jan 29th workout

wow im in awe
I actually got him to take a nap again
its gotta be from my new lease on life and finding the patience
it took about half an hour
but then he looked at me and said mommy i tired

too cute right???

and was asleep in a minute

Its a great accomplishment for me its twice this week that i had the patience to let him fall asleep on me
I love it
I used to be so stressed all the time but now i dont let anything bother me because it affects my weight loss and its actually easier just to be happy in life

so now for the workout part
I did biggest loser bootcamp

burnt   482   cals

go me

now im gonna go relax and have a great weekend

peace out peoplezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

have a great weekend

187 still LOL but an AmaZinG DaY!!!!

We had a great therapy day!

(Don't you just love my tinkerbell flowered socks?)

This is the first time ever he has finished all of the opposites puzzle and knew what everything was!!!!!!!!

I'm so excited.  He is getting better every day.  He is learning to finish things thanks to Eric.  I love it!!!!!!!

So everything is perfect here.  Hopefully he will be so worn out from all the hard work today he will nap and i'll get to work out

We shall see

Other than that my eating has been great.

I just made kale chips.

which is a recipe i just found from another blogger on here

The recipe is  kale and you spray the kale with that fake buter spray and put shaker parmesan cheese on it and bake at 375 for 8-10 mins

tastes amazing heres a pic of the extras i put in a bag for later

other than that we are just hanging out watching TEAM UMIZOOMI 

 Its new on NICK

I dunno if i like it yet lol but its teaching shapes today

so its all good lol :)

GREAT DAY SO FAR

I'LL UPDATE LATER IF I GET MY WORKOUT IN

PEACE OUT PEOPLEZZZZZZZZ!!!!!

and the award goes to ........

So I just got my 2nd award from biggsgetsskinny
Thanks so much!!!!!!

so I am supposed to write 10 things that make me happy and send it to 10 people that inspire me

so here goes nothing

10 people who inspire me (and of course the ones without blogs my hubby, my son , my sis, my mom , my dad, and my neice)

1.  truly into fitness

2.  spunkysuzi

3.  once upon a time in the land of cheese and sunkist

4.  kellyislosingweight.

5.  kats adventures in dietland

6.  just another FAT girl

7.  enduranceisntonlyphysical

8.  journeybeyondsurvival

9.  corletta

10.  a new start losing weight

ok and 10 things that make me happy

1.  my family

2.  beyonce    i had to say it cuz im listening to her right now

3.  blogging

4.  swimming

5.  overcoming autism

6.  exercising

7.  thinking about having one more baby  ~  cant ya tell my biological clock is ticking anymore lol

8.  singing at the top of my lungs like a freak lol which of course i am doing right now too hahahaha

9.  eating cheese fries every couple months even though it tend to make me sick its my reward every now and then

10.  seeing my sister and my neice happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jan 28th workout

Jillian Michaels 30 day shred
all 3 levels
burnt   717   cals

wow!!!!!!!

around 187 and 10 questions

so today I dont really have anything to talk about
I think i've gotten it all out in the last couple days and 3 gazillion posts lol
so I am going to do
questions today
I love when spunkysuzi does them so I decided to come up with some of my own
it just something fun for everyone

Here goes nothing  :-)

1.  What has motivated you the most through your weight loss journey?

2. What is your favorite workout to do?

3. What is your favorite food to eat that you can still lose weight and eat?

4. What is your actual favorite food lol?

5. What is your favorite drink?

6. What is the most important thing in your life?

7. What is your favorite color?

8.  What is your hobby or favorite thing to do?

9. What is your favorite TV show?

10. What is the best movie you have ever seen?

adding pictures to my blog

Today and yesterday I decided to add before and after pics to my blog
I put up alot of before pics when I was 265 pound because they just amaze me
I dont think I was smiling in any of them
I was not happy at all
and really never looked in a mirror so i never knew i was that big

I also put some pics on my fridge so i know to never go back to that point

Today I felt a binge coming on I was feeling bad cuz I gained a pound or so (which i think is muscle)
but I decided to look through these pics and decided i've done amazing and dont need to binge today and i just need to cheer up lol

I realized also that i had to wear glasses all the time back then because my contacts would dry out all the time
and i realized how happy i am to be back at a great weight that i can wear my contacts again
thats a huge deal that just started a couple months ago and i totally overlooked it even in my mind
but thats a huge deal


so my question to all of you today is
is there any milestone like that
that you have accomplished and overlooked because your so focused on the scale sometimes
just wondering if anyone else has done the same thing as i just did

