JC life

It is SRJC for me. Went back to NY today. Strange thing was I did not quite like it now. Haha. I bet u all want to know the reason why right? Well it is because when I enter NY, I could see a lot of people from different good school. If I went in there I will die faster. Haha.
Went to watch miss congeniality 2 with Ervin, Catherine, Dennis and Wee Kiat just now. Great show with great friends. It was very funny. Then they deciding to watch house of fury next week. Well I don't think I will have the time go watch with you all cause of the school work I need to catch up. Maybe I will spend my next two weeks having intense study. Don't worry, I will remember to relax and enjoy myself too. Well, I am not trying to make my brain focus on nothing but study until I can catch up with the people who went for first 3 months JC. Then need to everyday revise school work. In JC what you can do tomorrow do it today not tomorrow. You will suffer if you have decided to leave things for tomorrow. I have chosen the JC life, I must make full use of it and get into a U if not then 2 years of my life is wasted. Haha. But I have decided what job to take when I grow up. I want to become a teacher. That means more early wake ups for me. Haha. Maybe I will chose another job in the future I also don't know. Well have to learn time mangement skills and most importantly mind of matter. Really hope I can learn that skill. Haha. Then maybe I can be as smart as those people in RJC. Haha. And if you want to huh I also cannot stop you. Just don't flood my tag bored with huhs.

Emotionally Unstable

Every time I think of the things we do in SR, it keeps on reminding me of the crazy things we always do in CBSS. Then before I know it I will start crying. I really hated myself for not cherishing the time I had in CBSS. So what if it was a lousy school. So what if it a school that no one knows about it. To me it was a school that I like. I miss the time we had there, the funny things we do in class, the time where Ervin they all was defiance to the teachers, when we start to copy homework in the morning cause we did not do or when we where doing it during accounts lesson. I miss the people there the most, my teachers, friends and the aunts who work at the shops there. If only I can control time i really want to relive my secondary school years.
Why I cannot go NY? Why Wei Ming can enter NY but I cannot? I really don't get it. Is god playing with me? WHY? Can god give me an answer NOW? I do not want to wait for time to slowly reveal everything. Cause I am unhappy with the results. I think my faith is dropping faster than time. There are also other things which I hated and after so many years i still don't know why had god given it to me. Top on the list are my family members not including my mother, father and brother. My aunts and uncles keep on saying bad things about me behind my back. You guys think I don't know but you are wrong. When me and my brothers were small we were given toys for Christmas present. But those toys were what their children play until spoil or don't want to play. I remember my brother keep on crying cause his toy plane was broken. They also ask their children to keep away from me cause my results were bad. I was only a small boy, even a small kid you all also want to bully is it? I remember my mom always cry because of me, because my results were bad she will get scolded by my grandmother. It is not my mom's fault that I get bad results. Can you all get the facts right before you all start scolding her? Every time I see my mom crying I always lock myself in the room and start crying cause I know it is my fault that she is crying. Then recently I told my aunt I was enjoying my 3 months of break. She send me home then before I leave her car she told me in a sarcastic way to enjoy my break. I really hate them. Every time their children score bad results they just say not as bad as Bernard can liao. I know I have bad results but do you have to say it out. I know you all hated me cause I enjoy more and don't suffer any exams stress, but do you have to with compare me? Why can't you compare with my better couSIN? This is the main reason I want to go to Malaysia to stay with the relatives from my mother's side. I also remember my father and mother wrote me a letter saying they are sorry for bringing me to Singapore. To tell the truth I was not suppose to be in the world. I was a child born earlier by if I recall 2-3 months. I was suppose to die but god made the doctors save me. Why did god save me? To make me suffer? A lot of question have been going through my head. The only times when i enjoyed myself was when I was in Malaysia and in secondary school. The rest of my life I hated it. Maybe the JC life will also be an enjoyment, I still don't know. Well after writing all my hatred I feel so much better. Guys when you read this I beg you all not to tell anyone. This is one of the reasons I did not tell much people about my blog. And yes, no more huhs.

SRJC

Well by the looks of it, I am staying in SRJC. Today is quite fun lah. Did lectures in SR. While listening to the math teacher teaching math 9233 i just found out that i had almost forgotten everything about A math. Haha, still can't believe I got a B3 for my A math. After that went for physics which was totally boring. I am not going to take physics in my combi. Well tomorrow going to chose my CCA, i should be taking swimming ba. But thinking of trying tennis. So confused now. What should i take? Badminton? So many CCAs to choose from. Too bad cannot take all. Unlike secondary school where you can just go for whatever CCA you want. Haiz. Still sad cause I could not get into NY. One more thing. I officially ban the word huh in the tag bored. Like that James cannot put anymore huh liao. Hehe. Going to sleep liao. Very tired from yesterday cause not enough sleep.

1 more hour

Can't believe I am saying this but I am getting use to SRJC. Haha. Although I still prefer NY. Well time is running short as i write this blog. Sounds as if I am typing a message before my death. Well maybe is because of the lectures that got me use to the school. Did not know I am the study type. Haha. Phone just rang. Reaction still the same. Well 1 more hour to go before I know the sad truth or maybe it is a happy one. Haha. I just hope can go into NYJC. Wondering How are my other friends doing. Are they enjoying their time now? All will be revealed to me tomorrow. Feel like ending here. Tonight then continue ba. Haha. No more brain juice.

