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06 September, 2015
New Journey ahead, super abundant happy days ahead with the love of my life
30 May, 2015
2015 is the year of His restoration
HAHA! Sry guys I know I have been mia-ing for almost half a year, now that I looked back, really how time has gone. I really like all these moments where I got the time to think about life and journal it down, cus I know that in future when I bring out to read, it will be so funny and sweet about all the retarded things that I wrote about.
So yes, the main thing as the title shown, this is the year of His restoration of my church. A year that whatever was lost or stolen, it shall be restored back 120% to us, 1 cow for 5 cows and 1 sheep for 5 sheep. Restore the years that the locust has eaten. Restore our health. Amen! I am just so excited and still is excited about the theme of the year. Don't know why also. Usually last time, dont really have time to meditate and think about theme of the year for so many times, but this year, i guess the Lord is doing great works in my life, cus I can recalled so many instances that I called upon the Lord to restore for my results, my time, my mistakes, so so so many times. I know that the Lord is faithful, and I truly believe that God will make everything beautiful in its time - a verse from eccele 3:13. Don't know how to spell. HAHAHA. U get it right?
There is so many things that have happened in the first half of the year, it was really like a roller coaster. But i count it as blessing becus if not my life will be too boring right. HAHAHAHA. jus kidding.
Let's just start from home, I really got to spend so much more time with my family as compared to last year, this is really one thing that I am thankful for. Without doubt, I know that family has shifted up in my priority list unknowing by the grace of God. Not that I have a physical list, I mean the priority in my mind whenever it comes to planning things ahead. Because I am always so busy, like most of the things have to planned like 2 or 3 weeks in advanced in my calender. So funny! Not that I want to act pops or what, but i guess it's really favour and blessing from God that I get to spend time with people. So yes, restoration of quality time and priority with my family. I know if JH sees this, she will be like nod her head and say good boy! LoL. Just kidding.
Secondly, my school life, it was rly the most crazy and challenging semester that i ever had in NUS. Not even joking, cus I rarely had time to think about what I have to do for school work, because it's just a period of meeting deadlines and coming out with ideas and preparation work. It's a little bitter sweet, cus I really grow and learn so much for my project stuff for satellite, which i really like, but for my other mods, hahahahaha. really need God's grace and restoration. HAHAHA. I believe that it shall be good on Monday! Amen! I really thank God for surrounding me this clique of friends in my ESP class, Sam, CY, KX and Shannon. They are really nice and fun people to hangout with. And I really thank God that our paths crossed, and I pray that our friendship will last forever. Amen!
Last but not least, in fact the most important part of my season, church! HEHE. I really like church lah. Don't know why, of course I know, it's because of Jesus, but so many things in church really makes me like it so much and willling to spend so much more time in church. Coming in rank number 5, which is grace, hahaha, actly i dont know why i put rank number 5 also, not that i got so many things to say also. OMG. Talking too much rubbish and random stuff again! Okie restart, let's just start from sound ministry in main church. Woohoo, this year is really like a year of greater glory for me in sound, accelerated and learnt so many things all in these 6 months. And I really cant claim any credit becus I know nuts about sound, but really everything is really really by God's grace and favour. REALLY! And I won't forget the people that really helped me a lot, like Jack and my super super duper cool mentor/dajie although she is younger than me, Jolyn! HEHE. She is awesome lah. Always pushes me to the limit and then helped me, She might not be the most patient and nice teacher, but the anointing on her for the servers is really amazing. And she is always open to spend her personal time to help me and also other servers. That's why my heart to serve in sound really grow back a lot, of course is the Lord that puts those desire back in me. I am really thankful for that. Thank you Jolyn and Jack. You guys are awesome!!! Secondly, sound ministry in varsity, this is really a place that I scratched my head for dk how many times, not literally, u know what i mean. HAHAHA. But yes, this place is so challenging and feel so insecure also, I really want to serve my generation and call this my ministry, take charge, but there is so many YESs and NOs involved in this serving role. I really pray that God can send someone to do something about it or if not I pray that God will empower me and Eugene to take charge and own it with supernatural anointing. But yes, serving in varsity svc ops really makes a lot of good friends for me. TBH, when u serve ops, the bonding is like accelerate 150% like that, cus it's ops nature, so glad to have good kingdom friendship with adeline, kev, abi, jerome, grace, sherm, brandon. Esp adeline lah, she is really one kind crazy girl who loves Jesus a lot. She has blessed me so much in declaring into my life and helped me in so many different places. Blessed is the man who finds her! Amen. HAHAHAHAHA. Lastly, is my ambs serving role in CG. Don't know why, the fire sort of became smaller and smaller, and my sub grp size also became smaller and smaller. Trust me, I really did pray for my sub grp and my wish is really everyone can come for CG and say whatever they want to, and really want to make CG a place like home, cus CG is really my home, my family as well. But for this sem, I'm really thankful for those who came and continued with me in my subgrp, Joey, Grace and Sherm. I might not be the best ambs in the varsity grp, but I really enjoyed my time with you guys and time with you guys are always so enjoyable becus Grace and Sherm are like one kind coolster. Even u sit near them also got the aura. Now become friends with them, i machiam feel like the aura multiply by 1000 sia. Cus they are rly the kind all I called as coolster and not say act yi ge kind but the real ice queens. HAHAHA. But they are awesome lah. Knowing them better makes me changed views for the ice queens. HAHAHAHA. Like srsly! Esp Grace! HAHAHA. Hopefully she dont see this, if not she confirm roll her eyes. And joey, the constant guy who accompanied me in my subgrp, a guy with words of wisdom and not afraid of correcting ppl when he thinks that another way is better. Cool kid. See lah, my subgrp all cool kids. HAHAHA. Eh! I'm also cool kid. But I'm really the act yi ge one.!!! HAHAHA. Nvm lah. GraceGrace. HAHAHA.
