Recently I've been doing a ton of mind-numbing paperwork, which gives me a lot of time to gather my thoughts. Thoughts about where I am in my life now, about whether I am where I wanted to be, about where my life is heading. Interestingly, so many aspects of my life is similar to what. Have envisioned it to be when I young. I guess I am lucky in that sense. However, I now wonder whether the things I wanted when I was young are truly the 'correct' things, or was I just ignorant and stupid then. I truly wonder that if I had wanted other things in life, would my life be different. On another note, I've been listening to many Chinese oldies recently. From mavis fan's '眼泪' to zhang yu's ' 曲终人生散' ... These are music that I grew up with, determinedly memorising their lyrics when I was 12, then promptly forgot about them. These songs truly bring many memories. Most may not agree with me, but I think we are hard-pressed for such classic and memorable tunes nowadays. The song below is fantastic though... An emotion evoking song for most... Lyrics from http://chinese.globallyrics.com/archives/6204 又 回 到 最 初 的 起 点 yòu huí dào zuì chū de qí diǎn 记 忆 中 你 青 涩 的 脸 jì yì zhōng nǐ qīng sè de liǎn 我 们 终 於 来 到 了 这 一 天 wǒ men zhōng yū lái dào le zhè yì tiān 桌 垫 下 的 老 照 片 zhuō diàn xià de lǎo zhào piàn 无 数 回 忆 连 结 wú shù huí yì lián jié 今 天 男 孩 要 赴 女 孩 最 后 的 约 jīn tiān nán hái yào fù nǚ hái zuì hòu de yuē 又 回 到 最 初 的 起 点 yòu huí dào zuì chū de qí diǎn 呆 呆 地 站 在 镜 子 前 dāi dāi dì zhàn zài jìng zi qián 笨 拙 系 上 红 色 领 带 的 结 bèn zhuō jì shàng hóng sè lǐng dài de jié 将 头 发 梳 成 大 人 模 样 jiāng tóu fa shū chéng dà rén mú yàng 穿 上 一 身 帅 气 西 装 chuān shàng yì shēn shuài qì xī zhuāng 等 会 儿 见 你 一 定 比 想 像 美 děng huì ér jiàn nǐ yí dìng bǐ xiǎng xiàng měi 好 想 再 回 到 那 些 年 的 时 光 hǎo xiǎng zài huí dào nà xiē nián de shí guāng 回 到 教 室 座 位 前 后 故 意 讨 你 温 柔 的 骂 huí dào jiào shì zuò wèi qián hòu gù yì tǎo nǐ wēn róu de mà 黑 板 上 排 列 组 合 你 舍 得 解 开 吗 hēi bǎn shàng pái liè zǔ hé nǐ shě dé jiě kāi ma 谁 与 谁 坐 他 又 爱 着 她 shuí yǔ shuí zuò tā yòu ài zhe tā 那 些 年 错 过 的 大 雨 nà xiē nián cuò guò de dà yǔ 那 些 年 错 过 的 爱 情 nà xiē nián cuò guò de ài qíng 好 想 拥 抱 你 拥 抱 错 过 的 勇 气 hǎo xiǎng yōng bào nǐ yōng bào cuò guò de yǒng qì 曾 经 想 征 服 全 世 界 céng jīng xiǎng zhēng fú quán shì jiè 到 最 后 回 首 才 发 现 dào zuì hòu huí shǒu cái fā xiàn 这 世 界 滴 滴 点 点 全 部 都 是 你 zhè shì jiè dī dī diǎn diǎn quán bù dōu shì nǐ 那 些 年 错 过 的 大 雨 nà xiē nián cuò guò de dà yǔ 那 些 年 错 过 的 爱 情 nà xiē nián cuò guò de ài qíng 好 想 告 诉 你 告 诉 你 我 没 有 忘 记 hǎo xiǎng gào su nǐ gào su nǐ wǒ méi yǒu wàng jì 那 天 晚 上 满 天 星 星 nà tiān wǎn shang mǎn tiān xīng xing 平 行 时 空 下 的 约 定 píng xíng shí kōng xià de yuē dìng 再 一 次 相 遇 我 会 紧 紧 抱 着 你 zài yí cì xiāng yù wǒ huì jǐn jǐn bào zhe nǐ 紧 紧 抱 着 你 jǐn jǐn bào zhe nǐ

:)

I am averaging at one blog entry per year.. This is terrible.. Shall blog more

I am decidedly a loyal fan of Emily Giffin's books. Bimbo, you may think, but I love the way she makes her characters come alive through their frequent flashback and reminisces. I think I relate to the characters closely, as I too, believe that my actions are often shaped largely by my past experiences.

Had a long talk with my mum last night.. About my work, my future and somehow we broached about the topic of my cousins. It's sad really, seeing how they fail to understand the true
motive of their father's action. Undoubtedly it's harsh.. But I always a fan of the " rude awakening" form of teaching.

Anyways.. I digress. It sucks having to take cab to CGH at 7 in the morning. It double sucks having to then squeeze on the train to travel from CGH to SGH at 8 in the morning. And it triples sucks to have to do all this when I only slept 3 hours plus last night. Sigh...

Realized that I can blog from my handphone.. Slow..

Let's see if this works :)

Today's like ' blast from the past' days. People that I thought have left my life for good, one by one, started petering back into my life.

Not that I'm not happy; I truly am. It's always nice to see familar faces, especially friends that you once had good times with. However, it is also a little unnerving to see friends or people you once know so well and care so much for become almost like strangers, or accquaintances.

I don't look back so much now, unlike my university days. It's almost like life's too busy, too packed, to do anything but handle what's in front of you, to move forward, just so that one does not get left behind. Meeting new people every day, being cordial to everyone around me, I no longer feel sadness when these people dissapear from my life, nor joy when I make new acquaintances, unlike before.

Maybe this is what growing old consist of. Maybe this is what life just is.

Stoning in SGH .. at 6 in the morning
Feels sian.. dread the thought that I have to spend 2 more nights here
Haiz, being on-call sucks
Being on call and having to come back at night sucks bigger.

Its halloween in 2 days, and I can't go out.. stupid on-call duty.
Hai, no plans this year anyways
But its always fun to walk along Clarke Quay, seeing all the costumesand crazy masquerade
Probably will outgrow these stuff in a few years, if I haven't outgrown it yet.

Haiz, so wish that Miss Grace Tang is in Singapore.. she would most probably be game for anything during Halloween.

Blurgh, blabbering from the lack of sleep and of sheer boredom.
I am so bored I am actually trying to study for the sake of it.
But the stupid C. difficile guidelines is boring me even more.
Zonked.. wonder if the new episode of GG is out.

Haiz~~

this is fun ....

welcome to blatantrambles.blogspot.com :DD
STOP reading if you DUN know me personally! OR if u know me but know that i DUN like u... haha

05041985
stnix.hwachong.NUSpharm.SGH.

chocolate cakes & CHEESECAKES
listening to nice music
chilling out @ cafes and pubs