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True Blood Season 1 & 2
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Taylor Swift 'Fearless' Album
Batman & Joker T-Shirts
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♥Wednesday, December 26, 2007;

10:11 PM


I went out again for another round of midnight pool with the same people. Grandpapa really enjoyed the games we played. So much so, that we ended only at 3am.

Beacause the K-Pool place was like freezing cold, we went down to Macs for hot drinks. I had hot tea, which I took forever to finish consuming.

Reached home at 4 am. Wow. Beat my own record. Everyone was fast asleep. My sis and I even managed a little chat before we decided to turn in.

Well, my relationship with Daddy is constantly fluctuating. Sometimes we're good, sometimes he makes me feel like slamming myself into the wall or just hanging myself from the ceiling fan as I twirl about.

I don't know what to say, cause I never seem to say the right things. I don't know what to do, cause they anger him more in some way. I don't know what to feel, cause part of me still loves him like I did when I was a kid, the other part is telling me that my pther part is lying. This is the point where you get confused.

Every night I hear the song Confessions Of A Broken Heart by Lindsay Lohan. The lyrics repeating in my head, again and again, word by word.

"Confessions Of A Broken Heart"
I wait for the postman to bring me a letter
I wait for the good Lord to make me feel better
And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders
A family in crisis that only grows older
Why’d you have to go??
Why’d you have to go??
Why’d you have to go????

Daughter to father, daughter to father
I am broken but I am hoping
Daughter to father, daughter to father
I am crying, a part of me is dying and
These are, these are
The confessions of a broken heart

And I wear all your old clothes, your polo sweater
I dream of another YOU
The one who would never (never)
Leave me alone to pick up the pieces
A daddy to hold me, that’s what I needed
So why’d you have to go
Why’d you have to go
Why’d you have to go!!

Daughter to father, daughter to father
I don’t know you, but I still want to
Daughter to father, daughter to father
Tell me the truth, did YOU ever love ME
Cause these are, these are
The confessions of a broken heart

I love you, I love you
I love you....!!!!!
I love you!!

Daughter to father, daughter to father
I don’t know you, but I still want to
Daughter to father, daughter to father
Tell me the truth...Did you ever love me!!!?
Did you ever love me?

These are.....

The confessions...of a broken heart

Ohhh....yeah

I wait for the postman to bring me a letter..

- by Lindsay Lohan


Dad never actually left. But he changed so drastically, so terribly, I felt like I lost the Daddy I once knew. The one I grew up with. The only person who was ever there in my life.

I'm sorry. Really I am. For whatever happened to you. I wish I could take everything away. Be the family we used to be.

But alas, it's not to be. Things have moved on to a point where there's no turning back. I can't completely accept it. And I'll always be hoping for the best. Because I love you Daddy.

Today was great. Despite having a terribly painful sprained ankle, Dad brought us out to eat at Tipah's. Then we went to Science Centre cause my youngest sis didn't get to go the previous time.

Dad gave me a really good massage on my ankle. It felt better after that. Then somehow, by some unknown miracle, I sprained it again. LoL!!

Cause I accidentally stepped on my sister's Eeyore soft toy. SORRY!! GOMENASAI!!

So, haha! It swelled up again just a while ago. Sis helped wrap my leg with ice and a super damp towel to "hopefully" reduce the swelling.

Sho sweet~! =) By the way, it's about 5 minutes before midnight. See how long I took to write this post out?!!

Anyway. Minna, take care. With that, I'll leave behind this really awesome-ly funny vid sent by Jay. I lvoe this guy cause he's freaking cute! *swoons*

His name's Ryan Higa by the way. And his good partner Sean Fujiyoshi. Peace out!!



p.s.
"my name is.... DEAD, CAUSE I KILLED IT"
- Ryan Higa


mew...
♥Sunday, December 23, 2007;

11:20 PM


She yearns to talk to someone.
She yearns to pour out what she feels.
She wants to speak.
But no one bothers to listen.

She listens to others.
Their sad songs with broken lyrics.
She pieces back the puzzles.
But no one bother to listen.

She holds everything inside.
Hoping one day, some miracle will happen.
Somone might stop for a moment.
Stop to listen.

We're all moving so fast.
Brushing by the things around us.
The things that really matter.
The things we take for granted.

