today i attended 1st tutorial with my new classmates. and then i found out how i really really wished to be in 1B18 again.(though there is a someone who i will not wan to see,ever). so i heard that last week, 7 of us did not attend the tutorial..surprisingly, all were females.. because, pathetically, there are only 3 guys! so we formed groups..2 of the guys are in my group + 4 girls. the girls were great! especially me. hurhur. there's 1 Myanmar girl..sorry to say, i really dun understand her :'( she is friendly though.. she has been in Singapore for only a week. awesome! and then we started doing our HRM thingy. the guys.. sad to say, whole class dun really have any shuai ge. but Kang Jie, my Japanese group mate,coincidently also my class and HRM group mate again, is the shuai one la.. the other guy... speaking of which, i really treasure having DARREN WONG JI KAI aka CHICKEN LITTLE as my group mate than the whatever his name is! what-so-ever-his-name-is, is a freeloader(chicky..come back T-T ), think that he is very clever but did not, and must emphasizes DID NOT contribute single thing.( at least chicky did some chirping). Instead of giving more opinions which are useless and showing your sucked up attitude, do your brain some good, let your brain juice run! or has it all been sucked up by your sucked up attitude! rawrr. I miss my class.. my group mates.. Min Hui,Jenny, Benji and Darren.. sobs.. i hope the girls are okie..which i think they are.

posted by <不要叫我 Xiao Hui> @ 2:55 PM

bought a lavender psp. in love with it. ytd wasnt my day. very down. somebody made it worst but then its over. Almost kill myself today. i waited for 5hrs and in the end the lesson was canceled. GOD playing with me.. didnt get to meet my classmates because i missed monday lesson. and here's a touching story. lazy to forward

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy..
so sweet

I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.


Dew came into my life.
this sux..u b**** opps
It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.
chey! guys are forever..guys.. wad the hell am i toking abt?
Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said,

Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.

Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife.. But I couldn't help doing so.

I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.?

I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.

Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner.

I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body.
HENTAI! guys are always like that! ero!
This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.
poor thing..
Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.
ah...shut up la u b*tch
When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.
HEARTLESS GUYS!!
She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
if i were her, i will give him the nutcracker! beware...muahahah
I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry..

She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!
poke it in the eye! and yes! u are no man..after giving u the nutcracker.. u are a eunuch!
That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.
this is the 1 last thing that guys should do..
Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.

She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.

I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly,

Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.
yes..delete her from your c-drive,d-drive, thumbdrive,hardisk, & etc
On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded.

The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.
but u should tell the truth! NEVER LIE!
I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain.. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.

Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.

I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.
IN YOUR FACE! HONEYDEW!
She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever.. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old.

So I have to say sorry to you.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.
so sweet..nearly cried.

hehe.. added my thoughts.. after reading, i think most guys will wanna whack me le.. but true ma.. marriage is a life time thing.. if we dun give our whole heart.. dun get married la! "/





posted by <不要叫我 Xiao Hui> @ 6:20 PM

doom.. i didnt know need to go for HR MGT tutorial.. lazy me. for not checking VBUS. damn. i missed out meeting my new classmates, forming group, wad to do, and then i wasted a day of 'leave' ... arghhh..

anyway, had Sakae Sushi. yummy. and have nice songs.. but it was always repeating. got first love, rolling star and ayumi hamasaki songs. then my parents bought a 42inch TV. so cool.

posted by <不要叫我 Xiao Hui> @ 10:02 PM

Correction. MAYBE i will get to ride on Singapore Flyer. just maybe.. yeah.

posted by <不要叫我 Xiao Hui> @ 3:21 PM

Thurs 17/4/08:
My dinner was Pizza Hut. Wanted to celebrate Jenny's belated bdae and Julie's advance bdae. Julie couldn't make it. sobs :( luckily Jenny came. we bought her a skirt from MNG. hope she likes it. okok. the pizza hut story. group of 8 : Wan Ting, Min Hui, Jenny, Jeslin, Derrek, Benjamin, Aaron and ME! Michelle, Julie and Darren couldn't make it. then i shared the table with the guys. the 8 of us ordered 2 4-person-meal. and of cos, the guys ordered something extra; meatballs and chicken. and for the 1st time, i felt that i was eating fast because we cleared the food earlier than the others. but of cos la.. not of my help.. i was the last one to finish in my table. Everybody had 3 slice of pizza, a bowl of mud soup..i mean mushroom soup, 2 drinks; pepsi & water. but i trade with Aaron, i took both plain water. i also tried to cut down on my cheese intake because i have been eating junk food lately. after dinner, we went to Singapore river. We sat there and didnt talk much. hurhur, i keep staring at Maybank or the direction of all the banks located. My Future? :) then we went home at ard 10.45. i felt so bad, because my dar was actually waiting for me. i reached home at ard 12 and he came over. chit chat and slept at 1+ near 2. and i gotta wake up at 6.30am tmr.. planning to be late but...

