Dalam dok kata x nak lagi,x nak lagi tu kan....
Several weeks ago, my period x dtg2. Being on regular cycle, rasa kalau dah lewat seminggu tu...hmmm, apalagi kan?
So, I went buy pregnancy home test kit and did it and WALLA!!!
Two lines appeared immediately....
For those who don´t know what it means....it means PREGNANCY ok!
Walaupun bukan dlm perancangan, hati tetap berbunga2 dan excited dgn kehadiran orang baru. Terus survey stroller dan tgk brg2 baby di internet!
Anyway, the week I found out about it, was the busy week sbb si kembar masuk kindergarten. So disbbkan sibuk menguruskan sikembar, maka lawatan ke frauenarzt (gynae) ditangguhkan dulu. Lagipon based on my calculation, baru 6 minggu so xpe la kalau pegi lambat sikit.
At the same time, morning sickness dan rasa x larat pon mula appear. Masak pon dah x lalu dan tekak payau je manjang. Dok berdoa jgn la sampai dpt hyperesis gravidarum mcm masa pregnant si kembar.
The following week, selepas twins dan settle down kat kindergarten gi buat appointment kat frauenarzt and was given an appointment on another week. And my sickness was getting worse and exhaustion makin menjadi2. Buat keje sikit, dah rasa nak tergolek. Most of the time, tido aje.
Then, the appointment day arrived. Pegi frauenarzt, went thru all necessary procedures - amik darah, timbang berat, measure blood pressure....
Then, jumpa doc...she performed scan...and the moment she saw the image, dia kata there's something wrong with my pregnancy - there was the egg but it was empty! No child, no heartbeat. So she said she will refer me to the hospital and the hospital will do further check-up and take necessary action. And that could mean D&C...
Sedih la jugak masa doctor tu ckp "I'm sorry it happens this way". Tapi nak buat cemana kan...bukan rezeki kali ni.
The next day, gi Hospital Ruesselsheim, ditemani anak kak Liza, Zurina. Nasib la Zurina ikut sbb bukan semua staff kat hospital tu boleh ckp English. Then I went thru another scan, lepas tu diorg ckp I had to stay in the hospital at least 3 days sbb maybe kena buat D&C. The thing was, the pregnancy is not normal and they had to check further details to confirm whether they can proceed with D&C procedures. And the D&C pon x boleh delay sgt sbb kalau dah mmg xde baby but the body developed pregnancy body, then the body could be poisoned with the pregnancy hormone (sorry if I conveyed wrong info, but that was what I understood).
One thing I amazed about the medical procedures kat sini, is how details they go through things. Like in my case, before I was warded, I was to sit down with the gynae who did the check-up on me when I was first arrived in the hospital and she explained my condition, then the procedures that I would go thru with D&C and long list of risks, consequences and effects that I would probably face with the medical procedures they would carry out on me. So if I understand and agree to accept all of the abovementioned, then only I should sign the agreement paper. Kalau dgr the probable risks tu mmg sgt menakutkan, as if I was going to do major operation!
Itu yg dgn gynae....
Then another session ngan anesthetic. Pon sama jugak.
Koridor hospital Russelsheim - photos courtesy Mazrah. Aku x sempat pon nak snap gambar bilik aku kat hospital tu.
That night, I was told to stop eating by 12pm and to stop drinking by 2 am. Ingatkan awal pg diorg akan proceed ngan D&C tp when the doc came, he said they still have to take my blood sample sbb the previous day, my blood showed that I had the pregnancy hormone and pregnancy hormone is produced by baby so they were afraid that there could be a baby, it's just that x nampak on the scanner. So kena amik darah lg and kena tunggu lg. Bosan seh dok hospital! Dah lah x boleh makan/minum. Dah lah tgn abis bengkak sbb diorg nak bg drip tp asik x jumpa urat atau cucuk salah urat (I don't blame them, it's my common problem, kat Mesia pon camni gak!)
Then, they came and told me that they would proceed with D&C since there was a drop in the level of pregnancy hormone. Then diorg bg ubat utk kembangkan uterus as a preparation for D&C. Mula2 ckp operation would be at 3 pm, lepas tu kata kul 7pm. Pastu kata kul 10pm. Tp x jadi jugak. Sbbnya diorg kata asik ada emergency case so x cukup doktor anesthetic and since my case was not critical so kena la tunggu. Hish, x tau ke org dah kelaparan!
In between tunggu dah ler sakit perut mcm nak bersalin. Rupanya ubat tu mmg ubat utk bg contraction so it's normal rasa sakit mcm nak bersalin. Kul 11pm lebih kot, masa dah tertido tu, tetiba the nurses masuk bilik, kata dah dpt call utk hantar aku ke operation room. Nasib baik la dah penah went thru operation masa bersalinkan twins dulu, jadinya xde la berdebar sgt masa di tolak ke operation room then masuk operation room. Dlm operation tu dah ler semua lelaki, sorang tu (rasanya doktor bius kot) made conversation with me and try to sooth me down (suh relax la kot) tp honestly xde la rasa takut kot. Then nampak diorg inject something into my dripline pastu letak topeng mulut on over my face. Then dah x sedar apa2 dah.
Tau2 aje dah ditolak ke one room (they call it wake up room). Stay kat situ kejap then ditolak balik ke bilik. Immediately I fell into sleep again, the kul 6pm something nurse dtg check on me and aku disuruh bgn pegi toilet, tgk normal ke proses pembuangan and checked whether I was bleeding heavily.
Tetiba badan rasa normal, sihat, sikit pon x rasa sakit apa2. Tekak payau ke, nausea ke semua hilang, padahal just the day before tu still rasa morning sickness. Mula2 nurse kata I had to stay one more day tp when the doc came later, dia kata since everything was fine, dia bg balik that noon. Yeay!!!! Kalau nak kena dok kat hospital lg sehari, huh!
But of course, I have to revisit my gynae for following check-up lepas seminggu or so.
So that was the whole story. Senang sikit bila buat entry ni because ramai yg tanya what happened kat FB and jenuh la nak citer the whole thing kat setiap sorang.
I really have to thank some people when this things happened.
To Mat & Liza yg sgt2 mengambil berat - tolong call kan pihak hospital sebelum masuk hospital bertanyakan apa2 yg perlu n then mlm2 yg sejuk tu bawa Liya pi hospital, sbb nak melawat I dan bawa makanan (makanan hospital sini mmg x sedap!). Then kebetulan pulak masa tu I've got friend yg dtg dr Mesia for vacation and she arrived when I was still hospitalised...pon dgn jasa balik Liza & Mat, tumpangkan ler my friend kat rumah diorg sekejap.
Then Kak Liza n Cik dee yg tolong jagakan sikembar, jemput dr kindy, sent me food and mcm2 lg while cik HB terpaksa ke sekolah. It was a hectic time for us, sbbnya that week la cik HB ada test dan mcm2 urusan.
Then of course, Zurina.....the one yg drove me to hospital, arranged for my admission, jadi tukang translate, visiting me from time to time, bawakan my things, follow-up with the nurses and doctors on my situation and then drove me home the day I was discharged.
Really, I'm so blessed that we live around all these kind-hearted, helpful people. No blood relationship and yet already feel like family. Alhamdulilah.....
And for those who have been asking how am I doing....I'm doing just fine - physically and emotionally. Ada yg kata kena pantang even miscarriage but I don't know how to pantang. So just go through life as usual, cuma xde la mkn benda2 yg tajam dan bergas.