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♥Thursday, July 31, 2008;

4:11 PM


Shut the fuck up fucktards. You have no fucking idea why it was fucking made that way so shut the fuck up. You never read the actual fucking comic books, so you know fucking nuts. So don't start yapping your fucking asshole about! Maybe it's cause your fucking asshole is so fucking loose, that's why all the shit is coming out!

Okay, that was for all the fucktards who gave a fucking review about how The Dark Knight was revolving too much on the Joker. Fuck you. It's got nothing to do with Heath's death. And he's gone already. Let the poor soul rest in peace. You wanna know why? Go read the bloody comics from the BEGINNING to its latest. Dumbass.

Anyway, I watched TDK again yesterday with Naz and Radiah. Met them after my group's presentation with Edwin Tan. I swear we were all shaking and you could tell we were nervous especially Nissa cause she spoke so fast. She was shaking after she finished her part and stood next to me. I made a bleeding blunder when I said SHIT so loudly in class. Darn it, we were recorded live. =.=

But alas, I think we did okay. Khad did an amazing job with the brochure. She had it printed in the same kind of paper brochures usually have. So it was super duper realistic. And I even lended my Samsung lanyard Mum got from the company as an example. Didn't know I could find a use for it this way. But no way was I gonna let Edwin have it.

Shi Yan "stepped" on my knee yesterday. So let me tell the whole world about it. He stepped on my bloody knee! He didn't do it on purpose definitely. It was an accident. But what the heck, I came home with a bruised and slightly swollen knee. Dad instantaneously thought I was in a fight earlier in the day. =.=

Seriously, I never felt more suay in my entire life before. Especially for my poor left side of the body. I don't know why the right side is immune to any kind of harm, but the left side is gonna die before the right side. Complicated much??

Multicam's hard. And I feel more pressurized when I think that people are expecting a lot from my group. We've got so many crazy, creative ideas, we're worried about the execution part of it. I hope all goes well. MUST MEET AI-CHAN SOON!

I'm waiting for Wends right now while trying to do Multicam script. Internet's such a pain, that's why I typed this out while waiting. See! Disconnected again. =.=

On a lighter note, I'm really happy I got my pay. I spent too much on a really small amount of pay last month. I need to start saving up. I want to try saving up $1000, before the next semester. Oh, for the fun of it. At least I have a goal to work on.

And as an added bonus, I'm gonna get two pays. One which I have already received today and another on the 7th, which is next week!! You see, my company holds back our first month's pay and only gives us the following month. So, while I worked my ass off in June, I'll only received the amount I worked on that month at the end of July. Get it?

No?

Just imagine this, when you start working, you have to work for 2 months before your first pay is released to you, and subsequently that way. So when you quit, you get two months pay. =)

Thank God this system no longer applies anymore. Since one part-timer who only worked for a month complained to HR department about this. Probably even threatens to take legal action. Well, good news to me. Mum wasn't quite to happy about it. I mean, the company's been doing so for so long and her comes a little quirky character upsetting the balance. =.=

Well then, I gotta go finish up Multicam.

Cheerios ^^


mew...
♥Monday, July 28, 2008;

12:01 AM


After today's incident, there's so much I want to say.

I thank God for everything he's given to me.
I'm sorry for the times I blamed others for my mistakes.
I'm sorry for the times I cursed you for my bad luck.
I'm sorry for the times I was such an arrogant bitch.
I'm sorry for the times I made mistakes when all you expected was perfection.
I'm sorry for the times I tried so hard and didn't make it.
I'm sorry for the times I made you upset.
I'm sorry for the times I failed being a friend when I wasn't there when you needed me.
I'm sorry for the times you hated me.
I'm sorry for the times I could've give.
I'm sorry for every little thing that made it so hard to get along.

There's so many things I want to promise never to do. But I know somewhere along the way, I'd break it. 

I wish certain things would just go away. I wish I could be a little different. I wish for a whole bunch of things. But it sucks that there's so much wishful thinking in this oh-so-fucked up world.

