i dont know why
my life is like a tv drama

i see whats happening
exactly liked what i watch on the tv

maybe its cos of something else
that makes me wanna fade away

it reminds me of the time i tell you things
when im hurt, when im scarred when im crying inside

when u were down and crying, i lend u my ear
now where are u? i quietly seek

im tired and if it was last week, ill say tt i want to wake up at 12
ask me now, i say i wouldnt want to wake up

I wish all these was a dream, a long long bad dream
And when i wake up, if i do, i might just change my mind

OH what am i doing dreaming again
Its a feeling that is here to stay.

Well maybe i was numb
when i was young innocent and ignorant.
I remember how i used to pray to dream dreams..
Now I dont wanna dream dreams anymore..(literally)
I just want to have a good night rest..

Let me sleep in peace please..

A chance is hard to come by.
A chance is easy to pass by.
A second chance rarely comes by.
Only when u missed a chance, 
Will you then know it was a chance.
I FEEL LIKE BLOGGING.

FIRST UP, KL SQUASH TOUR PICS.( pictures are other way up.. for best viewing pleasure, please look from bottom up)
Celebrating after the finals(we won 1st for both guys and ladies team)
Me with the man of the match
Me with the man of the match.(look how drenched he is tsk tsk all tt just for a gold?)
Guys team!
Me serving i think
Dickson, our loyal fan
Going back after hitting the ball

Getting rdy to hit the ball
Candid=)
Candid
Guys team
Retrieving a backhand
huh? 
warming up
Our captain playing psp duing the coach ride
on the coach to SP
Up next, kl trip(remember, view it btm upwards!)
Sleeping on the coach home!

Playing indian poker(see my card? they tricked me into changing it)
On the twin tower bridge

Me!
US!
US!
One fierce gang(gang ldr in the middle)
Middle guy looks scary
My shot at long bowl
oh man i missed!
First day against this guy. I won him=) 
Andy and Mark
Second day(he is from quantan. state champion)
I lost terribly.

This is a video of me against this quantan guy. Its me winning a point. I think its the only point i won. And Matthew manage to take it down! sweet!


The quote of the month is by Jay Leno: 'With hurricanes, tornadoes, fires out of control, mud slides, flooding, severe thunderstorms tearing up the country from one end to another, and with the threat of bird flu and terrorist attacks, 'Are we sure this is a good time to take God out of the Pledge of Allegiance?'
I had been having problem sleeping. I cant sleep!!

Maybe its because of my common test. 

It sucks..

My squash standard dropped again.

oh man=(
I remember someone once told me that that person was going to teach me how to express my feelings to that person.. right now, i think its funny and cute.. when i was young ignorant and innocent.

I miss that feeling.. that sweet sweet sensation.. haha

i was once young innocent and ignorant.
Sometimes, its good to take a look at your life.
I seem to have no other aim.
Its not that i have no aim, i do.. in fact i have loads of them.

But i just feel funny.. funny in a sense that i feel like im drifting here and there, with no real ground. Its a hard feeling to explain - the easiest explanation is that its past 12 which why im cranky. I never felt this way in a long time. I guess its just me thinking abt lots of unhappy things all at a time..

I want to go on a holiday! I really think i need a holiday. I feel like squashing alone.
I wish things were back to normal..

I wish i was 14.

Sometimes I wonder.. howcome no one knows tt im upset? Why isnt anyone there when im knocking. But i dont just tell anyone things.. One thing abt growing up is that u lose friends.. But u also gain friends..

But what if u dont?

I feel like eating 3 cheese burger.
IM TIRED.
I have lots of studying to catch up with.
I have training which i cant afford to miss.
I have private training too.
I have sax class.
I have driving classes.
I have Projects piling up my neck.

I have poor time management.
And I lack self discipline.
And worst of them all, im unfit and gaining weight.. (No im positive its not muscle mass)

There's so many things i wanna do. So little time... only so little time.
But i have a msia trip to make right after my CT and a immersion programme to Wu Han next march for 6 weeks.

Right now, studying is the last thing in my head. Im sick of going to school everyday, sitting in boring econs lessons - learning abt how a centrifugal pump work - and how to divide a business into fixed;current asset, expenses, revenue(which reminds me of econs) and what colour would be right for a particular type of house.

And really, i just loooong to wake up past 12.
All in all, tt sums up my current life.. well ok, maybe squeezing in some time to play computer games. I have econs lecture first thing at 9 tmr.. How wonderful!

Alright! im off.. i really need a good night rest.
I should take a trip to batam or somewhere... i sleep best in a hotel.. no idea why.. cant seem to sleep well back at home.. I slept SO well in HK and KL.. those 10 days was when i had my sweetest moment of sleep.
Good bye peeps.. Hope u sleep well=) its a pleasure.. some ppl would say"wait till ur in army" but oh heck army for now.
First day of competition
and im off with a rocky start
But good news, I WON! phew

But frankly, i did quite badly. Played way below my standard. NYP was the weakest, and i was struggling.. Not a good sign... Was showing how tired i was in the court.. not good.

But our biggest treat is SP.. but first, we got to get Tp out of the way.

Why does SP Train so hard? Cos they want to beat us.
Why do we train so hard? Cos we want to keep the Champion title above our heads.

But This wed! First thing first, win Tp. Not going to be easy, im having doubts on my fitness.

But still thanks God=) for helping me out there
Competition on monday!! Only 3 days from now..

I am EXTREMELY excited.

And my favourite-tes senior is playing for SP!!

I really cant believe the fact that we are against each other.. When we were once playing in the same team.

I hope we come in first place.

Altho i dare say we got a dominating team this year, ......



Are u being mentally dense?!?
Huh?

hahaha tot that was rather good.


Somethings never change..
No.. its you.. you'll just never change..
But im far from having a say.
Far from being in ur life
Today im reminded of something.
And it pierced straight into my heart.
And it made me start to quiver.
Quiver with fear, quiver with guilt
And i know that there are things tt im doing
Which are wrong, which is against God's commandment.

So im going to try my best to stop doing things my way,
But God's way..
Believing in him and trusting in him to lead this life..

I need prayer.. Prayer to press on, prayer to move on, prayer to persevere.
I need direction in my life=)
After resting my muscles for 3 days, i feel so much fresher...
i feel better and i feel like im ready to kick SP BUTTS!
I had a $100 steak today at lawry's

The portion was huge.. im sure it was close t0 1 kg thick
Im more stuck than last sat..