Fri 18/4/08:
Woke up at 6.30 as usual. Today is my last day at work! haha. my colleague said i was very enthu. :P before that, i saw Bryan at YCK mrt station. he was waiting for his gf. haha. sweet. early morning leh.. oh ya. then my last day at work- peaceful, not much complains or irritated TP. because its the last day of e-filing too. =) Heidi wrote me a card, so sweet of her. She was the very 1st person i made friends with. Surprisingly, she is from my school, Temasek Polytechnic 3rd year grad. Fated. haha. my lunch buddy :) and we always had difficulty deciding wad to eat. now i am gone, dunno who will be her lunch time buddy.

Sat 19/4/08:
you don't wanna know what i had just done. we(my dar & i) set off at around 11+ pm. wondering where we were going? soon u will find out. on our 2 wheels, we headed towards kovan. and ppl who don't live in Kovan area, wouldn't know there's a very long upward slope. and for a person like me; rarely exercise, 1st timer on the road, to actually finish the upslope, is a miracle. to tell you the truth, i feel like stopping and just slide back down the slope =X but yea, completed. then we continue forward: CHARGE!! there's upslope at Kovan but downslope at Potong pasir. cycle on the road was exciting and scary. the car, lorries just ZOOM past u -.-" then cycle cycle, we reached Singapore river, the place that i had been on thurs. the place was romantic, saw lots of couple. but ahya. the guy riding with me not really romantic so i just space out and keep starring at the Singapore flyer- thinking when will i have the chance to sit on it, and who will be the person/people. My guess: either never or with my friends. then after that we cycled back. was about to die already lor.. now is the Potong Pasir upslope. if you are looking, u will see 1 girl going upslope, super duper duper slow. For Heaven Sake Pauline! Its Already Gear 2! SJAB de leh! so i die die also dun wan to gear down. because i was thinking of setting it at gear3 only. but yea, i dropped 1 gear.zzz. then blah blah blah. THE KOVAN SLOPE! WOOHOO! WEE!! downwards sloping. AT MAX GEAR. ZOOM! already at gear 8 and i dun have to paddle. Muahaha! shiok :P then after that cycle back to dar's place. bathe and slept at 5am. my legs are fine :) Thanks dar, for the wonderful journey. and i know i am a burden to you :(

posted by <不要叫我 Xiao Hui> @ 12:10 PM

Three Kingdom. its a nice movie. should watch. little gross. had my dar with me to explain some background info.(he read 'san guo yan yi' before hor...) i read a few chapts during sec5. got lost in the story because too many characters. i shall start from the beginning again. the show spark my interest in san guo again..so yea.. and i found the anime version. so waiting for the right time, right place, right person to watch with me ( there's only 1..quite obvious who la. )

posted by <不要叫我 Xiao Hui> @ 9:37 PM

Just came back from cycling.. a short one. to jalan kayu to have my dinner. ate prata. my dar treat again. feel so bad.. :( thank you("v") .. so tired.. as usual.. many calls again.. stay back do call backs again.. buh... let me release my frustration here.

i am getting super irritated by ppl who will only complain and say its RIDICULOUS when they themselves do last min work. WTH. not happy? don't do! we gave out letters, pins and advertisement. HEY, u are in Singapore, u ppl jolly well show the freaking singaporean kiasu-ism!
i thot everything also want to be first? thats what singaporeans do best right? or isit only when it comes to free gives or boarding the trains/buses? pls la.. dun give me the cock(crap), blaming the system here and there. you got hell of more than 1 month to do.. but noooo. u rather do it in the last 2 days. Great, more call backs, more scoldings/complaining (and for crying out loud, i am not paid to hear your complains, but to just ans your queries), more "Its riduculous" blah blah..

i think i am too agitated... but THANK GOD I AM LEAVING!

