my life is like a tv drama
i see whats happening
exactly liked what i watch on the tv
maybe its cos of something else
that makes me wanna fade away
it reminds me of the time i tell you things
when im hurt, when im scarred when im crying inside
when u were down and crying, i lend u my ear
now where are u? i quietly seek
im tired and if it was last week, ill say tt i want to wake up at 12
ask me now, i say i wouldnt want to wake up
I wish all these was a dream, a long long bad dream
And when i wake up, if i do, i might just change my mind
OH what am i doing dreaming again
Its a feeling that is here to stay.
Well maybe i was numb
when i was young innocent and ignorant.






























I seem to have no other aim.
Its not that i have no aim, i do.. in fact i have loads of them.
But i just feel funny.. funny in a sense that i feel like im drifting here and there, with no real ground. Its a hard feeling to explain - the easiest explanation is that its past 12 which why im cranky. I never felt this way in a long time. I guess its just me thinking abt lots of unhappy things all at a time..
I want to go on a holiday! I really think i need a holiday. I feel like squashing alone.
I wish things were back to normal..
I wish i was 14.
Sometimes I wonder.. howcome no one knows tt im upset? Why isnt anyone there when im knocking. But i dont just tell anyone things.. One thing abt growing up is that u lose friends.. But u also gain friends..
But what if u dont?
I feel like eating 3 cheese burger.
I have lots of studying to catch up with.
I have training which i cant afford to miss.
I have private training too.
I have sax class.
I have driving classes.
I have Projects piling up my neck.
I have poor time management.
And I lack self discipline.
And worst of them all, im unfit and gaining weight.. (No im positive its not muscle mass)
There's so many things i wanna do. So little time... only so little time.
But i have a msia trip to make right after my CT and a immersion programme to Wu Han next march for 6 weeks.
Right now, studying is the last thing in my head. Im sick of going to school everyday, sitting in boring econs lessons - learning abt how a centrifugal pump work - and how to divide a business into fixed;current asset, expenses, revenue(which reminds me of econs) and what colour would be right for a particular type of house.
And really, i just loooong to wake up past 12.
All in all, tt sums up my current life.. well ok, maybe squeezing in some time to play computer games. I have econs lecture first thing at 9 tmr.. How wonderful!
Alright! im off.. i really need a good night rest.
I should take a trip to batam or somewhere... i sleep best in a hotel.. no idea why.. cant seem to sleep well back at home.. I slept SO well in HK and KL.. those 10 days was when i had my sweetest moment of sleep.
Good bye peeps.. Hope u sleep well=) its a pleasure.. some ppl would say"wait till ur in army" but oh heck army for now.
and im off with a rocky start
But good news, I WON! phew
But frankly, i did quite badly. Played way below my standard. NYP was the weakest, and i was struggling.. Not a good sign... Was showing how tired i was in the court.. not good.
But our biggest treat is SP.. but first, we got to get Tp out of the way.
Why does SP Train so hard? Cos they want to beat us.
Why do we train so hard? Cos we want to keep the Champion title above our heads.
But This wed! First thing first, win Tp. Not going to be easy, im having doubts on my fitness.
But still thanks God=) for helping me out there
I am EXTREMELY excited.
And my favourite-tes senior is playing for SP!!
I really cant believe the fact that we are against each other.. When we were once playing in the same team.
I hope we come in first place.
Altho i dare say we got a dominating team this year, ......
Are u being mentally dense?!?
Huh?
hahaha tot that was rather good.
Somethings never change..
No.. its you.. you'll just never change..
But im far from having a say.
Far from being in ur life
And it pierced straight into my heart.
And it made me start to quiver.
Quiver with fear, quiver with guilt
And i know that there are things tt im doing
Which are wrong, which is against God's commandment.
So im going to try my best to stop doing things my way,
But God's way..
Believing in him and trusting in him to lead this life..
I need prayer.. Prayer to press on, prayer to move on, prayer to persevere.
I need direction in my life=)
Lessons has already been going full force and ive already handed up my first tutorial the day itself.
Yes. Im already feeling the pressure. The want to excel and the inevitable need to excel. Maybe that's a good start to this sem. But also, the pressure of wanting to do better than those arrogant grp, wanting to prove to them who is the best.
Topped with a hectic schedule, 8-5 school hours, im always feel tired and on the verge of dozing off during the earlier lectures despite sleeping earlier. Its really taxing.
