Things get distorted here.Gotta look beyond the obvious

A bit disappointed that Michael Owen has opted to sign for Newcastle, and will find it weird seeing him in black and white, I am not heartbroken, angry or indeed

He's a class act. He went abroad to win trophies, and I supported his decision, given it was to Real Madrid, at a time when his career was at a crossroads, and while Liverpool were entering another transitional period. It was the logical time to give it a shot. 'Now or never'.

He ended up winning nothing but a smattering of praise, while the Reds won the biggest prize of them all. Who saw that coming?Now Owen is at Newcastle, a club that thinks itself as important, despite winning next-to-nothing in fifty years. A big club in terms of support, but tiny in terms of achievement.

He will be a big success there, just as Milan Baros will prove a hit at Aston Villa. But in both cases I mean in terms of goals scored, not trophies won.Owen may not have enjoyed life back at Anfield,while Baros might not have done what Rafa required in Red. Both will probably outscore all of our strikers this season, but in sides geared toward feeding them at the expense of others. If those two sides finish mid-table, their goals will be far less meaningful.

Liverpool's interest seemed very conditional, Once Newcastle offered 17 million ponds, there was little chance of the Reds being successful in luring him back
Another of those conditions would have been rotation:In a World Cup year he just wanted to play. He has learned that being a substitute in a great side isn't as much fun as being a regular in any other side if he exist purely and simply for the rush of scoring goals. At Newcastle he is guaranteed to start every week.

It seems he's sacrificed trophies at club level(for the time being) in the hope of winning the biggest one of all with England team.He's also nearing the England goalscoring record, and that's a personal achievement that would mean as
much to him as a league championship medal,Maybe he'll leave Newcastle for a reduced fee in a year's time, and this will turn out to be no more than a glorified 'loan' deal. I can't see him staying there for the long haul, that's for sure.Footballers want to be remembered, to become eternal, and that's as good a way as any.

Don't get a good sleep last night.Maybe because what happen in this 2 days still flashing in mind .Anyway they have to leave this afternoon.Sleep at 4 in the morning and wake at 10 am.Still rainind hard.Just stuck in home doing nothing but internet and music (My favourite pass time).

Call up Joyce in the evening.Good to know she is fine.Chat with her for a while.She is going north for a study trip this coming weekend.Hope she has fun there.

Wake up with a bit headache and tired.Go grab something to eat at store but turn out the food there is not that clean .Feel burning stomach after it maybe food poisoning .Damnit!!Plan to meet praew and mak again this afternoon as they have arange the whole afternoon and evening to stick together.That's good !!

Hit the same places as yesterday ,almost same store.Heavy rain again and i get wet through.Feel real sick.Bring them to the japanese food store offering some tiny deserts,and some cake,tea stuff etc .They get 2 boxs of black sesame cake.If yesterday is Praew's day .Today will be mak's day cause he finally figure out what to buy and find something for his age.He get some surfing shorts and flip flop some stuff for his buddy for soveniour.

Walk a bit longer today.Praew get soul leg.She decide not to walk anymore plus it really rain too hard.Stop by at some pizza place.Although today i am real sick,i have good feeling in mind today.Just stay with them for two days but the feeling is special.For all these years , i don't get along the way people living in here ,sick culture ,sick atmosphere,sick shallow people.So this time they coming appear to me that they are much different than the other peopel i have to deal with in here as usual.They are much cooler.Not because the world is greener on the otherside.I really feel it on that way.It just like a 2 day break for me in this place.Anyway ,they will leave tomorrow.Hope to see them again in near future.

Take taxi back to their hotel.They decided to have some coffee at Starbucks.Stay there for a while .Do some photo shooting with them.And they get some snacks from 7-11 bring back to Thailand.Including jellybean,candy and stuff.Time to say goodbye to them.Sigh !! I have a good mental picture of these two days.Thanks so much.

