WHAT WILL I MISS IN NORTHBROOKS..

should i leave northbrooks, i guess the only things I will miss are:

a) my adorable ML students. They may be academically weak but i feel they are the most sweetest creatures in the world (when they are nice of course). Respectful towards teachers, always listen to my instructions and do my punishments without any negotiations. Thank you for making my stay wonderful. Memories with you will definitely not forgotten

b) the ketuk ketampis, the 100 lines and the running to my ML class. my signatured style of instilling discipline and LOVE for Malay Language.

c) the wonderful 1996s. (*wink*wink) this batch of floorball boys who appreciated the non-sporty floorball teacher in charge (which is me,duh). They still owe me a picture though.

d) wonderful friends like Ms Liana, Mrs Lam,Ms Salihah, Ms Linda and of course my MT family, Mdm Zuraidah and Mr Omar.How could i forget you Ms Leela, i think u r the best admin manager I ever meet in Northbrooks.

Im feeling emo right now. haha. I hope u guys will miss me too yah? *wink *wink

I AM DISGUSTED WITH MY OLD SELF

time check. its 10.29am.

where am i? in the staffroom. Waiting for the finalised SA2 marks from the subject teachers to be key in the school cockpit. Meantime, I was collating the students' suggestions properly to get the follow-ups from the rightful in-charges ( sungguh menyakitkan hati.com because i never get them back on time)

So i was checking my blog for fun and tadaa, i have one additional follower to my blog :) Thank you to you for willingly to spend time to click my blog's url in your internet browser and read the nonsensical stuffs on my blog.

anyway, u must be wondering why i wrote such title for this post. because i really do. I am disgusted with the way i blogged way back in 2005 and 2006. As i was reading my old posts, i am APPALLED that I actually wrote in that manner.

first impression after reading my posts back in 2005:
- merepek
-childish
-show off
- slenger

ewwww... all those boastings of wedding preparations, all those pictures (even pictures of shoes aku amik!) goodness gracious. and yah, the cyber fighting with one pathetic woman because of her man (so gross).

subha nallah.

i guess as you get older, your blogging style will change somehow (especially now when you are a mum and you have faced the worst in your marriage).

Now i understand why my students' blogs or friends of my age when i was 2005 wrote such posts in their blogs. because i was like them. very young, likes the attention from others.

but i am very sure, i have definitely changed. the blogging style has definitely changed for the BETTER. Hehe. im pretty sure with that.

till then. hope i have the time and ideas to blog again.

ITS BEEN EONS...

(cough cough cough)..

gosh, there's so much dust and cobwebs in this dead blog.

(picked up the broom and swept all the dust and cobwebs away)

(took a clean wet towel and cleaned the blog)

(sprayed air freshener so that the blog will smell nice)

a bit dramatic right?

you can't blame me. it's been 7 months i've updated this blog.

After the zawesomez (a word taught by my students) 28th birthday celebration, (oops, i have just publicly declared my age), i have no time to spare to update my boring blog. Didnt know there was somebody wanting to read about my life until she fb-ed me (thanks kak ani, u've been a great fan, eheh).

anyway, why i suddenly decided to blog today was because im kind of free today (though there are tonnes of scripts to be mark but i dont know why i am taking my own sweet time). I dont like to be pressured by others, because i know i can finish them on my own timing and i will finish it well.

The day I feel fat
anyway, the year 2010 was a year where SUDDENLY i have the strong desire to do something different for myself. I did the unthinkable. haha..anyway i realised i gained few pounds. Only realised that when i see my chubby cheecks on pics and i cant fit into my tight pink puma unstretchable pants. it was definitely a great wake up call. also seeing the digit 69.7kg on the weighing scale did scare the hell out of me.

Bodycombat & roger :)
so i plucked the courage to continue my daily regime of bodycombat at california fitness. thank u so much roger, because of your good looks and great motivation, i am fit and full of energy (hubby pls dont be jealous,just allow me "berperasan" once a while. my love for u is still menggunung seperti gunung everest). even during the fasting month, i do come for bodycombat as the urge to lose weight is very strong. Alhamdullilah, lost 5 kg now (because i gained 1kg due to post ramadhan.argh!)

