Hello Candy, Happy Birday yo!

No more 18th, 1 year older please don't be so childish already oh! {: Hope you like my present and th mini celebration just now.

More to come this coming saturday..

Dont even talk to me about the flea earlier on, because it was probably the worst I ve been to. I suffered like hours there. Seriously, never felt so pathetic ever before. Exhasted, warm, hungry, and angry. Just imagine! Okay wait, I don't even wanto think bout it. It sucks, period.

Supposed to celebrate Ken's bday today but, Im sorry Ken. Im was extremely tired when I came back from the flea, that expained why I overslept. Sorry! Anyway you will be seeing later, so well. I promise I will make up to you yo! {:

Was catching up with a few friends lately and I just realised.. I suddenly have quite a number of friends are Mummies-to-bt/just became one recently. Congrates! But why? Is tiger year a baby boom year? Eileen and Belle just gave birth days back. Pris, Gracia, Chloe and Eleannor are Mummies-to-be. This is serious kinda too sudden for me to digest.. Haha. In other words, the number of my god children is going to increase this year.. Wondered what will happen if Im a Mummy now. LOL?

( A few photos w' Staciy and Faith at ph sometimes back. {: )

Bonjour Camarades,

How was your saturday? Did you spend it fruitfully? I guessed you do. Because mine was close to awesome! {:

I had mahjong (yes, 1 of my favorite still) for hours last night, and I lost 10bucks. And the fact that I lost it a guy I classified him the world most hate-able creature made my lossing even more depressing! ): Haha. But beside that everything else was good. Kickstart my day w' the arrival of my parcel from Indiesin (An online shop I like to shop with). Idk bout you but to me the feeling you get everytime you recieved a mail/parcel w' your name and address written in the middle of it. It is classic, even though you may already have expected it but still I love that feeing. Followed by my never ending heart-to-heart talks w' Shanialove. (Girl, just so you know I am here for you til the day you wanto ditch me away. Yes, thick-skinnly superglued close to you.) hehe. Watching my favorite dramas, facebooking which includes farmvilling, shopping online as if I will never get to shop again tomorrow, reading on what's going on around me/the world, checking out new stuffs that are coming out soon, bitching w Nicolelove over th phone.. together w' my best-liked fruit cake and home-made birdnest drink beside me. Just doing what I wanto, don't even have to worry about anything/everything at all. Then before the clock strike 12, brisk walked w Ken all the way from my place to Sunshine place just because we missed th last bus! But well had some subjective talks w Ken along th way which was pleasurable. Haha. Collected the rack for tmr's flea, back to my place and off to 302. Yes, 302 = Yu Pian Bee Hoon + Ice Lemon tea. Hoho. Ultimate shiokness ttm. {:

A well spent saturday doesn't necessary need to be spend in town or anywhere else beside home. I strongly believed that it's who and what you did that matter though where sometimes do play a part too. For those that always has the idea of spending saturdays at home are only for people who doesn't have a life, I beg to differ..

Avec l'amour , Bessie

I realised my days became healthier. Great reduction of disturbance. Life is so in peace, I like I like! No more home-at-dawn-dead-drunk, No more $10-everyday-for-viceroy-Ice, No more Mummy-I-need-money-plsssss , No more damn-I-wasted-another-day-of-my-life, No more I-am-feeling-so-emo-again, No more of the negatives. Welcome all the positives. More times and spaces for myself after major reconstruction. Everything seems to become better than ever. Everything just seems to be in good time. Nice, that's life. Now that is so, I so should be cautious of my plans. Time wait for no man, spend every minutes every seconds only on worth it atoms. (:

J this is for you.

After one big round, yes. I miss our past. I miss our Js. I wished I could turn back time. I wish I was braved enough. I wish you were firmed enough. I want everything back, I want everything that once belong to me back. Can I? As much as I wanted to move on. I freezed. I just couldn't pretend that had nothing happened. I thought I could bury them, accept them, those once bitter sweet memories that belong to just you and I forever. But apparently it don't seem so. Idk why, but you kno its so terrible. It hurts me so badly. They bite. Just the thought of them, pain me enough. Lifes ironic, aint it? Sometimes back when you came to me telling me how you were suffering from the misery, I was the one that telling you to be strong be brave and get over and done w it. Now Im the pathetic one hugging on to them and refusing to let it go. Oh well, maybe that's just life. J, you actually has the dubious honour of being the first person to give my heart a haul. Thank you for making me hatelove you.

XOXO,
B

Im sucha happy girl because I bough this, this, this and that! HEHE.

Hi world, I think Im suffering from insomia. Damn. I just doesnt feel tired and cant fall asleep. Cannot sleep = hook on lappy = online shopping = spend money = month end die! LOLOL. okay, I think I should start keeping myself busy with useful stuffs. Yes many things to be done, in such little time. oh well, girl stop procrastinating and start getting things done!

Anyway was clearing my mailbox, and I saw these. HAHA!

Said to be the origin of swine flu. nice one, haha.

this is what Mr Bean wil look like if he is in avater! lol.

Regrets : (noun) a feeling of sorrow, or of having done sonething wrong (adjective) regretful

I never like to do something now and regret later. I mean who like..Yes, but in life sometimes things just don't go th way you want it to. Who doesn't has any regrets at all in a lifetime. Someone once asked me, " if I were to walk out of your life one day.. Would you have any regrets? " I was astonished. Because I have never thought of how life would be without, S. S was such a part of my life, he was too good to be true. He never once failed to fulfil what I requested for. Whenever I left a club drunk, S will make sure I get home safely wherever he is. In th middle of th night when I have weird cravings, S will try his best to satisfy my odd desire. When Im down, pissed off.. S will make sure he put on a smile on me with all his means, all his mights. Just because I said Im bored and I suddenly feel like playing L4D, without second thoughts all th way from Sengkang I will see him in Choachukang in about 30mins.. For all that S did, he did them with a true heart without hoping for any returns.. Even so, I took S for granted. I never ever try protecting S's extraordinary love. I regretted, alot. Because I finally understood that someone like S, don chance by easily. My bad, Im genuinely sorry S.

Only if all the "only ifs" can do magic and comes true one day. Til then much loves and misses, hope you are well and happier. (v)

Feeling so awesome. Just went on some shopping spree online! haha. Blast all my angbaos and part of my pay on so many things! Okay, no more shopping til end of March. Anyway, Im looking for th 2 tees(pictures below).. Anyone know which blogshop or where is selling it, could you leave a comment for this post. Thanks love, much appreciated. {:

Yay, Bessie is sucha happy girl today. {:

Bought 2 cameras from a blogshop, 1 double frames lomo camera and another shiny spangle lomo camera. Costing me a total of $50sgd. What a steal, hehe. Cant wait to get hold of them! ^^

Someone once told me I have really small eyes, I think I do uh.

I need to get a Camera like sooooooooooooooon! Screw my spoiled Canon. ): I wanto get a polaroid as well as a digital camera. Shit, I need money money money! Any good intro anyone? I need recommendation..