A long walk to catch the bus home.See a street flight on the way.Angry guy smashed someone's head with a whisky bottle since he is accidentially step on that man's feet(That's all) .Lost of word about this.The more i see people from the other side of the world .Just get more confused about the things happen in here.Maybe if we believe if someone happen as a must, we just bling enough to adapt it rather than change it.Forget it.No one can really understand how i feel here.Better sleep the trouble away !!

Get up around 7:30 am .Can't really sleep well these days.Feel like tired but can't really get into sleep.Plus Praew suppose to arrive at here in a short awhile.Better not sleep over.Intended to pick her up and her family at airport but turns out they will take taxi to checking in the hotel.Obviously she came here not for her first time.Anyway,haven't talk with her in detail before she came.Not sure what's her plan in here.Just drop by the hotel to wait her and family to arrive.Arrive a bit early and can't contact her yet.Wait up at the lobby.Here is the trouble.A group of noisy chinese guest is down there yelling about.For the other guest ,it maybe like okay,they are just some group of noisy people.But if you get a chance to know what they yelling /bitching about .It just not fucking make sense and being unreasonable.Forget it,they will never noticed the way they are crossing the rule.They not belong to this earth i guess .So walked out to wait at front door is a better way .

Here they arrive.Guess she is a bit supprise i am there as she expect that we suppose to meet at evening.Not sure if she get other plan with family.Kind of embrass.Settle themselves down before we going out again.Mom and grandma plan to stay in room for rest.Praew and her cousin Mak join me to grab some lunch first.He is lot younger than me but i think is kidda cool as i see.Drop by at a restaurant and have a problem to translate the menu to english as the orginal words on it hardly mean a thing.Hope the food ordered is not far from what they want.This would be better if my english is lot better .Apparently she get a bit problem to understand what i try to ask and say.So the conversation is like broken english with lots of fragment.

Fucking rain ruin the whole plan.Ton of people on the street and not easy to walk quick.Have been hitting some stores.Not the first time to feel like this .But it's true that no matter what clothes she is with.It just look great.Match with any colour and even style of cloths.Amazing!No wonder she is picked by some agent for photo shooting.Some people they try to get fancy clothing to build up their confidence to make them feel they are better look then other .But for other people like her ,don't even have to do such things as she can match with all of it.Inner beauty to the outer.She both get it .Look best and confidence anyhow.Apparently she is sure what stuff she want to buy in here .So it make no hesitate for her to pick and get it.Mak didn't get anything as the store offer something out of his age.Drop by to some store for surfing band but it's either no stock for his size or he don't like the others style.Mom calling them to meet up for dinner.So the plan has to cut short.

Drop them off at the hotel around 6:30.Shakirah call over telling something bad happen to her over Sweden and she can't come back to Thailand at the time i am going there.Bad news for me as we plan to meet at late august.She has to stay there working for few more months before she can go back.Plus she tell me something that get her real down beside of that.Have discuss a long time with her problem encountered.It's like a horrible loop that never let her go.Blessing her to getting out of that soon.

On the way back home just stuck in traffic for 3 hours.I don't get it why every bus here was just air-con.It make people no choice to pay more bucks for it and also the cold stuffy air.Make people to do everything in a unilateral way and believe this is the only way .This is the principle that people here hold for living.Annoying much !!It is good only if it is too hot outside.But for the other days .Just feel like embedded in a big fridge.Get all wet and stuck in the fridge for 3 hours.Get a cold at the end.Damn it

Feel real sick.I am turning in zzZZzz

Wake up early as usual.Has drop by to the library on the way to lunch.Check out some language books.I like to self learning a brand new knowledge at home.I find it more easy to concentrate and efficient in this way.Boring day as it rain all day .Not heavy one but it rather non-stop.Annoy me a lot.Get a long chat with Play ,the funny and chatty friend.Have get the Sugar Ray CD in store this evening which I have lost for a long while. Anyway,just read a passage about what make up a nickname.Different alphabet suppose to carry a specific meaning.

