moved

DEAR FRIENDS, PLEASE DO NOT SCREAM AT ME. You know how fickle I am soooo I have decided to move to WORDPRESS instead of BLOGSPOT. That means I won`t need your e-mail addresses anymore! HAHAHA. I`m sorry. Some of my entries in WORDPRESS will be made private and that`s about it. Anyway, ask me for my address! I`ll let you know if you are nice (:

This space will be shut down on 31 July 2008.

grey`s anatomy

Meredith Grey: [narrating] There’s a little animal in all of us and maybe that’s something to celebrate. Our animal instinct is what makes us seek comfort, warmth, a pack to run with. We may feel caged, we may feel trapped, but still as humans we can find ways to feel free. We are each other’s keepers, we are the guardians of our own humanity and even though there’s a beast inside all of us, what sets us apart from the animals is that we can think, feel, dream and love. And against all odds, against all instinct, we evolve.

Episode Where the Wild Things Are

strength

I can`t stand you being so near yet so far. & I miss you already. This is... bad.

a & f

I met Strength today & there were moments when I wish I could tell him how insane my emotions are currently. But I knew better to just shut up & appreciate the silent moments in the car. We seldom have silent moments, really, because we`d always have something to laugh about. I pray that God would plant seeds of ______ in our hearts because Strength is beautiful in MY eyes, so imperfectly perfect and perfectly imperfect at the same time. Never thought I`d say this but there is something in Strength that was missing in the previous individual I loved.

I am not in love with Strength just yet because it`s not easy for me to do so when I`m constantly caught between the past & present but I pray something could work out between us. God willing. & what exactly is this feeling? =/ So familiar yet so unknown.

If I gave you my life,
Would you let it slip,
Through your fingers like water in the desert?

If I gave you my heart,
In the deep of the night,
Would you hold it like a candle giving you light?

peace

WHY HELLO THERE, 'I-SYA CUTE'.

As much as I want to be polite, I really don`t think people like you deserve any sort of niceness from anyone. Ever.

Please do not succumb to dumb games like these just because you have too much time in your hands. I see you as a green-eyed monster who hasn`t experienced any sort of happiness in life yet. & that is just... plain pathetic. Please do not think that you can attain happiness by destroying others' happiness.

Whatever ill intentions you harbour, whoever you wanna hurt emotionally, I urge you to STOP. & lest you forget, God is great, really. That`s how we got to know this entire account is a scam.


Haven`t you heard? You do not play games with people who can play them better, young lady.

This game you`re playing is so yesterday & I seriously do not know if I should be pissed at you or whether I want to laugh at your sheer foolishness.

Stop hurting others before others hurt you. If you don`t stop, I can only conclude that you have some sort of severe deformity. & that deformity is JEALOUSY. Rid that angst & jealousy in your heart because they won`t do you any good. Mark my words.

I think I`m being nice enough to you but if you think you have something to say for yourself, you can reach me via e-mail at nurul.fitriyanna@gmail.com

I`d be glad to help you on your road to recovery as an individual who is not screwed up. You`ve got some issues there so get them sorted out soon.

I love my sister & it is my responsibility to protect her, that`s why I`m sending you this message.

You have got to stop this puerile game & that`s that. I can`t emphasise that enough.

Regards,
Nurul Fitriyanna

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I could have taken the easy way out by typing a whole paragraphs of FUCKYOUS, KNNBCCB,PEREMPUANSUNDAL,PUKIMAKKAU & whatnots BUT my vocabulary of profanities is limited, so I decided not to. I am a lousy gangster. HAHA.

yo yo yo

Louis: So Fit who is the host for NDP this year?
Fit: Mmm Adrian Pang, Michelle Chong, Jean Danker. Then got one indian one malay host also.
Louis: Orh that chin tanker every year also have.
Fit: U mean Jean Danker.
Louis: Ya ya chin tanker chin tanker.