1) Acjc match at 11..
2) Music practice at 12
3) Cell grp at 3

And i wanna go for all!!!

HOW?!
Today is the third day of school.
Lessons has already been going full force and ive already handed up my first tutorial the day itself.

Yes. Im already feeling the pressure. The want to excel and the inevitable need to excel. Maybe that's a good start to this sem. But also, the pressure of wanting to do better than those arrogant grp, wanting to prove to them who is the best.

Topped with a hectic schedule, 8-5 school hours, im always feel tired and on the verge of dozing off during the earlier lectures despite sleeping earlier. Its really taxing.

I just seen a nasty side of a human. Selfishness and hypocrisy. This group of people just snatched a friend of mine cos she's an A's student. Oh please they wouldnt even think of inviting her into their 'gang' if it wasn't for the other half who were separated into another elective. Oh but i have to be realistic. This is the world. So i'll deal with it and make good use of my time. I dread working with this kind of people in future, but reality... Im just letting this whole event spoil my day.

Its only 3 more weeks to competition week. Ive got to get to training. And ill be home late again today.

1 thing i really need now, its strength.

God help me please.
I'm stuck...
I have 2 important events this saturday morning...

1) Grace and clarence church wedding
2) Squash competition with JJC


And i wanna go for both!
how?



I was on youtube searching for kenny G solo's and came across this song, "What a wonderful world".. and for all those SuaGus out there=), This song is sang by louis armstrong. And so i happened to scroll down and chance upon this user comment and thought it was rather amusing. But come to think about it, doesnt it seem a little true?

By jca23:
yeah, kenny g is the reason why this song is so good. If some guy sounding like louis armstrong go audition american idol, simon would be like "what in the bloody mess was that?"

What should i do?

what should i do..

what should i do...

And the voice of truth tells me a different story,
and the voice of truth says do not be afraid,
and the voice of turth says this is for my glory

i will choose to listen and believe..
My first sem results are really lousy.
Total crap.

and the thing is i studied quite hard.
I studied harder for this than my O lvls man.

=(This really sucks.

Can i still thank God and edify him with this results?

It will take me 2 sems to get my GPA on track.
i will stop watching house as it is unedifying to God.
Im off to camp!
3d 2n.

Hope everything goes well!
Let it be a squashing fun camp!
Its a much stronger feeling back then.



Where would we be now?





This feeling never ends

But lets see.. maybe its a good thing too.

Cos it could get a lot worse.
You always reach a stop and find yourself at a cross-road.

Then u realise ur back to square one.
And reality stikes again - each time harder
It crushes any ordinary people with ease.
And It may last a life time.

When u once think everything was going smoothly,
everything was great
everything was good
everything was awesome.
But how long can u run from reality?
maybe a lifetime =p
means u run really fast

Squash camp coming up on the 11-12-13
followed by results on the 15!
And To hongkong on the 1st oct.

Thank God for everything now=)
tho everything isnt really great,
Just thank God tt it isnt worst.
Have u even been compared to other children by your mom?

"Why u like that, easy thing also dont know"
"So and So son can do why u cannot"
"Why other children can you cannot?"
"He can get 5 A's why you cannot"

Sounds familar?

How about for a change? Compare Mom.
How would it be?


The child grows with a scar, a well hidden scar that reveals itself when he grows.
And when he grows, its a scar that never heals, never stops hurting

I finally understand some-things.
I finally went shopping!
after a really long time that is
and boy! it feels great.

from wisma to taka to wisma to isetan to wheelock to isetan to tangs to cathay to ps
and the finale! Fish and co! =( should have gone to nydc instead


I think im putting on a lil too much weight for my own good!
better start training!
I heard SP is strong!
NP better buck up too!
We must win the champion title this year!
Exams is over=)
yay!
cycling has given me a sore thigh
the sporty ones (cheong rui, jacqueline, lynette, james and yours truly)

I had a match with samuel kang! hee he gave chance=)
Its going to be a fun day later on! cant wait!! movieee food and shopping and of cos more food

And best of all, its with you=)
Els is making me really upset
and its giving me a big headache. im left with only a few hours to study the entire book
Those eyes

She looks at me
She smiles at me
She pouts at me
She laughs at me

But i only notice one thing

Those eyes
Those innocent eyes
Those sparkling eyes
Those glowing eyes
Those glistering eyes

Looking right at me
Olympics has been a very bad distraction.
I need to study!

Noo! i missed michael phelps 8th gold medal!
Up next, table tennis finals!

Mens 100m finals was a blast, The way bolt ran, its amazing
Ive been eating so much good food the past 2 weeks
and successfully gained abt 1.5kg!
haha but good food is hard to resist=)
who cares, just eat!

Exams are coming! starting on the 18, ending on the 21.
Keep me in ur prayers!

Match tmr!
And right now, i got a really bad cold.
Hopefully my opponent doesnt push me to my maximum!
the song voice of truth has been in my head for almost a few weeks

And i jolly well know the reason why.
And knowing the reason why is the problem that is affecting me..
simply said, voice of truth tells you to follow the word of God

then singing that song,
until it comes to the part which says
'i will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth',
despite myself, ill hesitate


i really feel like laughing... i just walked into a hole - willingly walk into a pit.
Today i went to shangri-la
boy oh boy im stuffed.

muahahaha i still smell cheese..
someone just called me cheesy boy=D

ok my show is on!
ciao folks
u make me so confused
confused with ur actions
after achieving a lil of a jazz stardard,
i wanna learn classic style..

i think its harder o.o
there's only so much we can do each day Align Right
it hurts like shit...
feels like a million daggers..
and the most painful of all,
is not being able to tell you.
Sometimes i wish i would just understand a little more.
So i wont need to work my brain so much trying to find a answer.

But it just brings me to a state of realisation
that im just a nobody.
who am i?
to you
i think i expect too much from life.
Maybe i should sit back and relax and let

God lead the way.. But the sacrifice... the sacrifice..

The voice of truth, says so not be afraid
And the voice of truth, says this is for my glory

Someone said something which hit me like a storm...
They are 2 different persons..
2 totally different persons with
2 totally different lives.
i wish i knew
oh i wish i knew

dont let the worldly matters affect u my fellow brother's and sister's in christ.
stand strong and live with faith.
Let ur life reflect God's love
Be the light and the salt of the earth
I realised how good u were...
how the heck was i ignorant to it all
Dear lord, i pray for patience
absences makes the heart grow fonder.

how true
I dont like decisions
I dont want to know what my next step will be
Actually, i know, but i dont want to make this tough decision...
I feel like everything is so out of control.
BUT IT ISNT!
I have the ability to control it...
To choose my path,
Or obey His word.

