When im gone from this world,
Would you think of me a little
Every now and then..
And i would certainly wonder
wonder about my legacy
the legacy ive left behind
i feel sorry and sad for you
If u actually still read my blog, good for you.
But you probably wont know im refering to you.
And i dont really give a dam telling you abt it
and even if i did, you probably dont really give a dam either..
Diff paths we go..
I just feel sorry and sad for you
all becos once upon a time, you were a friend
If u actually still read my blog, good for you.
But you probably wont know im refering to you.
And i dont really give a dam telling you abt it
and even if i did, you probably dont really give a dam either..
Diff paths we go..
I just feel sorry and sad for you
all becos once upon a time, you were a friend
Yet another person asking me to join mlm
I find it horrible.. Not tt its a scam.. Not all is a Scam, but ultimately, the person who is really making money is the company..
What i hate most is that they target ppl my age.. and many unwittingly get lured into this by the earning compacity.. Cars
Oh well
A few get rich... a few give up
I find it horrible.. Not tt its a scam.. Not all is a Scam, but ultimately, the person who is really making money is the company..
What i hate most is that they target ppl my age.. and many unwittingly get lured into this by the earning compacity.. Cars
Oh well
A few get rich... a few give up
blog blog... we've been thru so many things tgt
Since 2005..
I actually dont exactly keep a diary
but i just realized(like now) this blog is actually a diary..
Every rant.. every joy every tears every frustration thru my teenage life to a young adult had actually ben written down in this very blog..
This post marks my 748th post...
Since 2005..
I actually dont exactly keep a diary
but i just realized(like now) this blog is actually a diary..
Every rant.. every joy every tears every frustration thru my teenage life to a young adult had actually ben written down in this very blog..
This post marks my 748th post...
sigh... my squash team is so screwed
shit management.. worst management ever...
seriously...
shit management
i seriously dont understand why uncompetent ppl take up heavy responsibility.
And all they do is def themself when something goes wrong and give excuses instead of trying to solve the problem.
sigh.. what can i do..
shit management.. worst management ever...
seriously...
shit management
i seriously dont understand why uncompetent ppl take up heavy responsibility.
And all they do is def themself when something goes wrong and give excuses instead of trying to solve the problem.
sigh.. what can i do..
Myth #10: Pluck one gray hair and two grow back.
Fact: If this were true, it could be the cure for baldness. The fact is, you are only allotted so many hair follicles and so many strands of hair. Pulling your hair out doesn't add follicles, and it won't give you more hair than you started with. But constant pulling could damage the follicles permanently and leave you with less, not more.
Fact: If this were true, it could be the cure for baldness. The fact is, you are only allotted so many hair follicles and so many strands of hair. Pulling your hair out doesn't add follicles, and it won't give you more hair than you started with. But constant pulling could damage the follicles permanently and leave you with less, not more.
Trying to do you a favour
end up with me eating ur shit..
People trying to piss me off this week
My entire team is so screwed up...
No bond no nothing..
Barely anyone comes for training..
And they expect to win..
Sigh i just wish the team would just train tgt again..
Making a little effort to come for training would be a good start..
Sigh Ngee ann squash is dying.. maybe for good.
end up with me eating ur shit..
People trying to piss me off this week
My entire team is so screwed up...
No bond no nothing..
Barely anyone comes for training..
And they expect to win..
Sigh i just wish the team would just train tgt again..
Making a little effort to come for training would be a good start..
Sigh Ngee ann squash is dying.. maybe for good.
Its been quite awhile since i touched my guitar..
Although i move on to another instrument, I still find guitar the best man.. this guy sound great even without a good effects pedal..
Lead guitar in my opinion is still one of the greatest music one can play... not very hard.. not that easy... still the practice can kill.. and improvising kills. haha just love lead guitar
Hmmm maybe next time i'll give lessons? =) common ben start practicing first.
God oh God...
Why does it feel like you have forsaken me?
Why does everything go the way i dont want it to?
Why does it feel like im just living day to day without any accomplishment?
Why does it feel like i have no reason to be in this world?
Im not so great the way i think i am.
Why does it feel like im living in a world of lies?
I have no objectives
I have no goals
I have no aims
I have no ...
Why does it feel like you have forsaken me?
Why does everything go the way i dont want it to?
Why does it feel like im just living day to day without any accomplishment?
Why does it feel like i have no reason to be in this world?
Im not so great the way i think i am.
Why does it feel like im living in a world of lies?
I have no objectives
I have no goals
I have no aims
I have no ...
memories~ haha
sometimes we all need our very own hiding places to let go
Somethings never changes no matter how long it has been..
wasnt meant for us to even be friends.. maybe a stranger would be great..
