letting it go

I keep on thinking if i should be doing this.

Being harsh so that in the end everyone wont get hurt? I'm skeptical about this.

so close

Last night i went to the Autograph session of Nicholas Teo's or (Zhang Dong Liang)
He only sang 2 songs though cus he was sick.

He's doing quite some publicity i think because he will be in Hang Chiang High School's Hall today at 1.oopm.

Hmm i hardly see celebrities going to school halls. :p

Anyway......I feel like buying the CD and get the autograph from him but did not in the end and god knows why.

Well it doesnt matter anyway, i will sure get it next week!

I think i really have to get myself a REAL job soon. A real one as in the area of my interest before i got back from Sydney. Otherwise when i got back i will be cut throat. Cus my contract's coming to an end! Oh no......please approve my applications to those companies tht i've applied to.

3 months gone

a peugeot 406 went on fire this morning on Jalan Sg Pinang. And so it creates a huge massive traffic jam along Jelutong Expressway that heads to that particular road.

And of course when i passed the road the fire was already set off.

This friend of mine once told me "You changed" and so i asked her "Is it good or bad?"

you could guess what was her comment.

I feel like going for a shopping and movie marathon. But i have so much constraint that i could not fulfill it. First time contraints, then money constraints.

Arrgghh...Life's hard.

In these 3 months, all i have been waiting is going back to Sydney for graduation. What about after coming back from Sydney????

i need to get myself a CD!

by Nicholas Teo....

His lyrics are all so meaningful my gosh!

Especially the debut single ONLY ONE

it really feels good to DRIVE

especially

=> under the rain

=> @ 80km/hr while listening to your favourite music

and it must be done

ALONE

as this is the only time where lots of thoughts developed. Having our own silent moments.


Later Entry:

Do you think that if you mixed too much or too long a time with someone you will talk and act like them?

I actually do think so. It is some kind of a peer pressure of some sort.

It may be good and bad and it depends how u see it. And of course being urself is the best.

On a random note : I do not know how long i can stand all this shit already from this friend of mine. What comes from this friend seems to me that it's ALL FAKE. I think this is a hint. I'm beginning to ignore now. When u are in need things seems to be nice and when im not in need and there i could see the true colours and stripes. WTH. And the problem is tht I don't know when will I burst into flames AGAIN! and this is something tht i dont wish to happen.

also another note: I have another interview to attend tomorrow. Hope things go well. ta da...

爱 ， 不简单

but according to the composer here

爱, 恨简单

完了是怎麽开始 也许就是对你有一种感觉

忽然间发现自己 己深深爱上你真得很简单

爱的地暗天黑都已无所谓 是是非非无法决择

没有侯悔为爱日夜去跟随 那个疯狂的人是我哦~

I Love You 无法不爱著你 Baby说你也爱我

I Love You 永远不愿意 Baby 失去你

不可能更快了 只要能在一期起做什麽都可以

睢然都不放弃 这爱的权利 如果你还有一些困惑

爱的地暗天黑都已无所谓 是是非非无法决择

没有侯悔为爱日夜去跟随 那个疯狂的人是我哦~

I Love you 我一直在这里一直在爱你 I Love You (yes I do)

永远都不放弃这爱的权利 如果你还有一些困惑

Oh No 清贴着我的心倾艇 艇握说著爱你 (yes I do) 我爱你

P/S: I hope the lyrics are correct.

the weather and the nostalgia behind it

Been raining lately back here in Malaysia.

It's either not in the morning or it will be during the night.

Rainy days also mean more traffic jams.It is good to be off from work touch sharp 5pm as I will escape from all those jams.

I still like rainy days. In fact I like it so much tht I hope it will rain everyday. A lot of people think it's moody that I should agree but the weather just suits me. Suits me doesn’t mean I'm sad everytime it rains. I found more joy when it is raining. I still remember when I was young I used to play alone in the living room with my "masak masak" ( normal girl's toy lah) and it started raining not too long after that and I will walk to the main door and look at the raindrops falling from the sky. And ever since that day whenever it rains I will stand at the main door and look outside my house. Overlooking the cars that had a heavy shower, my dog called "Lucky" who will hide in his small little wood house and the mango and guava tree which is also having a heavy shower outside. It's good to turn back time now and I wish I could be at that moment forever.

Coming to miss my childhood life back when I used to be home together with mummy while dad and sister was off for work. Younger sister was still quite young that time. It's so good to be small…nothing to worry about. What we worry was toys and food. Unlike now which is so much more like family,career,food, money and education! I wish I can be small forever.. To be the quite spoilt and pampered daughter in the eyes of my family.