I've decided to try to lose more weight but to also now be happy for all that I've done and accomplished
which I hadnt done yet until today
so yay me

jan 27th workout

BIGGEST LOSER POWER SCULPT

DID ALL 3 LEVELS

AND BURNT 426 CALORIES

around 186 ~ Its too early to be awake ~

I think its too early for me to be awake right now lol
I stayed up to watch the BIGGEST LOSER and I'm gonna say it I wish I hadn't
there was way too much drama in this one for me
didnt like it
they definately need to get back to the importance of the weight loss journey not all this drama
I am going to say I understood why migdalia wanted to go home
I also had my husband go over to iraq a couple years ago and if I were on the show I actually would of went home too spend the last couple weeks with him
sorry to say it but i would have
thats no joke
thats real life right there people
so I dont know how everyone else felt about it and I think she could have went about it in a different way but thats just me
I'm just saying I understood how she was feeling
 I cried when i saw her cry talking to him
it brought back too many hard memories
I definately wish her the best of luck but tit sounds like the clip at the end said so far she lost 65 pounds so already shes done great


The other thing I wanted to talk about was my whey protein today
Nicole  and Lisa and I think there were some other people a while back asked what kind I am using
so decided to post a picture
I hope this helped
I get it at wegmans
I hope you can read the nutrition if you blow the picture  up
maybe
i dont know its kinda blurry
sorry

HOPE EVERYONE HAS A GREAT DAY

PEACE OUT!!!!!!!!!

the eats for today

ummmm
lets see i had whey protein shake for breakfast like i do most days
and so far ive had that and lunch
look at my lunch
it was delicious

spinach salad
garbonzo beans
and cucumbers and a little ranch dressing

yummmmmmmm

havent decided about dinner yet today anyone have any great ideas that go with what i've had so far today?

jan 26th workout

jillian michaels banish fat boost metabolism

still think this is the best dvd I own

burnt 498 calories  today

love this dvd it makes me feel empowered and strong to get through the rest of the day when i am done

my heart rate is still at 104 sitting here lol

but i need to go take a shower and drink lots of water

186 ~ laugh in bed

I just commented myself to let everyone one know i really appreciated everyone comments yesterday

and NATALIA you totally made my day by calling me inspiring love ya girl
you definately help keep me accountable!

so i am just sitting here listening to










Grannys eating cake for breakfast
ummm dang her
just kidding

Im good with my protein shake
its chocolate LOL

so oh yea my heading   ~ LAUGH IN BED~
Last night was another long night with my son
GOD BLESS HIM
I guess I gave him the wrong pizza that lovely picture I showed you yesterday is now called the devils pizza lol just kidding

Its gluten free and dairy free but not good for my son and I didnt read it becasue we always use a different kind that looks very similar to this box and my dad actually bought this for him by accident because it looked so similar
i think we use amys
well this one I used yesterday  I took a more in depth look at it after he broke out in a rash and got all discolored looking again for the first time in awhile

It has lactate in it
which is a huge NO NO NO NO  for my son
It
makes him have horrid reflux and a rash and well he gets discolored because he has such bad reflux
poor kid was up till 1 am yesterday because of this darn pizza
He couldnt sleep i mean could you if you had horrid reflux 
I think not
I felt like horrible mother for giving this too him
He wasnt crying or anything but I know he was awake because of his allergies
but at least i can say he had fun and was ~ LAUGHING IN BED ~
He watched alvin and the chipmunks all night long
the wolfman one and the frankenstein one lol
His new favorite movie
He definately loves the older classics
like scooby and alvin

Its pretty cool most kids I know cant sit through these oldies but goodies
but my little man cant get enough of them

Sooooo anyways my hubby and I went into the bed we were still awake and of course we have monitor to hear him
We are always awake when he can't sleep
but this brings me to laughing in bed
I think we all need to laugh in bed some nights
because we did last night and I will tell you I am in a great mood
(im tired and still sick mind you) but in an amazingly great mood all from laughing in bed
we cuddled and laughed for hours on end
the best was laughing at our son making howling at the moon noises from the wolfman part of the movie
or singing the songs they have that are brand new to him but he sang them clear as day
amazing!!!!

so it was a great night
like i said ive changed my attitude towards life
Im up at 1am laughing now
instead of wondering why me
we live laugh and love about everything
and learn more and more about our son who thinks we cant hear him
he talks during the day but when he is alone he can say amazing things like gigantic sentences that would amaze anyone who knows him


OH EVERYONE ITS BIGGEST LOSER NIGHT TONIGHT
WHO IS EXCITED HERE WITH ME????