Lastly, worth mentioning cus it was a mini journey as well. JH really made a significant influence to me in term of many aspects. To begin with, she is just a fren's fren who came to church. And I could almost immediately sense the harmlessness of her, and I am really interested in making fren with her, and things just got started, got her number from her fren, and started texting her and asked her if she is coming for church event. But the turning point came, when I met her for lunch once, and after the lunch I text her normally and I was ignored. I can't really say that I don't feel affected or hurt or smth, cus I really do, not because of some weird reasons, but people who know me well, know that I really cherish friendships a lot, and I love spending time with people and getting to know them better. But i really thank God that things turned ard for dk what reasons, she replied back during reading wk for forgetting to reply becus of sch work, TBH, I was quite paranoid alr, so I just send back some reply to end off the convo. But u know what's amazing, when God wants to restore a relationship, He wont just stopped there, He continues and till the kingdom friendship flourish! So during exam, she texted me about an article of not compromising church time in time of exam, but TBH, I was still very afraid abt it, so I always gave a few replies to end off the convo. And things just kept as that level for awhile, even when we go for church events, we hardly talk as well. But the super turning point of this really came when she texted me on a Sat about 2 chapters of a book and she wanted to share and discuss with me about it, so I took a read and asked her about it, and then she wrote a super long text about apologising how things are and how awkz it is for us, TBH, it's really not her fault, im not trying to blame her and say like im a saint, i know that i have my portion of fault in this matter as well, but i'm really a super introvert??? But I really thank God that she spoke up and clear everything that was in the dark. She is really amazing. So brave and straightforward sometimes, And PTL, now we are friends. She is really a fren worth keeping. No joke! She is a prayer warrior. If you got anything, just find her, she will text u a super anointed and awesome prayer that you will just be like, Lord, did u just speak to me through the prayer that kind of feeling. HAHAHAHA. She is amazing! I pray that this friendship will be blessed and that the Lord will maintain it and that we will find so much joy in conversing with one another about You Lord. And yes, it really reminds me that how she is not just a fren but a fren that I can always share about the Lord with, and really enjoy conversing about the :Lord. It really reminds me of Jorene. All these awesome woman of God that has blessed me so much in my spiritual walk. But now she is brandon's so cannot disturb her so much! HAHAHA. But yes, JH, a woman of God and really edifies me by sharing and talking to her about our Lord Jesus!
Lord, I thank you that you know my heart, you love me, you protect me and you keep me Lord. I thank you that you have placed different people in my season that I could enjoy amazing grace. No matter things will or will not work out, it will be still beautiful in its time because you said so in the bible, and I believe and I trust in you Lord. I pray that all the friendship forged will be kept and even enhanced to another level where we could all converse about you and have fun in your presence Lord. Esp to JH, I pray that she will be a testimony to her family that her family will be open to hear the good news and receive the salvation that you have paid for. You know her heart's desire, i pray that you continue to bless her and prosper her, place her at the right place at the right time to enjoy the right seasons. Thank you Lord for all these, in Jesus' name! Amen!
So yes, the main thing as the title shown, this is the year of His restoration of my church. A year that whatever was lost or stolen, it shall be restored back 120% to us, 1 cow for 5 cows and 1 sheep for 5 sheep. Restore the years that the locust has eaten. Restore our health. Amen! I am just so excited and still is excited about the theme of the year. Don't know why also. Usually last time, dont really have time to meditate and think about theme of the year for so many times, but this year, i guess the Lord is doing great works in my life, cus I can recalled so many instances that I called upon the Lord to restore for my results, my time, my mistakes, so so so many times. I know that the Lord is faithful, and I truly believe that God will make everything beautiful in its time - a verse from eccele 3:13. Don't know how to spell. HAHAHA. U get it right?
There is so many things that have happened in the first half of the year, it was really like a roller coaster. But i count it as blessing becus if not my life will be too boring right. HAHAHAHA. jus kidding.
