol. and my table is quite messed up. =(

on the bright side though, I'm officially an undergrad with SMU! =)