I have no regrets though cus I think I had a fantastic childhood.

As it comes to High School, Friendship develops. The spirit to study hard and strive to success is there. Then and that comes all the way to where I finished my Degree.

Right at now I'm starting my career.

or should it NOT A SIGN?

The HR lady called again 2 days ago. This time another lady who I could not rmb what her name was. I had a feeling they are quite desperate for a Finance Executive. Well if I accept their offer also I would only start in July.

The lady was saying that actually Pei Ling (the hiring mgr) wants to hire you.
And I could rmb very clearly how the other interviewer who made her "pa pai" face and also the hiring mgr who made this comment " I don't think u are suitable for this position. As I don't see the push for it from you. Try to convince me as I may be wrong"

What I said?
I told her this " Well I see where u are coming from as what I have been saying is about investments and portfolio mgt and as u could see what I have in mind are all these as this is what I learnt from Uni. You may be wrong."

To people out there who will be looking for a job.

1) Speak Confidently and you will be able to get the job
2) Be Honest
3) Be Confident and speak for yourself

After so many rounds of interview I think this is what they are looking for. Tell them tht THEY MIGHT BE WRONG

It’s quite fun to say this to them and of course provided that they wont feel offended.
The HR lady then went on trying to convince me to take up the position. Telling me that the company offers Home Loan, Car Loan, 2 months bonus, Performance based bonus as well as a Review on Salary Increment every January.

What makes me think she was desperate?
She called my house number and my mum answered the phone when I was away at work because I did not answer my mobile phone. She finally could get me thru on Tuesday 8.30 PM.

Freaking 8.30pm and she was still at work. WoW!

Should it be a SIGN?

While i was driving home yesterday after work the HR lady from Prudential called offering me the position of Finance Executive. The office that is situated in heart of all the clubs are in KL. 2 buildings away from Concorde Hotel and Hard Rock Cafe. Conveniently situated near the Dang Wangi LRT Station and the Bukit Nanas Monorail Station.

So i REJECTED the offer. The reasons behind it is that they offer to pay me what Agilent Technologies in Penang is willing to.

I might as well stay in my Good ol' Penang. Without even thinking twice i rejected it!

Well i guess it should be a sign tht i can never work in KL.

First interview with Cobra KL - i don't think i'm suitable
Second interview with Prudential - it's not even offering the KL market rate!

And surprisingly all interviews tht i have attended in Penang, i could get the position!

SO I have come to this point where i make my final decision to stay in Penang and not to KL anymore.

And so last week the father told the daughter that the trip might go on if he has no contract coming in. Just a few days after that he got the tender from a client. And so it means i'm off to Sydney alone again. It has been finalised and im booking the ticket today.

I realised tht if u own a business u have to "pau sua pau hai" and in the end u are super busy that u cant just go anywhere for a holiday.

And then we have another type of business ppl who can segregate duties to their employees that they could visit 5 to 6 places in a year.

My dad is classified in the 1st category.

When he has no contract he will say this "It's bored AND tolong lah, be a little thrifty and control ur spending, No $$ liau!"

When he is super busy, " aiyo.. i'm very tired and busy"

Life really has it's ups and downs. Even my banking account has its ups and downs. When it reaches the 1st day of the calendar month it goes to the upward trend and as the month goes along until it reaches 23rd to 28th the trend sees a downswing. Yeah currently i'm only in the mid-month and the trend is moving downwards. Oh no....

Province Wellesley 1 day trip

Right after my brunch from Pantai Jerjak this noon we went over to the other side of Penang called P.W

Obviously the person who drove was me and i havent drove crossing the bridge for 2 years and now this time i drove to Permatang Pauh and Mak Mandin and then came back to the Island with the Penang Ferry.

Going over to that side means i had a new hairdo. Which i think is quite the time cus i wanna have a nice hairstyle for my graduation.

I have 46 DAYS to SYDNEY

the CITY tour

7.30am Board the bus

12.15pm Reached Puduraya bus terminal

1.00 pm Had lunch at Bintang Walk

1.30pm Reached Bukit Nanas monorail Station

2.00am The interview

The interview

There were 3 interviewers, 1 quite old, 1 in her 30's, 1 in her 20's.
The old lady and the young lady is quite nice to me during the session but the stupid lady in her 30's came in to the room and made her "PA PAI" face. When i first look at her i know she will go on and make her face and ask questions with a stupid face. The expression tht can only come from her! No anybody can imitate her.

I was thinking that if u ever work with someone like tht, who is so "pa pai" i think u should expect what the working environment will be in the department.

