+ Just a step away from paradise

yeah, another template with a lily on it

hello! I parked my car elsewhere now!!!

i.e. i've MOVED to a nice new home.

so if you guys still pop by, just shift ur eyes to Here! Been posting there for a while now

adieu then, to here!

wahahaha. I have NEW furniture!!! (:

but seriously la, i think my old furniture was heavier than me. Shoving it outside the room was no joke. Not to mentionshoving the pieces down teh corridor, then down the STAIRS then UP the STAIRS again, and all the way to the lift..... By golly my arms received more than enough exercise in a week. But i'm quite proud of myself. Every speck of dust currently in my room is OBLITERATED. only that will last about like 10 secs, and dust settles on ym stuff again and i have to CLEAN CLEAN CLEAN. Bah.

but its okay, keeping healthy is good. And if it means that i can do ONE pull up again, then yes, its perfectly worth it (: my new desk is a little high though. good thign the chair can push up push down one. Else i'll be havingmy neck at the table top when i sit down =x

my spaghetti is cold ): but i still have to eat it. Ah well.

WHOOPEEEE Larissa got kicked outta bed real early today thanks to the horrific renovation that is going on upstairs (by early larissa means 915, but to most of u that is late but oh well) so i found some time to do some early morning reflections, or musings, whichever u prefer.

1) I think that time helps alot for some things, but i think that life too often has me in neurosis to really let me handle things properly. I wish that life would be more fun and less difficult, then again half the time i make things difficult for myself and that's when i do stupid stupid things that i can't always explain away and shit hits the fan, again.

2) Because of some strange bone in my body, i decided that i want to go to the science center ( but i don't know for what) maybe it'll go away soon. I have too many whims and fancies that are quite odd to really live out every single one of them. hm.

3) I miss the people who used to help keep me sane - Daph, Adri, sometimes even WL and Xuannie. I wish they'd come back soon ): then maybe i'll be a bit more normal. I don't think i ever can feel normal when its like me being bound to a million and one things i don't want to be bound to, but feel ridiculously responsible for. Least these pple either help me not want to be bound so much, or make me realise that i'm being bound too much. Hm. URGH.

4)I hate pple telling me i'm not cut out to work. Sure, good life yada yada yada that you can be a tai tai, but like HI, its not confirmed i'll EVER be one, and it makes me feel so weak and useless and defenceless, like some kind of 18th century damsel in distress waiting for some lord or count or whatever to keep her fed and happy and give birth to heirs and do nothign btu sit around all day and talk or find ways to keep their husbands from straying.(My lord save me save me! i can breed don't worry! =_=) I think i can do more than that., if i can't then DIE LA DIE LA.

5) On the bright side, my hair is getting longer! i don't miss my old tresses so much anymore!!! and i can do more funny things with it so yay! (bimbo statement but who cares)

Right, rubbish musings from me that aren't quite as entertaining, but is okay. I shall get my ovaltine (there was an uprising and the milo's tupperware throne has been usurped by the ovaltineT-T) and plant myself somewhere on teh veranda. Hopefully i'll get some sun and start photosynthesizing, hahaha, i cld potentially be happier as a plant.

sometimes i wonder how love
keeps itself going,
when tempers and
people keep tearing
it apart.

then i remember
the passive guilt
the active heart
that keeps a person remembering
what it was like
to have reached out
and touched.

oh heavens, can i be anymore Abnormal. i think i'm wierd. i just spent the entire evening talking to myself =x. no wait. u guys didn't need to know that =x

*runs and hides in blanket

i need help.

just curious, are people actually 100% nice i.e. usually nice, and are only nasty to certain people, and therefore certified as nasty to them? i mean, we all have negative impressions of people, but that's cos they either are nasty to us, or behave in ways we personally cannot tolerate. In taht case, does that mean that these people, the ones we think are horrible, are actually nice people who are nasty when they want to be ( like most normal people) or actually nasty people and nice when they want to be?

hey guys i lost my phone, those who need my number, buzz me online ok?