It has been awhile since I have blogged. A lot has been going on in my world. So I will start with now. I will eventually post about Hailey finishing 17 rounds of Chemo
and
25 Rounds of Radiation
and
more Doctors appointments
and
all of the other shit that comes along with having BEATING Cancer.
Because guess what…….
MY SISTER HAD BREAST CANCER!
She had a year of endless Doctors appointments. Chemo. Radiation. Surgeries (with more to come)
She rocked it. She is so strong. I am so proud of her. I think she surprised herself.
Can we forget about the last year?
Can we erase it from our minds?
Nope. We cant.
It happened. The nightmare happened.
Want to know the dumbest thing about being told you have cancer.. fighting cancer
And BEATING cancer???
The fear never goes away.
I don't know how any of this personally feels. I wasn't the one with Cancer.
I am not the one that noticed a new lump, just to have all of the fear come rushing back. More tests. More needles. More waiting for results.
Anyone that has had cancer and has gone through cancer treatments should get a free pass.
They shouldn't have to worry about things anymore.
Clean bill of Health.
Is that too much to ask for?
But no. Everything is still scary.
New lumps and bumps and bruises and something feels different and something is not normal.
Is the cancer back?
Its all really F*%^&#% scary.
And it will be forever and that really really sucks.
BUT…...
she did it. she beat it.
She's strong, beautiful, loving, caring, brave, inspirational
and I am so lucky to have her as my sister. As one of my best friends.
I don't think she'll ever know how many people she truly inspired,
by how beautifully she handled such an ugly thing.
And
I don't think all of the people that loved her, supported her, prayed and sent positive energy her way,
will ever know how much they really helped her.
It has been humbling.
It has been life changing.
I have knowledge of something I wish I didn't know anything about.
I hope I never have to experience something like, my sister fighting cancer again.
I hope know one I know has to experience what she did.
I am choosing to take the positive from the negative.
My sister is still here.
She's healthy.
She's beautiful and strong.
MY SISTER BEAT CANCER!
Last year on April Fools Day, was the day Hailey was diagnosed.
I wrote about it here.
This year we wanted the anniversary to be happy.
Around 70 of Hailey's close friends and family got together to surprise Hailey.
Time to celebrate no more chemo and no more radiation.
To celebrate life.
To celebrate her.
Thanks again to everyone for making that night special for her.
Thanks for all of the help in making it perfect.
And happy.
Next year, I hope she remembers her party before she remembers the day she was diagnosed.