I don't expect you to do everything I say. And alas, if the message hasn't reached you, I only want to protect you. I only want you to come and look for me. Find me when you need me. Call me. HELL.

You know what? Right now, I wouldn't mind being forgotten.


mew...
♥Tuesday, July 22, 2008;

2:38 PM


I just realised that I didn't want anyone to know how I felt. I mean, it doesn't really matter. If you guys are happy, that's just what I'd like to see.

I guess I've been missing out on a lot of things around me. I let things slip by and it's such a waste that I didn't treasure each and every moment being alive and with the greatest people around me. Pardon my language, the feeling's bursting out in biblical proportions.

I want to do something big. More than what I've already done. I want to do something so big, I'd forever be remembered as the girl who did so-and-so. But sadly, I am uninspired.

I'm currently in the library next to Jurong Entertainment Centre with Syafik a.k.a Ark. Haven't seen him in a while. He told me of Hafizah's party. Darn, I missed it.

Hafizah, if you do read this bloody pathetic blog, Many apologies for not attending your birthday party, okay?

The MCR album is just fucking awesome. And did I tell you how AMAZINGLY AWESOME TDK was?!! Oh yeah, I did.

Anyway, I'm gonna go drown my sorrows. See you guys later, yea?!


mew...
♥Thursday, July 17, 2008;

11:09 PM


You can say I'm crazy or nuts or whatever it is you people categorize individuals who do nothing of the norm. But I say with all the confidence in the world,

I believe the Joker is real. And I believe Batman is out there, losing half his mind trying to stop the bloodshed.

No spoilers I can assure you. But Heath is amazing. His ever so often lip-licking, laughter, pretty dress and everything he symbolized in his portrayal of the Joker, made him insanely attractive. The sheer thrill of being next to him would spiral me down the road of madness and obsession.

I believe in you Joker. I believe in what you do. Because no matter what we all say, we actually are the Joker deep down inside. There's that sense of curiosity in doing something with no purpose just to watch something burn and die. 

"I believe in what doesn't kill you, only makes you STRANGER."

But nothing justifies the power Batman has over the screen. The moment you see him, you tremble under his words, under his magnanimous power and as much as you try to wriggle out of it, he's got you right where he wants you. He's fast. He's smart. And he thinks of you WAY before he'd think about himself.

Now I wished I hadn't seen this movie. Cause now, I'm dying for the next. I'm dying to be transported into his world and leave what I have here.

After how Dad successfully became such a pain in my ass today, I'd gladly leave him just like that.



"Haa haaa. Heehee. Ho Ho Ho. *sigh*"
- Joker


mew...
♥;

11:24 AM


Yay to another image-heavy post. I owe too much I guess so since I'm having a break and while listening to My Chemical Romance's new the Black Parade Is Dead DVD, I decide to update the pictures since they're putting me in such a happy mood. =D

Oh yeah, there's actually an audio CD of them performing live alongside the DVD. SWEET~! +P


2 days after my birthday, Ah Sin, my supervisor presented this to me just as we opened store, in plain view of everyone. Yes, he is a retard. But he is the greatest supervisor I've ever had. =)

Above: My very lovable younger brother at work. He's cute and yeap, he's available now.
Below: Joselito Galang Venzuela. He's sexier in person. REALLY. =P

Above: Siew Ming. I absolutely love her. She's like my 'other half'. =P
Below: MY BELOVED SUPERVISOR! He actually has a thing for Julaiha Bte Jusoh a.k.a Jay. =X


Above: Me and Siew Ming at the counter. That is definitely Ah Sin's hand. 
Below: My little brother, Aloy trying to look cool outside the store.


This is Wally. My best friend since we were in Kindergarten. I miss him. ='(



My classmates in the studio. We were doing multi-camera production and we were preparing for our In-Course Assestment.


This is another set of pictures. I feared for Wendy's safety since she wanted to go to Clark Quay all alone. Most likely to booze herself silly. So I thought I'd accompany her and make sure she's okay. We went window shopping around Vivo to get her mind off things.

Me and Wends tried out these summer hats while at Forever 21. They looked so high-class compared to us... =P

Above: Me trying out at Forever 21.
Below: Hanging out at the White Dog Cafe.