WELL I AM GOING TO GO DO SOME LAUNDRY AND THEN EXERCISE

I'LL UPDATE LATER IN THE DAY SOMETIME 

HOPE EVERYONE HAS A WONDERFUL DAY TODAY 



PEACE OUT !!!!!!!!

jan 25th workout

yay!!!!!!!!!!
I finally got him to take a nap
which amazed the hell out of me thats 2 days out of the week amazing lol
cuz trust me it hard if he doesnt want one i dont force it
he is getting older so it ok not to nap now
but im so excited i get to work out now
so ill be back in an hour or so with the results

yay!!!!!!


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i did jillian michaels no more trouble zones
i cried halfway through lol
it was really hard today for some reason
i was so excited to workout and 20 mins into i started bawling cuz i felt like i was gonna through up
very weird
but i did not quit
never quit once ya start is my motto
so i cried for a min or 2 and got back to it and i didnt through up so im good and proud of myself now for not quitting

burnt     454    cals

now i am going ot go drink alot of water

peace out!!!!!!

long day at 187

uuuuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmm..................
where to start
we had therapy today at the house
it went well
my son did really good today
thankfully

Eric and he built a gear tower for about an hour or so  it seemed

 but he was talking well during it all so it seemed ok to spend so long on it



then the other hours were letter games ( the old upword game) and math games with the dinosaurs

fun fun fun



















then i made him some gluten free casein free spinach pizza for lunch
as you can see that went over very well lol

soon hopefully will be nap time and i can get some good cardio in

but for now we are just relaxing after a 3 and a half hour long therapy session

and by saying relaxing i mean watching scooby doo

Who doesnt love Scooby Doo???

but i guess i'll write some more later if i get anything really accomplished exercise wise later

peace out!!!!!!!

187 and a great weekend

I had a great weekend!!!!!!!!

My sister came up to find a dress for her wedding
and we shopped all day on saturday till we found this beauty
I almost cried when she came out in it

Doesnt she look amazing?




















                                                                                   

And isnt this dress gorgeous also

this is the dress she wants for her daughter (the maid of honor)
and thats the color for the bridesmaids also
its going to be an august wedding
i think its a great color
dont you?















so besides  all the wedding things that Im sure you will all hear more about lol


My eating wasnt great but it wasnt horrible 
I didnt get to workout on saturday
but I think I did enough walking in my shape ups to make up for it lol

and I had an amazing weekend
full of family and fun

Hope you all had great weekends as well

PEACE!!!!!!!!


oh yea and aunt kathy if you are reading my blogs you could leave  a comment for goodness sakes 

 lol just kidding

mom just told me you read this sometimes
im sure you are liking this one you get to see the wedding dress early   you lucky duck   ;-)

jan 22nd workout

jillian michaels 30 day shred

level 1  burnt   232   cals

level 2  burnt     321     cals

didnt do level 3 today im just too sick for it

so i had a great workout and a great day maybe sleep deprived is the way to go LOL

so 553 cals for today

187 epiphany

Last night my little boy whom has autism was having a horrible night.  He got up at 2 am and if you know somone with autism that isnt uncommon and it wasnt like he was sad or unhappy he just couldnt sleep any longer.  So he started kicking the walls.  Its a stim of his he lays in bed and kicks the walls because he likes the way it sounds and pressure he gets on his feet from it.  but as you can imagine there was going to be no sleep for anyone in the household.  My hubby and i tried and tried but we were up every couple minutes or so checking on him or asking him to stop kicking the walls.  There was no such luck so as usual my hubby and i start fighting because we are exhausted. This usually ends with us screaming at each other.  Raising a child with autism can be very hard and it can really tear people apart. Ok so back to us screaming.  I just decide out of no where this is not worth fighting over anymore.

I actually just stop out of nowhere  being upset and start thinking of all the reasons i have to be happy
which i will tell you are alot :)
I have a great family and thats happiness all in itself
but i can relate this epiphany also with my weight loss journey
with weight loss no one can do it for you you have to do it yourself
just like no one can make you happy you have to make yourself happy
i realize i have changed my life for the better this past year
i have basically stopped to smell the roses

Even as i write this at 5 am sitting next to my little one whom is asking me to kiss his stuffed  puppy dog goodnight LOL
I love my life i wouldnt change it at all
in the morning i will still have this horrible cold and be exhausted but i will have my wonderful family
i will be happy because I made myself happy
I stopped myself from being upset and dwelling on what could or should be (like i should be asleep or my hubby shouldnt be yelling at me)
instead i get to spend this extra time with my son and i will be able to say in the morning I LOVE YOU to my hubby instead of being upset
its never worth fighting because i know i will always be there for my hubby  at the end of the day
what an epiphany i have had tonight
i only hope that i can remember this on every hard night
i hope to always remember that no one else can make me happy I need to choose to be happy and then use my own actions to keep myself happy even through the rough times.

