Time and tide waits for no man......
Just realised that it's been 2 months since i last blogged. It's quite amazing how time flies when you've got things constantly coming your way, for both good and bad of course.
It's been quite a hectic 2 months really... a last minute training trip to Kyoto was so dis-organised that i was on the verge of blowing up. The administration in the HR side is almost non-existent. No one had any idea what to do with me nor my visa application. I had to probe around to get things going. For goodness sake, I've got my own job to do too! So much for having a HR dept... Nonetheless, I had a nice trip with sakura blooming :) so i shall let bygones be bygones.
On top of that, i had the mission of finding a new home in less than 2 weeks after i came back from the trip! Needless to say, I failed in the mission and ended in a temporary home, sharing a room with a friend. Moving house is really a chore... Going to move again in end of this month....Experienced mover already.
Over in the office, a lot of things are happening in the background. A major shake up in the organisation is expected in June. Another round of promotions which i will not be part of... as I have been told. Sometimes you really wonder what kind of man management or soft skills that one really needs to be a manager. The timing is wrong, the method is wrong, the reasoning is even more wrong! It's another wake up call that i'm in the wrong place at the wrong time. It definitely sparked another round of self-reflection... after 2.5 years what have i achieved? Time and tide... waits for no man... heck.... i wonder if there's anything that do!
Ice o ice....
Frustrations
Lately, there seems to be a lot of frustration all around. Not just me for me. Everyone seems to be frustrated with their own work, life etc. It does make me think... am i one of the more fortunate ones?
In one conversation, we talked about one's tendency to compare with those doing better than themselves. One must look ahead to pursue improvement. Makes sense right? But do we ever look back and appreciate how lucky we are? It's akin to the half full or half empty analogy i guess. I hope to be the one looking forward but i realize i often find myself looking backwards instead.....
In another conversation, the topic revolved around PR matters and relationship with the boss. How helpless you feel when faced with a boss that refuse to listen to you? As the friend shared the story, I find myself playing the role of listener and adviser. When i think back, it's quite contradicting. I find myself giving suggestions to the friend and yet, I don't seem to practice what i preach... Things are easier said than done after all
Ice o ice... remember to seek for calmness
Need and want
Had a dinner with a friend today. Managed to chat a little on stuff like work, career etc. And it got me thinking.. AGAIN.. yea... I had forgotten a lot of things. To sum it up, i had forgotten the difference between need and want.
Previously when we mention about needs and wants, things like Maslow's hierarchy of needs almost always come to mind. Humans have basic needs like food, shelter and move on to wants such as luxury watch, bigger home, iphones, etc etc. The point is, there is a difference between these two
I had forgotten about this difference. What do i need? What do i want? I think i have gotten myself confused. I hadn't stop to think about whether I'm wanted or I'm needed. They wanted me? Or they needed me?
Come to think about it now, I'm more needed than wanted. Ha..haha...hahaha Ice o ice.... how did you get yourself so blinded?
Disappointment...
Was presented with a 'gift' by the boss today. Something which i was expecting and looking forward to but honestly speaking, i was quite disappointed when i got it. It fell quite short of what i was expecting.
Maybe i had unrealistic expectations. Maybe i had over-rated myself. Maybe i should be happy there is a gift at all.
But part of me still refuse to accept the current situation. I know something needs to be done. Do i have the courage to do that?
2010 - 2 months down the road...
Well, it's been quite some time since I've blogged. Almost 2.5 years since the last post. Anyway, here's a new start!
2010 - Some say it's Twenty Ten, Some say it's Two O One O. It doesn't matter really...We're now into the 3rd month of the year. It's been quite a start to the new year..though not always a positive one...
For work, an apt theme for the past 2 months will probably be 'Departure'. Colleagues (friends, rather) have been departing one after another, the whole environment at work is just so gloomy. Morale is low and somehow, the management can just create new low as time goes by! I'm quite amazed really with what they can come up with... What do you see in a egoistic engineer who refuse to admit his mistake and instead pushes blame onto others? To the extent that he actually gets promoted! Congrats to the management team, you just managed to pissed off sooo many employees. More departures ahead....
For personal life, it's been great really. Since changing to a normal work schedule, i have had more time to meet up with friends and family. New Year countdown was great. Great company, good dinner and nice fireworks! Chinese New Year was great too. Finally made the effort to go watch the fireworks at the temple. Didn't disappoint! Also managed to lit a 'Kong Ming' lantern.. watching it soar into the darkness of the night was satisfying. Don't really know why but gambling doesn't hold that much allure to me this year... oh well
The next 1 month will be interesting and crucial... Will Japan trip come true? It all depends on how things unfold... as i use to say, let's take one step at a time. I will act.. cannot react all the time