Above: Gosh! Warm chocolate cake with vanilla ice-cream decorated with chocolate syrup.
Below: Oreo Cheese Cake. You can tell that there's a piece of the corner missing. I ate it. =)

Above: Wendy, pouring for us our drinks.
Below: White Cafe's special drink. Totally exquisite.


Then, there was the time we went to Simei for Jay had to pick Hairi up at his school. So we went to East Point Mall's KFC to chill out.

Above: Me and Wends feeling so fucked up.
Below: Jay in an attempt to dig both her nostrils simultaneously. Whether she succeeded or not, that is an entirely different story.


Umm, in a way, this actually is quite normal for Jay. =P


So that's it for now. I'm totally excited about watching The Dark Knight later. Hope I have fun. See ya. -.^


mew...
♥Wednesday, July 16, 2008;

8:45 PM


I know I haven't updated much. I apologize for my lack of desire to update the blog.

Truth is, there had been a lot going on and I'm not sure where to begin. But the more I procrastinate, the more they're piling up.

So, anyway, while trying to wait for my tea to be brewed, I'd take some time off to update on what's been going on.

Last Saturday, 12th July 2008, I met up with Jay, Wends, Hairi, Nazreen and Jonathan at Boon Lay Interchange. Naz and Jon was indefinitely late, but hey, I wasn't blamed for being very, very late. =P

We went to eat at Pizza Hut like immediately. Our stomachs were growling so loud, I thought perhaps our insides were about to engage in a war! Darn it!

So here's what we had...


The entire[incomplete] table(up) and the super supreme(down).

The sausage-thingy(up) and the Hut's Platter(down). 

My beef lasagne(up) and Jay's Curry Chicken Baked Rice(down).

The waitress made this major blunder by asking our table if someone was celebrating a birthday. That was when I realised something was a tad bit fishy, like we had yet to leave despite finishing our meals earlier on.

And so, it turns out....

They planned a surprise birthday cake to be presented to me! LoL! Absolutely sweet. They missed my birthday since they had to do projects and all. So they planned this to make it to me. =D

From left: Hairi, Wends, Jay, Naz and Jon. =D Thanks a lot yo!

Then Jay presented me with a gift that I so absolutely love. Thank EUU!!!! <3

After that, we went to the arcade to play DAYTONA! I absolutely love the game. Despite Jay's previous perception that arcades are a waste of time, she ACTUALLY enjoyed playing Daytona with us. Read her blog for her experience.

We took a seat at McCafe where we had so much fun irritating Wends with the word PIT STOP! Muahahahaha! While playing racing, Wends thought she was going into a short cut. Turns out, it was a pit stop, and so she got lagged behind by one lap. She came in last lur. =P Check out what she wrote!

We went off to Toys R Us where we were just goofing around with the toys there. It seemed that there were less toys then but hey, it was fun. =)

After Jay and Hairi left to buy food for her Mum and then go back home, Wends, Me and Jon walked about the shopping mall. We had a great time getting to know each other, and we were plain talking, and doing more talking.


Naz & Jon at Kiddy Palace(up), and Donald & Mickey in what seems to be in a humping position(down). I swear, we didn't put it that way. I just looked up and there they were!


Naz with Stitch. Aren't they adorable?!!! =X

Well, anyway, it seems that Blogger is being such a bitch and only allowing me to upload pictures just this much. And since, I'm too lazy to have them uploaded on photobucket and then copying and pasting the embeds here, I'll save it for next time. I owe a lot of people pictures. And I definitely want to show the world how great working at RSH IMM is. My "family" there is absolutely the best.

And today, I suffered a revelation. Are you ready? Here you go.

KHADIJAH IS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING AT MAKING POWERPOINTS!!!!
She was insanely fast and very efficient.