This song has been in my head the entire day...

I am weak but Thou art strong;
Jesus, keep me from all wrong;
I'll be satisfied as long as I walk,
let me walk close to Thee.
Just a closer walk with Thee,
grant it, Jesus, is my plea;
Daily walking close to Thee,
let it be, dear Lord, let it be.
Time alone with my guitar
We shall go moonlighting
Just you and me
Time, alone, with my guitar
im happy today=)
well since its 3am now
i guess i was happy yesterday!

weeeeeeeeeee
gd night world.
Sometimes its the quality.. not the quantity..

feeeeelinggsss oooooooooo feeeeelllingggssssssssss oooooooo feeeeelllings
Im coming back to the heart of worship.
Its all about you
Its all about you Jesus.

Its hard being independent.
But i guess its called growing up

picking my pieces up.
Day 2.
where are my friends when i need them right now.
the problem lies with me. it all lies with me.

im tired
and i got school at 8 tmr
you know, im doing an assignment on perception and expectations.

And right now, sometimtes u want some things to happen but it doesnt.
this expectation thing...
such irony..
I can only sleep..
Sleep everything away.
Why do u make me feel this way?

Sigh.. i can only sigh
I dont know what im getting myself into,
but i really dont mind giving it 1 more try.

I hope i dont live to regret it
I feel as if everything is failing me.
right now, i dont know what to do

Its really a lousy feeling
i find it so hard to smile
i cant smile anymore =(
I suddenly come to a stop point in my life.
where everything comes to a stop.
I suddenly dont know what i want in life.
each day i wake up, i do the things i need to do.
What do i want in life?

i want an answer...
i really want my answer.

it really seem dumb, but all i want is to be happy.
why are u affecting me so much?
How are you?
How have you been?
Are you alright?

i miss you:'(
There're somethings which i just cant understand.
I just dont seem to be able to find the right answer.
And frustration kicks in.

But do i need a answer?
I dont think ill ever get my answer=)
But its okay! Cos there's much more to life.

Training tmr! Training isnt what i really signed up for. I dread going for training. Cos i dont feel happy. But i alr got poor attendance. i guess i have to learn how to put up with it.
Im unhappy with my spending power.
Im unhappy with my mediocre allowance.

Im low in spirits.
my greatest regret in not learning my chinese
is that i am unable to compose a song

I want to compose a chinese songs...
but my chinese is so poor
i cant put to words
the things i wanna say
and the things i feel

but its okay =D
inspiration is here!
picking up my guitar after so long
rawrrr brings back fond memories of my sheer hardwork
and i think im spending more time reminiscing than playing..
=) im happy... im really happy..

Im happy with life..
Im happy with my life..
I can finally answer
this prevailing question after 2 years..

Are you happy?
I suddenly had this moment of enlightenment
and it has left me in deep thoughts

hmmm things arent going as smoothly right now
i wish i could run away

but will anyone remember me when im gone?
or it doesnt matter at all..
cause im still holding on
holding on a superficial glimmer of hope
holding on to a lie.

laugh away
you people just laugh away

care for me
protect me
love me

some ppl are just impossible.

Im happy=)
Cos i know ive got you.
You make me happy=)
Ask me the same question 1 more time,
And this time ill confidently say no
I want to quit squash.

What the heck made me think of going to a poly just for squash?

dang it. im not going to school tmr
Why do u go so far?

Its going to be a long day tomorrow.
should i be looking forward to training??
maybe looking forward to dinner=)
or maybe there wont even be dinner.

Almost every one who left for america is back in sg!
Its nice seeing them once again. And for the first time, all back at the same time.
Few missing faces: Jesse, Joel, Garreth.

Looking back, Being sick was a blessing in disguise.
Cos i lost 10kg.. how cool is that?
And a burden is lifted off me.
I feel free.
however, Feelings come tingling once in a while.
But, each time, it fades... and fades... and fades.
It all fades away.

Why do we write poems?
Because poems can express complicated feelings that cannot be defined in plain ordinary words.
We are able to express our inmost feelings... best as we can..

i should stop thinking.
Today is one of the saddest day.
Like everyone ganged up to pelt you.
To stab you. To pull ou down.
To the brink of "idontcareanymore"

I dont know how much more i can take
when i finally give in to my temper.
Its so hard.. forcing a smile..
but i have to...

But it feels like im not needed in this society.
When everyone turn their backs to you.
Its a painful feeling.
Esp when ive been true to them.

Im lonely
And im sad
Finally! PLW results.
Well as most ppl know, i expect a lot from my plw.
And yes, i did pretty alright, but not exceptionally well.
Getting first in class isnt really something to be proud of.
I really thought i could do better.
But i guess i wont complain much.

There's nothing i can do about it.
Why do u keep showing me attitude?
When im being nice and all.
Ive been honest, and showed u respect all these time
But all u showed is hypocrisy and disrespect.
Kudos to Germany fans. Those who bet a hefty sum.. God bless you.

GERMANY lost!! NOOOO

But give it up for Fernando Torres. He is a brilliant player. Being a MAN U fan, i have to admit that it was fantastic goal.

Stayed up to the kick off but decided to sleep cos i couldnt take it anymore.
Regretted.. should have watched...

Lecture starting!
Ciao
"You want to be a psychiatrist?"
"Huh? How you'd know?"
Common test was a total FLOP.
but not like i really studied for the A's
Im only on a C....
At this rate, even with singapore having a 4th Uni wont be of any good.

Common ben! 1 month to main Exam!!

I miss cycling! I dreamt of something funny abt it last night.=p
My throat is better! im eating donuts!
38.7 degrees.

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I think this hols has been probably one of the most fuilfilling holidays i everhad.

I havnt wasted much time on nothing.

And the irony of it all is that i go back to school every day except friday. Just like how my term timetable it.

But it means im kept busy=)
Unlike how i spent my last holidays.. wasting time.
Spending time.
Spending quality time.

I have to stop harbouring fruitless thoughts.
when there was me and you



ill always forgive you

Why do we keep thinking of negative thoughts?