I just seen a nasty side of a human. Selfishness and hypocrisy. This group of people just snatched a friend of mine cos she's an A's student. Oh please they wouldnt even think of inviting her into their 'gang' if it wasn't for the other half who were separated into another elective. Oh but i have to be realistic. This is the world. So i'll deal with it and make good use of my time. I dread working with this kind of people in future, but reality... Im just letting this whole event spoil my day.
Its only 3 more weeks to competition week. Ive got to get to training. And ill be home late again today.
1 thing i really need now, its strength.
God help me please.
I was on youtube searching for kenny G solo's and came across this song, "What a wonderful world".. and for all those SuaGus out there=), This song is sang by louis armstrong. And so i happened to scroll down and chance upon this user comment and thought it was rather amusing. But come to think about it, doesnt it seem a little true?
By jca23:
yeah, kenny g is the reason why this song is so good. If some guy sounding like louis armstrong go audition american idol, simon would be like "what in the bloody mess was that?"
Then u realise ur back to square one.
And reality stikes again - each time harder
It crushes any ordinary people with ease.
And It may last a life time.
When u once think everything was going smoothly,
everything was great
everything was good
everything was awesome.
But how long can u run from reality?
maybe a lifetime =p
means u run really fast
Squash camp coming up on the 11-12-13
followed by results on the 15!
And To hongkong on the 1st oct.
Thank God for everything now=)
tho everything isnt really great,
Just thank God tt it isnt worst.
"Why u like that, easy thing also dont know"
"So and So son can do why u cannot"
"Why other children can you cannot?"
"He can get 5 A's why you cannot"
Sounds familar?
How about for a change? Compare Mom.
How would it be?
The child grows with a scar, a well hidden scar that reveals itself when he grows.
And when he grows, its a scar that never heals, never stops hurting
I finally understand some-things.
after a really long time that is
and boy! it feels great.
from wisma to taka to wisma to isetan to wheelock to isetan to tangs to cathay to ps
and the finale! Fish and co! =( should have gone to nydc instead
I think im putting on a lil too much weight for my own good!
better start training!
I heard SP is strong!
NP better buck up too!
We must win the champion title this year!
yay!
cycling has given me a sore thigh
the sporty ones (cheong rui, jacqueline, lynette, james and yours truly)
I had a match with samuel kang! hee he gave chance=)
Its going to be a fun day later on! cant wait!! movieee food and shopping and of cos more food
And best of all, its with you=)
and successfully gained abt 1.5kg!
haha but good food is hard to resist=)
who cares, just eat!
Exams are coming! starting on the 18, ending on the 21.
Keep me in ur prayers!
Match tmr!
And right now, i got a really bad cold.
Hopefully my opponent doesnt push me to my maximum!
And i jolly well know the reason why.
And knowing the reason why is the problem that is affecting me..
simply said, voice of truth tells you to follow the word of God
then singing that song,
until it comes to the part which says
'i will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth',
despite myself, ill hesitate
i really feel like laughing... i just walked into a hole - willingly walk into a pit.
Maybe i should sit back and relax and let
God lead the way.. But the sacrifice... the sacrifice..
The voice of truth, says so not be afraid
And the voice of truth, says this is for my glory
Someone said something which hit me like a storm...
They are 2 different persons..
2 totally different persons with
2 totally different lives.
I dont want to know what my next step will be
Actually, i know, but i dont want to make this tough decision...
I feel like everything is so out of control.
BUT IT ISNT!
I have the ability to control it...
To choose my path,
Or obey His word.
This song has been in my head the entire day...
I am weak but Thou art strong;
Jesus, keep me from all wrong;
I'll be satisfied as long as I walk,
let me walk close to Thee.
Just a closer walk with Thee,
grant it, Jesus, is my plea;
Daily walking close to Thee,
let it be, dear Lord, let it be.
where everything comes to a stop.
I suddenly dont know what i want in life.
each day i wake up, i do the things i need to do.
What do i want in life?
i want an answer...
i really want my answer.
it really seem dumb, but all i want is to be happy.
why are u affecting me so much?
How are you?
How have you been?
Are you alright?
i miss you:'(
I just dont seem to be able to find the right answer.
And frustration kicks in.
But do i need a answer?
I dont think ill ever get my answer=)
But its okay! Cos there's much more to life.