Let's just start from home, I really got to spend so much more time with my family as compared to last year, this is really one thing that I am thankful for. Without doubt, I know that family has shifted up in my priority list unknowing by the grace of God. Not that I have a physical list, I mean the priority in my mind whenever it comes to planning things ahead. Because I am always so busy, like most of the things have to planned like 2 or 3 weeks in advanced in my calender. So funny! Not that I want to act pops or what, but i guess it's really favour and blessing from God that I get to spend time with people. So yes, restoration of quality time and priority with my family. I know if JH sees this, she will be like nod her head and say good boy! LoL. Just kidding.
Secondly, my school life, it was rly the most crazy and challenging semester that i ever had in NUS. Not even joking, cus I rarely had time to think about what I have to do for school work, because it's just a period of meeting deadlines and coming out with ideas and preparation work. It's a little bitter sweet, cus I really grow and learn so much for my project stuff for satellite, which i really like, but for my other mods, hahahahaha. really need God's grace and restoration. HAHAHA. I believe that it shall be good on Monday! Amen! I really thank God for surrounding me this clique of friends in my ESP class, Sam, CY, KX and Shannon. They are really nice and fun people to hangout with. And I really thank God that our paths crossed, and I pray that our friendship will last forever. Amen!
Last but not least, in fact the most important part of my season, church! HEHE. I really like church lah. Don't know why, of course I know, it's because of Jesus, but so many things in church really makes me like it so much and willling to spend so much more time in church. Coming in rank number 5, which is grace, hahaha, actly i dont know why i put rank number 5 also, not that i got so many things to say also. OMG. Talking too much rubbish and random stuff again! Okie restart, let's just start from sound ministry in main church. Woohoo, this year is really like a year of greater glory for me in sound, accelerated and learnt so many things all in these 6 months. And I really cant claim any credit becus I know nuts about sound, but really everything is really really by God's grace and favour. REALLY! And I won't forget the people that really helped me a lot, like Jack and my super super duper cool mentor/dajie although she is younger than me, Jolyn! HEHE. She is awesome lah. Always pushes me to the limit and then helped me, She might not be the most patient and nice teacher, but the anointing on her for the servers is really amazing. And she is always open to spend her personal time to help me and also other servers. That's why my heart to serve in sound really grow back a lot, of course is the Lord that puts those desire back in me. I am really thankful for that. Thank you Jolyn and Jack. You guys are awesome!!! Secondly, sound ministry in varsity, this is really a place that I scratched my head for dk how many times, not literally, u know what i mean. HAHAHA. But yes, this place is so challenging and feel so insecure also, I really want to serve my generation and call this my ministry, take charge, but there is so many YESs and NOs involved in this serving role. I really pray that God can send someone to do something about it or if not I pray that God will empower me and Eugene to take charge and own it with supernatural anointing. But yes, serving in varsity svc ops really makes a lot of good friends for me. TBH, when u serve ops, the bonding is like accelerate 150% like that, cus it's ops nature, so glad to have good kingdom friendship with adeline, kev, abi, jerome, grace, sherm, brandon. Esp adeline lah, she is really one kind crazy girl who loves Jesus a lot. She has blessed me so much in declaring into my life and helped me in so many different places. Blessed is the man who finds her! Amen. HAHAHAHAHA. Lastly, is my ambs serving role in CG. Don't know why, the fire sort of became smaller and smaller, and my sub grp size also became smaller and smaller. Trust me, I really did pray for my sub grp and my wish is really everyone can come for CG and say whatever they want to, and really want to make CG a place like home, cus CG is really my home, my family as well. But for this sem, I'm really thankful for those who came and continued with me in my subgrp, Joey, Grace and Sherm. I might not be the best ambs in the varsity grp, but I really enjoyed my time with you guys and time with you guys are always so enjoyable becus Grace and Sherm are like one kind coolster. Even u sit near them also got the aura. Now become friends with them, i machiam feel like the aura multiply by 1000 sia. Cus they are rly the kind all I called as coolster and not say act yi ge kind but the real ice queens. HAHAHA. But they are awesome lah. Knowing them better makes me changed views for the ice queens. HAHAHAHA. Like srsly! Esp Grace! HAHAHA. Hopefully she dont see this, if not she confirm roll her eyes. And joey, the constant guy who accompanied me in my subgrp, a guy with words of wisdom and not afraid of correcting ppl when he thinks that another way is better. Cool kid. See lah, my subgrp all cool kids. HAHAHA. Eh! I'm also cool kid. But I'm really the act yi ge one.!!! HAHAHA. Nvm lah. GraceGrace. HAHAHA.