Then how will we be more christ like?

What is it to be a christian?

Or does the title christian just identifies you?

Am i just a christian in name?
I was randomly blog hopping, and i came across someone who said

"love is giving someone the power to hurt you, but trusting him not too"

I dont agree, but to a certain extend thats usually the case.


What do you think?
I want to watch a movie!
So i shall watch a movie!
Even if it means watching it alone!
why am i so replaceable
How would u handle things?

If one day i was to ask?
yes ive been enlightened.
some people never understand.
they dont try.
Cos they dont really care.


Cos im not like you.
Its hard doing the right thing.

But i think the book is very very right
i dont got the rights.

i wish i would be more understanding
Leaving things status quo.

I give up.

Lets focus energy on something more important.

Like how to start improving in squash.

School training pretty much a waste of time.

Private here i come!
No one likes losing
But losing is a part and parcel of life
Losing itself has a negative impact..
But has a positive effect.

You get stronger.
All of us want intimacy. It means being close to someone. Its being vulnerable, open, and dependent. It's giving to and recieving from another person the deepest part of who we are - our hopes, our fears, our secrets, our affections. An intimate relationship to which we know and are known by another human is one of the most fulfilling and precious parts of life - its a gift from God.

There are many different kinds of intimate relationships in life. We can be intimate with a friend, with a family member and with a coworker.

What each of these relationships has in common is trust. We are intimate with those people who have proven their faithfulness to us, people who have shown over time that they will be careful to guard what we have given of ourselves. We're intimate with people who are committed to us.

You might say that intimacy between a man and a woman is the icing on the cake of a relationship headed toward marriage. And if we look at intimacy that way, then is becomes obvious that most of our dating relationships are all icing. they usually lack a purpose or a clear destination. In most cases, especially when we're younger, dating is short term, serving the needs of the moment. We date because we want to enjoy the emotional and physical benefits of intimacy without the responsibility of real commitment.



You've gotten me so confuse.

whats with this u can contact me but i cannot contact u thing?
Sgcc prince open tmr.
No supporters again.
Do your work
have fun with ur friends
and leave me out of everything


thanks for leaving me out.
for leaving me out of ur schedule
Stupid things we do to celebrate the ending of the much hated common test






heh Dying of boredom now... everyone is busy

Your gone with the wind...
Its tiring to run after the wind.
Its impossible to catch the wind.
So im enjoying the wind while its blowing.
And letting it go when its going.

There's always tons of them around you...
And then, im no where near.
But it doesnt bother me a bit anymore.

im sorry la okay
im not the only one with AP
whatever... my world doesnt revolve around you.
Everything is one sided. Its always about you.

Im sick and tired of your self-centeredness.
I dont owe u anything.
I dont have to do a single thing for you.

Yea i know it doesnt bother u at all cos you always will have other people around you.
So much so that 1 person gone doesnt make any difference.

Its my mistake for putting in so much effort. Your just a sham.

What hurts most was being so close.
What to say, lord its
You who gave me life
And i cant explain

Racking my brains for a intro..
anybody free on fri to drop by my house?
Who doesnt love surprises?

I feel like praticing on my bike right now!
I have to learn that trick!

I have a bad habit!
yawn*

im tired.
i shall continue my quest to slumber land.
Some people will never learn
Some people will never know
Some people will never understand

But i shouldnt be too bothered.
It gets me tired for nothing.
A waste of my effort.

It doesnt even make a scratch anymore=p

Sometimes apology doesnt work anymore
Then it comes down to action
No more speculations=)
Just enjoying the company

Thanks lord for the cool drizzle=p

I must learn how to cycle up a hill easily
and get better control of my bike while sprinting.
while cycling home from clementi today,
just after i passed sunset way,
i just switched off.
i started thinking
"hmmm am i cycling?"
"hmm i think im cycling"
"hmmm yupp i see front wheels, im certainly cycling"
My legs were still pedalling
While i was steering towards the right( i was keeping extremely left)
Then suddenly this bus came rambling pass me... maybe like 20 cm away?
I manage to snap out in time and regain control.

From now on, b4 every bike journey, i must remember to pray for journey mercy.
But i think my cardio-vascular system is much better=p

CANT WAIT FOR TRIALS
BRING IT ON!
Should i take part in tapestry audition this sunday?
Auditioning itself dont really sound right to me.
Hmmm and ppl not making it and stuff..

But i guess ill try
and really pray hard about it.

Will be a good exposure
and of cos fun!
Playing christian music in front of a crowd, what can be better=p

But i dont know what to play...
But focus will be guitar...
but still... what to play!?!?

headache already!
Foot spa?
Sounds cool

Just wish the flu would go away.

I have a feeling im going to fail els common test. drats.
Having a killer headache now.

And i wasnt able to sleep a wink last night.
Can u imagine the torture?

Anybody wanna mug tmr afternoon?
Sms me! quick!
SHIT I REALISED I FORGOT TO HAND IN MY PLW TUTORIAL!
SHIT

AND ITS ALL THE STUPID FLU FAULT
thanks for being so supportive


='(
Just saving a lil pride for myself

Love makes ppl do the craziest of things
Love Wins, Love Always Wins=p
Flu has gotten the better of me.
My head is spinning right now

I wonder how am i going to last for tonight's match

God give me strength!
Im physically tired and drained

I still have to read up on ELS
When you find out some things,

after this enlightenment,
i have simply no idea
of whether i should be
-happy or
-sad
Ironic isnt it?
my heart was skipping a beat when library was going to close
my head was aching
as i tried to think of words
thinking of what to write
i was racing against time
and i was losing
losing terribly.
Ive never been so stressed
getting more suffocated in this area of subject

your not helping.. your adding to my stress.
and you... what do i gotta say till u understand?
maybe u'll never understand cos u just never tried.
why do i still bother? HAH

im really sad:'(
even when im writing this
my heart feels like its bleeding
its a nasty feeling
a 1000 stabs cant beat what im feeling now.
i can hardly breathe

STOP LYING
i said its enough

such a fool to believe whatever u said
always believing, always trusting
the promises u made
saying things that lifted my spirits
CRUSH THEM
yes crush them
crush them all

can i call you?
call u for the very last time?
and let me drown in my own tears
for the very last time.
then ill walk alway
and never return

i promise

A Godly person,
speak words of truth

I need to cycle.
cycling helps me forget things
cycling makes me happy

I love you sally
yes i do
altho i dont show it
ive always been thinking about you
sorry for neglecting you.
What happened to quality time?

haha

ahahaha EUNICE CONFESSION!
ahahaha only stuff like that happens with eunice!


