bluddy ingrates

whatever happened to manners?

when you're driving and someone signals in... and you let them in as a favour in heavy traffic...

the least you'd expect is some gratitude right?

APPARENTLY NOT

i let four cars cut in front of me today.. coincidently two in the morning and two in the arvo... and how many of those cars do u think waved their hand in gratitude?

ZERO!

i swear i always regret letting them in! damn ingrates

whenever someone lets me cut in i thank them thrice... twice by waving the thankyou signal... and once out aloud... sometimes even screaming 'thankyou' out the window ...or out aloud in the car with my windows up

so today i was driving right... and i was in the left lane because i knew there were cars who were bound to turn right at the traffic lights ahead... when i see the first car signal in... fair enough... i broke far enough so that his car would fit in front of me... but nooooooooooooooooo he got greedy .. he didnt move in... he clung ont the hope of overtaking the trailer carrying the two horses in front of me...

so just when i resigned to the fact that he didnt want to move in and sped up so as not to miss the green... he bluddy nudges his car over right in front of me... i broke so hard i could smell burning rubber and did i get a thanks or a sorry??

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO he just kept driving as if it were his RIGHT to do such a thing!

the other three were exactly the same! i couldnt beleive it.. whatever happened to MANNERS? ROAD ETTIQUETTE?

has road ettiquette been conquered by road rage? i wouldnt be surprised with drivers like THAT around!

i have to stop this

sunday bluddy sunday

i dont know why but i always find myself moping around on sundays

i wake up and i wait and wait and the more i wait the more restless i get

I always seem to have the sunday blues

and i said something really mean to my brother yesterday that i regret

i want to take it back cos i feel so guilty for saying it

i always do that... i say mean things that i dont really mean later on and i hurt people with my words and i cant take it back

i gotta stop

gotta stop these mood swings and this mean streak

gotta stop being so blatantly blunt

gotta stop hurting people i love and people who care about me

i find it hard to deal with stress and boredom and expectations and stress

omg i think i have a problem

I HAVE TO STOP SAYING MEAN THINGS THAT I DONT REALLY MEAN!

strange encounters

EARLY one crisp fine and sunny morning sometime last week, i was sitting on the steps outside my workplace waiting for someone to arrive to let me in when a stranger comes perambling by...

he walked past me.. one step.. two steps and does a complete u-turn... i could almost hear his shoes skid to a halt

and then he was towering over me

i got the same feeling i got before all my other weirdo encounters

so i grabbed my bag and stood up and stared him right in the eyes (they say its a detterent for attackers).. he just stood there and stared at me...

after about 3 seconds i calmly asked him what he wanted...

and as he fumbled for a reply... i got to shuffling my feet in the other direction...

and as he mumbled i moved away.. slowly...discreetly....

and then i was off

when i turned back i found him thumping the door to my workplace and yelling out profanities... and then he came back to the steps and continued to stare at me.. now safely across the road standing with the security guard from the bank whom i instantly befriended.

my new found friend the security guard, and i stood staring back at him for a moment while trying to sustain idle chat to calm my nerves... i saw him hesitate and walk away.

***

today i was downstairs at reception waiting to get some files from the receptionist when in walks the same dude.

he came in and stood right next to me....and i instantly recognised his face.

as he spoke in some incomprehensible mumble, i glanced at the scissors on the front desk to his left.. and then to the sharp letter opener to his right...

the receptionist really shouldn't have left that on the counter i tought as i inched myself to a safe distance yet again...

i have no idea what he was saying but he kept pointing to his glasses and the receptionist kept ssaying "no ... this is a law firm not an optometrist"

when finally she walked him out.. i asked her who he was...

and this is what she told me:

her: " a local psychiatric hospital closed down and so they sent the patients to housing in the community and they all just wonder the streets"

hmmm... if i had known earlier i would have reacted differently, but how can the government just close down a hospital and just leave these people to just fend for themselves?

sunday already?

is it sunday already???

the anticipation for the weekend and then the anti-climax of a weekend that's over before it even starts

ahhh...

had a lazy day today.. woke up to the ruckus of the neighbours shithouse music played full blast.

i was on the verge of calling he authorities ... the music was driving me NUTSSSSSSS

the torture of sitting here listening to it lasted a good 4 hours before i think someone cut off their power supply.

it was a fine day outside today but i had nowhere to go and nothing to do... being so used to hecticity ... i was going insane because its not every day that the sun shines and the birds chirp merrily... and i was stuck indoors with nothing to do...

the weekend was good, not nearly long enough though... friday night i finally ate Habibs... ive been hankering for it for like a month! its so gooooddddd... so much grease! i like!

