Updates

Whoa... it has been gazillion years since i last updated my teeny weeny blog. 3 months have passed and noticeably the past few posts has been emotional and full of fugly words, yes fugly. Emotional still? Yes pretty much nothing has change. A relationship fell through, got a good paying job, met new people, met new love, met new life, Hunter's been better etc. Anyways this post will be different. So this time, I'll let it be picturesque. 

Food, food and more food. That's working life ya all.

xoxo

I guessed i was wrong. Apparently almost everyone knew you never liked me but her. I was just an instrument. What is the point of feeling sad and depressed when the other part is enjoying and partying his life having scored and touched down in making my life miserable? I just feel so foolish to the point that friends don't mean shit to me anymore. I'm better off on my own.

Why do you ask whether when people break up, they severe all ties? It depends on the nature of the breakup. Well look in the mirror yourself. You told everyone its mutual, but apparently you're the one who confessed and ask another girl (my good friend!) out 2 days after the breakup, when you were supposedly self-proclaimed to be so committed to the relationship before. You told the friend you liked her for the past one year. Means you liked the friend all this while but not me right? I was just an excuse for you to get close to my friend. You were the one who did things people shouldn't do if they are committed. What do you think everyone else is going to think of you?

The very moment you state that sentence, and your friends indirectly accusing me and calling me names... I know... we're through... its time to let this die.

I've never felt so much passion about some things before, so much urge to make things work. But apparently this is just another wrong turn. Another wrong decision. So many preparations, so many surprises... Never plan something too early into a relationship where one isn't committed.

Another hiccup in life where things don't turn out the way you wanted. Maybe I was just too selfish to think for the other half. My wrongdoing. But I'm still young, and there is still room to grow. And by the days, I'll be wiser.

So I'll cherish my youth, make my days ahead brighter and work on the things I love most. God be with me.

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It's good to feel single again. To have no commitment in relationships, to be not tied down to anything. To be able to be myself for just a while. What is the point of being with someone when you cannot be yourself? That's just pretense. How long can the deception last? Ahhh... the irony.

Tomorrow would be my first ever job interview. Nerve-wrecking but all the best to me!!!

Updates

Birthdays mean nothing much to me because it comes every single year. Hopefully this year's the same. I wish I can celebrate my birthday alone. Do the things I like, and not for the sake of pleasing others. I personally and secretly wants to celebrate my birthday with friends this year, but the fear of a failed celebration by them makes me phobic. Blehh... Of the sacrifices I'm willing to make, sometimes I feel like nobody understands me, literally nobody. So yea, let the world make their own justifications of my actions. Been spending a hell lot lately LOL. University life came to an end not too long ago and I have spent almost half of my year's savings indulging in luxuries. My money is my money, not yours. Your money is your money, not mine. I swear I won't even touch one bit. Bought a Longchamp bag for myself, a pink Sony camera *loves*, clothes, clothes and more clothes. AND 3 kg worth of permanent weight I'm trying to reduce now by doing more cardio. Job hunting is so tiring mentally till it becomes difficult to fall asleep at night. Hopefully I managed to get into my dream job *crossed fingers and squeals*.

More updates till then.

XOXO