路遥知马力，日久见人心

不知道为什么，突然想到这一句话。
有可能因为我到了一个陌生的地方，
跟一群原本陌生
但渐渐熟络的人
生活在一起，
工作在一起。
所以
才有这样的想法吧。

我发现，
我会尽量做到人人都开心。
我希望大家不会因为我的粗心而受到伤害。
有可能因为自己曾因为某些人的无心之过而感到委屈，
我提醒自己，千万不要那样。
如果我做的小小事能够令大家皆大欢喜，
那何乐而不为呢？

我很自私的。想要自己好受。
不是因为伟大所以这样做。

我期望自己，能够做到公平。
因为不希望别人对我不公平。
但是，世上又有什么东西是公平的呢？
对于某些朋友我就是会想要多付出一点，
这样子是不是对其他朋友不公平呢？


从来没想到做朋友有多么难。
难就难在，
把人家当朋友，
也希望人家把你当朋友看。
怎么突然有种被敷衍的感觉？
怎么有种一厢情愿的感觉？
想了想，
应该是我太天真了吧。
毕竟相处的时间短，
不应该一味的想为别人付出，
却没有想过人家想不想要呢？

我要成熟一点，
坚强一点，
这些都没什么的嘛，
把工作做好，
别人的事不要管，
开开心心的。
没有什么大不了的事，
对不对？
反正，
害人之心不可有就对了。
反正，
日久见人心。

IMO

Do u noe who m i?

yawns...my name is IMO, pronounce as"e-mo"
IMO stands for International Maritime Organization.
My owners studied too hard during the MTP training program,
ran out of brain cells, so decided to call me tt.

I noe my face's abit blacker den e usual doggies
but i m actually a female.
YES, i m a she.
In case you are wondering,
i m supposed to b a 小狐狸狗.
ermmmz...dun ask me wats tt,
i also dunno.
wait till i grow bigger den show u my pictures k?
haha.

More pictures......

2nd day in Yantai!Snowed!!But cant really see in e pic...
Its taken in the estate we living in..

this is the yard tt i'm work for...ermmmz....
nothing much to see actu...haha..
this is after welding lesson...we wanted to drag abit
so tt when we get back its time to knock off..wahaha...

More picture at e yard....ermmmz...
k la i noe e uniform is NOT NICE...
but den jus bear with it k...

Me and my roomie!
Going to town on our 1st Sunday=)

freezing@Yantai

dear all
i've reached Yantai.
Safe and sound.
Gotten my lodging as well as my laptop.

Well its been a week or so,
Everything screwed up a lil here and there,
but basically it's still OK.
at least at this pt in time.

I'm a lil tired..well since a picture paints a thousand words,
so here it goes...below r some pictures of e place i'm living in=)






Its pretty ok place, nice neighbourhood, safe and qt convenient.
Heard that its more of a place for e koreans.
Got mistaken as one in e korean supermarket and in shopping centres.
Not tt i look like one but cos we looked different from them so tt's their best guess.
lol.

The weather fluctuates quite a fair bit here.
When its cold, it is really damn freezing cold!!
Brr....

hello mr. time, can u pls b considerate n fly slower?

How i spent my break -- 13th Oct (Saturday)- 21 Oct(Sunday)

13Oct

slept till noon=x

met up with xinhong,bingde and rayner.

had dinner at a vegetarian restaurant.

played mahjong.

lost 5 bucks.

i m lousy lo.

lol.

14Oct

met hh,gary n wl for ktv at teo heng.

aft tt went to a cafe for icecream.

ended up with hh ordering a 4-course meal at 4pm.

hahaha.faint.

aft tt went to meet e 00s for dinner at clark quay.

we had pepper lunch.
1st time i tried.

ermmz...it was OK.

not as bad as i thot=x

15Oct

went nus with xinhong and den submit health report for visa application.

stupid me forgot to bring along x-ray!!!
gotta go down again!!! faint.

at night met up with mainworks - guanhua,lingfeng,chris and jelena
for dinner at hongkong cafe.

16Oct

met wen in morning for insurance matters,
aftn met janice. went shopping for gifts.

at night accompanied sis for dinner,
had ma la steamboat,

and carry on shopping.

hehehe.

17Oct

xinhong accompanied me to submit x-ray and
we shopped around again.haha.

its actu qt tiring to keep on shopping
n i m seriously getting A LIL tired.
wahaha.
kk i know able to shop during office hours is a luxury
and i shall not complain=p

dinner was with xinhong's family.

18Oct

went shopping with janice AGAIN, cos din managed to get wat we wanted on tue.

aft tt, i went to buy my external HD alone at sim lim.

deadbeat man.but bought wat i wan so not that bad.

met up with ruolin,liwei,liyan and ying for dinner.

19Oct

went back office today.

met up with my colleagues for lunch at coronation plaza.

so nan de edwin n i came back tog coincidentally!

happy to hav lunch tog again=)

aft tt met xinhong bought my perfume at millenia
and sis's bdae present at suntec.
dinner was at old airport road.

20Oct

.......

21Oct

had breakfast with vchew,wenhann,hong n nam.

at night had bdae celebration for my bro n sis.
we had dinner at this soup restaurant but its was OK only.
the chicken was not bad tho, as in e way they serve was qt unique.
bought this rpg game for bro.
tml wil be first day of work le...
so fast....

Is it meant to be?

i realised that,
the thought of leaving singapore,
is making me far more emotional than i usually already is and i thought i'd be.
seriously.
i just don't feel like leaving suddenly.
sorry its not PMS.
i don't deny that i m still excited abt the job.
despite all the scary things i've heard abt china.
i still wanna go,
i dunno y.
stupid me.
i wanna go...
but e prob is..
i dun wanna leave u all...
GREAT.
tt's wat i do best:
contradict myself to e max.
pls shoot either the angel or devil in me.
i m seriously sick of being stuck in dilemmas.

**********************************************
i cant move on with everything i want in life.
sadly.
k.
i noe its stupid to tink tt i can actu do tt.
but,
i just wished tt its possible.
i WISH.
but,
there are things that i have to let go,
and pray hard that it will still be there when i m back.
be it,anything.
if its meant to be,
its meant to be.

forgive me

i dun like to regret.
who does?
especially after i've made a decision.
feels terribly lousy.
when things goes beyond my expectations,
like now,
i dunno how to react.

i m an impulsive person.
i like to act on impulse.
vibres.gut feeling.premonition.watever u like to call it.
i'd like things to go the way i want, live life the way i desire.
but,
suddenly,
i realized that,
i m not alone.
i m actually responsible for another person's happiness.
m i being too selfish?self-centred?
did i not consider him in my beautifully-painted picture of my future?
i really dunno.
maybe i m jus too naive?
"what if you lose him bcos of this job?"
i was dumbfounded.
i never thought of this question.

scared.
i m scared.
i trust him.
but it is the relationship,that maybe i m not so sure of.
seein him tryin to be happy in front of me,
i feel like a bad person.
i feel so irresponsible.
leavin jus lidat.
i m such an idiot.
who m i to make him hurt so much?
i m sorry....
pls forgive me for being so selfish.