Saturday, September 08, 2012
finally am updating again after 1 month plus. as my last post was about my husband birthday present! i got him a cartier wallet as his is spoilt, long ago wanted to get him one but he keep on denying. so this time i didn't ask for his permission but just surprise him with a cartier wallet!! and indeed he love it.
and too finally i had given birth, a load off my tummy((: and now i am still undergoing confinement!! oh gosh, how shall i phrase it? giving birth is easy but confinement is difficult. yes, the time seems to pass soo slowly. . and now i've got 3 lovely kids to manage, and never fail they always manage to make me super super frustrated. but still
- i really thank god for a doting husband and 3 lovely and cheeky kids!!
my bLissFuL MOmENTs
love: XUEYING
2:30 PM
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
tomorrow is his* birthday and i had not planned out anything for him!! how bad can i be? most headache thing is that his birthday and Kecia's birthday fall on the same day. . so i had all planned out for Kecia already. but his daddy i have not even do any planning yet! planned a gift for him, but he say that there's not a need! i persuade him to buy but he still do not want. giving me a headache!! asking him anything he wants to eat or get for himself. . he say nothing! NOTHING!! making things difficult for me, isn't it? time now is 5.00PM and yet i am still resting at home.. not getting my bud off the seat!! how lazy of me..
my bLissFuL MOmENTs
love: XUEYING
5:09 PM
Saturday, July 21, 2012
went for a gynae checkup this week. the gynae told me i would maybe give brith around August! as it's gonna be end of July i realised i always have sleepless night due to the baby keep tossing around in my tummy. . mood swings become regular, thinking life is really boring! S-T-R-E-S-S took up alot of space in me now, thinking of a way to take away the load. but nothing seems to work!!
# seeing him* stress about our finance, make me feel soo helpless and uncomfortably sad.
# in and out, on and off i always faces the same stress.
# EDD is nearing feeling nervous and scared.
<3 sometimes i really regret on certain decision i make in my life nowadays! not on the decision that i am married to you but others. . but at the same time i really thank GOD although you always don't comfort me when i am down but as long as i know you're always there i'm happy enough! <3 maybe it's my fault this time round, but still maybe i think i have a frail heart to take it! yes a paperheart is all i have now! not strong enough to take what took place just now. .
after all the rants, hope that as days passed i can cope with my stress well enough coz i believe i am strong to cope up with all the nonsense ilove give. had been coping through the pass years, why till now i cannot take it! it's impossible right? okay, shall end here got to go work soon!!
my bLissFuL MOmENTs
love: XUEYING
6:40 PM
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
had not been updating for such a long time. apologies to all my readers! my third pregnancy is much worse then my first 2 pregnancy. having all the nausea and so on!! now i am on my third trimenster. EDD is on September, no more morning sickness, nausea and so on. but hardly sleep at night coz baby is actively constantly kicking and moving round in my tummy all the time! sometimes baby kick me real hard i feel pain even. never had this feeling during my first 2 pregnancy!
as my EDD is nearing i will frustrated and cranky at times. thinking about giving birth and confinement make me feel scared, alright although i had already given birth twice and done my confinement twice but still do not know why i feel scared! is this a person's normal reaction? all my relatives was saying 'there's nothing to be scared, you are already soo experienced' but still they can't understand my feelings. i think the one closest to me - my husband, he can't seems to understand all my nervous feelings when the dates are nearing as the day end each day! he got the same thinking as my relatives, it's my third pregnancy! yes it's third but i am feeling extremely scared like it's my first pregnancy. .
will update more often soon as my maternity leave start next month! and hope won't be lazy to update it anymore((: or my dearest bloggie will be soo dead.
my bLissFuL MOmENTs
love: XUEYING
3:35 PM
Thursday, November 24, 2011
been rather cranky lately.. but had been tolerance of my crankiness! thanks laogong. sometimes i think that when i am too dependent on you might not be a bad thing coz this shows that i can't live on without you!! <3 oOps, sound soo mushy ya? haha! :D anyway again a week of his 1st day to work. and again when i am missing him, i am blogging it again! gonna pass 1 months when he is on night shift! about 3 to 4 more months more. usually people say happy times pass faster then unhappy times, why is it so?
knowing he won't come back for supper but at least i still can get to see him later meeting him out for supper. O.o although i really enjoy the time when he is back home for dinner coz his time at home would be longer with me compared to outside.
thanks laogong that he change the phone with me. haha! :D *happy little child* he got me a iPhone 4s white. so he is using iPhone 4!! rather regret that time when i just bought iPhone 4 and the white version came out not long after i get it. but after all i am now holding a WHITE one. haha! :D
**have no regrets to have a laogong that pamper me soo much. and shower me with soo much understanding, tolerance and love!Labels: laogong you know how much you mean to me
my bLissFuL MOmENTs
love: XUEYING
8:41 PM
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Frustrated. Ever since you work night shift I can even hardly control my emotions anymore. It is getting harder to push it down! Working night shift you can't accompany me to sleep and I can hardly sleep. Working night shift also make your time for me lesser, everytime you tell me you are tired!! I tried to understand, but I am unlike other can let you sleep and do thing myself. Maybe coz am too dependent on you. I really hate it when you sleep and less accompany me. Really I do hate it!
When you work you sleep whole day.
When you don't work you claim to be tired and sleep too.
I tried to persuade myself but I just can't seems to persuade myself! Why is it so? Can anybody tell me why?
Laogong hope you can understand I do not know why I always need your company but I am really trying my best to persuade myself and get used to it!Labels: GOD please let my tears carry my sorrows away
my bLissFuL MOmENTs
love: XUEYING
9:35 PM
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Again another new week with his first day to work!! Feel soo empty and lost now. Feeling empty is even worse then missing him!! No reasons why, but this feeling had been with me since he step out of the house not long! Been soo many weeks since his working night shift and again I am still not used to it.. Really am I not gonna get used to it? Tried to play Dota to get rid of the emptiness but still can't! Tried listening to songs to sleep! Still can't. How? I really dread this kind of feeling. Laogong I feel soo xin ku every time you work night shift! This is like soo torturing. Pass few weeks Dota can let me feel all occupied. But not now, not anymore. Why is that so? I never get tired with Dota before but why am I feeling soo empty even playing Dota!
Today I got myself a part time job. Am sort of glad, but when I hear my dearest Kecia saying to me mummy I don't want you to work. I want you pei me!! After I told her I am going to work! I heart feel soo weight down. Is it something good? Coz she is still growing up stage and understand she need lots of attention!
my bLissFuL MOmENTs
love: XUEYING
10:38 PM