SSSSOOOOOO i am done with my epiphany writing for now
i am going to sit here and watch handy manny with my beautiful son and when my hubby gets up give him a huge kiss and maybe at some point tell him everything i have learned tonight especially the part about how much i love him and that ill be there no matter what so there will be no more night time fights about autismic stims :)  it is what it is and i wouldnt change this life for the world

jan 21st workout

the biggest loser cardio dvd

almost gave up after  level 1
but didnt and went for level 2
and even level 3
i am   sooooooooooo   proud of myself for not quitting 
and for burning    455        cals


grannys sick now with a stomach bug
im sick with a head cold this is not a good day at all for us

wish us luck

think i am definatly goin to have to let my body recover tomorrow
we shall see if my brain will let me and not torment me lol

back down to 188

i feel like i am always going up and on occasion down but my main weight usually is the good old 188
its all good though
better than when it was a constant 265 for 3 years

so im back down to the 188 and actually ok with it

i am still very sick so i will see where the day takes me

i dont really feel like moving but like always my brain says you need to work out
so i probably will

stupid right

you think i could relax while im sick

i was so sick i slept from 6pm -6 am yesterday
 so i guess i got my relaxing in lol

i was so thankful to my hubby for letting me sleep yesterday

I LOVE HIM
HE IS GREAT

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who doesnt love chocolate covered strawberries and a huge glass of water for lunch lol
this has to make my cold go away :)

the biggest loser

i forgot to ask how many of you guys watched the biggest loser last night
did you like it if you did watch it
im still up in the air about liking it
felt like almost  too much drama for me last night
i dunno
i know i didnt get up and workout like usual
im not sure if that was from not feeling good or if i just wasnt that into it last night
oh well
just wanted to get some opinions on it

jan 20th workout

the biggest loser last chance workout

burnt    532   cals

all i have to say is OUCH!!!!!!

i didnt even give it my all today because i am not feeling well
i kept taking a break here and there were i wouldnt normally to catch my breath because i a have a cold and i will tell you i think its time for a nap now
i havent felt this bad since well i dont even remember probably years ago
thats what i get for not taking my vitamins this weekend
honestly i believe it from not having vitamins in my system for a couple days
never again i will definatly be taking them everyday


OOOOOOUUUUCCCHHHHHHYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!

around 190

im going to try to workout in a couple minutes and im hoping not to pass out or anything because i have a bad cold and cant breath really well

it started last night and it has only gotten worse
so im a little worried

 im goin to try to workout but take it easy

maybe just move more today
who knows
im exhausted
head colds are the worse
you feel like your in daze

this is what i get for doing nothing and pigging out all weekend and not taking my vitamins or anything

i think i learned my lesson or i am hoping i have now lol


i guess i will write back if i accomplish anything today
wish me luck

or maybe wish that i feel better soon cuz this is not a good feeling ive got going on today :(

peace!!!!!!!!

jan 19th workout

geeezzzz is it jan 19th already

i better get back in the groove soon lol


so i did the biggest loser Bootcamp dvd

and burnt        528               cals

happy 101 award goes to..........

thanks natalia for giving me this award

and i want to thank spunkysuzi for giving me the beautiful blogger award

you guys put a smile on my face today adn i havent had one on my face all weekend so thank you

So I have to write 10 things that make me happy, and list 10 people who inspire/motivate me. Pass it on... awards are fun!

10 things that make me happy are

1  my little one

2   my hubby

3 my puppy ~ HALLIE

4  exercising

5  music  ~  i am listening to P!NK right now

6  my chapstick cant live without it i hate dry lips lol

7 playing the WII

8 the biggest loser tv show

9  jumping on the trampoline

8  going to the beach

9 oh i almost forgot my frog ~FORREST  (albino water frog 2 years old as cute as can be)

10  my new sketchers shape ups

do i have to pick only 10 people

ok

1 natalia-baage

2  skinny me

3  spunkysuzi

4  tjs weigh or the highway

5  whatasplurge

6  phat nanny

7  jenslosinit

8 haveyouseenmyweight

9   fat-free-me

10  amelias mom race to the skinny jeans

192

I had a bad weekend i ate whatever i wanted whenever  i wanted it

and gained 5 pounds by the end of the 3 day weekend
so i am back up to 192 and owning it

the 180 - i guess 190 s have been very hard for me

i stepped up my workouts and id burn myself out within the last 2 weeks
so really i need to find a middle ground

and hopefully i will soon

i know i have been depressed lately so that isnt helping but i am hoping it is the winter blues and if i up getting my sunlight and vitamins then maybe i will feel better soon

we will hope

 but for now i dont even feel like blogging today

so i am just checking in and when i feel better will post more i guess

sorry guys

peace

188 again

so today is going to be a busy day
i dont know if i will have time to workout or not but i will try because i am not as sore as i was yesterday

so thats a good thing
but  the scale went up today
i really have no idea why i have been so good
i dont get it the 180s are very hard for me hopefully i will be past them soon
i'll try to write back later if i get any workouts accomplished today lol

peace!!!!!!!!!!

