haha. well, hectic day. tutor 6 kids in total today. from 10 til 6pm. haha. cool. anyw, weekend was well spent with betty, my dearest gugu. caught 'run papa run', caught up loads. and i definitely enjoyed her company. then dinner with my family on saturday and yeah tuition day on this lovely sunday. dang, the sky was blue today, so clear so nice, felt like it was telling me after all shit, it'd be still a clear blue sky. haha. yeap. am on this book recently, rather nice book. yeap, one day, all will be clear and i will not think abt it anymore. (: afterall, life goes on. and the fact that i survived all these, haha. means... im strong. and stronger.
and anyw, i miss school. i think i've said this a thousand times, but i just wanna say it again. my class, my retards, my teachers, my twinnnnn, odac, ogl&slos... omg. haha. oh god. hmmm. (:

haha. worked, housework-ed, then met laiyan, INTERVIEWED, tuition then dinner with parents. (:

got down at the wrong stop, ran to the wrong place, couldnt find the place to report to for my dear interview for a place in NTU SCHOOL OF PHYSICAL AND MATHEMATICAL SCIENCES. OMG. just not the time for any interview alryt.! haha. finally found the place after venturing much. and before i could even go to the toilet, i heard, 'okay, follow me, they're at the room waiting alrdy.' oh dang. sooo, while recovering from the short run i had to get to NIE BLK 5, i got into the JOURNAL ROOM. haha. saw a man and a woman. and yeah we started chatting, had a nice chat with them. and yeah, am out of it, feeling kinda confident. hopefully they give me a place for being so chatty! haha. yeah. headed home. gave tuition, felt that today's tuition was great. haha.
then met parents for dinner. dad had his haircut, bt kinda dont make much diff. that mickey mouse hairstyle. haha. yeah. went to parents' friend's stall to eat. hmm. had some fishhead, and wat tan hor fun. haha. dont quite like, but still, ATE. haha. and we did something dang funny, had a great laugh, great chat. haha. and am home. with my fav teevee series. (:

"i din go away, i just hid at a corner. " as i always would. am sucha coward. :/

(((: scandalous. i like~ haha!

you are part of my thoughts almost everyday ever since then.
why how what who when where.
im afraid to express how i feel, afraid of the response i'd get.
afraid of this, afraid of that. oh buddha.
from talking to nothing. from nothing to thinking. from thinking to saddening.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh crap.
i care. really still do. but but but. just soo much buts. just so much of my selfishness. and seriously, i think i lost my guts, my courage. oh hell. imy.

on a lighter note, at least i have my teevee series,work,tuition to keep me occupied.
and of course, some of you out there with me. (: i am contented, i am happy.
but, i just cant get over it.

hmm. going for ntu interview tmr. for my MATHEMATICS course. haha. the person called while i was still napping. dang. haha. wish me luck! (:

a day to know you, a lifetime to forget you.

hello! 11 april 08 was a night of fun.
met eelin,rhonda after tuition and made our way to vivo.
haha. had ljs after meetin their friends. then candy empired and to dover.
haha. the concert was nice. the band performance that ended with the piece 'somewhere over the rainbow' just brought back so much memories. then choir and dance. choir's amazing i must say, improved real loads! enjoyed their pieces. and of course the finale, and the school song that roared! haha. the concert ended. hehe! and and the night started. met mel! haha. we headed to holland v. haha. had this 5.30 ice cream yogurt! woah. its damn nice i swear. haha! then to nydc for supper. haha. and we found our first LAO DI FANG. haha! lol! alright,it was sorta the best tym of the night. with the good food, and of course, carmel soon. hahah! talked quite alot, lamed too. haha! dumb. loved the night. (((: thanks.

12 april 08. haha. another night of joy. made sockhong,iris and sinyee for an overnight event at bukit panjang fsc. haha. got to know sock's sis, huifang and yada yada. headed to the place after dinner, made new friends, played some games. haha. rather fun and enjoyable. haha. met the kids, had a great time. haha. and the night sets in.. when they started to play the hunter and bear game, THEY kept thinking im the murderer, wth, so out of the three games, i died almost instantly, leaving me in the coma state! haha, soooo i slept while they played. haha. and it led me to sleeping on and on... the event ended at ard 6am plus, we then made our way to bpp for breakfast at the mac. haha. after my hotcake meal, there i go again. fell asleep. was real sleepy i swear. haha. bid farewell. (: then went home and had a good day of sleeep. haha. and thats how the day ended. (:

whatever it is, it shall come to an end.(: yet,again. haha. lets see how many times i would repeat this. lol.

tv/movie/tuition/work/sleep/eat/shit. (:
over and over and over. fcuk.
haha. dreams are just bullshit.
okay, i sound kind of moody. wth. i am not.
well, i cant figure out what i am thinkin of either anw.
just wanna RAH. and type some nonsense here. wth. ignore me.
what hurts the most, was being so close and having so much to say then watching you walk away. (:

and i am sooooo missing school. missing you people! my classmates, odac... nathan ogls/ slos! omg omg. really.. missing schoooool. my jc life.. rahh. i misss and i miss and i really MISS. ahh. CAN I JUST REQUEST FOR A DAY IN SCHOOL AGAIN? EVEN IF I NEED TO DO HOMEWORK OR STUDY FOR A TEST, I DONT MIND. AS LONG AS I BE WITH MY CLASS, MY TEACHERS. ahhhh.