=) Agape says:
1 word
=) Agape says:
PIG
=) Agape says:
and snore right!
robert pattinson! says:
lol i'm not a pig kay
robert pattinson! says:
and no i don't snore
=) Agape says:
how u know when u sleep like a pig
=) Agape says:
=)
robert pattinson! says:
i know kay
=) Agape says:
wah laooo u dam dao in the canteen okay!!! mad me so sadd!! but my bubble tea cheered me up=) haha u just admitted tt u sleep like a pig

Will u def me like u did for him?

I should stop my wishful thinking=)
Time is running short!
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing.
Watch you smile when you are sleeping.

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating.
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming.

How do we deal with pressure?
How should we deal with pressure?
Just want the comfort of my bed
And feel the warmth of ur embrace


Was cycling behind RAIL MALL.
Was this dark alley..(at night.. well obviously *rolls eyes*)
Was a jam!
Car infront of me, car behind me! How now brown cow?
Was trying to squeeze thru!
Then suddenly...
*WOLF WOLF*
scared the day lights out of me..(well was night right?)
I was ready to see stray dogs rushing towards me.
HAHA

cycling is fun=)
and dangerous...
dont cycle on the road if u wanna live longer.

p.s anyone is allowed to slap me if i dont study this week.
leaving everything out from now on.
ur the last thing on earth right now.
God pls dont do this to me.

I just want to see you
But u keep having my hopes dashed
=) Agape says:
im very frustrated
[[ Jac ]] + x) says:
why r u frustrating

thought this was hilarious
Cycling through a busy junction.
The adrenalin rush; its fantastic.

Pain killers.
Never felt better.

For now, let me tend to my thighs.

Your actions. Your words.
They're confusing me.
But for now, i just need
MYspace.
Ourspace.

Thanks nic. for the wonderful book. Thanks for asking me weird questions whenever life is at its lowest moment.

btw all donations goes to my iPHONE :)
Olivia! ill go to your next concert. i promise! But thats if u ask me again :p
Your character....

Im starting to lose respect.
Starting to despise.

Everything was just superficial.
Ive just been a fool.

You wouldnt understand.
You'll never understand.

Living in a world of lies. A world of shams.
I'll grow to be a better person.

Im tired.
I need sleep.
And hopefully,
you'll stop being on my mind.

But i know thats what u want.
I'll help you.
It'll be the last thing i do for you.


abstract poem.
I miss SA
The china epic has left me deeply sadden
The amount of dead people are constantly rising

"So to save her life, they'll cut off her legs. She's calm and stable," he said.

Wailing relatives
The neighborhood was nearly deserted, but for a crowd of 100 or more relatives gathered at the school's entrances, many of them crying and wailing, and all of them exhausted.

I cant imagine losing my love ones
Not right now... not in the future.
Certainly not buried in a building.

i can imagine myself frantically digging rubble off... half sobbing, praying, while lifting up large slabs of stone to get them out of it. Seems so dramatic.

Parting is painful enough. Death is..... its just the maximum. Too much for me to take.

Thanking God everyday for his unconditional love.

Love keeps no record of wrong.

I have to focus! 100% concentration!

I dont know how long more i can last.. i feel like giving up.
The thoughts of you is killing me.. Making me moody.
its past 12... maybe thats why

p.s ok im watching his touching scene on tv... im tearing T.T sob sob
shit... WTH ANTI CLIMAX... my tears dried up instantly.
I remember someone once told me "ben your a poor actor in life".

ill stick to my profession and be good at it.
A good actor in life.
All the pain i put u thru.
A sorry too late.
You've probably forgotten everything.
Forgotten about lil me.

Love is patient, Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres.

I have to remind myself. I fall short on too many. Lord teach me how to love like you do. I want to love like how u love me.

All that remains are memories and your comforting words. Your encouragment.
I miss you
too much.

bye folks! ill be away for sometime!
Flowers may wither,
Times may have changed.
But forever and ever,
Our memories will still remain.


im sorry, but i guess its too late.
sometimes in life, we focus so much on ourself,
and miss out on all the good things we pass.
And all i did was just being so darn demanding
when u were already trying your best.
dreading every single moment
just a few more days
it cost too much to be free

what i gotta do to make u want me
what i gotta do to be heard
what do i say when its all over
sorry seems to be the hardest word
so sad -.- so sad-.-
Its a sad sad situation......

i busted my knee..
i cant even walk properly now.
=) Law, the one true love says:
hey
=) Law, the one true love says:
squash tmr?
・c AdriaNღ...TRAIN!! says:
erm na
=) Law, the one true love says:
tmr comfirm i dont ps u
=) Law, the one true love says:
plssssssss
・c AdriaNღ...TRAIN!! says:
leg still injured
・c AdriaNღ...TRAIN!! says:
ah tan playin i gues
=) Law, the one true love says:
he playing ar?
=) Law, the one true love says:
what time
・c AdriaNღ...TRAIN!! says:
not sure
・c AdriaNღ...TRAIN!! says:
u ask him

<<>> Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever. has been added to the conversation.

=) Law, the one true love says:
eh ah tan
=) Law, the one true love says:
u squashing tmr?
wannabe20033@hotmail.com says:
yup.. u who sia?
・c AdriaNღ...TRAIN!! says:
ben
=) Law, the one true love says:
ben
<<>> Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever. says:
ben which ben sia
=) Law, the one true love says:
-.-
=) Law, the one true love says:
ben from squash
<<>> Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever. says:
ooh
<<>> Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever. says:
kk
=) Law, the one true love says:
sigh=.=''
<<>> Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever. says:
ya going
<<>> Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever. says:
lol
=) Law, the one true love says:
what time u squashing
=) Law, the one true love says:
maybe ill join u or smt
<<>> Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever. says:
the one with gold hair?
=) Law, the one true love says:
sigh is there a lot of ben in squash
=) Law, the one true love says:
yes
=) Law, the one true love says:
the unfit one
・c AdriaNღ...TRAIN!! says:
lol
<<>> Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever. says:
haha.. must double confirm ma
<<>> Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever. says:
lol
=) Law, the one true love says:
the one who likes to tackle u laaaaaa
=) Law, the one true love says:
haiyooo
<<>> Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever. says:
scare later tok to a girl how sia.. attitude must be different ma
<<>> Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever. says:
lol
・c AdriaNღ...TRAIN!! says:
lol
・c AdriaNღ...TRAIN!! says:
hahaha
=) Law, the one true love says:
..........................................................
=) Law, the one true love says:
u know im going to save this convo and post it on my blog
“You have to live with the crashes, and hope you don't get into one”
DFEAAM

i just wanna scream=)
i want ice cream
i wanna be a kid again!