Training tmr! Training isnt what i really signed up for. I dread going for training. Cos i dont feel happy. But i alr got poor attendance. i guess i have to learn how to put up with it.
is that i am unable to compose a song
I want to compose a chinese songs...
but my chinese is so poor
i cant put to words
the things i wanna say
and the things i feel
but its okay =D
inspiration is here!
picking up my guitar after so long
rawrrr brings back fond memories of my sheer hardwork
and i think im spending more time reminiscing than playing..
=) im happy... im really happy..
Im happy with life..
Im happy with my life..
I can finally answer
this prevailing question after 2 years..
Are you happy?
and it has left me in deep thoughts
hmmm things arent going as smoothly right now
i wish i could run away
but will anyone remember me when im gone?
or it doesnt matter at all..
cause im still holding on
holding on a superficial glimmer of hope
holding on to a lie.
laugh away
you people just laugh away
Its going to be a long day tomorrow.
should i be looking forward to training??
maybe looking forward to dinner=)
or maybe there wont even be dinner.
Almost every one who left for america is back in sg!
Its nice seeing them once again. And for the first time, all back at the same time.
Few missing faces: Jesse, Joel, Garreth.
Looking back, Being sick was a blessing in disguise.
Cos i lost 10kg.. how cool is that?
And a burden is lifted off me.
I feel free.
however, Feelings come tingling once in a while.
But, each time, it fades... and fades... and fades.
It all fades away.
Why do we write poems?
Because poems can express complicated feelings that cannot be defined in plain ordinary words.
We are able to express our inmost feelings... best as we can..
i should stop thinking.
Like everyone ganged up to pelt you.
To stab you. To pull ou down.
To the brink of "idontcareanymore"
I dont know how much more i can take
when i finally give in to my temper.
Its so hard.. forcing a smile..
but i have to...
But it feels like im not needed in this society.
When everyone turn their backs to you.
Its a painful feeling.
Esp when ive been true to them.
Im lonely
And im sad
Well as most ppl know, i expect a lot from my plw.
And yes, i did pretty alright, but not exceptionally well.
Getting first in class isnt really something to be proud of.
I really thought i could do better.
But i guess i wont complain much.
There's nothing i can do about it.
Why do u keep showing me attitude?
When im being nice and all.
Ive been honest, and showed u respect all these time
But all u showed is hypocrisy and disrespect.
GERMANY lost!! NOOOO
But give it up for Fernando Torres. He is a brilliant player. Being a MAN U fan, i have to admit that it was fantastic goal.
Stayed up to the kick off but decided to sleep cos i couldnt take it anymore.
Regretted.. should have watched...
Lecture starting!
Ciao
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I havnt wasted much time on nothing.
And the irony of it all is that i go back to school every day except friday. Just like how my term timetable it.
But it means im kept busy=)
Unlike how i spent my last holidays.. wasting time.
There are many different kinds of intimate relationships in life. We can be intimate with a friend, with a family member and with a coworker.
What each of these relationships has in common is trust. We are intimate with those people who have proven their faithfulness to us, people who have shown over time that they will be careful to guard what we have given of ourselves. We're intimate with people who are committed to us.
You might say that intimacy between a man and a woman is the icing on the cake of a relationship headed toward marriage. And if we look at intimacy that way, then is becomes obvious that most of our dating relationships are all icing. they usually lack a purpose or a clear destination. In most cases, especially when we're younger, dating is short term, serving the needs of the moment. We date because we want to enjoy the emotional and physical benefits of intimacy without the responsibility of real commitment.
You've gotten me so confuse.
whats with this u can contact me but i cannot contact u thing?
heh Dying of boredom now... everyone is busy
Your gone with the wind...
Its tiring to run after the wind.
Its impossible to catch the wind.
So im enjoying the wind while its blowing.
And letting it go when its going.
There's always tons of them around you...
And then, im no where near.
But it doesnt bother me a bit anymore.
Everything is one sided. Its always about you.
Im sick and tired of your self-centeredness.
I dont owe u anything.
I dont have to do a single thing for you.
Yea i know it doesnt bother u at all cos you always will have other people around you.
So much so that 1 person gone doesnt make any difference.
Its my mistake for putting in so much effort. Your just a sham.
What hurts most was being so close.
just after i passed sunset way,
i just switched off.
i started thinking
"hmmm am i cycling?"