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

& he randomly referred to HEATH LEDGER as JOHN LEDGER.
I`m telling you. It must be the overdose of oldies & blasting Gold 90 FM in his car . He probably got that dude confused with JOHN LENNON. Hahahahaha.

Fit: Eh Louis, where`s your car?
Louis: Aiya scrape already lor.
Fit: What scrape?! You mean scrap.
Louis: Aiya same la!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. He is so funny because he has a permanently blur look on his face & the way he talks is just insane. Everyone has got to meet Louis Shen. I love my classmates. HAHAHAHAHA.

the one with a stiff neck

somehow made everything a little easier. Thank you.

bumblebee

Friday, 11 July 2008
We love each other too much, that`s why we unintentionally wore outfits of the same colours. & all in long-sleeved tops (i just realized). Okaye mine was a cardigan but still.
What`s intentional is me closing my eyes & peace-ing. hahaha. Annoying like that.

Nonie Baloney, Raq Duck, Kai Bangkai, I love you three. We are bumblebees.
Anyway, this picture was taken using Kai`s hp which is now dead because it fell 12 stories down. Kai Bangkai memang Pandai.

hopxedpolla

Lately, I find myself retreating to my yesterdays & seeking some sort of familiarity in it. It`s always better when I cried in his arms & he did make everything okaye no matter how hard & bad things were for us. Maybe, some people are just broken like this for the rest of their lives & they don`t really recover. Maybe some people pretend to be okaye but when night falls, they die inside yet again, tear-stained pillow night after night. & maybe sometimes, time doesn`t heal. No, not at all. But it`s comforting to know I still have a heart. No one ever comes close to him. yet.

Today`s gonna be alright if I get through the next few hours. Everything`s gonna be okaye because I`ll try. Don`t you know? I am Denial.

strength

I am TRULY astounded by the seeds of strength that The Almighty has planted in the hearts of those people featured in Arts Central`s The Human Spirit. Each week, a special individual is featured & I am always moved to tears because I truly cannot imagine how hard life is for him/her. I can only say a little prayer for all of these people & hope that things will get better for them. It is a reminder for all of us out there to ALWAYS be grateful to Him because He, our Creator, is capable of anything & everything. & when we face great difficulties in life, He is the only one who grants us the strength within to carry on. My love for Him is eternal, InsyaAllah.

cranky

Cleared my C: & found some of my favourite pics taken in Australia back in March. I realise I`m missing them kids & all the people back in Perth. Too lazy to type a lot today.

& then there was the celebration held at the mosque on Maulid Nabi.

Meet Adorable Aisyah! :D

I so can be their ustazah. Hahaha :D

DAN! :D



Khairun & Daniel bickering over Danish, me & my sister. & towards the end of this clip, I managed to stop the recording AND Khairun from asking me about Nazir`s picture in my purse. She was actually saying 'is that ur boyfriend?'. Then I grabbed my purse back from her. That girl can be so kepo sometimes, really. Haha.


My fav boy

Omg, I am so missing Perth now. Like totally. Kak Eda, when are we going together agaaaain?

******

Iylia`s sister`s wedding on 06 July 2008. There are like a hundred plus pictures & I`m too lazy to upload them here, really.

Iylia & Adly, the ones I`m closer to. Syedol, or rather, Haikal`s missing.
No no, not that Haikhal.

It was hottttttt & I don`t know where my eyes were.