Lastly, worth mentioning cus it was a mini journey as well. JH really made a significant influence to me in term of many aspects. To begin with, she is just a fren's fren who came to church. And I could almost immediately sense the harmlessness of her, and I am really interested in making fren with her, and things just got started, got her number from her fren, and started texting her and asked her if she is coming for church event. But the turning point came, when I met her for lunch once, and after the lunch I text her normally and I was ignored. I can't really say that I don't feel affected or hurt or smth, cus I really do, not because of some weird reasons, but people who know me well, know that I really cherish friendships a lot, and I love spending time with people and getting to know them better. But i really thank God that things turned ard for dk what reasons, she replied back during reading wk for forgetting to reply becus of sch work, TBH, I was quite paranoid alr, so I just send back some reply to end off the convo. But u know what's amazing, when God wants to restore a relationship, He wont just stopped there, He continues and till the kingdom friendship flourish! So during exam, she texted me about an article of not compromising church time in time of exam, but TBH, I was still very afraid abt it, so I always gave a few replies to end off the convo. And things just kept as that level for awhile, even when we go for church events, we hardly talk as well. But the super turning point of this really came when she texted me on a Sat about 2 chapters of a book and she wanted to share and discuss with me about it, so I took a read and asked her about it, and then she wrote a super long text about apologising how things are and how awkz it is for us, TBH, it's really not her fault, im not trying to blame her and say like im a saint, i know that i have my portion of fault in this matter as well, but i'm really a super introvert??? But I really thank God that she spoke up and clear everything that was in the dark. She is really amazing. So brave and straightforward sometimes, And PTL, now we are friends. She is really a fren worth keeping. No joke! She is a prayer warrior. If you got anything, just find her, she will text u a super anointed and awesome prayer that you will just be like, Lord, did u just speak to me through the prayer that kind of feeling. HAHAHAHA. She is amazing! I pray that this friendship will be blessed and that the Lord will maintain it and that we will find so much joy in conversing with one another about You Lord. And yes, it really reminds me that how she is not just a fren but a fren that I can always share about the Lord with, and really enjoy conversing about the :Lord. It really reminds me of Jorene. All these awesome woman of God that has blessed me so much in my spiritual walk. But now she is brandon's so cannot disturb her so much! HAHAHA. But yes, JH, a woman of God and really edifies me by sharing and talking to her about our Lord Jesus!
Lord, I thank you that you know my heart, you love me, you protect me and you keep me Lord. I thank you that you have placed different people in my season that I could enjoy amazing grace. No matter things will or will not work out, it will be still beautiful in its time because you said so in the bible, and I believe and I trust in you Lord. I pray that all the friendship forged will be kept and even enhanced to another level where we could all converse about you and have fun in your presence Lord. Esp to JH, I pray that she will be a testimony to her family that her family will be open to hear the good news and receive the salvation that you have paid for. You know her heart's desire, i pray that you continue to bless her and prosper her, place her at the right place at the right time to enjoy the right seasons. Thank you Lord for all these, in Jesus' name! Amen!
11 December, 2014
Varsity Leaders' Retreat 2014
Woohoo! So awesome to be invited to varsity leaders' retreat 2014. Such an honour and blessing. I am really blessed by PsDarren's msges and it really grows me in my spiritual walk. It is such a good reminder for us to press in and keep praying in tongues. And when we lean in to pray in tongues despite of our circumstances, we will be able to light up the other gifts of the holy spirit. I really love it.
I know that this season I might feel dry, I might feel like what have happened to me in church. And the ironic part is I felt that I spent so much time in church but I am not really enjoying the victorious life that God has called me to live. HAHAHA.
It's quite funny I think. Cus' I think I havent been feeling this way since I entered Caregroup in 2009. This is not a post of complains and condemnation and whatttt. But I think this is really worth documenting about my own life and journal before God.
I feel like the time spent in doing church things that didn't really edify me. I really don't know what I should do. One side of me feel like taking a break from all serving might helped me, but the other side of me tells me that I shouldn't because serving is the only thing that is keeping me in church so regularly. I always remind myself that I don't want to serve in the spirit of obligation and because I am being scheduled or what, because serving is really such a privilege for me. Serving has blessed me very much, and it has really make me understand how blessed I am and how much of a blessing I am to the people enjoying the service.
But sometimes, I feel like it really doesn't help that I don't really have a brother around me in church that I could lean to. There are many sisters I have that really encourage and motivate me in my spiritual walk with God but I really need a brother that walk this journey with me. There is really a place where brothers work and speak and encourage better than sisters, and I have been praying and meditating on having a brother in Christ since 2013, since leaders' retreat last year when Deaconess
Irene prayed for me to find a companion and find a company of brothers that will help and protect and keep me sane in the house.
I thought I have already found one, in sound ministry, but i realized that he can be an awesome friend to me but he can't really be someone that I can walk in faith with. Not because there is anything wrong, but he doesn't really like and enjoy sharing about God's word and belief and it doesn't really edify me in this way. I know that it's the favour of God I need and it's the wisdom I need to speak the right thing in the right time,
Hmmmm, I really don't know. I am really myself but it seems like nothing seems to work.
But you know what weeliang, you are not gonna go into desperation and depression for any friendships, but you are gonna continue to lean in and pray in tongues and pray for continuous favour and see how God will changed this whole wrong believing and situation into a good one!
"Romans 5:5
Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us."
Weeliang will continue to have confident expectations of good to come because the hope that God gives will not disappoint but God's hope is goods that are coming! And I know that it will come in Jesus' name! The love of God has been poured out into my heart by the holy spirit. Continue to pray in tongues and let the holy spirit stirs up this love of God in my heart! Amen!
16 July, 2014
Jesus is so REAL. C'mon!!!