You didnt
right from the start.

Learn to pray hard.
Ill start fasting soon.
Whats going on between us,
Pls tell me i pray.
No more jokes, no more reading between the lines.
Just the truth.. Nothing more nothing less.
Just the truth

OH LORD MY GOD i beg you, nothing can happen to her.. nothing at all.... Lord give me strength for i am feeling so weak now. Nothing can happen to her lord.. If it must be someone, let it happen to me. LET IT BE ME.

Psalm 13

How long O Lord? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?
Look on me and answer, O Lord my God.
Give light to my eyes, or i will sleep in death;
my enemy will say, "I have overcome him," and my foes will rejoice when I fall.
But i trust in your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in your salvation.
I will sing to the Lord, for he has been good to me.
well.. life goes on... we make some friends, we lose some friends.. but maybe we lose some friends to make time for new ones?
So she says whats the problem baby
=(

Love tt song.. love it.
When im with you, i'd make every second count.
Cos i miss u whenever you're not around.
Many people has been asking me, "are u celebrating your birthday?"

and i reply no, im sleeping at home.
And they go on ranting why.

Yea.. why =(

Are ppl allowed to cry on their birthday?
Be it being happy or sad.

why is my mind so blank now.
Sometimes i think im really self-centred.
But i have to start putting others before me.

I feel like swearing right now.. not good.. and i have no idea why.
I just wasted a night away. All i did was star at my com.. chatted on the phone for a while and thats all. There goes 1 night which could have been spent better on my law notes.. ive been neglecting my law=( sorry.

I dont feel like going to school tmr. Maybe just to see my classmates. I have cool friends. Thank God. James, Xavier, Izzam, Benjamin... i pity ppl who sits infront of us during lectures. One day, we're goner get burned in this games. haha

Im thinking about my life now. Hmmmm, i have to focus more on my work! which means play less and earlier sleep! Less doodling and more mugging. I have to start memorizing formulas for this stupid module. HATE IT. GOSH arghhhhh.. can u feel my frustration?

11.30 seems too early to sleep...

i think i was deluding myself again. but im dropping this matter into the pacific ocean already.LET IT HIT ROCK BTM! I really have to stop believing in this lip service thing... im getting conned in broad daylight! and the irony of it all is that i know im getting scammed. And part of me wants to get scammed.

young adult has this walking thing on thurs!!!

never expect anything from the utmost impossible. Hope is all but left. And I, Im giving up on this hope tt sets upon a cloud.

I lost you as a good friend to hear my rantings.
And i regretting it most severely.
i did a case study on hotel new world today. About why it collaspe. What caused it to fall, for my module called Building tech.

And it stuck me once again that life is fragile. You know, anyone can just disappear out of ur life like almost in a snap of ur finger. You can be talking to them right now and suddenly, he or she just dies from a heart attack or maybe come freak accident. The footage made me treasure the people around me even more my friends, close friends, love ones.

Somethings just cant be done or said again or could have said.... only to live with regret tt will never subside. That feeling is just too close for comfort.
I'VE GOT ONE HUMP & MY NAME IS QUASIMODO! :D

ELVIS PRESLEY, NOT COSTELLO!

okay, im tired.
gnighhht world!


you know you love me,
xoxo.
cant believe im doing this. im degrading myself=.=

1.At what age do you wish to marry?
25

2.Ifyour best friend and lover both have some weird illness they are about to die from and there's only one bottle of medicine to cure them but not enough for both,who will you choose to give it to?
My love one and i wont tell my best friend abt it.

3.Are you happy with your current life?
I guess so. But it could be better=)

4.What super power would I like to have?
I want to fly.

5.If you have one dream to come through,what would it be?
I want to become a lawyer

6.If you have another dream to come through?What would it be?
If i tell you, u must die.

7.What are you afraid to lose now?
My bicycle.

8.How do you find yourself?A friendly person?
Ks. KiaSU and KiaSI

9.If you meet someone you love,would you confess to him?
Depends. What go up to her and say i love you? RIGHTTTTT

10.How do you spend your 200 bucks if you have to?
Food. FOOD.

11.What requirements must your other half have?
Loving, caring, loves JESUS more than she loves me. The list goes on x)

12.What kind of person do you hate most?
I dont knowww its a strong word... but i guess uncle annoying fits the title perfectly. PERFECT 1337 GG already.

13.Do you wish to cherish every single second of your friendship?
LIKE DUHHHH. wth?

14.Would you rather be alone than in a group?
Depends. On company

15.What do you think is the most important things in life?
God.

16.If you ever get a billion dollars,where do you want it to come from?
The ground.

17.At this point in time,would you rather stay in your comfort zone or try something new?
Try something new.

18.What kind of friend do you want to be in your friend's eyes?
A good friend who isnt just a joker.

19.If you have a chance,what part of the character would you like to change?
My indecisiveness and short temper-ed-ness.

20.If you had freedom, what do you want to do?
BITE YOU.

Instructions: remove one question above, make it a total of 20 questions. then tag eight people in a list, list them out at the end of this post. notify them in their tagboard that he/she is the lucky one choosen by you. whoever does the tag will have blessing from all.

Ill spare u the pain of doing these questions. =)
Im regretting dropping A math.
A big part of me wish i went to SAJC
even tho there isnt squash.

I HATE poly.
common legs!! heal faster!!
I got lots of stuff i have to do.
I have to run
I have to squash!
ok mostly squash=)

just 2 more weeks!! 2 more weeeeks!!!!
its only 4 trainings!
i have a feeling ive lost the little bit of stamina i had in me already =/
HAHAHAHA
im laughing at my own stupidity.
Oh please ben.
Pls grow up.

Dont expect things and oh pls...
u expected to be appreciated?
HAHAHAH
Nah... wake up.
Call me stupid, Call me dumb.
Call me a fool, Call me a loser.
I guess your right.
Somethings just wont change. Just cant change.

