how times have changed

life has been getting pretty hectic for me

additional responsibilities at work and on the home front is not settling in well with me

i dont even have time to sleep or breathe for that matter
so its been a while since i last blogged

i woke up earlish this morning and began to attack my chores, its 11.02am and ive already cleaned downstairs top to toe, dishes, sweeping... mopping... the becki of a few months ago would still be sleeping like a pig at this time...

im just taking a little breather before i attempt my most dreaded chore of all... the bathroom!

regardless of the hecticity and how much i despise it, in a way im sort of glad that i am kept on my toes, i dont want to go back to being a bum, ive realised how much of my life ive wiled away... there is so much more to life, so much to learn... so much to do and experience!

anyway... yesterday mano's cat dropped off a jar of black jelly beans from darrel lea on my doorstep at 4.30pm

during the time it took for me to get home from work, it had somehow managed to disappear

SOMEONE STOLE MY BLACK JELLY BEANS? who the hell steals a jar of BLACK JELLY beans of all things?

ill bet the person who eats it will get the fright of their life, im kinda waiting for it to be returned... i have a good mind to making everyone on the block line up outside and stick out their tongues so that i may identify the culprit!

ill blog more later, got things to doooooooooooooo

till then

beck

lazy weekend

so i finally got my long awaited day of rest... of late my life has been such hecticity i was on the verge of breaking down... keeling over with exhaustion...

so last night, i stayed in and finally watched 'windstruck' with hv and danzo

it (the movie) started off good but coulda ended better... actually it should have ended much earlier than it did, it would have been such a goood movie if it didnt drag on so much.... nevertheless, A BIG THANKYOU TO HV for all the munchies and for coming down to relax with me...

anyhoo, i loved sleeping in late this morning, i actually woke up earleir but i kept forcing myself to sleep to make up for all the sleep that was lost during the week...

vinhs coming over today to cook for my brother and i WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT WOOOOOOOOOT... he went to New Zealand a few years back for chef training so we're looking forward to what yummy food he has in store for us...

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm cant wait!

procrastination is the theif of time

i recieved a questionaire in the email today from Chhiv, rather than send it to ten people via email, i figured i may as well post it up here and reach the dozens who i believe frequent my blog... I KNOW YOU'RE OUT THERE!!!

anyhoo, here goes ....