Hey guys,
You know I just want to share about what I received from the song broken vessel from hillsong worship new album - No Other Name. It's so amazing that you know what we think that will make God happy, what we think that will please God are all our human thoughts when you know in Psalms, God said "A broken and contrite heart, I will not despise." What God needs today is for us to drop our own pride and strength, lean in to Him, He doesnt mind how filthy we are, He doesnt mind how worthless we are, what He needs us to have is to come to Him as we are, no matter how broken we are, in His words, He promised that He wants to set us free. That's what amazing grace is all about.It's not a grace that is far from being reached, it's not a grace that will bring up our sins, it's not a grace that only granted when u please God, but amazing grace reaches out to you when you feel the lowest, the worthless, the least and the last. And He will lift you up and He will turn your life from ruins to glorious and that you will be able to bring glory to Jesus and that many will testify that it is God who turned ur life around. Nothing too difficult. Dont thk too much. Just come as you are, and the Father will say, "come home Son"!
Every joint supplies, and as much as everyone wants their friends to be saved, we each have our own calling to serve God in different areas and different measures and I believe that God knows what our heart desire and that He will bring our close friends back to church so that we all can enjoy the fruit of Christ's death on the cross.
Praise the Lord. I am really super addicted to forever by Kari Jobe and Broken Vessel since we sang these 2 songs during Genrev last Sat. I think Heather totally nailed it man! And I just felt so enjoyable and shiok singing these songs at the top of my lungs just to know that one name being lifted up. JESUS! JESUS! JESUS!!!!!! Praise the Lord.
Cheers,
Joab Chua
P.S. Praying for my life partner to also receive God's love whatever she is, and that God's peace will be with her. Amen. Abit siao here, but who cares, although I really dk who my life partner is. HAHAHAHA! BYE!!!!
You know I just want to share about what I received from the song broken vessel from hillsong worship new album - No Other Name. It's so amazing that you know what we think that will make God happy, what we think that will please God are all our human thoughts when you know in Psalms, God said "A broken and contrite heart, I will not despise." What God needs today is for us to drop our own pride and strength, lean in to Him, He doesnt mind how filthy we are, He doesnt mind how worthless we are, what He needs us to have is to come to Him as we are, no matter how broken we are, in His words, He promised that He wants to set us free. That's what amazing grace is all about.It's not a grace that is far from being reached, it's not a grace that will bring up our sins, it's not a grace that only granted when u please God, but amazing grace reaches out to you when you feel the lowest, the worthless, the least and the last. And He will lift you up and He will turn your life from ruins to glorious and that you will be able to bring glory to Jesus and that many will testify that it is God who turned ur life around. Nothing too difficult. Dont thk too much. Just come as you are, and the Father will say, "come home Son"!
Every joint supplies, and as much as everyone wants their friends to be saved, we each have our own calling to serve God in different areas and different measures and I believe that God knows what our heart desire and that He will bring our close friends back to church so that we all can enjoy the fruit of Christ's death on the cross.
Praise the Lord. I am really super addicted to forever by Kari Jobe and Broken Vessel since we sang these 2 songs during Genrev last Sat. I think Heather totally nailed it man! And I just felt so enjoyable and shiok singing these songs at the top of my lungs just to know that one name being lifted up. JESUS! JESUS! JESUS!!!!!! Praise the Lord.
Cheers,
Joab Chua
P.S. Praying for my life partner to also receive God's love whatever she is, and that God's peace will be with her. Amen. Abit siao here, but who cares, although I really dk who my life partner is. HAHAHAHA! BYE!!!!
10 July, 2014
The year of greater glory! And the year where protection prevails every harm and sickness
Hi All,
It's my birthday today if you are reading this. HAHAHA!
Finally got back to blogger again ever since I lost my password and stuff. And managed to retrieve it back during work today. HAHAHA. Back to blogging again since I really kind of miss the feeling of writing down something somewhere instead of bottling it in my heart. I really thank God for my life, for his purpose. I really know that the Lord's blessing is in my life and it's very obvious.
Wanted to post this post since May but was too busy and I just left the tab opened in my company's computer till today slightly free and decided that I should post some awesome stuff.
I'm really greatly impacted by what PsPrince shared last week and also the week before. For our past, we have the forgiveness of sins. For our present, we are on permanent favour ground. For our future, we have the hope of the glory of God, that is Jesus. Praise the Lord. While PsPrince was preaching about Romans chapter 5 2 weeks ago, it really got me so deep. Cus that was the verse I meditated on day and night while I was asking God for a chance to go into Local University. Cus the hope of God in Romans 5:5 in greek is Elpis and Elpis means a confident expectation of good to come. And everyday I declare that I will get into Local Uni. Despite my A lvl results being bad, failing my GP, the grace of God gave my way into Local Uni and even gave me choices to choose from. I'm so honoured to be in that choosing position. I was reminded that you know our God is not just a God that answers your prayers but He will over-answers us most of the time. We will not just be blessed but we will be blessed out of our socks. And Praise the Lord for his grace and favour and mercy man. Now I finished my english module in Uni and I'm even with everyone in my Uni now. Praise the Lord.