She made me feel as though she's the person who has the “狗眼看人低” look. Don't look down on ppl. I despise u more than how u look down on people for whoever u are. It is obvious tht it's because of who u are that u can be in that position. Your time will come! I wish u good luck and i dun wish to see you ever again!

3.30pm Went to Wisma Technip to get my winter clothing from cousin

4.30pm Reached Lot 10

5.00pm Back to the dangerous and polluted terminal

6.00pm Board the bus

10.40pm Back to the Good Old Penang

day dream

I realised i tend to daydream recently especially when i ride on the bike.

It might be because i have nothing much to do other than paying my full attn to the cars and other bikes tht speeds passed me.

Recently i've been thinking about this. Thinking of myself whom is quite pampered already. Not well pampered but at least what ever tht is necessary and i want it my dad will say OK.
My father has been teling me lately...among the sisters do u know tht u are the most fortunate one. Whatever u want i give it to you. See ur sisters and reflect it to yourself.

And so i think im quite pampered. Although im quite pampered but my father never say he wants to get me a PSP or an iPOD or a digital camera or even a mobile phone.
He said " If u want to buy use ur own marnee"

Come to think about how pampered i am and seeing how my friends are their situation is worst!
This friend of mine for example is super duper pampered. Whatever she has are all branded. "No brand, No buy". That is her motto or should i say her family's motto cus she has 2 elder sisters. Sometimes when i look at her spending money like mad i think she's not using the marnee the right way.

Whatever it is, it is her money and i dont wanna intervene in her life.
And so tht would also mean she doesnt intervene in my life. We have befriended each other for so long and yet she will make sarcastic remarks ( i dont mean tht i could not accept it but if it's repeated u will feel mad!) and being boastful about everything. Talked with a "pa pai" tone.

How would u feel if u have a friend like this? I'm so gonna die if i see her everyday!

yayy!!.....

overly excited recently and i think it may be because of the mth of april or may it because im having a wonderful week. Today's a public hol and another 2 day's of work im gonna on hol again cus im heading down to THE CITY, this time to Jln Sultan Ismail.

last week most people were busy with the All Soul's Day and same to my family. Mum and dad had a journey back to dad's kampung for 3 days and they brought back the yummy chee cheong fun that i havent eat for ages! I had only tht for my dinnner hahahhaha but it's super oily ler (sure gain a bit of weight) aiks!

oh and i had a team meeting last friday and they started to talk about team building. Suggestions were to take a cruise to Pulau Payar. or to the Jerejak Island Spa and Resort. or an apt stay in one of the hotels in Batu Feringgi and eat sumptuos meal just like the one i had during the first week of my work. BUT i wonder if i will ever be involved in tht. Because i'm a non-employee!

If u realise everytime when i send an email out u will see

From: Lim, Bee Ling (non-employee)

And i hope i could go...at least i get to see more things and also to have a little bit more fun.
Everyone is allocated MYR300 u know?
aiyoh.....if only i can join them.

A friend left Dell already and is moving on to her next phase in life. What about me?
The company tht i worked for is not bad. I for some reasons don't like it but if u ever were given an opportunity. Just give it a try for reasons like this

They offer

- Flexible working hours ( i think only a few depts like mine)
- Smart casual attire
- Food Allowance
- Travel Allowance
- Car loan assistance ( which means u pay the price of the car and the interest is borned by the company)
- and another thing is that the car park is FOC

Take out your calculator and start counting. With tht fringe benefits how much u save p.a? On top of ur salary u are given extra money u know?

So in future when u apply for jobs make sure u are well informed about the fringe benefits the company pay you on top of the basics.

And when they say $2000 a month dun expect to see $2000 on your payslip or cheque or account. Because it will never be that amount. Factor in SoCso and EFP (abbrev. in M'sia)

When i was given my payslip and cheque i had the greatest shock in my life. It's really Peanuts!
Hoping April is a better month because i had some OT claims. Otherwise i will be dead.

Ah Jay send me a sms the previous night asking for my interest in the COC Camp back in High School here called Convent Light Street. To be held in JUNE! During the school holidays.
And so i'm having a clash here! To be frank enough here

I MISS HIGH SCHOOL TIME!

Of course the trip to Sydney has to come first and sorry Ah Jay I cant make it and please enjoy and show me the pictures.

more about it

i did not leave out the facts ytd but i havent had the time to continue.

now...this is what i wonder

when Demand > Supply

A certain amount of qty supplied has to be produced to meet the Demand.

or

At least a certain amount is supplied over the qty demanded to meet future demands.

But it seems that the supply is always lesser that what the qty demanded in this instance that i want to talk about

And i came to think about this..