"hmm i think im cycling"
"hmmm yupp i see front wheels, im certainly cycling"
My legs were still pedalling
While i was steering towards the right( i was keeping extremely left)
Then suddenly this bus came rambling pass me... maybe like 20 cm away?
I manage to snap out in time and regain control.
From now on, b4 every bike journey, i must remember to pray for journey mercy.
But i think my cardio-vascular system is much better=p
CANT WAIT FOR TRIALS
BRING IT ON!
Auditioning itself dont really sound right to me.
Hmmm and ppl not making it and stuff..
But i guess ill try
and really pray hard about it.
Will be a good exposure
and of cos fun!
Playing christian music in front of a crowd, what can be better=p
But i dont know what to play...
But focus will be guitar...
but still... what to play!?!?
headache already!
my heart was skipping a beat when library was going to close
my head was aching
as i tried to think of words
thinking of what to write
i was racing against time
and i was losing
losing terribly.
Ive never been so stressed
getting more suffocated in this area of subject
your not helping.. your adding to my stress.
and you... what do i gotta say till u understand?
maybe u'll never understand cos u just never tried.
why do i still bother? HAH
im really sad:'(
even when im writing this
my heart feels like its bleeding
its a nasty feeling
a 1000 stabs cant beat what im feeling now.
i can hardly breathe
STOP LYING
i said its enough
such a fool to believe whatever u said
always believing, always trusting
the promises u made
saying things that lifted my spirits
CRUSH THEM
yes crush them
crush them all
can i call you?
call u for the very last time?
and let me drown in my own tears
for the very last time.
then ill walk alway
and never return
i promise
A Godly person,
speak words of truth
I need to cycle.
cycling helps me forget things
cycling makes me happy
I love you sally
yes i do
altho i dont show it
ive always been thinking about you
sorry for neglecting you.
ahahaha EUNICE CONFESSION!
ahahaha only stuff like that happens with eunice!
=) Agape says:
1 word
=) Agape says:
PIG
=) Agape says:
and snore right!
robert pattinson! says:
lol i'm not a pig kay
robert pattinson! says:
and no i don't snore
=) Agape says:
how u know when u sleep like a pig
=) Agape says:
=)
robert pattinson! says:
i know kay
=) Agape says:
wah laooo u dam dao in the canteen okay!!! mad me so sadd!! but my bubble tea cheered me up=) haha u just admitted tt u sleep like a pig
And feel the warmth of ur embrace
Was cycling behind RAIL MALL.
Was this dark alley..(at night.. well obviously *rolls eyes*)
Was a jam!
Car infront of me, car behind me! How now brown cow?
Was trying to squeeze thru!
Then suddenly...
*WOLF WOLF*
scared the day lights out of me..(well was night right?)
I was ready to see stray dogs rushing towards me.
HAHA
cycling is fun=)
and dangerous...
dont cycle on the road if u wanna live longer.
p.s anyone is allowed to slap me if i dont study this week.
The adrenalin rush; its fantastic.
Pain killers.
Never felt better.
For now, let me tend to my thighs.
Your actions. Your words.
They're confusing me.
But for now, i just need
MYspace.
Ourspace.
Thanks nic. for the wonderful book. Thanks for asking me weird questions whenever life is at its lowest moment.
btw all donations goes to my iPHONE :)
Olivia! ill go to your next concert. i promise! But thats if u ask me again :p
Im starting to lose respect.
Starting to despise.
Everything was just superficial.
Ive just been a fool.
You wouldnt understand.
You'll never understand.
Living in a world of lies. A world of shams.
I'll grow to be a better person.
Im tired.
I need sleep.
And hopefully,
you'll stop being on my mind.
But i know thats what u want.
I'll help you.
It'll be the last thing i do for you.
abstract poem.
I miss SA
The amount of dead people are constantly rising
"So to save her life, they'll cut off her legs. She's calm and stable," he said.
Wailing relatives
The neighborhood was nearly deserted, but for a crowd of 100 or more relatives gathered at the school's entrances, many of them crying and wailing, and all of them exhausted.
I cant imagine losing my love ones
Not right now... not in the future.
Certainly not buried in a building.
i can imagine myself frantically digging rubble off... half sobbing, praying, while lifting up large slabs of stone to get them out of it. Seems so dramatic.
Parting is painful enough. Death is..... its just the maximum. Too much for me to take.
Thanking God everyday for his unconditional love.
Love keeps no record of wrong.