then we chilled out at collingwood hotel for johnny's farewell... i was feeling rather stoned from the chicken at Habibs... totally k.o'ed!

saturday was spent browsing for dannys rossi bike helmut ... and doing my brother's stupid assignment.... yes i was tricked into offering to do one of his 7 assignments due monday while he spent the day lazing about sleeping and watching movies! the things i do!

and today .. such insanity! the ruckus .. the boredom... i painted my nails and cut my fringe and im now just sitting here killing some time before i go to play some squash... by golly i need it..

i need the rush of blood through my veins so as to not feel so crappy

i've been thinking... i think i will pick up windsor pilates and a self defence class of some sort...


btw... mr and mrs smith rocks... i recommend it highly.. brad pitt and angelina jolie OMG SO HAWTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

cheers to a 3 day weekend

i say cheers to a 3 day weekend! its a darn shame it doesnt happen more often. the government should make it its mission, the 3 day weekend should be incorporated into policy... better yet... the law... then maybe everyone wouldn't hate mondays so much

it would rid the nation of "sunday night/ monday morning blues" and in my humble opinion.. the world would be a better place for it. people would be friendlier on mondays and more relaxed when they face the inevitable tuesday, which ofcourse, be the first day of the working week.

Yes, mondays off would let people fully enjoy their weekends and to get it all out of their system.

The party-goers who spend sunday hung over and feeling like crap would have monday to relax and unwind.

household chores would be better dealt with, cleaner homes, cleaner clothess...

thus people would generally be nicer.

a full time placement has made me realise how precious the weekend is, its allowed me to appreciate the days off and to make the most of them.

having this monday off was a blessing (thankyou queen for having a birthday)

i slept in on monday and woke up totally relaxed, nothing planned for the day, no squash to rush back from anywhere for...

i started off the day with some chores and then i did the groceries. after which time i decided to reward myself with a nice creme brulee from Gloria Jeans. so i sat there, taking in the the coffee scent and gazing at the generally relaxed shoppers. "this is life" i had thought. it was just so nice, no deadlines, no rush... just me, taking it easy with my creme brulee.

for lunch i decided to live it up in the spirit of relaxation so i made myself a smoked salmon roll with cream cheese and caviar, it couldnt have been better!

after that i even had time to de-fog the interior of my windscreen and rainex the exterior.

even though i did nothing on monday, it felt productive. maybe... just maybe...ive finally learnt to appreciate the simpler things in life! a woo hoo!


now...

..... whatever happened to the 9-5 working day?

with the chicks 

our lovely marii's 1920s themed wedding

 


a few handfuls of old high school buddies + spanish dancers + an elegant cake + the stunning bride and groom makes a dandy glamorous reception.

a few pics here

its cold

TODAY could possibly be THE COLDEST day i have ever encountered in my life!

i just got back from the morning part of marii and duc's 1920's themed wedding so im just killing some time before the reception later i woke up realising that i had nothing to wear... unlike the other chickies, i did not own nor have i ever owned a traditional vietnamese "Ao dai" (dress)... i had the heater on... i checked outside and to me .. at the time.. it didnt look so bad

so i donned a simple black pleated skirt, singlet and transparent jumper...threw on s string of brown crystal beads and because i figured.. it can't be that cold! so i donned my bronze open toed shoes

BIG MISTAKE

IT WAS FREEEEEEEEZING TODAY AND IM STILL COLD SITTING HERE WITH MY HEATER ON FULL BLAST!

Apart from the coldness, the morning ceremony itself was rather beautiful... i almost cried in the church when marii was walking up the isle and i almost cried again when they were wed by the priest..

...here was a girl i grew up with... a girl ive shared the impressional part of my life with... a girl with whom ive shared tears and now happiness finding her own place in life... a girl i met on a the school bus... one i befriended because we were both friendless on the bus in year 7... we've shared many conversations about life, boys, love and growing up, we've sat behind shrubs and wagged school to do so... one of my best friends... and she's MARRIED! my how she has grown! ...

... what is it with me and being so sentimental!

Not only that was beautiful.. but the dresses.. all of which she hand-made with her sisters were beautiful... the bride had a 1920's style veil and frock and i couldnt believe my eyes when i saw how together the wedding was... it was perfect and perfectly timed to perfection.. perfectly themed.. perfectly glamorous...perfectly matching... but for the weather, i would declare the it the most perfectly executed wedding ever!

i need my sunshine so that i may growwwwwww

oh.my.god.i.am.sooooooooooooooooooo.unbelievably.TIRED!

