i do apologise if at any point in time i decide to use any name or words that may prove unsatisfactory or offend you. ^^
feline madness
profilia ;D
Syaq
03|07|**
I'm a Cancer so I ♥ water
I ♥ Meiji too ^^
♥ WSJ is da SEX!!
white meat ;P
i want these, santa
attachment at RADIO *@_@* DENIED enough time to study -_- purple/brown contacts
True Blood Season 1 & 2
wear a nice dress (jay & wendy's dream)
Taylor Swift 'Fearless' Album
Batman & Joker T-Shirts
Studded Caps
stuff from VK/Midnight Secretary
I am still suspicious though. I got Shane's jacket quite easily. Either he's too lazy to bring back his own since his bag got wet. >__<
or as he said, "Take lah. I got 2 more"
So yay me for getting his jacket??
Oh, the things I could do with it. *gags*
Shoot la. Zuliang dropped by the store on Monday and I wasn't around. =__= And when I dropped by today, Chong was working instead of Ah Sin. -..-
At least I got to walk around IMM with Jay while he was on break. So nice right the timing. And I must admit, I do miss Siew Ming. Yay to her coming back this weekend!!
Haiz.. ICAs are a downright bitch. So Jay-purple says. I think Jen is actually avoiding me. Probably because of the email I sent but heck, it was either that or I go talk to Ms Soo. *shakes head vigorously*
I've already started on IMC's ICA 2. I especially scared Ming Hui cause she's the opposing group. LoL. After Thomson kicked Shane out of their 'secret meeting', he wanted to kick me too!!! *whacks with fan*
God, I feel so guilty for sleeping 12hrs straight last night!! Nissa slept for 1 hr, Ming Ui slept for 4hrs perhaps? Aah!! No more sleeping!! *rummages kitchen looking for Lipton Tea*
Gah, so weird. some old fart called me "NAK", malay term used to refer to your child. Like eew??
Now for some dinner and then off to bed! Gotta leave early tomorrow. =__=
P.S. I'm gonna try and avoid bread + water combinations at all costs!! >~<
mew...
♥Tuesday, November 25, 2008;
2:28 AM
NO DADDY!
I want to officially declare that I have NO father. And whichsoever assholes who speak of this being will be subjected to excruciating pain no less than a heel up your ***.
You are however, allowed to slap me if I mention of this impeccable, incorrigible being and you may do so countlessly until I no longer think about him.
And since I am writing this out of pure hatred and anger, I may change my mind at the last minute and smack you in the face if I get a random slap for no bloody reason.
This week has been a roller-coaster ride. I had been upset at a lot of things. And on Friday, I was at the peak of pissed-ness. I cannot believe that I had to go through all of it alone. Worst still, right now, I think one of my mates' avoiding me. Like wth?? You don't do work, you don't contribute and when I tell you off, you get upset?? Where's the justice in that?
But I was superbly happy on Sunday. Someone I hadn't seen in a long long long time, suddenly turns up at work. And I felt relieved that we talked so much that day. My supervisor was kind enough to leave me for just a bit. Unfortunately, the customers wouldn't so I had to talk-serve-talk-serve-talk-serve and it went on for a bit. A little sad that he had to leave so quickly, but well, he's got exams coming up so he should be home studying. Hopefully we can hang out some time when he's free. Then again, I might not be so free. =___=
Yesterday wasn't so eventful, though I had to say I laughed a whole lot the entire day. I was a little light-headed and a shot of migraine hit me during Chin Chong's tutorial. But yay, many thanks to Shi Yan for the songs, Ming Hui for listening, Khad & Jia Xin & Pei Jun for the loads of laughter til I cried and thanks Olivia for actually bothering to entertain me and Pei Jun's silly-ness. =P
Oh, must thanks my complete saviour today!! Ming Hui saved my life over and over today! She got me the Gatsby brochure! And she helped me recover the missing folders from my thumbdrive!!! I swear I thought they were all gone! +____+
Haiz... It's sad that at the end of the day, I have the 'luxury' of making my way home. It's such an awesome place I can't even fathom the feelings I hold deep, deep, deep, deep, deep, deep, deep, deep, deep, deep, deep, deep, deep, deep, deep, deep, deep, deep, deep, deep, deep, deeeeeeeeep inside.
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I want to be Mrs. Batman who married Johnny Depp. TT___TT
mew...
♥Wednesday, November 19, 2008;
11:28 PM
shut up and let me go!
You know the feeling of being shut out from a friend's life because you're not relevant to them anymore?
Perhaps it was meant to be. Shameel was right. These kind of people DO exist. And they live day in and out with no guilty conscience. They have no shame.
I can't say I know you inside and out. But I'm certain I've spent more than enough time to know that you're always looking out for something better. That you can never stand for less.
You tell the world how miserable your life is. And you tell the world how much you're suffering in silence. You force people to sympathize on you. And you like the attention no matter how pathetic you seem.
I wish you the best. I just pray that noone feels as hurt as I do right now. It's my fault to begin with. I was too trusting, I was too hopeful and I had faith in the people that God allowed me to meet. I'm just sorry you could've turned out so much better. But you just had to waste your life on people you had to CHANGE just to fucking FIT IN.
Haiz... Rantings suck. It not only hurts people, it hurts yourself. As much as you want to vent out frustrations, someone out there, who in no part have anything to do with your rantings, feel offended cause they think they're somewhat important to you that everything revolves around them.