I thought ive moved on.. u certainly did
but all ive done is just shelved everything
from being vocal to pure silence
People around me are moving on
all i see is smiling faces
and when u see smiling faces it simply means
something is wrong with me
Sometimes we feed too much
and we forget that we ourselves need to be fed.
sometimes we all need our very own hiding places to let go
Somethings never changes no matter how long it has been..
wasnt meant for us to even be friends.. maybe a stranger would be great..
I thought ive moved on.. u certainly did
but all ive done is just shelved everything
from being vocal to pure silence
People around me are moving on
all i see is smiling faces
and when u see smiling faces it simply means
something is wrong with me
Sometimes we feed too much
and we forget that we ourselves need to be fed.
Sometimes life tells you that you are a sucker.
Really.. i find my mom really really naggy.. for saying things which i alr know..
But later on in life i came to realise what her true intention was.. she was actually warning me.. Giving me her many years of advice.. And everything falls in place.. just like how she said it.. like how she"predicted"
The meaning of benjamin is Favourite son.
And it really touches me.. Thinking abt how my father treats me.. always giving in to me.. always forgiving me always there for me always spoiling me.
God has his own way of bringing you back to him.. He is smart.. really a genious i would say haha. But if ur naughty he makes life tough for u sometimes.. like how he does it for me.. he makes me swim.. swim in the muddy water trying to get out.. but he is always there arms rdy to grab me.. reaching out for me.. calling out my name.. benjamin benjamin benjamin.. But i choose not to listen.. i choose to swim with my own strength and instead of reaching out to his hand to pull me out i turn around and try to squirm myself out of the mud myself.. and make life difficult for myself.. But God... Jesus will always try to make me turn around.. make me grab his hand even tho i might have squirm right to the deepest part of the mud..
Thank God.. Thank you for never giving up in me.. for being there with arms reached out to grab me.
Right now i wish i can call ppl who i used to call.. and rant.. and just vomit all my nonsense.. But oh well.. i feel bad disturbing them now.. But last time even tho its 5am ill still call and they get so surprised with they pick up the phone to hear a sobbing ben(but i guess they got used to it).. dont roll your eyes=p.. But now, sighh one got married, one got too busy and another got.. i dont know.. lost perhaps.. haha but now.. i know i dont need to disturb them! cos i got jesus and he listens much better than them all!
Really.. i find my mom really really naggy.. for saying things which i alr know..
But later on in life i came to realise what her true intention was.. she was actually warning me.. Giving me her many years of advice.. And everything falls in place.. just like how she said it.. like how she"predicted"
The meaning of benjamin is Favourite son.
And it really touches me.. Thinking abt how my father treats me.. always giving in to me.. always forgiving me always there for me always spoiling me.
God has his own way of bringing you back to him.. He is smart.. really a genious i would say haha. But if ur naughty he makes life tough for u sometimes.. like how he does it for me.. he makes me swim.. swim in the muddy water trying to get out.. but he is always there arms rdy to grab me.. reaching out for me.. calling out my name.. benjamin benjamin benjamin.. But i choose not to listen.. i choose to swim with my own strength and instead of reaching out to his hand to pull me out i turn around and try to squirm myself out of the mud myself.. and make life difficult for myself.. But God... Jesus will always try to make me turn around.. make me grab his hand even tho i might have squirm right to the deepest part of the mud..
Thank God.. Thank you for never giving up in me.. for being there with arms reached out to grab me.
Right now i wish i can call ppl who i used to call.. and rant.. and just vomit all my nonsense.. But oh well.. i feel bad disturbing them now.. But last time even tho its 5am ill still call and they get so surprised with they pick up the phone to hear a sobbing ben(but i guess they got used to it).. dont roll your eyes=p.. But now, sighh one got married, one got too busy and another got.. i dont know.. lost perhaps.. haha but now.. i know i dont need to disturb them! cos i got jesus and he listens much better than them all!
I need time off
We rode into town the other day, just me and my Daddy. He said I’d finally reached that age, and I could ride next to him on a horse that of course was not quite as wideWe heard a crowd of people shouting and so we stopped to find out why There was that man that my dad said he loved, but today there was fear in his eyes.
We rode into town the other day, just me and my Daddy. He said I’d finally reached that age, and I could ride next to him on a horse that of course was not quite as wideWe heard a crowd of people shouting and so we stopped to find out why There was that man that my dad said he loved, but today there was fear in his eyes.
I decided to go through the gruelling process of adding 190 ppl on facebook(half of them which i dont know who they are) and to click ignore on 130 events..
Going going them 1 by 1, when i see people i know i click accept! When i see people i dont know i click ignore!
So dull.. So monotonous.. PLAIN BORING!
Until i came across this person.. Which hmmm changed my whole entire mood!