... and its only been 2 days since i started my placement!

when i wake up in the morning.. its still dark

by the time i finally get out of work.. its bluddy dark!

i need my sunshine so that i may growwwwwww

although i like this place and i am learning alot i simply CAN NOT wait till the weekend... i was so tired yesterday i went to bed at 10pm... and yet i woke up feeling like i hadn't slept a wink

i was so tired by the end of today that my brain was not registering a thing... when people spoke to me.. all i could manage was a blink and a confused look

my supervisor actually thought i got upset when he pointed out to me one of my mistakes at the end of the day today

quite frankly, i only grimaced because i found it difficult to register his words

he is very nice indeed.. the people here are all very nice..

.. because i was new yesterday, my supervisor and some of the team took me out for a hearty lunch and today, my supervisor was still buying me food and drinks... i think he felt sorry for me because i was just going to sit in the car and eat my 2 slices of white bread with cheese

whatever the reason i am very very very thankful for his kindness and for making me feel comfortable with the work, the people and the place.

and NO VIEN I AM NOT INLOVE WITH YOUR BROTHER AND I DO NOT SECRETLY HIDE A PICTURE OF HIM IN A LOPIN CLOTH IN MY GLORY BOX... ACTUALLY I DO NOT OWN A GLORY BOX!

hahahaha

anyway thats all from me for today, i better get to bed so i can fight the traffic in the morn.

goodnight

hens weekend

 


just a glimpse of the eventful weekend dedicated to marii - the bride to be

all in all it was a successful day/night which started off with a day of shopping and pampering, and progressed to a night of eating, drinking, "the stripper", clubbing, more eating, sleeping then leaving on sunday morning hehe

the room, booked by the maid of honour, cat, was lovely.. it was the presidential(?) suite on the top floor with lovely views

more details later when i feel like writing some more

congrats marz! and good work cat!

cheers

the job

alright.. i just got back from an interview and theres good news and bad news

GOOD NEWS: i finallly have a job!.... which leads to the bad news

BAD NEWS:

1. it is an unpaid placement
2. it is very very far away
3. hectic working hours - pretty much 12+ hr days
4. i wont have time to update this as much as id like
5. there is no parking there
6. did i mention it was unpaid and really far??? ... which in turn means that i would be even more broke than i am now plus i would have nooooooooooo time or money ... for anything...

BUT! i suppose it is better than nothing at all.. it is a start and we all have to start somewhere... i'm a bit worried that i would just suck at this job too

fingers crossed for me.. i will try my best.. its about time i grew up

final product

 


... so there it is... it didnt quite turn out the way i had anticipated it to... but thats what it is... one day i will picture the correct outcome! hehe

oh...

and i decided to write on it "he may wear the pants... but i've got the BALLS"

and incase you're wondering what exactly it is.... its meant to be a ball and chain which we will padlock to her ankle on sunday... if she doesnt bash us first..

goodnight

progress.. first coat of paint

 

progress on the project

oh. my. god.

this project has proven to be a bigger ordeal than i had initially anticipated!

after 3 whole nights spent plastering a balloon with newspaper...one bottle of clag glue inhaled... plus 8 coats of pink paint... i do admit i am feeling a bit woozy

i am beginning to think that maybe PINK wasnt exactly the right colour to paint the wrinkly looking papermached ball too as it is beginning to remotely resemble a pink testicle... and they're not exactly the prettiest things in the world!

my back aches, my eyes are dry from the heater i am using to dry the paint... and im all dizzy... right now i would love to be snuggled up in my enticingly cozy looking bed....

but i am determined that this will look nice!

thinking about what i could write on it... any ideas???

oh

and if it just gets tossed to aside like rubbish on saturday
i swear

there will be thunder... (in the aftermath ofcourse.. cos i could not ruin her night)

pleasant slumbering all

its that time again...

...so its that time of the semester again... where people who are still studying are frantically submitting their assignments and preparing for exams... the semester is almost over. while some grimace at the prospect of the many semesters of studying to come, others are hoping this would be one of their last...

yes, it is a stressful time for those who are still at uni...

there are days where i miss that (yes believe it! i never thought id say that) and there are days where i am releived that that chapter is now behind me...

although i no longer have to contend with those pressures, i find a new pressure daunting me...

the pressure to get a job. although i have no right to be complaining about the free time and i dont.. however i feel like its really high tide i moved on to bigger and better horizons..i.e no more brokeness!

at present i am awaiting the outcome of this job i wanted... i was told that i would most likely get an interview on the by-gone monday or tuesday and at present, im still nervously anticipating the phone call to let me know when to come in for the interview...

i dont know whether to keep applying for other places or cling on to this one hope

on saturday its my close friend's hens night and i have been keeping myself occupied with making things for it.. i will post pics up when its finished.. its a project to keep me busy in the meantime i suppose

i feel so useless!