posted by <不要叫我 Xiao Hui> @ 10:08 PM

about 130 calls.. so cool! 8 hrs i can picked up that much calls. awesome, right? after 5pm, i still have to return a whole list of calls.. wao! if it weren't for Heidi, i think i can stay in the office le.. thank i am looking forward to a lot of things.. no.1) Thursday outing (pizza!) no.2) midnight cycling (don't rain please, and make it a successful one. ) no.3) shopping (i hope she can still make it. cos i like shopping with her :D )

posted by <不要叫我 Xiao Hui> @ 7:55 PM

ytd i reached home at around 11pm. went to my dar house. we ordered KFC for dinner. his treat. thx dar :) then watched lord of the rings. very nice! had been staring at the computer for more than 10 hours. in work, his place then at home. so cool huh.. i am going blind. then this morning,i brought my dog down for his usual thingy. and guess wad. i didnt leash him and i just walked him down.. but only for a short distance. i rushed to work.. and at the mrt station, because i slept at 1, i was so blur and impatient. i scanned my card and before the 'door' can open i rushed through.. eh no la. the 'door' was faulty. then just bam! not pain though.. just continued my journey. was doing cross-stitch and playing sudoku at work today.. got free nasi lamak( my breakfast but became my lunch) and milo.. the milo is nice! thick enuff.. then like that lo.. now i feel like sleeping..

posted by <不要叫我 Xiao Hui> @ 2:58 PM

today, i was about to lose 2 things.

no.1) my voice.
today is a very busy day. the fact that i took my time to answer my calls (thats my job) , at the end of the day i have had 85 calls. almost cant talk..every now and then (almost every sentence) i will have to clear my throat. must cough cough a bit. i think ppl around are very irritated..but wad to do leh.. and then starting to dislike somebody in my workplace. she shall not be name. but hate it that when u talk to her, she will not look at you. that is just plain rude. understand that when she picks up call, she is busy, she can just look and me and point at the headset but no... she wun look at u and sometimes dun ans u. so from then on, i never ask her anything and dun bother looking at her.

no.2) my temper and my life.
i took bus no. 74 today.. plate no. SBS 9297C. i board the bus at amk mrt station at ard 6? i can tell that i almost died in the bus.. i really wished that the bus driver can just drive without stopping. everytime it breaks, everybody will fly.. and seriously. it is really EVERY STOP~EVERYBODY will fly.. i was thinking whether to write in to SBS, but in the end i gave up that thought because i know its useless. that driver should seriously consider quitting his job because he is risking the life of 80+ ppl maybe? double-deck and very packed. and then when i wanted to alight, i waited for the bus to stop before standing up. i dun wan my pretty face on the windscreen u know:P

posted by <不要叫我 Xiao Hui> @ 7:31 PM

ytd was a tiring day..i slept at abt 10pm+ but was woken up around 11+. i do not know why i woke up, but i just did. To my surprise, with my blurry eyes and mind, i saw my dar and my mama standing in front of me. my mind took quite a while to register who and what was going on. (Wanted to fall back to sleep but my sub-conscious mind told me not to.) so i climbed out of bed, gong gong and unstably( and kinda angry- because i dun like ppl to wake me up- but i bias la, my dar different-so i suppress my temper-funny hor, sleepy still can care so much -.-" ) was happy to see him though. didnt see him much. but then after that we sleep le la. AND THE WEATHER IS DARN HOT!

and then today morning went to work as usual. but then the whole( most of it actually ) Revenue House was stuffy and kinda dark. only a few lights were on. quite a relax day, got free ice milo and ribina. and i am still very tired.

posted by <不要叫我 Xiao Hui> @ 6:36 PM

just came back from 5 hours of KBOX. phew, we survive. actually not really la. after 3 hours, everybody engine slowed down. haha
Michelle was the organiser for the whole thing. wanted to celebrate Jenny's belated bdae but she was sick :( but its okie! we gave Michelle a surprised advance bdae celebration instead! lolx!
okok. back to the singing part. everybody sang except Derek..(hmpf!) as in he did sing..but without the mic .. sang a lot of SHE songs. Hebe is really very pretty! lolx. unique ba.. not the pretty boring face..( means that the person is pretty but is too common looking that it becomes boring ) and then we also sing "ben xiao hai" (sorry, cant type chinese for now because i dunno how to set -.-" ) everybody very high.. and also maroon 5 - this love. then we sang FIR. can kill la. then of cos got JJ and Jay chou. so fun!

Hope we can do it again some other time.

posted by <不要叫我 Xiao Hui> @ 8:43 PM

special thanks to Benjamin Heng.. & Friend.

Applause*

for helping me do my blog skin :D


posted by <不要叫我 Xiao Hui> @ 10:22 PM