Here is the guidances (From A - Y )

A - You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
B - You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people.
C - You definitely have a partier side in you,don’t be shy to show it.
D - You have trouble trusting people.
E - You are a very exciting person.
F - Everyone loves you.
G - You have excellent ways of viewing people.
H - You are not judgmental.
I - You are always smiling & making others smile.
J - Jealousy.
K - You like to try new things.
L - Love is something you deeply believe in.
M - Success comes easily to you.
N - You like to work, but you always want a break
O - You are very open-minded.
P - You are very friendly and understanding.
Q - You are a hypocrite.
R - You are a social butterfly.
S - You are very broad-minded.
T - You have an attitude, a big one.
U - You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
V - You have a very good physical and looks.
W - You like your privacy .
X - You never let people tell you what to do .
Y - You cause a lot of trouble.
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As for me ,it goes like this

B - You are always cautious when it comes to
R - You are a social butterfly.
E - You are a very exciting person.
N - You like to work, but you always want a
D - You have trouble trusting people.
A - You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
N - You like to work, but you always want a break

Anway,the N come up twice for me .Does it imply me is a slacker on work ? LoL

Just find out a funny test on net about age of the inner you that you are proceeding .Guess what ?The test result was extremely close enough to my age.Here is the table for analysis .Check it out :

You Are 23 Years Old

23 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

Have talk to Joyce for a bit this afternoon.It's been a while we didn't do this ever since she get busy over her test week.I get a special feeling to this woman.Not sure how to describe it but everytime when I get a chance to meet or talk to her .I just feel like relaxed of doing so.So here we go.Can sense that she is moody today by the tone she is speaking with .Just that someone from her faculty has passed away yesterday.Kind of shocked to hear that.Not sure how close she is with that person but it still hurt for her i guess .May he rest in peace with my deepest sympathy.Hope she will get over this soon but it isn't that easy as the words speak itself.

Here is how the conversation goes .I ever tell her that she means something to me.She seems pleased to get to know this.So as I approach to ask her some of her view about relationship.She deemed like she is not intersted in one.I ever told myself ."C'mon man .She is taking a high road to stop leading you a wrong way .So cut it off and stop thinking further " .That's cool if i am not someone she has been looking for .Things get interesting here .She said that she is more comfortable with friends than in a relationship .That make me wonder if something has go wrong to her with her previous relationship or is there other things happened in her life lead her to think in that way or is that another excuse to protect herself from some guys .Plus,she also mention about we don't know for long and tells what her ideal man will be a family man .Kind of weird of this becasue it is hard to look for everything perfect or ideal on everying including friendship,relationship. Maybe she is right .She don't really know me or she get some idea in mind but just that i didn't figure it out.Or i don't really get a good chance to know about her as well.Maybe she feel like i didn't realize about her with something .Honestly, i have been nice from the first day we started talk till now.I think the only reason why i am not even close to her mind is that she has some idea about how she think a good friend/ her ideal people should be .Maybe i am not in that range ever.

Apparently today's conversation is a bit stiff.Seems like every thing back to squar one as she get more confusion about me.Suppose the longer a people chat ,the more they know each other but things go opposite.Our foundation of friendship seems cracked.I don't know why is that.Hope that our conversation will be restored soon.

I really don't know what the hell to think right now.Just... very confused and scatterbrained.It was such a large ball of negative energy, bringing distress.In search of something that I have long for. So I pursued, knowing that my chances of this occurring were so small. Numerous times I would try to get closer, but the door was slammed in my face. I feel kind of empty and destroyed. But there's no time to sit and think.

Money Doesn't Buy Happiness -- But Nothing Does


In the past few years, economists -- perhaps keen to shed the word "dismal'' that attaches itself to their science -- have been studying the state of contentment. Their conclusion: Money can't buy you happiness, and it doesn't even cheer you up much either.

In a recent paper, Andrew Clark, professor at the PSE Ecole Normale Superieure in Paris, argued that unhappiness is a much more widespread condition than was previously thought. It isn't just the pursuit of material wealth that isn't making us happy. Just about everything seems to make us miserable.