Sometimes things seems so real. Too real.
When they arent.
Its never easy to get out of it.
Never will.

I just realised that everything said was just a scam. Nothing was meant right from the start.
I offically give up.

Ill be a lawyer one day. Watch me.

Ill never put in effort in anything again. Other than my studies.
There's this feeling,
The feeling of missing something.

But somehow or rather i cant place this feeling.

Feeling is defined as a particular sensation of this kind: a feeling of warmth; a feeling of pain.

Feelings - the function or the power of perceiving by touch.

There's a reason as to why each and everyone of us has feelings.
But, what if 1 day i lose all my feelings.
Where does tt put you?
Where does tt put me.
2 AM
AND IM HOOKED ON WHOSE LINE IS IT ANYWAY... GUYS WATCH THIS... MAKE SURE UR ALONE, OR ELSE PPL WILL THINK UR MAD



good night world.
I just dropped my phone into a bucket of water.
Was only partially submerged, but i guess that was more than enough to get my phone all screwed up.

I just lost half my contact list.

School in 7 hours time and really, i shouldnt be online any much longer!

The past weeks, ive been complaining at how time flies...
And right now, i want time to just whizzz pass me....
The irony of it all is killing me..
Even life seems like an irony..

But its okay... ill persevere!
But No matter what, God comes first. No matter what.. thats my priority.

Whats your priority? Are u leaving God out?
I finally know this feeling.
Its the feeling of being torn apart.

God thanks for putting me in and pulling me out just like that. COS IT HURTS LIKE MAD.
Im being affected too much.
not good.
A man of many companions may come to ruin,
but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.
Proverbs 18:24

Am i that friend? =)
Fell from my bike.. ouch
My darling bike has scratches.
Thanks, you made my day=)

Altho u seem so far,
U made me feel like somebody was there.

BTW Pls comfirm cycling with me on 1st june
and 21 may there is a concert held by VJ anyone wanna go?
I know im not that hero
I know i just gotta let go
I know im not alone.
FYI the previous post? if u think im queer, i agree with u, but sadly, sigh its someone hmmm queer.

Im going off in 13 hours time, and yes i know YOU YES YOU miss me to bits and peices but dont worry=) i miss you toooooooo

I MISS YOU ALLLLLLLLLLLL OH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO how now brown cow?

but im going to bangkok to shop first! how cool is that man.. i hope i get to see some transvestite.
Oh yes ill be looking out! nothing can escape THE 'eye'.

take care my fellow folks
i hope to come back
and i certainly hope to see you when im back
BEN POO :D
BEN POO WHINES.
BEN POO IS GOING TO MYANMAR & HE ISNT COMING BACK.
BEN POO DOESNT KEEP PROMISES.
BEN POO FORGETS HE MADE PROMISES.
BEN POO ISNT HOT.
BEN POO LIKES ORLENG JOO.
BEN POO WOULD LIKE TO BRING A SWORD.
BEN POO THINKS TIMBER IS LOVE.
BEN POO IS GOING TO TAKE HIS POLE.
BEN POO ISNT GOING TO GIVE UP ON THE POLE NOW.
GOD SENT THE POLE FOR BEN POO'S LEG, IS A GOOD THANG.
BEN POO ADMIRES HIDEOUSLY UGLY QUASIMODO'S CHEERLEADING.
IF YOU WANT BEN POO TO SLIDE DOWN THE POLE, BITE HIM.

BEN POO IS UHM, SLEEPING.
Sorry... Im sorry... im not feeling good inside too.
If i hurt you, Im sorry. I didnt mean it, and its somehow hard on me too


My birthday is coming in abt 31 days
I dont expect to get this bike, or maybe something better=)
This is the loveeeeee

I jus realised, squashing is a way for me to vent my frustrations.
I have no clue as to it being a good thing or a bad thing.

But right now, i wanna squash=) too bad danvin is in aussie=(
or i'd make him squash with me.

few things i wanna give away/tell/do if im gone one day,
1) my desktop to my bro
2) my crumpler bag to Benjamin lee
3) racket bag to Yonghui
4) prince O3, wilson k factor and ncode to Yonghui
5) ipod vid to Rachel Lim (sry no warranty)
6) laptop to my mom
7) fish tank to my dad
8) my mini guitar to claudia
9) my wallet to Barny
10) Warcraft cd to Renee
11) my ngee Ann Slot to jacob
12) My entire humble collection of books to Genny(deduct a lil from my bank for gossip girl)
13) my watch to Justin lim
14) my bean bag to my bro
15) my clothes to yong en
16) my trusty fan to my grandparents
17) my handphone to my dad
18) my shoes to whoever want them.. just treasure them like i do
19) my deuter bag to david lim
20) my pencil box to my bro
21) a addias box where i keep stuff inside to valerie lim
22) my maple acc to jasper koh
23) my chair to my dad
24) give a big hug to my mom. and tell her i love her
25) salvation for my granddad and ma
26) tell My grandma i dont play computer games anymore(im sure she will be proud of me)
27) my collection of games to whoever
28) my prized collection of poker cards with red prix to joseph chua(my bridge coach)
29) Tell barny he rock my socks
30) Tell benjamin lee to stop fooling ard and grow up.
31) tell darren lee tt he has been a wonderful friend, a treasured friend
32) tell adrian Tan tt he is 1 cool guy
33) Tell Coach(francis) tt i will never forget him
34) tell mr auyong, my fernandis, JK, BC tt they impacted my life
35) Give my limited edition evangelion comic to sam goh
36) tell Justin yuen to wake up his idea and start making his first million by 25
37) Tell jasmine tt her Cell was "the" and yes "the" best
38) My sport shorts all to jeremy ling
39) My room to whoever needs shelter
40) my hat and sweater to genny(no idea why)
41) my collection of chinese Drama's to my gramps
42) Tell olivia tt she is hell of a friend who always make my day(give me a sunflower when u visit my grave=)
43) tell Nic wong tt he is a cool friend=) always and thanks for imparting guitar skills to me
44) my headset to manfred yeo
45) Tell ben lee tt we'll be brothers thru thick and thin
46) tell julia huang to retire
47) all my membership cards to shaun chan my cousin
48) Apologise to my dog sally for neglecting her
49) I want to give you all the best thing tt anyone can give, and thats Jesus.
50) want her to tell me why i was irritating
51) tell her tt she's the best thing tt happened.
52) almost forgot grace! Grace Grace Grace u deserve everything a younger bro should do for her elder sis=) leave a sit for me in ur wedding=) ill be there in spirit, mark my words!
53) joseph lee =(( i long to hear ur jokes once more, but ur in a far away land called cheena
54) I wish to become a C grader and stop there
55) compress my favourite pillow and put it into a vaccum bag. it contains my sweat, my tears, my joy, my drool, my memories, my love, my comfort
56) a nice long hug from her.
57) WANTS Genny, rachel lim, Sam eng, Anna chan, Olivia, my bro, Raina lim, charlene lim, Mabel, sammy, joseph to smile more... cos you guys got a great smile.
58) my steam Acc to ben lee
59) WANTS Everybody who cut their wrist never to do it again. and those who talks to me for comfort, If u cant find any replacement better than me, which i think u wouldnt be able to=), turn to God.
60)Apologise to my parents for breaking my promise of not bringing them to italy