I have to focus! 100% concentration!
I dont know how long more i can last.. i feel like giving up.
The thoughts of you is killing me.. Making me moody.
its past 12... maybe thats why
p.s ok im watching his touching scene on tv... im tearing T.T sob sob
shit... WTH ANTI CLIMAX... my tears dried up instantly.
A sorry too late.
You've probably forgotten everything.
Forgotten about lil me.
Love is patient, Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres.
I have to remind myself. I fall short on too many. Lord teach me how to love like you do. I want to love like how u love me.
All that remains are memories and your comforting words. Your encouragment.
Times may have changed.
But forever and ever,
Our memories will still remain.
im sorry, but i guess its too late.
sometimes in life, we focus so much on ourself,
and miss out on all the good things we pass.
And all i did was just being so darn demanding
when u were already trying your best.
hey
=) Law, the one true love says:
squash tmr?
・c AdriaNღ...TRAIN!! says:
erm na
=) Law, the one true love says:
tmr comfirm i dont ps u
=) Law, the one true love says:
plssssssss
・c AdriaNღ...TRAIN!! says:
leg still injured
・c AdriaNღ...TRAIN!! says:
ah tan playin i gues
=) Law, the one true love says:
he playing ar?
=) Law, the one true love says:
what time
・c AdriaNღ...TRAIN!! says:
not sure
・c AdriaNღ...TRAIN!! says:
u ask him
<<
=) Law, the one true love says:
eh ah tan
=) Law, the one true love says:
u squashing tmr?
wannabe20033@hotmail.com says:
yup.. u who sia?
・c AdriaNღ...TRAIN!! says:
ben
=) Law, the one true love says:
ben
<<
ben which ben sia
=) Law, the one true love says:
-.-
=) Law, the one true love says:
ben from squash
<<
ooh
<<
kk
=) Law, the one true love says:
sigh=.=''
<<
ya going
<<
lol
=) Law, the one true love says:
what time u squashing
=) Law, the one true love says:
maybe ill join u or smt
<<
the one with gold hair?
=) Law, the one true love says:
sigh is there a lot of ben in squash
=) Law, the one true love says:
yes
=) Law, the one true love says:
the unfit one
・c AdriaNღ...TRAIN!! says:
lol
<<
haha.. must double confirm ma
<<
lol
=) Law, the one true love says:
the one who likes to tackle u laaaaaa
=) Law, the one true love says:
haiyooo
<<
scare later tok to a girl how sia.. attitude must be different ma
<<
lol
・c AdriaNღ...TRAIN!! says:
lol
・c AdriaNღ...TRAIN!! says:
hahaha
=) Law, the one true love says:
..........................................................
=) Law, the one true love says:
u know im going to save this convo and post it on my blog
Pls tell me i pray.
No more jokes, no more reading between the lines.
Just the truth.. Nothing more nothing less.
Just the truth
OH LORD MY GOD i beg you, nothing can happen to her.. nothing at all.... Lord give me strength for i am feeling so weak now. Nothing can happen to her lord.. If it must be someone, let it happen to me. LET IT BE ME.
Psalm 13
How long O Lord? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?
Look on me and answer, O Lord my God.
Give light to my eyes, or i will sleep in death;
my enemy will say, "I have overcome him," and my foes will rejoice when I fall.
But i trust in your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in your salvation.
I will sing to the Lord, for he has been good to me.
But i have to start putting others before me.
I feel like swearing right now.. not good.. and i have no idea why.
I just wasted a night away. All i did was star at my com.. chatted on the phone for a while and thats all. There goes 1 night which could have been spent better on my law notes.. ive been neglecting my law=( sorry.
I dont feel like going to school tmr. Maybe just to see my classmates. I have cool friends. Thank God. James, Xavier, Izzam, Benjamin... i pity ppl who sits infront of us during lectures. One day, we're goner get burned in this games. haha
Im thinking about my life now. Hmmmm, i have to focus more on my work! which means play less and earlier sleep! Less doodling and more mugging. I have to start memorizing formulas for this stupid module. HATE IT. GOSH arghhhhh.. can u feel my frustration?
11.30 seems too early to sleep...
i think i was deluding myself again. but im dropping this matter into the pacific ocean already.LET IT HIT ROCK BTM! I really have to stop believing in this lip service thing... im getting conned in broad daylight! and the irony of it all is that i know im getting scammed. And part of me wants to get scammed.
young adult has this walking thing on thurs!!!
never expect anything from the utmost impossible. Hope is all but left. And I, Im giving up on this hope tt sets upon a cloud.