When there are greater demand, workers will have the pressure from their supervisors to work in ungodly hours to finish up the quota for the day. Working under pressure makes u feel restless and it might also harm the level of productivity hence the quality of the product.

Just like the qty for cars demanded...Recently one of the local car production (not to name any here) has to move rapidly due to the infinite demand for it that some people are willing to wait 6mths to get their hands on the car.

IF this is so....Do you think they will produce bad quality cars?
Factor in the quality of the workforce as well as the working environment and the amount of wages received by the labour.

I think there are two sides of argument for this statement. Well, it depends on which angle we look at it.

the journey

To be honest i am a facts person and not a descriptive person. Just so like when i was back in high school i also favour the former over the latter.

Anyways.....some facts and descriptions today. (been wanting to blog but havent had the time)

Well, the Imago went for a holiday with mum and dad and so the poor me is on the scooter again. I think i miss my bike somehow which is now with my elder sister.

and so about the journey....

Immediately after dropping my sister i will pass the Weld Quay where the ferries are, where commuters from the island and the P.W will take on a daily basis. And there are a lot of people who stays over there and comes to work daily on the island. That makes u imagine how crowded the Island will be during the peak hours. And then I came to the Expressway and whether i have the intention or not to i will see the 13.8 km long Penang Bridge that connects the Island and the Province Wellesley with the backdrop of the Sunrise. (not mainland OK?, cus it sounds very China, The father said they still use the word P.W right until today) Whilst along the way of the expressway i there are quite a number of billboards, a few examples will be Maxis and Nokia. Another more surprising one will be this. It says...

"Flamingo, Ikan Lumba-Lumba Merah serta Suasana Romantic Senjakala Semuanya Di Singapura"

It's actually a billboard that advertises the Sentosa Island.

Then i could see Tesco, Secret Recipe and then Sushi King on my right. Right after that i will go into the Coastals Highway connecting to the F.I.Z. Gold Coast is right on my left before i could see the Bayan Bay shopping mall still under construction after 5 to 6 years of abandonment and of course it's going to be completed soon.

Then Intel Technologies stretches along the right side of the road before Agilent Technologies and then Inventec then Seagate and then SMCi electronics i think and then i will turn right into Dell Asia Pac.

I did not forget about the left side of the road cus there's nothing to see except the Jerejak Island that according to them they will Convert it to a Holiday Island. Apparently they have a SPA Resort Already.

The Jerejak Island was used to be a place where the govt used to send convicts there and this is according to my dad. But now it's free of convicts. Cus most of them are in the Penang Jail. :D

CORRECTION:
NOT Convicts BUT Tuberculosis Patients

Today is quite cooling cus it looks like it's gonna rain but i doubt so. Because "Matahari pada waktu pagi sudah Terik, apatah lagi nanti?"

Happy April Fool's Day

Last week i realise how much my dad really care for me. I know how much he care for me la of course. It's just that i didn't thought it would be that much.

Immediately after i got myself a car, my dad bought me an insurance policy.
I remembered him saying that i need to buy my own and now he bought me one. @.@

Then he told me something tht i never thought he had done.

Then just yesterday he said "You better make sure you be good and don't make us worry!"

oh well i can promise you that i will be good anyway. The only time when i was naughty was my eagerness to go to Aussie and NOW im back!

Don't worry la daddy and mummy.

Back to the story at work.

The lady who sat beside me was on leave the whole week! And so i enjoy the cube on my own which i can solve uncountable Sudoku puzzles this week. LoL

and then come to think about how one of my colleague answer the phonecalls.

This lady said " Ok hor. Wait ar.."

I was like @.@ how can u talk to ppl like tht?

It might because i'm just not used to it at all.

And then about the few ladies who sat in the cubicles next row. One was on leave and work away from home cus she needs to look after her child.

Then another one has a hoarse voice but quite pretty.

The other one has a good figure but not pretty. Likes to be praise. And she came to work this week with a freaking thick makeup. With green eyeshadows! My god! *faints*. She sits diagonally from my place and i have to see her whenever i go to the toilet or whenever she stands up! Aiyoh can't stand her nia.

Drove to work a week already. First i need to head towards City area to drop my sister @ school then pass through the Expressway to Coastals Highway to Dell which streaches as long as 20KM. Far right?

and i need to drive 30 KMs a day.

Later Entry

Just got back from Gurney Plaza and i managed to get a Polo -T. Hahahahahahhaha....
And then went to buy the dessert i fancy near Weld Quay as well as my favourite LAKSA near my house. Fuiyoh it's freaking delicious!

And now i wanna go and clean my car. I think i need to polish my car and hope my dad have the time to teach me :D