jan 14th workout

THE BIGGEST LOSER CARDIO DVD

1st level   burnt  225 calories

2nd level         95 cals

3rd level   75 cals

then i added some abs and more cardio to get 100 more cals


i think my total today is 505 cals
which is ok i try for over 400 everday


( just not into it  today  ~   felt like i wasnt even doing it today  ~   kinda numb feeling  ~  feeling sore from this past week of workouts ~  im burnt out so i think friday i am taking the day off ~ very weird not usually feeling like this  )

around 186

so i am such an idiot or so i feel like one right now
last night i went shopping with my mother for a new pair of black pants because mine were all very baggy
i needed them for a bridal shower we are going to this weekend
anyways
we went to the mall and spent sooooooooooo long trying to find a stupid pair of pants
it was depressing actually because i thought for sure i was a size 16 because all my 18s are too big
and i guess i am because i ended up getting 16s its just that not all of them fit
it was weird
most of them were too tight and the 18 were still too big
can somone seriously be in between sizes that much
well all i can say is i am a size 16 and i should have been happy but the whole ordeal was depressing to me instead of oh yea im a 16  feeling
i had the why didnt those first 10 pants  fit feeling

so i ended up coming home and eating too much not bad things but just too much of the good things and too late at night

so needless to say i am mad at myself right now

ill get over it

im just hoping i dont gain too much and that i am able to still fit in  the size 16 for this weekend

if not i know ill be crying more than i was yesterday

i just have no idea why i did this to myself

ill tell ya my hubby thought i was crazy

he said you were a size 28-26 at one point and never really cared and you get into a size 16 and you come home crying

and hes right it doesnt make sense
so i need to think about this and   take it a day at a time

i am doing this to have another baby not be thin so why is it that i am crying about how i look right now

the only thing i can think of is that i feel like i work too hard to look like this still
or maybe i can see the end point at this middle point and i know how hard its going to be
or maybe its that i started this a year ago and maybe thought i would have been at the weight that i would want to be able  to have another baby by now

everything i am listing is depressing me
right now

i think my clock is ticking or something and i know its still goin to be awhile away if i am lucky enough to even have another baby  and i am sad about that

im going to stop blogging for now because i can feel the tears coming

maybe ill blog again if i feel better after my workout

i dont want to be too depressing today

sorrry people

and the award goes to ......

I was awarded the beautiful blogger award by natalia today

thanks natalia!  click on her name to see her amazing blog also!!!!!   

The stipulations of the award are that I list seven other beautiful bloggers, and list seven facts about myself that you guys don't know. And then the seven ladies on the list have to repeat this cycle with their own lists. Enjoy!

 
Seven Beautiful Bloggers:


1   282.5
 
2  a new start
 
3  did i just eat that out loud
 
4  endurance isnt only physical
 
5   fat free me
 
6 have you seen my weight
 
7 kats adventures in dietland
 
 
7 things you may not know about me
 
1  i have an amazing child with autism
 
2  i watch my gram with altzheimers
    for fun
    god love here
    she an amazing lady
 
 
3  i love the singer  P!NK
 
4 also love the singer Beyonce
 
5  i chew a peice of bazooka gum everyday lol
 
6  i have a noisy pain in the butt dog named HALLIE  but we still love her she is a bishapoo
 
and last but not least #7
 
uuuuuummmmmmm     i like to watch keeping up with the kardashians lmao
i know i know doesnt seem like my sorta thing but i like the show for some odd reason
 

jan 13th workout

so i am mixing it up today
i am doing the BIGGEST LOSER BOOTCAMP DVD
all 3 levels
so far i did   LEVEL 1 and i am taking a 3 min break in between
i burnt 178 calories

LEVEL 2 BURNT  CALORIES   133
LEVEL 3  BURNT CALORIES   65

DID EXTRA ABS AND CARDIO AND BURNT AND EXTRA 100 CALORIES

MAKES FOR A TOTAL OF  AROUND 475 TODAY

NOT AS GOOD AS MOST DAYS BUT I THINK ITS BECAUSE BOOTCAMP IS MORE STRENGTH SO IT DOESNT BURN AS MUCH CALORIES

AM I RIGHT OR WRONG ABOUT STRENGTH NOT BURNING AS MANY CALORIES????????????????? CUZ I AM NOT SURE

187 uuuggghhh!!!