I lost you as a good friend to hear my rantings.
And i regretting it most severely.
And it stuck me once again that life is fragile. You know, anyone can just disappear out of ur life like almost in a snap of ur finger. You can be talking to them right now and suddenly, he or she just dies from a heart attack or maybe come freak accident. The footage made me treasure the people around me even more my friends, close friends, love ones.
Somethings just cant be done or said again or could have said.... only to live with regret tt will never subside. That feeling is just too close for comfort.
1.At what age do you wish to marry?
25
2.Ifyour best friend and lover both have some weird illness they are about to die from and there's only one bottle of medicine to cure them but not enough for both,who will you choose to give it to?
My love one and i wont tell my best friend abt it.
3.Are you happy with your current life?
I guess so. But it could be better=)
4.What super power would I like to have?
I want to fly.
5.If you have one dream to come through,what would it be?
I want to become a lawyer
6.If you have another dream to come through?What would it be?
If i tell you, u must die.
7.What are you afraid to lose now?
My bicycle.
8.How do you find yourself?A friendly person?
Ks. KiaSU and KiaSI
9.If you meet someone you love,would you confess to him?
Depends. What go up to her and say i love you? RIGHTTTTT
10.How do you spend your 200 bucks if you have to?
Food. FOOD.
11.What requirements must your other half have?
Loving, caring, loves JESUS more than she loves me. The list goes on x)
12.What kind of person do you hate most?
I dont knowww its a strong word... but i guess uncle annoying fits the title perfectly. PERFECT 1337 GG already.
13.Do you wish to cherish every single second of your friendship?
LIKE DUHHHH. wth?
14.Would you rather be alone than in a group?
Depends. On company
15.What do you think is the most important things in life?
God.
16.If you ever get a billion dollars,where do you want it to come from?
The ground.
17.At this point in time,would you rather stay in your comfort zone or try something new?
Try something new.
18.What kind of friend do you want to be in your friend's eyes?
A good friend who isnt just a joker.
19.If you have a chance,what part of the character would you like to change?
My indecisiveness and short temper-ed-ness.
20.If you had freedom, what do you want to do?
BITE YOU.
Instructions: remove one question above, make it a total of 20 questions. then tag eight people in a list, list them out at the end of this post. notify them in their tagboard that he/she is the lucky one choosen by you. whoever does the tag will have blessing from all.
Ill spare u the pain of doing these questions. =)
Call me a fool, Call me a loser.
I guess your right.
Somethings just wont change. Just cant change.
Sometimes things seems so real. Too real.
When they arent.
Its never easy to get out of it.
Never will.
I just realised that everything said was just a scam. Nothing was meant right from the start.
I offically give up.
Ill be a lawyer one day. Watch me.
Ill never put in effort in anything again. Other than my studies.
The feeling of missing something.
But somehow or rather i cant place this feeling.
Feeling is defined as a particular sensation of this kind: a feeling of warmth; a feeling of pain.
Feelings - the function or the power of perceiving by touch.
There's a reason as to why each and everyone of us has feelings.
But, what if 1 day i lose all my feelings.
Where does tt put you?
Where does tt put me.
Was only partially submerged, but i guess that was more than enough to get my phone all screwed up.
I just lost half my contact list.
School in 7 hours time and really, i shouldnt be online any much longer!
The past weeks, ive been complaining at how time flies...
And right now, i want time to just whizzz pass me....
The irony of it all is killing me..
Even life seems like an irony..
But its okay... ill persevere!
But No matter what, God comes first. No matter what.. thats my priority.
Whats your priority? Are u leaving God out?
Im going off in 13 hours time, and yes i know YOU YES YOU miss me to bits and peices but dont worry=) i miss you toooooooo
I MISS YOU ALLLLLLLLLLLL OH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO how now brown cow?
but im going to bangkok to shop first! how cool is that man.. i hope i get to see some transvestite.
Oh yes ill be looking out! nothing can escape THE 'eye'.
take care my fellow folks
i hope to come back
and i certainly hope to see you when im back
BEN POO WHINES.
BEN POO IS GOING TO MYANMAR & HE ISNT COMING BACK.
BEN POO DOESNT KEEP PROMISES.
BEN POO FORGETS HE MADE PROMISES.