This person face, a face im so familar with my smiling warming all so sweetly and warmly at me..
And i started wondering hmm is this who i think it is?
GUESS WHO??
TATA
Going going them 1 by 1, when i see people i know i click accept! When i see people i dont know i click ignore!
So dull.. So monotonous.. PLAIN BORING!
Until i came across this person.. Which hmmm changed my whole entire mood!
This person face, a face im so familar with my smiling warming all so sweetly and warmly at me..
And i started wondering hmm is this who i think it is?
GUESS WHO??
TATA
Its my church pastor!! He added me on facebook! O.O!! How cool is that?
Yes so i shifted my eyes to where the name was stated
and it states "Kenny Chee"
and i was like boy oh boy...
BOY OH BOY!
It made my day!!=D
ok now im gotta get back to accepting and ignoring people... i stopped at 177
Sometimes life plays sick jokes on you.
It only takes 1 mistake.
Just 1 mistake,
And you find yourself unable to get out of this mess.
I see a hole infront of me.
I walk into that hole.
And tmr i see that same hole infront of me again
and still i walk into that hole.
When will i have the strength and courage to walk around that hole?
Or will the hole be one day too deep for me to climb out?
Then will i realise that God is my one and only saviour..
It only takes 1 mistake.
Just 1 mistake,
And you find yourself unable to get out of this mess.
I see a hole infront of me.
I walk into that hole.
And tmr i see that same hole infront of me again
and still i walk into that hole.
When will i have the strength and courage to walk around that hole?
Or will the hole be one day too deep for me to climb out?
Then will i realise that God is my one and only saviour..
I was reading an old friends blog and i realised how much damage it can do to a person if he goes out with the wrong company. And reading other links from his blog, makes me realised how self absorbed people can be.
A clear-cut just hit me like a wind and
it voice down to
having christ inside you
and not having christ inside you.
And i realised how i used to blog like those people and it makes me feel (let me use this word)"ashamed''.
I'm a lot more fortunate and blessed than many other people. To be brought up a christian and feel the warmth of a family is really a blessing indeed. Its the best Gift anyone can give or recieve.
So lets say u have an option!
What would u choose?
A posh LV bag
or
eternal life?
Most non christian wont know what eternal life stands for. See the difference?
Being much older, matured and seeing the world a little more, its a high time i take upon more responsiblity and commitment.
A christian has God living in him. He portrays God's unconditional love.
A clear-cut just hit me like a wind and
it voice down to
having christ inside you
and not having christ inside you.
And i realised how i used to blog like those people and it makes me feel (let me use this word)"ashamed''.
I'm a lot more fortunate and blessed than many other people. To be brought up a christian and feel the warmth of a family is really a blessing indeed. Its the best Gift anyone can give or recieve.
So lets say u have an option!
What would u choose?
A posh LV bag
or
eternal life?
Most non christian wont know what eternal life stands for. See the difference?
Being much older, matured and seeing the world a little more, its a high time i take upon more responsiblity and commitment.
A christian has God living in him. He portrays God's unconditional love.
Benjamin has econs paper tmr at 9.00am
its 1.07 am now and he is tired
but he cant sleep..
He is thinking how badly he is going to do for this econs paper
and he wishes to sleep to forget abt it.
He feels like studying somemore, just a little bit more!
But he is sick of econs and wants to tear his book apart.
He wants leaptime to friday 4.00 where his later paper ends.
He wishes that he is at lunch now with fun people and crack stupid jokes at each other.
Benjamin decided to stop blogging and try his best to shut down his com and stare into space
for 10 mins b4 going to bed.
its 1.07 am now and he is tired
but he cant sleep..
He is thinking how badly he is going to do for this econs paper
and he wishes to sleep to forget abt it.
He feels like studying somemore, just a little bit more!
But he is sick of econs and wants to tear his book apart.
He wants leaptime to friday 4.00 where his later paper ends.
He wishes that he is at lunch now with fun people and crack stupid jokes at each other.
Benjamin decided to stop blogging and try his best to shut down his com and stare into space
for 10 mins b4 going to bed.
VALENTINES DAY
Just another day to spend money.
Where hundreds of people unwittingly splurge their hard earned money on jack up prices.
Smart people celebrate it earlier.. hehe
But i still dont believe in this velentine thing. I rather save my money and buy myself a nice gadget.. heh
The mugging season has finally arrived.. A little late for the lazy'ol me.
Just another day to spend money.
Where hundreds of people unwittingly splurge their hard earned money on jack up prices.
Smart people celebrate it earlier.. hehe
But i still dont believe in this velentine thing. I rather save my money and buy myself a nice gadget.. heh
The mugging season has finally arrived.. A little late for the lazy'ol me.
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