And another great thing is, AIDA, BEAT, SEAN, YUEN MUN AND KHAD IS IN MY GROUP FOR MULTI-CAM! We plan to do something very Japanese, involving Kimonos, sliding doors, half-bald head masks, and either the Haruki or Kanjani 8, Naniwa Iroha Bushi song performance. LoL. We are so excited about it. We managed to secure Ainon to help us out again since she's ready to do something different and fun. YATTA~! ><

Jersey today was absolutely RETARDED. Did you get that? It was RETARDED. Each of us fell one way or another. Or for some of us, the ball bounced off the post and slammed into our heads. *hint hint at the boy wearing boxers*

Aida fell extremely hard against the concrete street soccer floor. She sustained a small wound in two parts. And for some reason, her kicks were so much POWERFUL after the accident. Amazing. She was finally able to utilize her 'chi' and create a positive flow of energy. LoL~!

Yuen Mun did the funniest thing! I swear it would be way too hard to describe it. But I know I laughed so hard and thinking about it now is just so hilarious!!! Oh, and you should've seen how Thomson fell after some complicated sequence between him and the ball. 

I almost managed to pull down Sean's shorts. Darn. It was the first time I saw him without pants + belt. It was harder to pull down with a belt on. By the time he realized it, he was like "  ^.^ - silent pause- WOAH!" and proceeded on holding his shorts up. Further attempts proved futile since he was quick enough to run from me when he noticed me approaching. =P

MJ was being himself so we got quite a load of laughter from him ALONE.

Today was great. Today was awesome.

Jia Xin and I managed to completely do the SPSS-thing. DATA CONFIRMED.

Now, it's just the report for Juliet's Media Market Research and Azhar's The Grudge-thingy. I wish I hadn't read about the movie. ~_~

YAY to doing Chong's Insight Paper. Many thanks to Nana-chan for the assistance. Yea la babe. It's been a while since we last talked whole-heartedly. But hey, you know I'm here when you need me.

Fellas, anytime, anywhere, anything and whatever. This I promise you.

Cheerios ^^


mew...
♥Friday, July 11, 2008;

3:07 AM


I have been unable to increase the volume of my iPod. No, the max volume is not good enough. I don't get enough kick off it.

I am UNinspired. For some strange reason, I have lost the ability to write a story. Darn! Worst still, I have everything set for me. All my information has been gathered and that's left to do is to just arrange them nicely. But god damn it, I'm not feeling the flow of words right now.

And to make things worse, my throat hurts so bad. I shouldn't have drunk it la. Fuck.

Currently it's 4 am and I'm chatting with Gene. Darn that boy has been missing forever. Thank god he's still alive. This world would be a lonely place without the Master of the Sheeps. =P

WHAT AM I GOING TO DO??? I am totally unable to do JW.

Syaq, it's about time you stab yourself with a pen. Black ink would be pretty. ~_~


mew...
♥Wednesday, July 9, 2008;

10:07 PM


This is shit. I'm so sorry guys. I really am.

I FUCKING SCREWED UP FOR MULTI-CAM ICA! SHIT! SHIT! SHIT! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! I AM SO UBERLY SORRY GUYS! I SEALED YOUR FATE WITH MY STUPIDITY. I SCREWED UP LIKE FUCK AND I STILL FEEL TERRIBLY RESPONSIBLY FOR IT.

Please, please, please, mark me down if you must. I am terribly, terribly sorry for my lack of everything. And darn, I was so upset just now, I didn't mean to break down. Damn, Syaq, you're such a WEAKLING!!!

Many thanks to Ainon and Affam though. You guys rocked. Ainon, you are the most AWESOMEST person in my life now. Please don't stop helping us due to my stupidity.

Fuck. I wish we could do it all over again. Maybe, if I paid a little more attention, or maybe if I knew what to do, maybe we could've done better. I SUCK. PERIOD.

Sorry Wendy, you waited for me for so long, but in the end, I just had to go home straight. I can't take it la. I swear, it's so hard to look at my team members. They were disappointed. I know that. But they were too nice to me. ~_~

Once again, note to self.

I SUCK! I SUCK! I SUCK! I SUCK! I SUCK! I SUCK! I SUCK! I SUCK!

Period.


mew...
♥;

12:47 PM


This may just be another pointless post, so I must warn you before you read. I don't want anyone spouting shit that they've wasted time reading this.