BEN POO ISNT HOT.
BEN POO LIKES ORLENG JOO.
BEN POO WOULD LIKE TO BRING A SWORD.
BEN POO THINKS TIMBER IS LOVE.
BEN POO IS GOING TO TAKE HIS POLE.
BEN POO ISNT GOING TO GIVE UP ON THE POLE NOW.
GOD SENT THE POLE FOR BEN POO'S LEG, IS A GOOD THANG.
BEN POO ADMIRES HIDEOUSLY UGLY QUASIMODO'S CHEERLEADING.
IF YOU WANT BEN POO TO SLIDE DOWN THE POLE, BITE HIM.
BEN POO IS UHM, SLEEPING.
I have no clue as to it being a good thing or a bad thing.
But right now, i wanna squash=) too bad danvin is in aussie=(
or i'd make him squash with me.
few things i wanna give away/tell/do if im gone one day,
1) my desktop to my bro
2) my crumpler bag to Benjamin lee
3) racket bag to Yonghui
4) prince O3, wilson k factor and ncode to Yonghui
5) ipod vid to Rachel Lim (sry no warranty)
6) laptop to my mom
7) fish tank to my dad
8) my mini guitar to claudia
9) my wallet to Barny
10) Warcraft cd to Renee
11) my ngee Ann Slot to jacob
12) My entire humble collection of books to Genny(deduct a lil from my bank for gossip girl)
13) my watch to Justin lim
14) my bean bag to my bro
15) my clothes to yong en
16) my trusty fan to my grandparents
17) my handphone to my dad
18) my shoes to whoever want them.. just treasure them like i do
19) my deuter bag to david lim
20) my pencil box to my bro
21) a addias box where i keep stuff inside to valerie lim
22) my maple acc to jasper koh
23) my chair to my dad
24) give a big hug to my mom. and tell her i love her
25) salvation for my granddad and ma
26) tell My grandma i dont play computer games anymore(im sure she will be proud of me)
27) my collection of games to whoever
28) my prized collection of poker cards with red prix to joseph chua(my bridge coach)
29) Tell barny he rock my socks
30) Tell benjamin lee to stop fooling ard and grow up.
31) tell darren lee tt he has been a wonderful friend, a treasured friend
32) tell adrian Tan tt he is 1 cool guy
33) Tell Coach(francis) tt i will never forget him
34) tell mr auyong, my fernandis, JK, BC tt they impacted my life
35) Give my limited edition evangelion comic to sam goh
36) tell Justin yuen to wake up his idea and start making his first million by 25
37) Tell jasmine tt her Cell was "the" and yes "the" best
38) My sport shorts all to jeremy ling
39) My room to whoever needs shelter
40) my hat and sweater to genny(no idea why)
41) my collection of chinese Drama's to my gramps
42) Tell olivia tt she is hell of a friend who always make my day(give me a sunflower when u visit my grave=)
43) tell Nic wong tt he is a cool friend=) always and thanks for imparting guitar skills to me
44) my headset to manfred yeo
45) Tell ben lee tt we'll be brothers thru thick and thin
46) tell julia huang to retire
47) all my membership cards to shaun chan my cousin
48) Apologise to my dog sally for neglecting her
49) I want to give you all the best thing tt anyone can give, and thats Jesus.
50) want her to tell me why i was irritating
51) tell her tt she's the best thing tt happened.
52) almost forgot grace! Grace Grace Grace u deserve everything a younger bro should do for her elder sis=) leave a sit for me in ur wedding=) ill be there in spirit, mark my words!
53) joseph lee =(( i long to hear ur jokes once more, but ur in a far away land called cheena
54) I wish to become a C grader and stop there
55) compress my favourite pillow and put it into a vaccum bag. it contains my sweat, my tears, my joy, my drool, my memories, my love, my comfort
56) a nice long hug from her.
57) WANTS Genny, rachel lim, Sam eng, Anna chan, Olivia, my bro, Raina lim, charlene lim, Mabel, sammy, joseph to smile more... cos you guys got a great smile.
58) my steam Acc to ben lee
59) WANTS Everybody who cut their wrist never to do it again. and those who talks to me for comfort, If u cant find any replacement better than me, which i think u wouldnt be able to=), turn to God.
60)Apologise to my parents for breaking my promise of not bringing them to italy
My God is so big,
so strong and so mighty
there's nothing my God cannot do.
ps. those who read my blog, help me deliver the msg if tt really happens if not, read it for ur own viewing pleasure.
