My brain is not working. 8 months of not studying and now I don't know how to study anymore.
In JC I would diligently do all my tutorials and read lect notes, textbook and do ten year series, but now... I don't feel like doing anything, wtf is wrong with meeeee. I fee like quiting school altogether. I don't even KNOW if I have made the right choice, the right course, the right decision to stay in hall. I can't do anything in hall. Once I get back from class, I don't feel like doing anything. Then, I'll probably have to go down to eat dinner with friends or attend some hall activities or someone will just come to my room and we'll end up talking. No studying done. Sleep damn late. Morning wake up tired. Lecture, tut, and seminar: Brain not working. The cycle repeats. SHITTTTT HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO GET PAST THIS AND ITS ONLY WEEK 3. IT FEELS LIKE MONTHS.

Hey guys I know I haven't been blogging for quite some time
Mainly because so many things have happened and I don't know where to begin...

The end of work saw me at hall camp. I still remembered that sad bitter feeling I had while leaving my workplace- not because work is ending but rather because a new chapter of my life was starting and I felt a bit lost and insecure.

Came to uni, I would say I made many acquaintances but only a few people whom can really relate to me and I feel comfortable with that I can open up and joke around and just talk crap. Somehow, I just can't really connect with some people not because of them, but rather because I need to know that how the person's character is really like before I can truly open up. 


Uni life is quite lonely too if you think about it. You can have many friends but have none at the same time. Unlike in Secondary/ JC where u have a fixed class, you float around in University, drifting from one unfamiliar group to a group of strangers. Uni really favours the extroverts and extremely wild people. People who can pull all-nighters, talk all night but not feel tired, having the ability to start an entirely random conversation with a stranger next to you without feeling awkward, make noise when the surrounding people are all introverts/Stoning/in Sian mode, be good in almost everything( ranging from studies to Sports, good talkers, good looks, etc whatever- u-can- think- of insert- here). Certainly this would be a useful skill for introverts to learn a couple or two. Not as easy as it seems, Introverts have to be pretend extroverts which uses up much of their energy leaving them more tired than extroverts( simply because they have to force themselves to be someone else).

Whoever said that Uni life is the best time of your life, I am sorry to tell you, you are wrong.
Secondary and JC are the best times of your life.
To be carefree, to be yourself, to be sheltered and not having to worry about nitty-gritty things(although one may argue that one has more freedom in a uni life-- that freedom my friend, is a price for something else: RESPONSIBILITY, JUDGEMENT, INDEPENDENCE,KNOWING WHAT TO DO AT ALL TIMES WITHOUT GUIDANCE)

Flash forward 3 years from now, no wait maybe even less, I'd graduate and I'll be like any working adult ALREADY.

Treasure your Sec sch/ JC days if u still have them. Even though studies may be a bitch but I think going through that with your true friends is really like being with each other through thick and thin, braving through the storms together. You are not alone. But in Uni, YOU ARE ALONE. Even when you are surrounded my a huge group, I always get this alone feeling(ok maybe it only applies to one particular group I am in, not ALL) But most of the time you are alone. Even in studies. NO MORE SPOON FEEDING. IN FACT NO FEEDING AT ALL. SELF STUDY EVERYTHING YOURSELF END OF STORY. ITS FREAKING 12.37AM ONLY AND I FEEL LIKE A ZOMBIE ALREADY. 3 DAYS PASSED AND I FEEL LIKE IT HAS BEEN 3 MONTHS. GOSH.

BTW I AM IN THE HOSTEL NOW TYPING THIS. NOT USED TO HALL LIFEEEEEEE. WHEN I WAS YOUNGER, I ALWAYS THOUGHT UNI WILL BE THE BEST BECAUSE I HAVE THIS SUPERFICIAL THINKING: CAN WEAR OWN CLOTHES LOOK PRETTY WHAT, ABSOLUTE FREEDOM STAY IN HOSTEL, CAN FINALLY GET BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND(LOL), SCH VERY SLACK ETC ETC ETC. WTF DID I THINK OF THAT THIS IS NOTHINGGGG LIKE WHAT I DREAMT OFF.

SORRY FOR THE RANTINGS NOTHING IS GOING SMOOTHLY IN MY LIFE:(

Meetup with bbg

Took a full day leave to meet up with my long-time-no-see secondary school friend:) As we are working in different job sectors, it was hard for us to find a common time to meet. Can't believe that we have been friends for 7 years now since Secondary 1! Time really flies when you are in your youth. Today we can be 13years old, the next day we wake up to be 30, who knows?

Went from 313 to Ion Orchard. Mission of the day: To shop for clothes to wear to University. However, I didn't manage to really get a shopping haul:( Hehe either I am too fussy when it comes to clothes, or the clothes were simply not eye-catching enough for me. Most of the clothes we bought are from Mango as they have discount for all apparels. Btw me and my friend worked at Mango too after O levels, miss those times.

I got a pair of long jeans and denim shorts there. I was actually eye-ing the denim shorts a few months back! Haha.
Oh and the bad thing about sales/GSS is that the nice apparels in smaller sizes get sold out pretty fast leaving those bigger sizes which many girls can't wear:(



These are the other stuff I bought from a separate period of time

 

More and nicer photos with Annie. Will add those into this post once I get them:)

The kind of life right now

 


Appreciate this scenery taken before the haze.

The haze in Singapore is getting super bad now. At this rate, I think orientations and camps for university is going to be cancelled wts:(
Stayed at home today instead of work because of the hazardous haze( PSI: 371 highest today) and just in case the mrt breaks down again. So more Korean dramas. See the only sustainable activities are sleeping and Korean dramas not School or exercising. Just kidding.

Yesterday, the North East line Mrt broke down and I had a hard time squeezing into the train which stopped at Woodleigh. The free shuttle bus and regular buses at Woodleigh station were packed like sardines.  There were so many people that some were standing on the road. I guess everyone got so irritated and desperate that they starting standing on the road wanting the bus to stop and board it. But nonetheless no such luck as the buses were PACKED. I walked down to an earlier busstop since everyone was headed that way to increase their chances of getting into a bus. Still no luck, it was 8PM, the haze was PSI 190, what better timing for the MRT to breakdown?

This was only a portion of the crowd

Walked down another busstop again. This time there was an EMPTY free shuttle bus but it refused to open the doors for us even though the passengers were begging it to stop and open, because the stubborn bus driver wanted to follow rules to only let people in  at Woodleigh stop. Like Please. Rules can be bent what depending on the circumstances and besides there were a huge crowd at that stop already. People were taking photos, blaming whatnots and complaining why there wasn't any police to stop people from standing on the road. Jams everywhere, cars honking and chockfull of angry, exasperated people wanting to go home after work.

More walking and asked my dad to fetch me at a small road instead of the jam-pack main road. Poor commuters, some of them must have waited till 10 pm and didn't even have dinner and have to smell the haze:( Got home at 9pm and lost my appetite for dinner. Had headaches from the haze too.

Sorry for the rantings but I really wonder how are we going to survive like this:(

Agnes's Birthday

Super outdated post but its the memories that count right?

 



With the birthday girl!

Cake from Awfully Chocolate as Agnes likes Chocolate. Glad that everyone made time to meet each other despite coming down straight after work/ have work the next day and stayed quite late.

Nature trail

 

               

            Not a single soul... Went during a weekday morning:) You got to love going out on weekdays because everyone is either in school or work. Except for slackers like us hehe

Ready to walk the Forest walk

   

 

 When there isn't anyone around hehe.

Henderson waves

Drizzling for a while

Hortpark to Forest walk and off to Vivocity to shop :)