Darn. Can't you be a little less of a pain in my butthole? Why exactly, are you always making me your punching bag?? It's not my fault when you argue with Mum, face it, you started it by raking up things from the middle ages. It's not my fault you're tired. You spend late nights on the computer or watching soccer. It's not my fault you feel unappreciated. You can't even appreciate what others have done for you or the fact that we all still stand by you despite your immature behaviour. I'm super tired of always being there to take the it in. Worst still, you're my Dad. The one who had been there bsince I was a chibi little bugger. We were so close. But what happened? Don't freaking say I've changed. YOU HAVE.

Nuff' said.

I just realised how much of my life is unknown to my parents. I mean, they never thought to ask, so I never bothered to tell. I confide in my friends for mostly everything. It just seems like it's not worth mentioning to them. Not like it mattered. =.=

Anyway, the time I spent with Wendy was "interesting' shall I say? Thanks so much for being my company all afternoon. *DOMO ARIGATOU!*

ICAs are beaming down on us like f*ck. I'm terribly confident that we're all just over-worked. And come to think of it now, I'm not looking forward to the Industrial Attachment.

To be honest with you, I should honestly say this, I mean I don't want you guys to get me wrongly, but.... I swear to the heavens, on my birthday, it was he loneliest time of my life. I swear I just wanted to burst out crying. Despite the fact that I was surrounded my friends, I felt more alone than ever. I'm not too sure why. I always thought I should be content with what I already have. On Saturday however, my colleagues surprised my with a cake and birthday song at work! The cake was like displayed for the world to see. Sweet la, Uncle Ah Sin~! I did take pictures of which I'll upload only a selected bunch. =) Got unglam shots la.

On Sunday, my sister and I watched Hancock. Which was so totally AWESOME! I didn't know that Charlize Theron was part of the casts, so everything came as such a big surprise. Overall, you guys should watch it despite what critics say. =)

Then in the evening, we all (family members), met at Sakura International at the Jurong West Stadium for an evening meal and a celebration for July babes. Me, 3, Auntie Maria, 5 and Grandma, 6. Food was awesome. And I should never have eaten again after that but well, by Monday afternoon, I was back to being hungry again. =P

Well, then. Have a great day today. Loads of luck to all students facing Multi-cam ICA today. And I am looking forward to what Jay planned for us on Saturday.

XCheerios^^X


mew...
♥Thursday, July 3, 2008;

10:26 AM


I'm surprised that I haven't written in for like ever. Usually, I'm dying to tell the world how fucked up my life was. But I guess things have been pretty good. =)

Last few weeks were great. They're definitely woth mentioning but you'd be cross-eyed if I'd have to write them ALL down. But they do include of me,

1) falling completely off the bus one night.
2) feeling comletely guilty about a classmate than hating him/her for what happened.
3) bumping into a PC that it came CRASHING down in class. =.=
4) scoring a goal by random kicking

and some others I really cannot put up. Hazukashi~!!!

Anyways, I need to make a note in here for all those who did take the time to read my blog. It's sweet and I hail you for it.

However, I get the sense that some of you out there make too much assumptions about what I write. I've always believed that when in doubt, BLOODY ASK!

Don't assume that I'm writing about you or someone you know. For God's sake, most of the time, when I bitch about someone, I write their bleeding names of my site, tainting the page and proudly say I hate them. =)

Like I do when I talk about Dad. =.=

But when I don't mention a name, it's because I am unsure of how I feel. I feel angry/sad/disappointed at one point. And still, I am confused as to how things got this far/bad.

So, if you feel like I'm talking about you, then straight up, we DO NEED TO TALK. Cause I can't say clearly to you. Writing it down helps me see how my thoughts are formed. And usually, they're in a scramble, and definitely include some major profanities.

On a lighter note, thanks Aida, Olivia, Jay, Joyce, Wally, Nana, Mum, Bik Ajon, Mak Mar and uh, everyone for the wishes. Very sweet. And it doesn't matter who sends first. The fact that I did receive it was great enough. Thanks loads!! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!


mew...