thats what the scale said this morning but i dont know
thats a 2 pound gain for no reason at all
doesnt make sense so i am not worried about it
i am so sore so i know i am working as hard as i can
maybe its muscles people right lol
i just dont know
i know my arms and legs do have more muscles and my pants arent getting tighter so i am goin with the muscle thing lol


yesterday was a good day
i was glad biggest loser was on
i sat and had me time during it
i ate popcorn which was fine during it and just relaxed
it felt good and the show was a good one last night


right now granny is having breakfast and im doing laundry again and im getting ready for my workout in a little bit

should be a good day today :)
hopefully my soreness goes away soon i havent been this sore since i started over a year ago but i have been stepping up my workouts lately so thats why

well i have to make some phone calls be back to write more later
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our little sledding hill we made is melting today
:(

workout jan12th

Did jillians no more trouble zones dvd
burnt 450 calories
and my cramps went away YAY!!!!!

still 185 and cramping

today i have the worst cramps since i started this whole weight loss thing over a year ago
i dont know whats wrong with me or if it was all the junk i ate over the holidays
but the cramps   ouch!!!!!!!!
feels like when i was out of shape and 265 pounds
yuck :(

im still going to workout in about an hour
probably a jillian dvd
i hope it will help
usually exercise helps so i have my fingers crossed 

right now i am relaxing listening to music
doing grannys laundry
next cleaning all the bed sheets and things
already got her shower and her breakfast
still need to vacuum

and then hopfully she will nap or relax on the couch  and i can exercise
its all up to her lol

workout jan11th

my workout today was jillian michaels 30 day shred
all 3 levels
burnt 802 calories

185

so as of this morning i weigh 185
3 pound loss

yay!!!!!!!!!
i'll have more later because its going to be a busy morning
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so the busy day is done
thankfully
it was ok
i had to meet my sons new TSS
our old one got engaged on christmas so he moved around 2 hours away
the new guy is very nice
and will start again on thursday

but it was busy here today with the tss and bsc and granny and my son and it
seemed like alot was going on but everyone behaved lol


we are just eating some leftovers from dinner the other night for lunch

im going to try to workout at some point if my son feels like napping
i am sure he will because it was a hard day meeting his new tss
so fingers are crosssed for a nap
if not there will be no exercise until 10 tonight when he goes to bed
yuck cant even think like that ill be exhausted by then  :(
HATE MONDAYS LOL

Im trying to put a picture on here of sled riding last night
we did that for about an hour and a half  yesterday up and down up and down
musta walked a mile or so my legs were killing me
and that was my exercise yesterday no dvds :(

 and we shopped for my snow pants for about an 2 hours  or so

no one had snow pants it sucked but i finally found a pair of mens lol

 but i walked with my shapeups so
my legs were just killing by the end of the day yesterday

they are fine today thankfully

i know the pic sucks but its all i got lol

this is my son and i sledding

the hill was up farther thats basically were it flattened out and we would hike back up again

he is so funny he was trying to chase me and jump on lol

too cute

we took turns till he figured out he could jump on my back and go faster LOL

it was too much fun

still 188

still 188 today
which is fine
im ok with my weight right now

this is my rest day
so we will probably spend alot of time playing in the snow
and relaxing but not too much relaxing  lol

everyone had lunch and is watching tinkerbell right now
its grannys favorite  movie

i was thinking about how great it is to not be held back by my weight anymore

last year i never wanted to go outside and play in the snow
i was out of breath just by getting my son and i ready
sledding yea right i would have broken the sled at 265


and now we go out a couple times a day
last night around 7 we went  out for a late sled ride down the hill at our house  for about a half an hour it was soooooo much fun

i think im sad of all the fun times i missed for a couple years there

so today i am just thinking about how i am   NEVER   going to let my weight hold me back ever again

i mean i am not at my goal weight im still fluffy lol but i will never let it hold me back or keep me from doing things with my son

im still sad about not doing fun things when he was little but i figure
he still is little he is 4 and hopefully he will not remember just sitting around the house all the time
he will only remember these good time we are having now and the ones that are to come from now on


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im making dinner and its taking forever
im so hungry hopefully i can wait
 i hate eating a snack right before dinner
you know your gonna gain when you end up doing that so im reading blogs to try to get through this moment of i nnnnnnneeeeeddddddd tttttooooo eeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaattttttttt!!!!!!!! LMAO


i am making the most delicious thing ever lol

in a crockpot i put diced up ham
a reduced fat cheese sauce
 potatoes
corn
carrots
green beans
flax seed
and mix it all together and let it cook for bout 2 hours on high i guess i should say 2 and half cuz its lookin like it needs another half an hour this time

its delicious and i believe pretty good for you or so i hope lol
i dont see what would be bad for you  in it :)