> 1. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING? Nil at present, the last book i read was ... biography of... christina onasis (i think)
> 2. WHAT TIME IS IT? 17 minutes till lunch and counting (12.43pm)
> 3. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE MAT? dont have one
> 4. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE BOARD GAME? uhmm... i dont remember ever having played any...
> 5. YOUR FAVOURITE MAGAZINE? Marie Claire, WHO, New Weekly.....
> 6. BABIES? what about them?
> 7. FAVOURITE SOUND? uhmm....durno
> 8. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD? Not knowing
> 9. FIRST THING YOU THINK OF IN THE MORNING? should i take today off?
> 10. HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE? depends on when i find the fone
> 11. FUTURE CHILDS NAME? secret
> 12. FAVOURITE COLOUR? depends on context. eg. favourite colour for cars: black or type R white
> 13. WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN YOUR LIFE? Food
> 14. FAVOUURITE FOOD? hmmm....
> 15. IF YOU COULD PLAY AN INSTRUMENT, WHAT WOULD IT BE? Piano
> 16. DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST? no
> 17. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? Hell no! never have
> 18. STORMS - cool or scary? Scary
> 19. WHAT TYPE WAS YOUR FIRST CAR? fire engine red ford laser GL
> 20. WHO IS THE ONE PERSON FROM YOUR PAST YOU WISH YOU COULD GO BACK AND TALK WITH? hmmm...
> 21. FAVOURITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? bourbon and coke without the bourbon
> 22. WHAT'S IN THE BOOT OF YOUR CAR? broken amp, shoes, coolant, jumper leads, 4 litres of back-up water, squash racket, trash
> 23. DO YOU EAT THE STEMS ON BROCCOLI? i guess so
> 24. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED, WHAT WOULD IT BE? OoOoOoO...
> 25. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND: EH?
> 26. EVER BEEN IN LOVE? YES
> 27. IS THE GLASS HALF FULL OR HALF EMPTY? Half full
> 28. FAVOURITE MOVIE? How to Lose a Guy in 10 days
> 29. DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS? nope
> 30. WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED? shoe boxes, empty guitar box, dust, and probably things i think ive lost
> 31. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE NUMBER? 3
> 32.WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE SPORT TO WATCH? if i had to watch sports? tennis
> 33. SAY AT LEAST ONE NICE THING ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? Chhiv is cool.
> 35. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING: hmmm.....
> 36. BEACH, MOUNTAINS or CITY? Beach
> 37. TECHNOLOGY or ART? what kind of technology? what kind of art?
> 38. COMEDY or HORROR? DEFINATELY COMEDY
> 39. FAVOURITE PHYSICAL FEATURE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX? SMILE
> 40. FAVOURITE TIME OF DAY? hmm....
> 41. THE LAST CD YOU BOUGHT? "AGAIN" Janet Jackson in 1994 =)
> 43. WHAT'S MORE IMPORTANT TO YOU. STRONG IN MIND OR STRONG IN BODY? Both
> 44. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? 6am bro
> 45. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE KITCHEN ITEM? The food (cooked ones that is)<-- ditto!
> 46. WHAT MAKES YOU REALLY ANGRY? depends
> 47. WHAT DO YOU PREFER, A SPORTS CAR or 4wd? Sports
> 48. DO YOU BELIEVE IN THE AFTERLIFE? I'll answer that when I die<-- ditto
> 49. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SEASON? Spring and Summer<---ditto
> 50. IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE SUPER POWER, WHAT WOULD IT BE? the power to create world peace! i mean it.
> 51. CAN YOU JUGGLE? yes
> 53. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE DAY? Saturday
> 54. WHICH DO YOU PREFER, SUSHI or HAMBURGER? Both
> 55. FROM THE PEOPLE YOU E-MAIL THIS TO, WHO'S MOST
> LIKELY TO RESPOND FIRST? uhmm... no-one?
> 56. WHO DID YOU RECEIVE THIS FROM? chhiv
> 57. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE CARTOON? not a fan of cartoons
> 58. FAVOURITE MEAL? i dont discriminate
> 59. IF YOU COULD TAKE A VACATION ANYWHERE IN THE
> WORLD, WHERE WOULD IT BE? Europe
> 60. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS? ewww


okay so after having done that, ive come to the conclusion that im no good at these things... hmm....

the turd on the other end of the phone

today, amidst my trauma i came to the conclusion that in my humble opinion....people at centrelink (generally) have small dick syndrome

which must explain why they seemingly walk around with penises attached to their foreheads so that the world can see that which they are lacking...

....yes that must be it

what else could explain their insensitivity, rudeness and omg UNbelievable arrogance!

okay
me: " if you cut my payments, i can't survive.. i will have nothing to live on(and will probably end up in some cardboard box on the side of the street) "

him: "well thats your problem not mine"

me: "are there any other alternatives? is there something else i can do? can i fax the documents to you"

him: "nope"

silence

me: knowing this isnt getting anywhere "alright, can i get your name please?" (in my head.. DUMBFUCK)

him: in a raised, angry and defensive tone "WHY? WHY DO YOU WANT MY NAME FOR?"

me: "uhh... so that i know who i am speaking to?" (in my head..."DUMBpowertrippingFUCK")

well if you had a fucking brain and a fucking good reason to throw me out onto the streets and eat garbage.. atleast give me some justice du ma guk lomb dumbcunt FUCKING TURD!

