The reason behind those lies.

Why did you had to lie to me? I made myself believe it's because you didn't want to hurt me. I really hope that is the only reason. It's been 3 months and I thought I was all over you now. No more reasons to hang on to you douche. Then today I found out you're back with your ex. I am different wishing you all the best and I trust that you're happier with her. I wanted to visit your instagram to confirm this piece of information myself. Then I realized you've blocked me. This was the only link between the both of us and I didn't want to end it. Despite the amount of tears you've caused, I didn't want to end things fully with you. Now that you've burnt that bridge, I'm kinda lost. 我不能没有你的消息，不能不知道你过得好不好。 I'm getting over you now boy. "Which is it? You care enough to lie. You can't be bothered to explain"

Getting my ex bf back

Today I am going to start texting him again. I have so much to say, I don't know how to start. How should I say it that he doesn't find me irritating or ignore me. I'm going to go with the basic morning and stuff. Wish me luck!

Day 3

Why do I feel so faraway from you now? It's only the 3rd day and I'm missing you a bit too much.I need to know how are you I need to know if you're having meals regularly. I have been checking my notifications constantly just in case I miss you text. Even though I know you're firm on your decisions but I'm hoping a part of you is missing me. You're so far away from me. It's like we're in a different dimension. I no longer feel your presence anywhere.

Bye boyfriend

I know life's been tough on him and he's giving up on us. I don't blame him and in fact I'm impressed by his decision. I did not expect breaking up to be a decision. I was starting to be selfish and worry how this relationship will turn out to be. As much as I want to be by his side. I know this is not a realistic decision. These few months will be nothing but tough. A 19days relationship, what a joke on me. To believe I was looking at months and years of time spent with you. I always wondered how would my first boyfriend be like and I'm not regretting this decision. Like what Anna said,guys are in no mood to be in a relationship when their career is unstable. They want to give the best to their women so I hope he's letting me go because he considered me his women. Thank you Eugene :)

you dont care about me

Hello blog, It's been so long. I'm back cause I really need somewhere to vent. He really doesn't care about me right? All the responsibilities he said he would carry went away in 10 days. This is just Fucking 10 days. Probably 10 months is a reasonable period. You cant even love me long enough for 10 days, how are we going to carry on. He doesn't bother to explain to me. He doesn't even bother to call me. I'm good as being single. Now I am starting to wonder. Did he even had to send his grandmother to the clinic. I really really want to trust that he wouldn't use his grandmother as a lie. Please please I hope it's just a simple urge to see girls on the app. I have stopped myself from replying other guys. I was hoping he could do the same for me. This was the minimum expectation. If you met a girl of your dreams out there, I would let you go. But I cannot accept if you're out there hunting. You are a cold blooded animal.

My dream became a wake up call

Am I too tired, that's why I'm turning crazy?
A simple dream this morning made me realize
how pain am I.

The simple dinners that I took for granted,
now seem so so far away.
The simple meet-ups that I enjoyed the most,
The same table we had so much fun,
Are all piercing me...
Wo tong feng le.

No matter how busy I am,
I still have time to think and tear.
When will I finally get the fuck out .

and what the girls says

i saw this on FB,

"Some girls claim that they want a good guy, but when they meet one, he's "just a friend." Then they fall for the player & get their hearts broken. Then they have the nerve to say "all guys are the same"