Just tell these idiots to go fuck themselves. I swear it's not so hard.
mew...
♥Monday, November 17, 2008;
8:17 PM
i can still see the pieces on the floor
Nobody's Home Well I couldn't tell you Why she felt that way She felt it everyday
And I couldn't help her I just watched her make The same mistakes again
What's wrong, what's wrong now? Too many, too many problems Don't know where she belongs Where she belongs
She wants to go home But nobody's home That's where she lies Broken inside With no place to go No place to go To dry her eyes Broken inside
Open your eyes and look outside Find the reasons why You've been rejected And now you can't find what you've left behind
Be strong, be strong now Too many, too many problems Don't know where she belongs Where she belongs
She wants to go home But nobody's home That's where she lies Broken inside With no place to go No place to go To dry her eyes Broken inside
Her feelings she hides Her dreams she can't find She's losing her mind She's fallen behind She can't find her place She's losing her faith She's falling from grace She's all over the place! Yeah!! (yeah)
She wants to go home But nobody's home That's where she lies Broken inside With no place to go No place to go To dry her eye Broken inside
She's lost inside Lost inside Oh oh She's lost inside Lost inside Oh oh Ohhh...
I'd had expected things to get better. I had hoped people around me would change for the better. I have faith in God that things will fall into place - eventually.
I've never been this ill in a really long time. And I guess I anticipated it. I would definitely fall sick eventually. The circumstances are imminent. =_=
I'm struggling with projects I have to say. And I'm worried I don't have enough helping hands. I mean, you'd expect a person to do their part after being assigned one right?? *sigh*
I just realised that I'm in the second semester. Next semester would be the attachment period. TT_TT *not prepared...*
mew...
♥Tuesday, November 11, 2008;
10:32 PM
at the end of the day, silence permeates my being...
i hate my dad.
i hate my dad.
i hate my dad.
at times when i'm so angry, i just want to curse and swear aloud at his face. but i always tear up at that point, cause deep down inside, i don't want to hurt him. no matter how much he's always venting out on me, i actually want him to be proud of me and what i've done. but i keep hearing the negative things - and some hurt so bad i'd never thought a father would say to his child.
i hate coming home early. i'd rather wait out in the pouring rain or in the storm until he goes to bed or leaves the house, as long as i don't get to see hm face to face.
but unfortunately, i'm running out of friends. everyone's busy with their own THANG that i rarely see them anymore. i'm not surprised la eh. it happens every time i go to a new school. it happens everytime my friends meet someone new. and it happens everytime i'm considered no longer significant in their lives. thanks a lot for the ride. it was bumpy on your part, but i'm glad you're out of it and happily moving on.
i swear i'm treated like tissue paper.
and i'm not having much luck with school work either. need i say more? i mean, come on la. if this is as important as you claim it to be, then do something. don't just talk about it aite?
i should stop ranting now lest someone hates me. oh wait, TOO LATE.
mew...
♥Monday, November 10, 2008;
2:22 AM
beep beep...
i swear this semester is driving everyone nuts.
noone sleeps THAT early. noone is free after school. noone is relaxed.
everyone feels so fucked up.
maybe, it's just me, but i'm seeing it in just about everyone's faces.
gosh, but what's more terrifying is that...
after this semester,
WE HAVE ATTACHMENTS!!!!
i'm so not READY...
=_=
mew...
♥Thursday, November 6, 2008;
12:00 PM
i am begging for a sleep...
I know I missed this out already but...
Happy Birthday to MUMMY DEAREST~! >.<
Happy Birthday to OLIVIA BABE~!
Happy Birthday to CHIN HOW~!
Happy Birthday to LL~!
so many November babies ah...
i ended up sleeping at LL's place at parc oasis. damn you, your house the name only condo, but so small... =P but fun la. you finally turn 21 but you still look like a perverted 13-year-old. HAHAHA!
sorry olivia for skipping out on you. i would have stayed longer if i could. REALLY... =)
now, i'm just begging for a sleep. then again, i got this email about Butter Factory having a ladies night every wednesday. and its free flow from 10 to 1am. and, and, and,
free flow...
of...
BUTTER COOKIES!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!
Cheerios dudes and dudettes ^^
mew...
♥Monday, November 3, 2008;
12:59 AM
wow... no lights...
Some things on my mind right now:
-> MH giggles and breaks her straw in happiness when she's drinking
-> Joyce can hold her liquor except for when drinking jolly shandy (??? makes no sense dunnit???)
-> there's physical evidence of me pointing at SY *thing* in complete ecstasy
-> i am afraid of the Clinic bar
-> i wanna skinny dip in the middle of the night with JieZi, MeiZi while GeZi stand guard
-> i wanna eat Pizza Hut again (GIMME MY CHEESE!!)
I tend to keep quiet til the last second. By some miraculous chance, I'm happy when I forget certain things but it sucks when I recall any incidents that leave me greatly infuriated. I don't want history to repeat itself and I don't want to lose anymore friends. I don't want to play or be played. And I don't want to seem like a jerk.
I am so thankful Ms Soo has been patient with me. There's just certain things I'd rather not tell her and deal with on my own. I am grateful for MJ's change in behaviour and the improvements he's made to meet my demands. And thanks Saf for hearing me out. I don't want people to think I'm pushing but I think sometimes we all need that bit of positive push.
I'm tired but I can't sleep just yet. So many things have to be done.