Disclaimer, If u want something thing tt has been given to someone else, Think twice if u really need it then if u would treasure it, finally, if u thought of me as a good friend, sry... my will shall not be trifled! too bad!
=(( i dont wish to anymore... howhowhow
Will u miss me? If your thinking whether tt person is you, AR BO DEN you lah! then who.
=(( ill miss you.
keeping things status quo.
ok i know this is depressing...
and shhhhhhit its been 1 depressing hour and i still cant sleep
OKAY WE NEED A LIL MORE ENERGY HERE. LIKE HIGH SCHOOL CHEERLEADERS!
give me a P, give me an O, give me a L, give me an E
its a pole its a pole its a pole!
okayyy, im going to take my pole!
dong dong dong dong heres a lil thing that i said you didnt knowww
ive got one hump & my name is quasimodo!
q-u-a-s-i modo
whaaaaat, ive got this hump, whaaaat, ive got this hump
CUTTT.
okay, HERES YOUR POLE, FOR YOU TO SLIDE DOWN!
YOU & YOUR MOMMA!
GET OVER IT. RAWRRR, BITE ME.
ok im tired.
whst your blog url again
you'll never walk alone my team says:
the link
you'll never walk alone my team says:
dont type our short dform!
you'll never walk alone my team says:
or else i have to type out
you'll never walk alone my team says:
haha
=) i'd say Jesus alright says:
www.benschronicles.blogspot.com
you'll never walk alone my team says:
so col the leave word really works
AHAHAHAHAHAHA
i really didnt want to blog again, but yet another fallen=)
Words, feelings
they all feel so warm deep down inside
U gave me hope, renewed hope
Hope tt u dashed, hope tt u drowned.
Im suffocating, yes i really am.
Struggling to keep myself on the surface
But things just seems to be changing..
Or is it just me? Or things are changing.
Right from the start, i knew i fell in jus a lil too deep.
Jesus i love you, and im not ashamed of it.
infinite XOXO for you
and infinite praises to you.
Thanks lord.
I feel for u, yes i really do. But dont treat me like that, i do not deserve it. I really think i dont. I jus want to feel... feel just a little bit appreciated.
'I love you'
Can you repeat that,
a thought just caught me,
not much of a thought,
just enough to lose you words
in a confusion of background music
filtered through a shopping arcade.
'I love you'
Pardon, God those people!
1lb sugar butter
greens bread
potatos pepper
cooking oil chicken
You were saying
'Nothing, it's not important'
Suit yourself.
reminding myself of the past which i loved so much
The days which i really really miss,
i would give anything to get them back
but all i can do is hold these little things so close to my heart
sweet sweet beginnings and painful endings.
why is my life so cliche?
someone, pls pull me thru this phrase.
B4 u watch this, turn off all the noise ard u, or possible things tt might make noise. etc phone, msn, ur pet dog.
And let this song take over and jus let urself be absorbed into it. If possible, try to take note of the melody which actually sounds like an-gel-li-na. beautiful song. if im not wrong, its either his wife or daughter called angelina.
If u think its good on youtube, i heard him live and trust me, its beautiful. I can listen to it all day.. all day... alll dayyyyyyy. ok stop read and listen!
hahaha
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if u actually read the nonsense above, i know i know....
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My turtle is over the sea,
My turtle is over the ocean,
Oh bring back my turtle to me!
Bring back!
Oh bring back!
Oh bring back my turtle
To me To me!
Bring back!
Oh bring back!
Oh bring back my turtle
To me!
I really regret dropping piano. It breaks my heart cos i made tt decision myself.
Today, I went to a few places..
Dinner was great, but i guess i over ordered.
Somethings once done, cannot be undone.
You made me a laughing stock,
You turned me into a mockery.
You taken everything from me
But i dont care..
I jus want...
I dont know what i want.
9 13-9-19-19 31-14-29
that didnt make sense=)
Wanna eat, eat yummy food Wanna play, play what u like, Wanna nuah abit, nuah till melt into bed Wanna work, work till earn a lot So u can ...
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Wanna eat, eat yummy food Wanna play, play what u like, Wanna nuah abit, nuah till melt into bed Wanna work, work till earn a lot So u can ...
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I dont know what im getting myself into, but i really dont mind giving it 1 more try. I hope i dont live to regret it


