I talk to the rain

Everything is in place I guess.
Sorry yy have to make you do something for me. To tell the truth, is not I have no time. Rather is cause I don't feel like seeing that person? Can say he also don't want to see me. ( Unless I interpret wrongly the message of stop talking to me and leave me alone. ) And this also means don't call me out except if you want me to accompany you to run.
These few days the people I sms has gone down to 3. Which can be said as a good sign which I will explain later. The Queen (normal) Snowyball (normal) and muel (not normal xD)
To the 3 I have to thank you for enduring my weirdness, crappiness (THERE IS SUCH A WORD!) and annoyingness. To muel didn't expect you to reply most of the time but thanks for replying. At least I know there is always people I can turn to when I feel lonely.
Tomorrow my mom will be flying off again. Guess it will be just me and this house and sometimes my bro.
And here is the thing I need to explain to you all. I will be going after 3 years. Have been trying hard so spend more time with the people around me but since the outcome turn out to be like that. I guess I should just leave things as it is. Anyway not much people will notice, tired and tested.

To you. Since it is your wish for me to leave you alone. You will not see me, touch me, smell or hear me. You will not perceive me even if I stand before you. At least this I can promise you. You want you can delete me from your facebook friends and your msn like what you did with the rest even though it is by accident. If I as a friend (not that you regard me as one since I am under other contacts) cannot help you or lend you a listening ear when you need, then I am not considered as a friend but rather just a stranger.

To you xin yu

If you think the post before was referring to you IT IS NOT!
Serious. The start was only an example for the tissue and mirror logic.
You are one of the 2 who have accompany me a lot a lot of times.
So to you. You have help me a lot of times, now it is my turn. Can tell me what happen ma?
Why you change your msn message until like that?

Ignored

Did you ever had a friend that wants something from you and could not find you online. So he will call your hand phone. First he will talk to you about totally random things like why you did not come online all these and finally he will ask from you the favor. After he has done asking and you said okay all those he will just say bye then put down the phone. Then when you think about it. Did he really called to ask about how you are or did he call to ask if you can help him.

After aimlessly walking for 2 hours plus. I have decided to do this. I know by doing this, I might lose quite a number of friends.

Some of my friends keep on saying I am smart, guess what, I am not smart. If I am I would not have ended up where I am now. If you guys are wondering what happen in between? I shall tell you. I was from a JC and cause my results are not that good to enter a university I am now studying in a SP.

Many people have said that I am born in a blessed family. Yet how many know what does it feel like to be here.
You know every time when you go home it is usually a habit to shout to your parents that you are back. For me, that is not the case cause I know usually no one is at home. Dad is working overseas, mom usually go overseas and my brother staying in hostel. You may think so much freedom I have but have you thought of how lonely it is to every time come home to a empty house. Furthermore it has been 8 years. For 8 years I see my mom 3 to 4 months then she goes overseas for about 1 month. For 8 years I usually only see my brother during the weekends if not he does not even come home. For 8 years I have been seeing my dad only 6 weeks each year. You may say technology is so advance now that you can talk on msn all those but you think technology can replace human to human contact?

So you know what does it feel to be lonely? Guess not, if you did I would not have become like that. Many times I try to talk to people or ask them out all those and the reply they give me is busy or lazy. Some made empty promises, some forgot and others did not even bother to reply me. It is like you reach out and the whole world rejects your entire being. So to that world, behold your creation. I don't think I ever want to go for anymore gathering when all they usually do is talk among themselves about things that I understand but they do not want to include me in the conversation so I am just like being ignored and left at one corner. They all make me feel like if I went to the toilet and come back all of them would have left without me cause they had forgotten I went out with them. What for do I want to waste my time and money to go out when I can enjoy that at the comfort of my home.

沉默

镜小时候就开始模仿别人
可是慢慢的他开始忘了自我
神看到了很生气
他惩罚镜
给了他一个世界
一个他必须每份每秒的模仿人

镜每天都在找
每天都在喊
设法离开这冷酷的地方
可是看到的人一句话也不说
因为他们的眼睛
他们的耳朵
和他们的脑海里只有一个字
我

后来镜也累了
但不管他有多累
他还是必须帮在对面的人
希望那人能救他
把他从这世界拉出来
可是那些人一用完
就会到自己的世界
回头看他一眼也没有

到最后
镜的声音也没了
他也放弃和另一个世界的人求救
因为他们的世界不能容纳多一个人
镜只能希望
有人会回头看他
回答他