Yet maybe that isn't as downbeat a conclusion as it may appear. What the economists have discovered, in a roundabout way, is that the journey satisfies us, not the destination.
Economists have been paying more attention to happiness for a good reason. They have noticed that the world keeps getting richer. Yet, it doesn't appear to be getting much happier.

For a science that is dedicated to increasing wealth, that must come as a disappointment. It is rather like the medical profession suddenly discovering we'd rather not be healthy.
Richard Layard, professor of economics at the London School of Economics, has been one of the most forceful advocates of the study of happiness. "GDP is a hopeless measure of welfare,'' he said in a lecture at the school in 2003. ``For since the War, that measure has shot up by leaps and bounds, while the happiness of the population has stagnated.''

Higher Taxes

There is no disputing the figures. Output in most industrialized countries continues to rise, unlike the sum of human contentment. Economists such as Layard suggest that society needs higher taxes. The aim wouldn't be to redistribute wealth or to alleviate poverty, but to help us get off the treadmill of trying to earn more money.

Yet, according to Clark, that might not work either.

His theory shows that as soon as we get something, we don't really value it anymore.
The logic runs like this. Money doesn't buy you happiness because as the world gets richer, you aren't the only one who is better off. Everyone else in your street is, too. So although we might be twice as rich as our parents were, our relative position hasn't really changed.
Result: We aren't any happier.

Relative Wealth

The reason is that the happiness that money is supposed to buy depends on our being richer than everyone else. And, fairly obviously, only very few of us (mainly the people who run hedge funds) get to be in that position.

"As our permanent quest for higher income and more possessions is doomed to failure, the argument continues, we should become less materialistic and do something else instead,'' Clark says in his paper, "Happiness, Habits and High Rank: Comparisons in Economic and Social Life,''presented at a conference of the U.K.'s Institute for Social and Economic Research.

"Some have suggested social activities, religion or more time with the family. But can we be sure that these don't suffer from the same drawbacks as income? Do we adapt to family life? Are there social comparisons in religion?''

Clark is certainly on to something. ``The point I wanted to make here is that the `money doesn't matter, so we should do something else instead' argument only works if the something else doesn't suffer from the same drawbacks that money and possessions do,'' Clark said in an e-mailed response to questions.

A Good Marriage

He has studied the main things that are supposed to make us happy, and his conclusions aren't encouraging.

You might imagine, for example, that a good marriage would make for a happier life. Yet there is no statistical evidence for that, Clark says. The honeymoon effect is short-lived. People bounce back quickly from divorce.

How about work we enjoy then? Afraid not. In areas of high unemployment, people get by. So long as we are all out of work, it shouldn't make us less happy. Likewise, in areas where we all have a good job, that won't make us happy, either.

Well, religion maybe. Surely that is some comfort. Not really. While there is some evidence that religious people are happier, they need to be members of the dominant religious group in their area. Once again, social comparisons with what everyone else is doing are what counts, not the activity itself.

Questions of Status

At this point, you might be tempted to shrug and say that people are so difficult that nothing makes them happy. "Instead of saying that there are lots of other things that matter, the challenge now would be to rank these other things in terms of how much we adapt to them, and how much status matters for them,'' Clark said.

That's true. Although nothing itself makes us happy, we can at least start mapping out the things that make us more or less content.

Yet what the economists studying happiness seem to be stumbling toward is a simpler truth.
Money won't ultimately make us happy because once everyone has it, it isn't worth so much.
Neither will anything else, for the same reason.

People, it turns out, are ferociously competitive. It really is a jungle out there. We are only really happy when we are getting something that is better than what everyone else has. And indeed, so long as it keeps delivering insights like that, economics can keep its tag as the "dismal science.''

(Reference to Bloomberg.com 20 th July entry )

Schelduled to work in the morning for half day but forget to set the alarm.Sleep over and call off work.Hot morning as usual.Haven't tidy the messy desk for awhile .Time for chore Arrange a bit of the CD and some books.