My God is so big,
so strong and so mighty
there's nothing my God cannot do.

ps. those who read my blog, help me deliver the msg if tt really happens if not, read it for ur own viewing pleasure.

Disclaimer, If u want something thing tt has been given to someone else, Think twice if u really need it then if u would treasure it, finally, if u thought of me as a good friend, sry... my will shall not be trifled! too bad!

=(( i dont wish to anymore... howhowhow
Will u miss me? If your thinking whether tt person is you, AR BO DEN you lah! then who.
=(( ill miss you.

keeping things status quo.

ok i know this is depressing...
and shhhhhhit its been 1 depressing hour and i still cant sleep


OKAY WE NEED A LIL MORE ENERGY HERE. LIKE HIGH SCHOOL CHEERLEADERS!

give me a P, give me an O, give me a L, give me an E
its a pole its a pole its a pole!

okayyy, im going to take my pole!

dong dong dong dong heres a lil thing that i said you didnt knowww
ive got one hump & my name is quasimodo!
q-u-a-s-i modo
whaaaaat, ive got this hump, whaaaat, ive got this hump

CUTTT.

okay, HERES YOUR POLE, FOR YOU TO SLIDE DOWN!
YOU & YOUR MOMMA!


GET OVER IT. RAWRRR, BITE ME.

ok im tired.
I Won my first club game today!
But i dont feel elated.
Why?

Lulian Joo
anyone?
No matter how hard i try,
with tt mentality,
it doesnt matter how hard i try.
you'll never walk alone my team says:
whst your blog url again
you'll never walk alone my team says:
the link
you'll never walk alone my team says:
dont type our short dform!
you'll never walk alone my team says:
or else i have to type out
you'll never walk alone my team says:
haha
=) i'd say Jesus alright says:
www.benschronicles.blogspot.com
you'll never walk alone my team says:
so col the leave word really works





AHAHAHAHAHAHA

i really didnt want to blog again, but yet another fallen=)
Things i jus cant describe.
Words, feelings
they all feel so warm deep down inside
U gave me hope, renewed hope
Hope tt u dashed, hope tt u drowned.

Im suffocating, yes i really am.
Struggling to keep myself on the surface
But things just seems to be changing..
Or is it just me? Or things are changing.
Right from the start, i knew i fell in jus a lil too deep.

Jesus i love you, and im not ashamed of it.
infinite XOXO for you
and infinite praises to you.
Thanks lord.

I feel for u, yes i really do. But dont treat me like that, i do not deserve it. I really think i dont. I jus want to feel... feel just a little bit appreciated.
I was just looking at my fishes and this thought suddenly came to me. So i decided to blog it.

Does fishes have relationship problems?
Once again i love you,
Once again i pour out my life.
Your the only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star.
You were saying?



'I love you'


Can you repeat that,
a thought just caught me,
not much of a thought,
just enough to lose you words
in a confusion of background music
filtered through a shopping arcade.


'I love you'


Pardon, God those people!


1lb sugar butter
greens bread
potatos pepper
cooking oil chicken

You were saying

'Nothing, it's not important'

Suit yourself.
ill jus remain alone
and keep things
status quo

just be happy

this wouldnt be the first time ive posted this on my blog,

But who will remember me when
1 day. im gone.
What have i left
what have i done

an indescribable feeling
of being left hanging

Just a few more days=(
Yes lord Yes lord Yes Yes lord.
Do you even care?
Do you even bother?
But i cant expect anything from you.
No i cant.
Despite myself, i read some old stuff
reminding myself of the past which i loved so much
The days which i really really miss,
i would give anything to get them back

but all i can do is hold these little things so close to my heart
sweet sweet beginnings and painful endings.

why is my life so cliche?

someone, pls pull me thru this phrase.

B4 u watch this, turn off all the noise ard u, or possible things tt might make noise. etc phone, msn, ur pet dog.

And let this song take over and jus let urself be absorbed into it. If possible, try to take note of the melody which actually sounds like an-gel-li-na. beautiful song. if im not wrong, its either his wife or daughter called angelina.

If u think its good on youtube, i heard him live and trust me, its beautiful. I can listen to it all day.. all day... alll dayyyyyyy. ok stop read and listen!

cheer up my friend=)
Things arent as bad as they seem to be.
im sure.

and im off to catch up with some reading!
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if u actually read the nonsense above, i know i know....
torres eeeeeeeeekkk
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Where every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure.

watching u quietly.
cant make u smile the way he did=)

"ring ring"
: hello?
: hi, may i speak to someone?
: someone who?
: you
: who me?
: no you!

but i promise someday, i would.

Im craving to hit a black ball.

just... just a few more days, but im having mixed feelings.
Weird feelings from the past are back!
The same old sensations.

Still got the blues for you.
My turtle is over the ocean,
My turtle is over the sea,
My turtle is over the ocean,
Oh bring back my turtle to me!

Bring back!
Oh bring back!
Oh bring back my turtle
To me To me!
Bring back!
Oh bring back!
Oh bring back my turtle
To me!

I really regret dropping piano. It breaks my heart cos i made tt decision myself.

Today, I went to a few places..
Dinner was great, but i guess i over ordered.

Somethings once done, cannot be undone.
You made me a laughing stock,
You turned me into a mockery.
You taken everything from me
But i dont care..
I jus want...
I dont know what i want.

9 13-9-19-19 31-14-29
that didnt make sense=)

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