We fence ourselves in silence.
Because we don't know how to say it aloud.
We seal it up inside.
As it eats us alive.

Everytime she tries to speak.
They deny her words.
And she feels she's unheard.
Unattended.

When will the silence end?
Will someone make a sound?
Will you break the silence?
Before she breaks herself?

Stop and listen.
I urge you to do so.
Before she goes.
And crashes into silence.

Take a moment and breathe.
Look with your eyes and heart.
Listen to her words.
Listen to her cries.

Or regret the day she leaves.
Regret the day she can no longer speak her mind.
Regret the day she can never tell you she loves you.
Regret the days she didn't tell you she was hurting inside.

Goodbye family.
Goodbye friends.
Now learn this message.
Just stop and listen.


mew...
♥;

3:33 AM


I left home freaking early to meet up with Nana at Clementi. Half tired, half dead, I made my way to the MRT Station. Found her waiting all alone on the stairs. Poor baby!

Enol, Ihsan and another friend arrived soon after. Then we went back down and took 154. Have you guessed where we've been to?

Why yes, you jolly good souls. We went to Ngee Ann Poly to witness the competition Piala Khatulistiwa, meant for dikir barat girls and guys.

To be honest with you, I was most impressed by the female group from Tanjong Katong. These girls were loud, enthusiastic and really good.

The Polytechnic's were quite good too. I'd say Temasek Poly and Singapore Poly guys. Sorry Nanyang. Don't mean no disrespect but they were good.

Just before the Republi Poly girls were about to perform, my friends and I left. I was super sleepy and hungry. Didn't eat since morning. Me, Nana and Enol took 61 to Bukit Batok Int, where Nana and Enol headed home.

Bought for myself and my sister Macs and took a bus home. I ate and then took a nap. Pretty darn tired yo.

This is where the fun begins. Shortly after 8.30pm,I met my relatives at a nearby hawker centre. They informed me that they wanted to go play pool til late. So I jumped at the opportunity and sweetly asked my Dad if he would let me. He smiled for a moment, then told me to go. =)

A minute later, my youngest sister started crying. She said she wanted to go. My Dad said she could't since it would stretch aftr midnight. Then as I consoled her, she said she wanted to go. She wanted to - SWIM.

We all started laughing. She thought that we were going to the SWIMMING POOL instead of the playing pool. LoL~! Adorable ain't she? ^.^

Around 11pm, I met my uncles, aunty, cousins and grandpa at the bus stop. We went over to Jurong Entertainment's K-Pool where we had a few rounds of pool.

Note to self: Not all adults are capable of playing pool. =)

Grandpa really did have fun. We played around til 2am before we decided to leave. We then went to Macs where we got a chance to talk about anything under the sun.

Aunt sent me home in a taxi with my uncle and granpa. My other uncle and cousins decided to walk home. Reached home nearly 3.30am, I guess? Sis was up waiting for me. I had a great day I guess. Finally out after a long while.


p.s.
"MY BALL!!"
- Cousin Fazri


mew...
♥Saturday, December 22, 2007;

12:05 AM


I think I'm coming down with a fever. And my eyes are REALLY red. My sister tells me not to wear my contacts, but hey, no glasses for me please!! I am so over that era in my life. It's not that I don't like to wear glasses. It's just hard to maintain especially for a lazy person like me...
-__-

Well, today was filled with work, work, work. And I don't mean work WORK. I mean housework. =)

I got really angry at my youngest sister for not listening to me in the morning. She was supposed to bathe quickly and not waste time. Instead she played around and shocked me when a lump of water fell on the paper I was reading.

Ah well, I got into a fit and started cleaning the house like mad. Washed two sets of clothes from the early morning to evening. And they were dried before it rained around 6.30pm. Phew~!

Then I cooked for Dad. He was hungry la. Before that he went down to buy some groceries at the shop. He bought me ice-cream after I was screaming aloud the night before and this morning that I wanted to eat ice-cream. ~.~

Moving on I moped the floor, twice. Re-arranged all the shoes. And cleaned my beautiful kitchen.

Then we watched some drama Cahaya Zulhijjah, after which I played games again. Haish. So slack seh my day. I'm so bored. A good thing I'm going out tomorrow, to breathe in whatever fresh air I can get. I just hope it wouldn't be clogged with smoke breathers. Those damn asses that smoke like crazy. They should get a slapping from the government. Haha! But Daddy smokes too!