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Have trouble logging into the blog server most recently mainly due to the stupid net jam here.Beautiful Sunday with a shinny Sun.Wake up at the early morning and gone for a walk .
Have been drop by to thevideo rental store to check out somemovies.Back home get a bath and brunch and start my movie journey.Totally three movie for today from thai movie to Hollywood production.

Movie title : My girl (Thai: Fan chan )


Starring : Chalee Triart ,Chawin Chitsomboon,
Focus Jeerakul,Wongsakorn Rasameetat ..Etc









Directed by :Kongrit Threewimol,Nithiwat Thatatorn


Run time :110 mins





It is by collective memory of Thai childhood which result as a soft-pedal pastiche of childhood life .Set in a medium-sized town on the outskirts of Petchburi about the 20-year-old recollection of a childhood friendship that went wrong, as remembered by Jeab (Charwin Jitsomboon) as he returns home to drop in on the wedding of Noi Nah, his once-best friend.

Now 28 or so, or roughly the age that one first starts attending school reunions, Jeab narrates the start of our journey into the past, where it is quickly taken over by an ensemble of child actors.Separated from the other neighborhood boys by a busy street his mother won't let him cross, the young Jeab (Charlie Trairattana) spends his days playing with Noi Nah (Focus Jirakul), the girl next door whose preternatural intelligence, enthusiasm and energy make her the leader of the two. Jeab and Noi Nah 's dad are rival barbers who won't speak to each other; their mothers are casual friends, and the plot of Fan Chan is minimal.

As Jeab grows up he starts to yearn for acceptance by the gang of boys who ride the school bus, and gravitates away from the gang of girls led by Noi Nah who have appropriated him in their role-play games. Jeab's conflicting loyalties lead to a crisis which is not entirely unpredictable.

The joy of Fan Chan and movies like it is in not predicting it, but rather going along for the ride willingly with the innocence of the children whose story it is (Girls's gang playing elastics and acting family while guys' gang jump off the bridge naked for instances). Lubricating the suspension of disbelief with humor and charm is the strength of Fan Chan, which is refreshingly low on sentimentality and thankfully devoid of precociousness.

There is an intoxicating richness to the everyday life details of Fan Chan, such as the leaf-filled drainwater that the girls pretend is soup during their cooking games, or the way Jeab's father turns off the engine on his moped when going downhill to save gas. Some elements like the heavy-handed use of period music and screen shots of actual period television shows border on overplay. But even for non-Thais the spell probably holds, and for Thais the warmth of memory will overcome any cynicism whatsoever. Jeab himself acknowledges that what seemed like a tragedy to him as a child (and still seems freshly traumatic to us) was eventually forgotten and released, just as with most everything that happens in childhood. His final encounter with Noi Nah serves up a final reflection on the double-edged sword of nostalgia itself

Leading actor : Clint Eastwood ,Hilary Swank,Morgan Freeman

Directed by : Clint Eastwood & written for the screen by PaulHaggis, from short stories by F.X. Toole 2004

Runtime:137 mins

A traditional filmmaking at its finest.Get enough time to know the characters, their motivations, and the places where they live and work.Director itself (Clint Eastwood) is direct, unsentimental over the movie and he never calls attention to himself or to any shot.Get a chance for oneself to learn something about oneself by simply watching the characters in the film in the extremes of human experience. Movie screen proceeded in old, worn-down and rusty way.

Clint Eastwood and Morgan Freeman play retired boxers .It appeared to be powerful and confident in their word and movement. Like the movie itself, they say what they mean and mean what they say, and not a word more.A lot of awesome quote from the movie such as "Tough ain't enough". They are running a gym of the same color and dilapidation Clint writes letters to a daughter who returns them unopened and Morgan sleeps in rusted cell in the gym. They have issues.