Meet Iylia. The only male friend who has access to my emotions & has ALWAYS been there for me through the years. See, we even wore tops of matching colors without planning. I call it telepathy. He`s seen me through my brightest & darkest days. I am so kental because I cried last night. He left for NS today & I won`t see him for 16 long days. I hate to be affectionate towards him, but I`ll say this nonetheless. I MISS HIM already. My buddy is gonna be a MAN! :D

Last but never the least, these 2 gems who`ve been around since primary & secondary school days (: InsyaAllah, all three of us are gonna have careers in the civil service (: One staff nurse, one prison officer, one cop. No prizes for guessing who`s who. Hahaha (:

That`s all for now. I`m not in the mood for words because I`m feeling feverish yet again(withdrawal syndrome, maybe) & I really dislike picture posts.

faust arp

Wakey wakey
Rise and shine
It's on again, off again, on again
Watch me fall
Like dominos
In pretty patterns
Fingers in the blackbird pie
I'm tingling tingling tingling
It's what you feel now
What you ought to, what you ought to
Reasonable and sensible
Dead from the neck up
Because im stuffed, stuffed, stuffed
We thought you had it in you
But no, no, no
For no real reason

I am obsessed with short hair. I am thinking of cutting my hair again next two weeks or something. The current do is short but not short enough. I want it shorter. I`ve always wanted Keira Knightley`s pixie do but I`ve not mustered enough courage coz it`s too short. But the time is right now. I shall get it shorter. The hairdryer is my new bestfriend. Told mum about getting my hair cut again, maybe like a butch`s & she looked at me & said, kak do you have a GIRLFRIEND? Oh mother, puhlease.

count your blessings

Tonight, Haikhal has revealed a different side of him to me & it`s strange that I feel a need to stand by him. I am so proud of him to be so driven & motivated. He is Hope. I like it when we talk for hours about anything & everything. I like how comfortable we both feel. & it feels like we`ve known each other since forever. I am ever so thankful to the One above for yet another wonderful presence of a beautiful person in my life (: I wouldn`t want to lose such a gem to certain emotions & feelings that should not exist. Ask me again in a month`s time.

Somehow, I am remembered of what Zarifah used to tell me & I am glad she said them. Yes indeed, sometimes God takes something or someone away from us, only to grant us something or someone better (:


Tonight, I found hope. Again (: Syukur Alhamdulillah.




Hanya Ingin Kau Tahu - Republik

ttm

I`m glad we are going to SP to rockclimb after school today because I just need to do so. On a different note, I need a sign.

closet bookworm

I have finally completed reading Love in the Time of Cholera by Gabriel Garcia Marquez, a Nobel Prize winner in Literature. Truth be told, I am NOT a fan of romance novels but I must say that this book goes straight to the list of books I`ll read AGAIN (:

Together they had overcome the daily incomprehension, the instantaneous hatred, the reciprocal nastiness, and fabulous flashes of glory in the conjugal conspiracy. It was time when they both loved each other best, without hurry or excess, when both were most conscious of and grateful for their incredible victories over adversity. Life would still present them with other moral trials, of course, but that no longer mattered: they were on the other shore.
- excerpt from Love in the Time of Cholera


On a different note, I can`t wait to catch a Mexican film entitled Malos Habitos (Bad Habits) at The Picturehouse. It`s a movie along the lines of anorexia, bulimia & a mother`s obsession in keeping her child skinny.




Alright, time to get ready for a wedding! (: Yes, this time I`ve got the date right.

NDP Boom

In a few hours, we`ll be rocking the floating platform at Marina & I totally can`t wait because today is the first NE Show & I`ll get to mingle with Primary 5 kids! :D

enchanted

Deal with it. On a different note, Coke never tasted so good. Knocked me out really good for a couple of hours. Say, for 12 odd hours or so. More than all the 5 hours a night I`ve been getting for the past 2 weeks. Haikhal was pissed with me but I know I`ll make it up to him probably later today. & that, I can`t wait but my head is hurting so badly now. I need to sleep. AGAIN.

electric shocks on aching bones

SMRT Challenge 2008, anyone? (:

vindicated

So turn up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defence is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in

of snakes & my favourite fireman

Haikhal called me a while ago from the hospital & I don`t know why I`m feeling a little depressed though I know he`s gonna be alright. My heart ached when I was about to leave just now, but I know he`s safe & there won`t be snakes in the hospital. I`d do whatever I did just now, all over again. In a heartbeat. As a concerned friend.