Oh yeah, I don't get it why there are such idiots in this world. Hello! There's this thing called a class list!!! Why are you such a dumbass? Stupidity drives you huh? You're such a fugly coward. You complained to your gay friend, and only, JUST ONLY in front of him, you talked big. You know what I think? If I swung my hand back, not even the thought of hitting you, you'd shriek like a mad ass sissy and run back to to your gay friend. Hopefully some raw gay sex would make you feel better, huh??

I can't wait for the new year to begin. A new life perhaps? I want to forget about all the terrible things in my life because I don't think it's worth it. If I do think about them, it's only to remind myself not to make the same mistakes. Other than that, I might as well just throw myelf to the dogs or be sent to some institution assessing the criminally insane. Maybe I'd get a chance to meet Batman!! :3


p.s.
"I hate that Malaysian judge. K***S**!"
- Mum (beware.. hell hath no fury than a woman's scorn!)


mew...
♥Friday, December 21, 2007;

1:47 PM


So I've been playing games all morning. I'm doing nothing productive seriously. Haven't worked for three days straight now. Well, what to do, my luck huh?

I had a really sweet dream last night. I was working back at IMM. I was like so glad I was there. Everyone was still there except that the entire store looked different, bigger I should say.

Well, I was working like mad. I didn't want to idle around. I took the job for granted before, and I didn't want to do it again. So while folding a pair of socks, I swear I could still remember. It was Nike, white and it had the logo at the back. Moving on, as I was folding it, Sam came up to me.

Sam: You work non stop. Go rest for a while. I help you.
Me: Nah, it's okay. The last time I left, I realised how much I missed folding the apparels.
Sam: To me, you never left. You just went on a long holiday =)

Heehee! I woke up giggling to myself. At that same moment, Mum was in my room, hair-drying her hair. I was the only one who had a hair dryer. So yeah. When I noticed Mum in my room, I dug my head into my pillow. SHY!

I was so adrn tired. Slept at 2.3oam from watching The Mummy. Brendan Fraser.... ~.~

Okokok. Come back to life yo! Well, tomorrow there's the Piala Khatulistiwa competition. Meeting Nana at the Clementi Station, then we'll go to Ngee Ann together with Ihsan and his friend. I can't stay for very long. So probably, I'll leave by noon.

Just go there to watch Dato' Kebayan a.k.a. Enol. Wahaha! Eh! I promise I'll update the Hari Raya Haji photos soon, okay?!


p.s.
"I FEEEEEL GOOD"
- Second Sister (NOI!)


mew...
♥;

2:07 AM


I've fallen head over hels with mr. Brendan Fraser, the lead of George Of The Jungle, The Mummy and The Mummy Returns.

brendan fraser

My eyes never get tired of staring, or as you people say, OOGLING. He's good-looking. Very adorable. HBO Hits have been playing his movies for over a week now. And everytime I tune in for some good movie, his face appears!

He's super hot in The Mummy. With the guns. Fighting the bad guys. Saving the damsel in distress. Commanding others. *melting* ~.~

Okay. So besides him, TOMOHISA YAMASHITA IS SO ADORABLE!!

yamashita tomohisa

I'm so sorry Ida! I keep forgetting to return your DVD! Haha! Did you know that during a performane in Taiwan, NEWS was requested by the audience to do a back flip? But since he hadn't done so in nearly four years, when he attempted the flip, he just fell back! Nishikido and Masuda managed a back flip and a side flip. Haha! Poor dude!

But thankfully, the audience was very supportive. =)

I still don't know much about NEWS. But I'm going to research on them and make myself a big fan of them!! Whee!!

Gotta turn in now. Gotta get up early for housework tomorrow!! Good night!


p.s.
"rabbit going crazy!"
- rini


mew...
♥Tuesday, December 18, 2007;

11:28 PM


Jay taught me that word. Yeah fucked upside down, inside out. That what she uses to describe how fucking shit assed her life was. And how people took advantage of her.

I'd hate to keep quiet when you assume that you can push me and look down on me. I'd fucking hate if you think I won't fight back. I fucking hate it if you think I'm another one of those little kids you could bully.

