i've moved!
bigbullyer no more (:

i'm a smallbullyer now.

WITH REGARDS TO WHAT I'VE SAID ON SATURDAY.
LET ME MAKE MY STAND CLEAR.
haha. like i've said.
i dont even care if i get hated.
(oh btw, if you have so much energy to hate me, i would rather you spend your energy on something else, it will be more worth it. im not worth your energy :D not trying to be sarcastic, but yeah.)
i repeat, I DONT CARE.
but just wake up your ideas.
and reflect on what was done.
or maybe i should be more clear.
just look at your past entries about sjab. (:
and efforts put in for the trainings (not only during the last week).
and you tell me if we deserve the champion.
i acknowledge the effort put in of course.
and im glad to see the change in attitude for the last few trainings.
but, what about before that? why cant the attitude be constant and positive thru out?
the fact that we lost the champion.
i accept that the fact.
and it is not cause of the judge or what.
when we've lost, it just means we're not the best.
if the judge was biased, others can see it.
but its a matter of fact that holy was better.
i dont exactly care if we're gonna get the champion.
i really, dont really care.(yes maybe, for that bit for the past two champion teams. i felt the pity.)
but i think im really concerned about the kind of cadets we are gonna train up.
if you still think im just trying to vent my anger or sth by scolding you people.
i just want to say, im not that childish, i have better things to do.
my main point was to make you guys reflect about how you all have been treating sjab.
what i've said is not just about fdc, its about how sjab has been these days.
just think about it.
(:

FDC is over. the result.

said something to the cadets. i was rather harsh.
i guess just wanted to bring out the point that,
the attitude for training could be better.
im sure, i saw the effort made to go down for training by some of you.
i recognise that. but what about the others?
how about during training? what goes through your mind?
what was your attitude? i dont expect it to be perfect, at least positive.
touch your heart, and ask yourself.
this competition will be over, people will move on.
no one will bother abt it.
of course, everyone who have put in the effort to train will rmb the experience.
yes, to be true, yesterday was the best performance i've ever seen of the squad.
you all did really well. but.
why did i say you guys dont deserve the champion.
if you bother, go find out what the holy innocents' cadets' attitude were for fdc.(the whole of fdc)
or maybe just ask your seniors, the willingness to improve and sacifice time for training.
how much you did, and how much they did?
and then you'd understand why they deserve the champion more.
why the past two champions won.and why i said what i did.

when you lose, you gotta still keep your head up.
learn to accept the fact that you've lost.
i said what i've, not to demoralise you people, but i need you guys to wake up.
to get the champion, its not just a few days of training, its not that easy.
i hope you people take what i've said positively and reflect on your attitude for sjab.
and the respect you give to your own cca.
i dont care if you're gonna hate me or what cause of what i've said.
but at least give some thoughts about what i've said.
learn to respect yourself, before you want others to respect you.

sometimes.
when you think life is unfair to you.
you are suffering.
you gotta ask. ask yourself.

is it cause of others?
is it always others?
what about me, myself?
have you done self check about yourself? your attitude to others?
have i done what i should, i could, i would?
have i given enough?
have i put myself in others' shoes?
why do i keep complaining and make myself more miserable?
since i think no one understands, no one bothers, why the more do i not understand myself?
why is it always cause of others, you feel down feel bad?
am ithat weak to always be affected by others?
god gave us our different life so we can learn from our obstacles, our difficulties and grow to be a better person?
isnt you yourself who is the most unfair to yourself?
cause when others are depriving you of unhappiness, you allowed them to and also join in?
look around, are you that unfortunate?
your family? others dont even have one.
learn to be happy with small little things you have.
learn to not complain, start praising, start rejoicing.

life is about you and how you want it to be.

if i were to blog about anything now.
it would be about sjab and my cadets.

hey people, you have gone thru months/weeks of training.
feeling like shit. feeling motivated. feeling suaned.
mostly bad feelings. but im sure there were moments you had fun.
the time has come to prove to yourself, to make all these worthwhile.
believe all of you can do it and just go for it. for gess sjab. for yourself.
all the best FDC'08 squad.

ATC's coming. i hope all can attend this ATC.
we're trying to make this camp something that you wont find a waste of time.
so do make an effort to come for the camp.