Lastly, I would like to say that I pray for favour w my life partner and that the Lord's hands will be on my findings of life partner. In Jesus' name! ^_^
No Other Name but Jesus Only! (:
It's my birthday today if you are reading this. HAHAHA!
Finally got back to blogger again ever since I lost my password and stuff. And managed to retrieve it back during work today. HAHAHA. Back to blogging again since I really kind of miss the feeling of writing down something somewhere instead of bottling it in my heart. I really thank God for my life, for his purpose. I really know that the Lord's blessing is in my life and it's very obvious.
Wanted to post this post since May but was too busy and I just left the tab opened in my company's computer till today slightly free and decided that I should post some awesome stuff.
I'm really greatly impacted by what PsPrince shared last week and also the week before. For our past, we have the forgiveness of sins. For our present, we are on permanent favour ground. For our future, we have the hope of the glory of God, that is Jesus. Praise the Lord. While PsPrince was preaching about Romans chapter 5 2 weeks ago, it really got me so deep. Cus that was the verse I meditated on day and night while I was asking God for a chance to go into Local University. Cus the hope of God in Romans 5:5 in greek is Elpis and Elpis means a confident expectation of good to come. And everyday I declare that I will get into Local Uni. Despite my A lvl results being bad, failing my GP, the grace of God gave my way into Local Uni and even gave me choices to choose from. I'm so honoured to be in that choosing position. I was reminded that you know our God is not just a God that answers your prayers but He will over-answers us most of the time. We will not just be blessed but we will be blessed out of our socks. And Praise the Lord for his grace and favour and mercy man. Now I finished my english module in Uni and I'm even with everyone in my Uni now. Praise the Lord.
Lastly, I would like to say that I pray for favour w my life partner and that the Lord's hands will be on my findings of life partner. In Jesus' name! ^_^
No Other Name but Jesus Only! (:
19 March, 2013
Tough times
I wonder why I feel this way now. Such an unspeakable feeling but yet exactly the same feeling when I had a little argument with my BFF, Meow, 2 years ago after A level. I think I really cannot deny the fact that man and woman's ways of thinking can never be the same. I always thought man and woman can be close friends and not be soulmates. But on a second thought, most man and woman close friends always ended up to become soulmates rather than just BFF and remain clean and clear. And now I think that I am clear about man's expectations of his best friend is totally different from a woman's expectations of her best friend. It is different and it can never be the same.
I understand that TRUST is the biggest issue between 2 friends. It's easy to say that u trust me, u can totally tell me all your challenges and I will stand in faith with you. But it's another thing when things really happened, you wont judge your friends for what he/she did, but really just stand by him/her and say, i know you did wrong/right, nonetheless, I still trust you. That kind of naive trust, which doesn't really exist anymore. I mean, who can ever be perfect and did nothing wrong. I mean trust between 2 persons should just really be between 2 persons and other factors shouldn't affect the trust between these 2 persons. But really thank you, for those who have been genuine friends around me. I understood what you said about people being superficial, neither do I like it that way. I not saying about surface friends, cus I can't deny that surface friends are all over the place, not that they want to be surface friends but just time don't allow everyone to be close friends. But I totally agree that, if friendships have to be superficial, then might as well don't!? Might as well make it clear, I dont want to be friend with u, stop wasting your time trying to talk to me or trying to reconcile anything. I mean being clear rather than dragging it into an unknown results is actually much better.
I think friendships are never coincident. I believe friendships are really some form of chemistry that are formed between 2 persons that actually arouse each other's interest to know one another better. I think I know what I kind of did wrong for the past few months, I also want to change, I also want to be someone trustworthy, I also want to be a better person. But I really need help! I really need time! I really need it! I can only rely on God for the change in myself. I can never do much to change myself, but God I know you can. I always trust You and You alone God! You always do it for me. Last time You did it, this time You will as well! Cus God, Your love can never fail. Amen! And I will really appreciate if true friends around me can gimme a hand in helping me as well.
Shall sign off and go for a good night run! HAHAHA. BYEBYE! =)
I understand that TRUST is the biggest issue between 2 friends. It's easy to say that u trust me, u can totally tell me all your challenges and I will stand in faith with you. But it's another thing when things really happened, you wont judge your friends for what he/she did, but really just stand by him/her and say, i know you did wrong/right, nonetheless, I still trust you. That kind of naive trust, which doesn't really exist anymore. I mean, who can ever be perfect and did nothing wrong. I mean trust between 2 persons should just really be between 2 persons and other factors shouldn't affect the trust between these 2 persons. But really thank you, for those who have been genuine friends around me. I understood what you said about people being superficial, neither do I like it that way. I not saying about surface friends, cus I can't deny that surface friends are all over the place, not that they want to be surface friends but just time don't allow everyone to be close friends. But I totally agree that, if friendships have to be superficial, then might as well don't!? Might as well make it clear, I dont want to be friend with u, stop wasting your time trying to talk to me or trying to reconcile anything. I mean being clear rather than dragging it into an unknown results is actually much better.