eat shit.... actually

eat a dick and dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

SOMEONE ATE ALL MY CREAM CHEESE

theres a first time for everything they say, and today, its my first time blogging at work.

the day started off alright, i woke up on time, the traffic wasn't too bad and i arrived at work on time..

but when i got here! lo and behold... things got nasty.

okay so it wasnt that bad but ive had a terrible morning, probably made worse by my lack of food and knowing that i lack the funds to buy some

i got here to find clients on the doorstep waiting to be let in, at the sight of them, i knew some court action was happening today.. fair enough

little did i know that at the last minute, id be launched into an adventure that involved driving furiously to meet a deadline and finding out half way that i did not have some important documents on me and then driving all the way back to the office to fetch the documents and then driving furiously off again.....

..... only to be stuck in traffic, traffic and more traffic and then some more when i got to the parking lot at the League Club, it was valet parking and all the parkers seemed to be busy chit chatting and having a yarn over a brew...

so FINALLY the driver comes over and i leave my car... i run all the way to the Supreme Court ... make it through security... i bolt to the court room for my 9.00am return of subpoena and what do u know! they closed! they finished up and locked the doors and i... i was one step too late...

so i go down into the Registry to find out what the dealio was and to get whatever i would of gotten had i not missed the scheduled appearance... i get a ticket and i sit and i wait.. and wait....

TICKET 103 appears on the sign and with glee i jumped up off my feet and out of my misery only to have the rude lady tell me i got the wrong ticket and that i had to get another one and then i waited and wait and waited again....

bluddy finish that, get to the carpark... and bluddy have to wait again for the stupid attendants to finish their chit chats and to retrieve my car....

alright that was that.... i breathe a sigh of relief and get into my car.. office bound. traffic was fine... "ok its not such a terrible day after all" i think to myself

i get back here... and there's bluddy no parking!!!! "here we go again"....i circle the block like ten million times and finally resigned to a small drive way a few streets down...

by this time im STARVING LIKE A MOFO... i get into work... get my bread ... and then i open the fridge to get my cream cheese...

and heres the punchline....

SOMEONE ATE ALL MY CREAM CHEESE!!!!!!

first ever courtroom appearance

omg its been a long assed week! with people at work taking days off im snowed under with relief work.

anyway the aim of this entry was to declare YESTERDAY (i didnt even have anytime yesterday to declare it then)..... YESTERDAY i did my FIRST MENTION EVER ... in a real courtroom in front of real court people!

hehe woot woot

coffee @ adora

 



a little cluster of us have a weekly routine of getting together for a coffee, to catch up, relax, to unwind... and to enjoy each other's company... this week, our venue was this lovely little hand-made chocolate shop by the river in dung's hood...

it was a really nice place, as hv, dung and i sat there and sipped on our coffees, nibbled on some fine chocolate, chatted and watched the sun set over the river...

how far does your $2 go?

 


so the price of living has gone up

in this day and age, how far can one stretch $2?

half a half fare train ticket into the city?

8/10ths of a can of soft drink?

oh my gosh! not even a bottle of water!!!


well... for $2 this week.... i got myself a lovely lipgloss holder from the local thrift shop

*applauds self*

i want to not give a fuck

i want to be nonchalant, irresponsible.... i want to not give a fuck

i want to come home one day, and have absolutely nothing to do for anyone else

just once, i want to be selfish without feeling guilty

i want to be in control of my own life

i want to learn how to say NO

i want to be master of my own life master of my own destiny

i want to be able to do things for myself without feeling irresponsible

i want to come home and not have to worry about other peoples kids, problems and lives

im a pleaser... and for as long as i can remember, i have always been one

i dont want to have to look for acceptance and love by being a yes person

i dont want to feel like i am responsible for other people's lives

i dont want to feel the overwhelming guilt when i say No when things get too much

i dont want people to make me feel bad about it as though i dont feel bad enough

i want to be sheltered and protected

i want to be a princess... the apple in a father's eye