I'M NOT!

I won't let you stand in my way. I'll do things the fucking hell I want them to be. And no matter what you, I'll just slap you aside. I'll keep on walking. Marching forward like I should. Like I'd always will.

All I want is for you to listen. Yes, you can hear me LOUD and CLEAR.

But you never stop to listen. You hear what you want to. You see what you want to. That's how it's always been.

How can I forget what you've done? What you've said?

I'll make this clear.

I WILL NEVER FORGET. AND I'LL FUCKING TAKE THIS TO MY GRAVE.


p.s.
"Yo Nigga! When you're done with your bitch, we'll show YOU how it's done"
- Stomp The Yard


mew...
♥Saturday, December 15, 2007;

11:42 PM


GERARDWAY

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as i promised. it was fucking awesome... =)


mew...
♥Wednesday, December 12, 2007;

11:28 PM


Let me put it simply. The concert was...

FUCKING AWESOME !!!

I had so much fun at the concert. I did see Khad's bitchy, angry side. She really gets pissed to the max. But, I mean, some people were just inconsiderate. *shrugs*

Anyway, it was pretty difficult cause there were just so many people at the free standing area. I was left all alone with Wendy, Thomson's sister. Thomson was already up front at the front of the stage because he went to meet MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE IN PERSON!! How can I stress that? Oh yeah, FREAKING FACE TO FACE!!! *faints*

The first half an hour was pretty rough. There were times when we couldn't breathe because of the close proximity between each human body. Many people feel and got hurt. And I couldn't sworn there was either SOMEONE or SOMETHING under my feet. I turned to Wendy and asked her if she felt it too. I was screaming aloud, which noone heard cause it was too noisy,

"There's someone on the floor! Am I killing someone? Is this considered murder?!!!"

Haha! Then after a while, Gerard told everyone that we're doing a great job at picking each other up. It's almost inevitable to fall in such a crowd. Then he said,

"I don't give a fucking care how much fun you're having. Let's pick each other up" *swoons!!*

I wished the moment would never end. Watching them perform live was the most amazing-est(?) time of my life. Well, so far. I hope they come again to Singapore. With a new album coming out, I am acknowledging my addiction for MCR. Hope. That's what I see in them.

They're not emo. It's not just about angst or the world being against you all the time. It's about a ray of hope aside the darkness and gloomy atmosphere around you. Listen to the lyrics. Read and feel them. Cause I as heck do.

The crowd kind of got the message. There was less pushing and moshing. Everyone is just out for a great time. So yeah, we rocked on together. Singing our hearts out, word by word, melody by melody. It was just awesome. Jumping up and down to the beats, laughing and just going silly. Freedom. Detached from the strings that tie us down. Lifted to a higher level perhaps. This is my serenity.

But alas, the concert was over so quickly. I sighed and cried farewell. One night only. Why? Why not have a press conference or something? Let us ask you questions. Or take pictures. I guess you're tired from the world tour. Thomson said you looked especially exhausted. Take care, Gerard. I LOVE YOU!!

He said we were going to rock out so much, we wouldn't be able to fucking walk the next day. Thomson and I managed fine. =) Haha! But we were totally exhausted after the concert. Sitting about and stretching ourselves.

And I swear I wanted to pee but the toilets were already locked. And the drinks that they sold there were freaking expensive. So we went to the mrt station. we thought there was only one more train available - the last train. so we kind of rushed up. turns out, there was still a few more. -___-

Thomson and his sister dropped off at tanah merah going on towards tampines where there's a bus home. I think it's 72 because I use that to go visit grandmama!! Ok, I miss her. Anyway, hahas! We said goodbye over the glass/plastic window of the MRT. Because we went off separate directions. Then I went back with NoHbItRoN, Harris (NP) and Yazid (JJC). Yazid's brother, Amir, went off to counsellor's chalet. I WANT TO GO CHALET!

Okay, yeah. So we camwhored a bit. Yes, abit. I'll upload pictures next post. Then in the bus met Rusydi and Zawiyah. God, I seriously am starting to miss everyone. Honestly, I prefer hanging out with the classes at the back. Because noone thinks they're too intelligent. Everyone is equal. Some kids in my class are so stuck up, they make everything else look like child's play.