My "love" for running..yeah right
and i also did the unthinkable. ive started jogging. how much i hate to run. thanks to my super enthusiasm, ive signed up for the adidas run (10km), shape run (5km), great eastern run (10km) and standard chartered run (10km). 2 runs down..2 more to come..and one is like in 2 weeks time. technically, i have run 3/4 marathon right? as in 35km in total...haha..so lame.

actually, its really how u think affects your performance. i am trying to learn that jogging is actually to DESTRESS and not a chore. but i cant help feeling disappointed everytime i stopped jogging and started to walk after covering 2-2.5km... need to improve on my mental strength. i think i need a better earpieces..kept on falling out when i run.SUPERBLY IRRITATING. so people, pls, on my next birthday, pls buy me sports gears and accesorries..need them so badly... before buying, pls ask first okay?

and i have this great aspiration to run a full marathon before i turn 30. i am superbly interested to sign up for the phuket laguna marathon (21km in fact) but the website is down. mayb i will try it again later. And mayb i will do full marathon (standard chartered) in 2011. u might think im crazy right? but i feel that there is a need to fulfil these unfulfiled dreams and desire for your own personal satisfaction.

Talking about fulfilling dreams...SPF here i come

YEAH!!!THIS IS THE UNTHINKABLE THAT I DID! there was a point of time in my life (especially after my 4 year bond has ended), i want to have a change of working environment. i was telling myself.if i could run 10km, i could be a police officer as well. so i decided to apply it online. i wasnt really hoping for it. my concept was, kalau ada rezeki, adalah.kalau tak, tak mengapa. and guess what? ive got a letter asking me to take a test on 14th august. then on 20th september was my interview and tadahh 13th october i went for my medical check up. but my interview session was really unforgettable. I was actually being myself and told them honestly without even trying to curry flavour them. at the end of the session, it was nice to hear from the higher ranking officers saying," i really enjoyed talking to you." :)) i am just a natural charmer, arent i? muahahaha... so now..i just wait for the letter and HTA here i come!:))

I am an awesome mom

anyway, my lovely pretty sweet princess, juita, turned 4 last september and oh boy she's getting smarter each day. Thank you Allah for hearing my daily prayers for making my pretty tata lovable and smart. Despite the fact i do not spend much time with her, but i feel i have fulfil my duties as a mom. To me, what is more important is spending QUALITY time, and it doesnt matter whether it is only 30 mins per day or 1 full day in a week. to me, what is most important is creating memorable and unforgettable childhood memories for juita.

and it's awesome that i am able to be able to converse with juita..meaning having a proper conversation. we talked about religion, we talked about death (in particular my late ayah), we talked about babies and pregnancy and we talked about bullies too. and sometimes she does surprise me with her good command of english and make sense ideas..

now tata is schooling at learning vision @ rp full time. every wednesday is her Science Junior Programme in her school and after that she's attending Preliminary Reading Programme at Civic Centre from 730pm to 9pm. Sundays are her gymnastics class. Next year, shes been bugging me to enroll her in ballet and swimming. and i also told her the importance of attending madrasah as well. so next year hopefully will be a fulfilling year for tata, insya allah.

Going back to school..insya allah

and yeah, i did sign up for a course to upgrade myself.but i dont know whether its a good timing if my application is successful as my application to be a police officer is like 90% successful. well, jariah, take one thing at a time. once u have fulfilled one of your dreams, u can fulfil another dream.

ok then, its enough for today..been typing like 20 minutes already. hopefully i hv the time to update my blog on a regular basis...

meantime, i cant wait for today's outing with my siblings in law and of course monday night with roger's bodycombat class! woohoo!

Babies babies everywhere...

aha. I have 10 minutes before my next lesson starts so might as well i blog about something that has been lingering in my mind for the past month.

i am a very fickle minded lady. one time, i want to do this, another time, i want to do that. basically, i want to do everything but at the end, i did not do what i plan to do. pocrastinate, as usual.

first, i want to take masters.

then, i want to have 2nd baby.

and then, suddenly i have the urge to change job (childhood dream job)

and of course i want to take 2b licence.

of all that, i started to have my doubts.

recently, everyone around me is pregnant. im feeling the pressure BUT i dont want to give in to the pressure. no one went through what i went through and i am definitely DONT WANT to gain the weight again after working hard to lose them.

maybe i should take one at a time. maybe meantime for now, i need to do solat tahajjud to see what is best for me. wish me luck.

MIA

Yes.I have MIAed from blogging since last birthday? Terrible. Well, you really have to understand the job as an educator. When your life is really buzy, you simply dont have time to sit down and think about what to blog. Plus, if you realise something, I've changed my blog layout to something simple and plain. Well, there is what is becoming of me. Simple and plain. in short, boring.

its good enough that I am able to blog now (in sch, waiting for my floorball boys to end their training at 6). Suppose to go to Novena gym for my date but ALAS he cancelled his class and replaced by another instructor. So not goin to the gym today. Will be fetching my beloved tata from sch before heading for my run (after being MIA due to my high fever). gonna start SLOW again.

pls pray that i will blog again and if i decided to blog again tonite, i will talk more about tata. meantime, toodleloos...