Here goes Hilary Swank. She's too old(31 aged) to start boxing but she's too determined to quit. because she has nothing else and boxing seems to be her everything . She's been waiting tables since 13 and living off chunks of change and what she can scrape off dirty plates. Life has passed her by. Clint doesn't train girls not so much because he's opposed to girls boxing .But she won't go away and, as her trainers, he begins the process of beating her down and building her back up. Together they gradually work their way up the women's boxing circuit, butting heads and regaining their damaged dignity. The message "redeeming ourselves through action to make up for past mistakes" is somehow elaborated in this movie by showing us that sometimes there is nothing we can do but come to terms with what we've done wrong.

Get a chances to see about three times as many punches as in a real boxing match. The movie show how the boxing sport works, not only how to punch , but also rhythm, philosophy, and allure of the game. Watching Hiliary up late night after night, punching her bag For her, it becomes a myopic obsession, giving her life shape and meaning.

Starring: Robert De Nino,Dakota Fanning, Famke Janssen, Amy Irving,Dylan Baker and Elisabeth Shue.


Directed: John Polson. (2005, 20th Century Fox)

Robert De Niro plays David Callaway, a psychologist who's wife (Amy Irving) commits suicide leaving behind their young daughter Emily (Dakota Fanning). Both David and Emily move away to a small country town to try and start a new life but when Emily invents an imaginary friend named Charlie, it ignites a terrifying turn of events. The story including a series of twists. Also entangled in the game is David's potential love interest Elizabeth (Elisabeth Shue), a nosy sheriff (Dylan Baker), a fellow therapist Katherine (Famke Janssen) and two odd neighbours (Melissa Leo and Robert John Burke).

The crucial character is the imaginary charlie.Either he is just someone only exisit in Emily's mind or he does exisit and if so .Who he is ? That's where the twist about and keep me wondering the series of killing screen and who actually does this.Ever heard that in the DVD version get 5 different ending which state the whole story at the end.

I've never been to Japan

I've never had sex in public

I've never done cocaine

I've never been fired

I've never been in a fist fight

I've never regretted having sex with someone

I've never been arrested

I've never celebrated new years in Time Square

I've never gone on A blind date

I've never lied to a friend

I've never been to Europe

I've never been puntual to college

I've never cut myself on purpose

I've never been married

I've never been divorced

I've never gotten someone drunk

I've never thrown up in a bar

I've never set someone up

I've never been snowboarding

I've never been in a house party

I've never yell at anyone or even being rude

I've never make stupid face to act funny in a photo

I've never been to South America

Life has become increasingly confusing and so much on my mind.Just find no joy in living the rest of the time here.Have do a lot of thinking most recently.Somehow feel depress over something.Been waste time in school studying something i totally get no interested in. All my school time is just like me self-studying.Hardly have a teacher in school that really teach.The only thing i guess i've learn from all these years is to develop own ability to comprehend the textbook.Is that counted as teaching ?I don't think so .No way !!Always eager to get the chance to study abroad in the west.The real education are always stay in there.But not sure how i can make it .Too many to do but time is short .

Wake up everyday and the stupid things ,stupid people are always there to be with you from the beginning of the days.Not sure when it started the way that i seem not belonged to this place anymore.Something really interested the others but not really for me .People rushed into something but i seldom into it.People argue and flight a lot over something but i just don't see any reason for that.Is that cool or it is weird ?I don't give a damn in either of that .Just feel like i don't really into this lifestyle.

Haven't been into any relationship for over long times since my last break up .Maybe i already lost faith about someone or i believe no matter how well it is going and it always come to an end .Maybe love is conditional and i believe it does exist love at the very beginning but time goes by .The things that holding a couple is no longer only the love and it doesn't play as important role as before.

Sometimes just too weak to be determined on some principle for something .Mostly becasue i ever think that i have to be changed as the majority people in order to adapt this stupid people ,stupid life style ,blind to live and deal with shit by losing the soul or even some common sense .Noone ever doubt the reason for doing that .Just follow what the others do in order not to be regarded as miniority.It 's not a perfect world and i know it .Just that after the past travel .I believe there always someplaces else that i really like to be into it.Just don't stuck in one tiny stupid place .Get outto it and see something different.