I reached home about 12plus. Mum and Dad weren't mad. I'm especially surprised at Dad. He was joking about and laughing. And he ACTUALLY asked if I had a good time. Woh! So, I stayed up to do Edwin's ICA, which I totally screwed. I could remember, really I could. But the moment I got up, I stammered so bad, everything in my head oozed out of my ear. Broadcast journalism is so not for me. Probably print but not broadcast. Brr! *shivers*

Even had time to catch the Liverpool versus Marseille match. Haha! Within 15 mins, 2 goals from Geard and Torres respectively. Awesome! Liverpool is the best! Then the next scorer was Kuyt. I called him KIUT. =P Thomson says some people calls him K*NT. LoL!

Went home immediately cause I wanted to sleep. Super tired sia. Almost slept in Azha's class. Didn't help that I was sitting up front. So, I left with Thomson, talking about the concert. Still can't believe that we went for the concert. It was just too short. I slept in the train as if I never slept for days. I even dropped my phone. =P

Reached home to an empty, SUPER cold house. So I whipped up a Spicy Marinara with Rice Noodles. Took a while but it was good. Warmed me up. And besides, earlier on, I only had egg mayo sandwich. Haiz....

So I slept like nobody's business. So syiok. And now, I have to go sleep again. Because tomorrow's lesson only starts from 6pm to 8pm. Haha! Sleep!!! I CRAVE FOR YOU!! Dream of Gerard. I got a fucking nice picture of him at the concert, thanks to THOMSON!


p.s.
"POO!!"
- NanaTRON


mew...
♥Sunday, December 9, 2007;

11:40 PM


I fucking got my fucking queue jumpas from them wonderful black paraders roaming about *scape. Thanks la, dudette. You look gorgeous and you look absolutely like Gerard Way. I would've hugged you if not for me being still-shocked-that-you-were-around-with-the-queue-jumpas moment.

Well, anyway, I actually got lost somewhere. And Khad had to pick me up from Somerset and guide me to *scape which was like? a block away???? -_____-"

We're talking about someone who doesn't actually go to town very often. Nissa was super surprised when she found out I hadn't been to Parkway, Bugis(back then ah!) and many areas. Yes, I'm very unprivileged. LoL

So, met Tommy and his sister at the Lime Flea Market. Khad had to leave to do her storyboarding project. So, me, Tommy and his sister went off to have lunch. One thing I learnt, both of them have the habit of keeping mum during meal times, eyes darting about the place, not one word. We ate at BK and I learned that his sister is a much bigger eater. She can't stop eating though she doesn't take big portions. But she's so skinny! @_@

After eating, we sat around for a while. Well, actually both of them waited for me. They ate so fast. I was pretty slow. ~.~

We did see some youths taking photos just outside of BK. They seemed to require a black backdrop, but looks like no budget so they used some store. There was one guy who looked so gay! Wearing a tight female-like tank top, with a jacket over. And he wore those high white sneakers up to his knees!! Damn right?!! Just as a girl who wore a skimpy dress acting all cute an pweety... =X

OoOoOoOoOo! Tommy's sister's name is WENDY!! LoL!! Wendy Tan Huiling! Got partner hah?!! Oh my god! She loves Meiji chocolate too!! Hahaha! We freaked each other out about Meiji chocs. And I could have sworn I saw Tommy's eyes roll in a oh-my-god-why-did-i-have-to-say-that way. So Wendy and I talked as though Tommy was never around. LoL! Sorry eh?!! I borrow you sister. Haha!

So we're all going to the Black Parade. Must bring Meiji choc, preferably black chocolate because Wendy says Tommy doesn't like it so we both can enjoy the fu effects of Meiji. LoL...

Oh, and excuse my spelling mistakes. I busted my finger. I mean I cut it intentionally. I was in a crazy (@_@) moment.

Haha! And Jay somehow managed to find my blog. It was supposed to be just for me. So I invited us few only. They deserve better you see..


p.s.
"Betul buang-buang. Eh?! Buang betul-betul =P (properly throw. eh?! i mean throw properly. sounds funnier in malay =P)"
- Syaq


mew...
♥Thursday, December 6, 2007;

9:59 AM


i made a mistake. i acknowledge it. i understand. but if you cross the line, i swear i'll put you in so much trouble...


mew...