I think friendships are never coincident. I believe friendships are really some form of chemistry that are formed between 2 persons that actually arouse each other's interest to know one another better. I think I know what I kind of did wrong for the past few months, I also want to change, I also want to be someone trustworthy, I also want to be a better person. But I really need help! I really need time! I really need it! I can only rely on God for the change in myself. I can never do much to change myself, but God I know you can. I always trust You and You alone God! You always do it for me. Last time You did it, this time You will as well! Cus God, Your love can never fail. Amen! And I will really appreciate if true friends around me can gimme a hand in helping me as well.
Shall sign off and go for a good night run! HAHAHA. BYEBYE! =)
05 March, 2013
ORD LOH!
Finally, 050313 has come. I wouldn't have thought that 1yr10mths is such a long but short period. So much to blog about for my whole army journey and the people who have crossed path with me in this 22months. This gonna be a long post but a very heartfelt post.
Let's start from my BMT, where I was posted to H Coy, enlisted on 060511. There were so much fun there and the things we learned, and how we got tekan by our commanders, it's very ironic, cause as much as we hate to get tekan by our commanders, by those tekan sessions were really memorable and fun to go through with your friends and buddies in BMT. Met my secondary school friend Aaron there, and we became really good friend in BMT and also with Dixon Loo and ChongKiat. 4 of us were really enjoying ourselves in BMT and had so much fun. HAHA. And really thank my section commanders, JianYu and PekPek. Without them, I know that my army journey would not have start well and my impression for army would have been negative. So really thank them very much!!! (:
After POP, most of us were posted to SCS, C Coy, and there we go again, our 2nd part trainees' journey. One memorable thing that I want to mentioned before I went in to SCS on 11 July, on 10th July, which is my bday, my BFF, Melissa Low, gave me a very pleasant surprise. She came to the void deck of my block and asked me to go down and find her, and afterward she asked me to wear an eye-pad and then wear earpiece and then asked me to turn 10rounds and afterward pushed me into a car. At first I thought it was a cab but after a while I realised the car smells like some brands of car u know, so I started to guess if it's my other friend, like macus or her bf, kenneth. And in the end, I was so shocked that it was actually Sarah, my cutie pie!!! HAHAHA. I was really super touched and my BFF also called some of the bballers to go there to celebrate for me. So we had a good meal and also ice cream cake and then a bday cake! So awesome birthday I had so far I guessed? Okay so that's beside the point of my army life, anw back to my army journey in SCS. Got into C Coy, not really a very relax and slack Coy, but I would say, the enciks there are people that I will remember forever, the lessons they gave, the heartfelt stories that they shared, and how they actually care to respond to our complains really makes me respect them till today, esp Zaini, Deva and LeeHupWai. I really respect these 3 people to the utmost. Thank God for them that I have an enjoyable journey in C Coy. And made really good friends with Dixon, Aaron Martin, WeiJie and XiQuan. Love them and appreciate them to be in my journey.
And after finishing basic course in C Coy, I was posted to B Coy for advanced course in spite being rejected to be posted into AirCrew. HAHAHA. I would say, one of the most welfare and fun Coy. Because of the fatherly figure, LeeWaiMeng, I finally know that, there is hope for the trainees. HAHAHA. Made good friends with Luke, Fabian, YiYang and even closer friend with WeiJie and XiQuan. I really thank God for these people in my life, they added fun, colours into all the tough experiences that we needed to go through. Esp I have to mentioned this, my SG field camp buddies, WeiJie, Lucas and YanXiang. And also my full-time TW field camp buddy, Fabian. I really love these people that accompanied me through the nasty field camp and realy thank God for the supports that these worldly people gave to me and just brought me through the field camps even though we were all tired.
To sum up my trainee's journey, FUN, ENJOYABLE, MEANINGFUL, BLESSED AND MEMORABLE will be the words that I will use. Thank you Jesus for such awesome period of time, It's precious 8 months in army afterall. And then got my 3SG rank on 16th Dec 2011 as I embarked my journey of being a commander in Tekong.
And a quick summary of my Tekong journey as an instructor as a SME. Make nice and good friends there like Nic, JJ, MH and Andy. But I would say, I don't really have a very pleasant experience in Tekong as instructor because of all the politics that we had as a team and as SME. And really some of my friends changed when we went to Tekong, which makes me feel super sad, cause those ppl that I really valued and the friendships that we built field camps after field camps just got broken up because of selfishness, jealousy and betrayal. But after a while I realised that some people that leave ur life at times, might be a blessing rather than a sad thing, cause it might be good that those self-righteous people could leave my life that my life would not be influence by them. However, I would say I have a relatively good encik, Azmi. I will not say that I really like him or his style of handling the team, but I would say, I appreciate how he managed us, how he stands his ground to our ridiculous requests and most importantly, how he protected us from all the punishments. I really thank God for such a nice encik in my Tekong journey. I would say I didn't really give my 100% in Tekong as a person, but each training, of course, I gave my 100% to make sure that all the knowledge were imparted to the new soldiers protecting the nation! YEAH!