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so i am so proud of myself i made it till dinner before eating anything
i didnt snack
yay
say goodbye to 188 cuz ya know im gonna lose some weight this way lol

188!!!!!!!!

stepped on the scale today lost another of those pesky holiday binging pounds yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
188
i feel back to normal
its great

its snowing like crazy here today and i cant wait till it slows down a little so i can take my little one out to play in the snow
he loves to make a hill  and sled down it

when i say make one it means we have to shovel the whole yard to make a big hill to sled down
lol

we did that yesterday so at least we have a little head start to making a gigantic one today
but talk about exercise
shoveling it the best exercise ever
i think i got a half an hour in yesterday

and im sure it will be even more today
but at least it fun exercise :)


so we went to the autism meeting yesterday were my son was evaluated again
they do it every 6 months or so
and they told me he now only has pdd and thats only cuz they dont know were to even put him cuz he is close to not having much autism at all
which is great but i wouldnt let them change the diagnosis
first off its great to say that and all but if i take him off the gfcf diet or any biomedical things we are doin he will regress ALOT!!!!!
and second i still want all the help i can get for him
like a tss at school and things like that
whether he needs one or not any child could benifit from some extra help
so its a fight but we always keep the diagnosis because things could change at any moment around here he could regress any day or hopefully not but
there are always ups in down with autism
he regress last month alot behavioral wise because we stopped a probiotic we were using
hes back on it and fine now but if the guy had saw him last month none of it would have been an issue
so thats the crazy part of this up and down world of autism
im just thankful when he is doing his best and i try harder when he is regressing


my grams stomach bug has gone away
yipee no more diaper changes 4 or 5 times a day
my poor gram god bless her

im just glad her stomach better cuz she was in pain and she never complains but this one was bad she would grab her stomach and say there somthing wrong  and ill tell ya the ladies arm could be falling off and she would care less so i felt for her the last couple days it wasnt good
but last night and this morning is better so all in all

A GREAT DAY ALREADY!!!!!

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we just got in from an hour of outdoor snow fun play lol

wow
that was a workout i think we made a hill that was at least 3  or 4 ft tall out of 2 or 3 inches of snow from all around the yard

i might take a pic to put on here later

because i told my little one that when daddy comes home form work we can show him and play outside again

i dont know if i have anymore energy left for a workout but i will be doing one after lunch probably like in 2 hours or so
fun fun

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so far today 656 cals burnt with the jillian last chance workout and i thought it kicked my butt but i still added some ab work afterwards so the dvd probably burnt 525 cals and thne the rest i was doing some ab and some extra sculpting and jump rope i love jump roping in place its fun
i think i just like jumping period cuz i love my mini trampoline

189

yipeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!
one more pound gone from those yucky holiday binge eating  pounds
almost back to 182
 7 more pounds to go  which i am hoping are gone by valentine day
sounds like a good day to be back to my normal weight  so i can go out to the olive garden LMAO!!!!
hey it will be valentines day and i am married yall
LOL
im actually excited about valentines this year because my hubby and i are getting along great and everythings been goin great so i get to be excited dang it  :)



thank goodness these pounds are coming off quickly
i didnt feel like myself for awhile


so ne wayssssss 
i have a pretty busy day today

but i will be working out in about an hour

i plan on doing jillian no more trouble zones

i mixed it up this week
jills blast fat
jills 30 day shred
now jill no more trouble zones then i think  tomorrow i will do a biggest loser dvd
which should be easy after all the jillian dvds lol  jk

hopefully granny has a better day today
she was real sick with a stomach bug yesterday

that i think i have today
  just as long as my little one doesnt get it ill be happy
  he woke up an was complaining about his belly to so i am crossing my fingers  he doesnt get it



but the busy part comes fromt he meeting we have today about his autism
its to see were he is mentally
these meetings always give me anxiety
but they always turn out fine
so i am trying to stay calm lol


well im gonna go granny is just waking up so she need help in the shower

peace out

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so i just got done with the jillian no more troubles and was suprised that it only burnt 475 calories  because it is the hardest dvd ive ever done

but it may be that its more strength training then cardio
does that make a difference calorie wise

le tme know cuz i am so confused i pushed myself as hard as the 30 day shred but that one burns i think it was 630 cals