So I really thank God for these blessed 22 months. It's not all smooth sailing but Lord, I know that you are definitely with me all the way in these 22 months, and every step I took in these 22 months, I know that You are the director of my steps and I really thank God that your grace and mercy and favour were displayed so evidently in my army life. Thank you Jesus! (:
Last but not least, WHERE GOT TIME? ORD LOH!!!! (:
Let's start from my BMT, where I was posted to H Coy, enlisted on 060511. There were so much fun there and the things we learned, and how we got tekan by our commanders, it's very ironic, cause as much as we hate to get tekan by our commanders, by those tekan sessions were really memorable and fun to go through with your friends and buddies in BMT. Met my secondary school friend Aaron there, and we became really good friend in BMT and also with Dixon Loo and ChongKiat. 4 of us were really enjoying ourselves in BMT and had so much fun. HAHA. And really thank my section commanders, JianYu and PekPek. Without them, I know that my army journey would not have start well and my impression for army would have been negative. So really thank them very much!!! (:
After POP, most of us were posted to SCS, C Coy, and there we go again, our 2nd part trainees' journey. One memorable thing that I want to mentioned before I went in to SCS on 11 July, on 10th July, which is my bday, my BFF, Melissa Low, gave me a very pleasant surprise. She came to the void deck of my block and asked me to go down and find her, and afterward she asked me to wear an eye-pad and then wear earpiece and then asked me to turn 10rounds and afterward pushed me into a car. At first I thought it was a cab but after a while I realised the car smells like some brands of car u know, so I started to guess if it's my other friend, like macus or her bf, kenneth. And in the end, I was so shocked that it was actually Sarah, my cutie pie!!! HAHAHA. I was really super touched and my BFF also called some of the bballers to go there to celebrate for me. So we had a good meal and also ice cream cake and then a bday cake! So awesome birthday I had so far I guessed? Okay so that's beside the point of my army life, anw back to my army journey in SCS. Got into C Coy, not really a very relax and slack Coy, but I would say, the enciks there are people that I will remember forever, the lessons they gave, the heartfelt stories that they shared, and how they actually care to respond to our complains really makes me respect them till today, esp Zaini, Deva and LeeHupWai. I really respect these 3 people to the utmost. Thank God for them that I have an enjoyable journey in C Coy. And made really good friends with Dixon, Aaron Martin, WeiJie and XiQuan. Love them and appreciate them to be in my journey.
And after finishing basic course in C Coy, I was posted to B Coy for advanced course in spite being rejected to be posted into AirCrew. HAHAHA. I would say, one of the most welfare and fun Coy. Because of the fatherly figure, LeeWaiMeng, I finally know that, there is hope for the trainees. HAHAHA. Made good friends with Luke, Fabian, YiYang and even closer friend with WeiJie and XiQuan. I really thank God for these people in my life, they added fun, colours into all the tough experiences that we needed to go through. Esp I have to mentioned this, my SG field camp buddies, WeiJie, Lucas and YanXiang. And also my full-time TW field camp buddy, Fabian. I really love these people that accompanied me through the nasty field camp and realy thank God for the supports that these worldly people gave to me and just brought me through the field camps even though we were all tired.
To sum up my trainee's journey, FUN, ENJOYABLE, MEANINGFUL, BLESSED AND MEMORABLE will be the words that I will use. Thank you Jesus for such awesome period of time, It's precious 8 months in army afterall. And then got my 3SG rank on 16th Dec 2011 as I embarked my journey of being a commander in Tekong.
And a quick summary of my Tekong journey as an instructor as a SME. Make nice and good friends there like Nic, JJ, MH and Andy. But I would say, I don't really have a very pleasant experience in Tekong as instructor because of all the politics that we had as a team and as SME. And really some of my friends changed when we went to Tekong, which makes me feel super sad, cause those ppl that I really valued and the friendships that we built field camps after field camps just got broken up because of selfishness, jealousy and betrayal. But after a while I realised that some people that leave ur life at times, might be a blessing rather than a sad thing, cause it might be good that those self-righteous people could leave my life that my life would not be influence by them. However, I would say I have a relatively good encik, Azmi. I will not say that I really like him or his style of handling the team, but I would say, I appreciate how he managed us, how he stands his ground to our ridiculous requests and most importantly, how he protected us from all the punishments. I really thank God for such a nice encik in my Tekong journey. I would say I didn't really give my 100% in Tekong as a person, but each training, of course, I gave my 100% to make sure that all the knowledge were imparted to the new soldiers protecting the nation! YEAH!
So I really thank God for these blessed 22 months. It's not all smooth sailing but Lord, I know that you are definitely with me all the way in these 22 months, and every step I took in these 22 months, I know that You are the director of my steps and I really thank God that your grace and mercy and favour were displayed so evidently in my army life. Thank you Jesus! (:
Last but not least, WHERE GOT TIME? ORD LOH!!!! (:
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