i dunno
very confused now lol

whey protein

i was wondering if anyone knew a good store to go to and get whey protein i went to wegmans last night and it seemed like the calories were so high in the ones there
i think the one i got was 180 calories and 3 grams of fat and 25 grams of protien and i think thats the best one i found

i really want to try the biggest loser one but i dont know if any stores sell it or even try the 100 calorie designer whey that make the biggest loser one but the only place i have seen to get this stuff is amazon

and other suggestions are very much welcomed

thanks for an info

biggest loser

i thought the biggest loser show is starting out better this year then last year
i just wasnt that into it last year i dont know why i still watched it but it didnt give me that feeling of getting up and having to exercise while im watching it

this year i already had to exercise while watching it

i jumped on my trampoline while i watched it last night id get on and jump 10 mins then got off for 10 then back on for 10
it was great

it was a good night but i am tired today

its only wed and im exhausted its only 9 am and im exhausted

thats what i get for staying up late and watching the biggest loser and exercising through most of it

oh well

i watch my gram everyday and she has altzheimers and today has been horrible already so that adds to my exhaustion
i hate cleaning up poop lol

i know i know whine whine whine 
what can i say its the morning even though i have been up since 6 and im miserable in the mornings

i hope the day gets better


pray for us
so this day gets a little better pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee

:)

im goin to go get a jillian workout in even though i dont want to but i think once i start ill be happier




just like yesterday hopefully

well ill be writing back later most likely like i always do i just put one of these lines and write again soon 
it helps me through these long days LOL

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im so excited i just weighed myself and i am at 190 so much better than 195 yay!!!! im on my way back down to 182 it was take a couple weeks but it will come back off adn then my goal will be 175 which was my goal for jan but i pigged out and binged and all that during the holiday but at least i  am back on track and losing those extra pounds quickly
thank goodness i was really scared about that

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i just did jillian 30 day shred all 3 levels and burnt 632 cals today
YAY!!!!!!

followers

thanks everyone for following my blog and leaving comments
everyone is really inspiring me
and it has definatly helped this last week since i had the winter blues which was crappy
but they seem to be gone as of today lol

i got back on track and did my new jillian dvd     banish fat boost metabolism
i loved it i got throught the whole thing on my first try and i also used my new heart rate watch and it said i burnt 600 calories today
so im exstatic i dont think i realized how many calories i was ever burning doin these biggest loser and jillian michaels dvds and i dont think i  realized how exercise can really change your mood and make you feel better until today were i had felt like not even moving and afterward i felt like i could conquer anythin LOL

cant wait to exercise again tomorrow and definatly cant wait for the biggest loser show tonight YAY!!!!!!

first day of healthy living in 2010

im feeling like i can do this today and get back on track so we shall see
i am going to try to start working out again
and i started eating better yesterday not great but better
its hard after i binge eat to get back on track
i mean all the crap i ate has basically made me depressed and
 i feel sick physically and mentally
it will take a couple days to start feeling better but it all starts with the food
and i hope when i get active i will have some more energy becaus ei all have wanted to do is sit around

i did go out yesterday and get a pair of sketcher shape ups
and did grocery shopping with them on
i could definately feel it
takes a little to get used to
i am going to wear them around the house sometimes just for an added boost for my butt lol
you are only supposed to wear them for like an hour at a time
so when you go grocery shopping and things like that its a good idea i think
they are supposed to help improve your posture and help tone your legs and butt
i think it does help your core to
its all about balancing in them
i think they are great if your trying to lead a healthy lifestyle they are just an added bonus i believe

well we will see how today goes

its day one of my healthy lifestyle in 2010 lol

and with all the new gidgets and gadgets i have i should be 140 in no time :)

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195

i stepped on the scale today and i am now 195 thats about a 12 pound gain over 1 week
can anyone say binge eating

but i am giving myself this because i was so strick for a year and i think i needed this break from reality

so today is back to the strick healthy lifestyle that i actually love
i needed this break to realize i love not eating all that junk that makes me feel sooooo bad
it tastes good for a day sometimes but after that it makes you feel rundown and digusting

and i really enjoy working out because it makes me feel better and i can move better and i am not so miserable
like i feel today

oh well todays a new day and we started a new year and hopefully by the end of it i weigh around 140
we shall see


happy new year everyone

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so today already didnt go as i planned
i already ate like pig
 its so hard to stop once you start
 i think my stomach stretched again so i never feel full again its bad and i feel disgusting

and i was too lazy to work out

me the one who worked out 2 hours a day cant find any energy and i know thats from eating crap
so i am starting tomorrow

once i get to working out i should be able to get my eating back in check because honestly you cant work out as hard as i was and eat liek a pig youll vomit lol

so wish me luck tomorrow

otherwise i am never goin to get back on track