Fear

To tell the truth, I had not have this feeling for a very long time. I feel so stupid, being covered in fear of not getting the call from NYJC telling you your appeal is successful. I think you all also find it stupid right? It is just a phone call, I don't know why I am getting so worked up about it. Someone please save me. Now I have a hard time sleeping but because of this i have found out something i had lost for a very long time. Internal peace. Well this feeling had been lost when I was young. Today i had just found it. I have not been praying properly since I was young. Well you know when you were young you will have short attention span. I am not that holy as i look k. Well today I decided to start praying all over again. Desperate you know. I think you all know what happen. Not so worked up now. But still will get nervous after a while. Well now thinking of giving up hope. Don't know when i started to become so negative. Maybe cause I went to SRJC. Well JC life could really change a person. My brother for example. I think I told some of you what happen. Not going to say it here in case he finds my blog. Haha. Well wish me luck k? Hope can go into NY. Maybe I will start chanting NYJC in my dreams. That's scary. Haha. Typing a blog sometimes makes me feel that I am chatting with myself. Guess I will end here. Good night to all those that are reading my blog today. And good morning to those that are reading it tomorrow morning. Last point I want to state. Wei ming pang se me... Haha. That's not it. This is the real one. Life does not always go where you want it to go. When changes come face and make use of it. Maybe life will be better than expected. Sounds familiar? It should be cause this is one of the oldest sayings there are. Not piracy cause no one copyright it yet. Haha. I am getting more and more lame.

1 out of 200+

That is my chance of getting into NYJC. And wei ming got in. Maybe he should not have told me he got the call. Feeling very depressed now. Well, the hope of getting into NYJC is getting slimmer n slimmer. I don't even think I have a chance of getting in. Should i continue hoping to get in or should I just give up here and accept my life as it is now? How I wish god can give me an answer through my dreams or something like that. Now every time the phone rings i would rush there to answer it wishing it was NYJC that called to say my appeal was successful. That is but a dream something which I know will not come through but still hope miracle will happen. How I wish the appeal to poly stops on the 30 march. Cause if i did not enter NYJC I would rather go into a poly and enjoy life there. Haha. Still can't get over the holidays. Will god test my patients by giving me the call only on the 29? That I am also not sure. Strangely i could not use my ability to predict the future on myself. Sad case right? I could only help my friends to tell them what bad things are going to happen to them. Haha, some sort of foul mouth I have. These few days I think I am getting crazier cause the patients is driving me nuts. But I still have to wait cause this is life and i know the ending will be an unfair one.

Memories

While the gang was enjoying our freedom for first 3 months we usually meet up to play badminton. We always laugh at James doing his funny actions like some funny moves, like vibrating 3 times before hitting the shuttlecock. Then James also pretended to be a caterpillar n moved around the court. There were also other moves like jumping like a monkey or moving like a crab, we always laugh at him cause it was so funny. He always have a lot of theory but in the end still lost to us. James I will tell u why u lost to us. You always try to hit every time and not let others hit. There was once we tried to learn his moves and we all ended up laughing till we cry n could not concentrate in playing but we really enjoyed ourselves that day. Maybe that was the last time James ever got interest in playing badminton. After that he slowly lost interest. What will happen to our badminton gang I am also not sure. Could be because we are not together anymore that cause him to lost his interest. Quite sad to see the great friendship we build up so fast slipping away at almost the same speed. Feels like heaven is playing with us. In the end is still the same line. If only I could turn back the hands of time. Well even when we don't meet up for badminton we still can go out to catch a movie or go shopping right? Provided all of u turn up. Remembering our secondary school life. Beating the table during sec 1 then in Mr Peh's lesson would be our toilet lesson cause we would have a lot of people going to toilet. Then sec 2 Ervin broke the fire alarm but in the end benedict got scolded. Haha. There would also be holes in our classrooms cause they were playing soccer in class. Then sec 3 and 4 was the time all of us was together. That was when all the crazy things. Well school is starting soon, lets try to meet up as much as we can before school start cause once it start, our holidays will be on different days with me the most number of holidays (yeah!!!). Haha, maybe u all will envy me cause of the number of holidays I have. But I know I will always envy all of u cause you all could have a chance of meeting each other in school and could enjoy your teenage life compared to me. Poor me. Looks like I write down every thing we went through with each other in case I ever forget about it. This time the entry should not be so sad liao right? Haha. Leave a tag cause my tag bored is so EMPTY. Not really empty but just leave a tag k?

Past present n future

First time having a blog... Well JC life is quite ok but I really envy my friends who went to poly. Start school later and end earlier but have lots of project work which I hate. How I wish all of us r still together in the same school n same class where we would do crazy thing 2gether like watching shows till the wee hours even though exams r just tml. Really wish chong boon have the program which we from secondary straight away go into JC. Then we would be doing those crazy thing we did in secondary. Jaime bel always take people's bag n start hiding the things inside, me n ong always start talking about anime. Then we have anti people group. I would also start cursing cat which really happens. Then me n Angie always sleep in class. During PE would b our stress relief period cause we would be whacking the ball with everything we got. Then we have the group which would always play badminton, even though we could play badminton in PE some of us would also go down to teck gee cc and book the court when all of us are free to play badminton. But now we can't do tat cause all of our holidays are on different days. Then we have the sc gang where all they will talk about is sc. I would be missing those days we have together. On my first day I did not quite like it but when I got to know the people there things start to get better. Started enjoying activities in SRJC but I still want to get into NYJC. But don't know if I go in now will I get to know the people there, will I prefer SRJC, could I even cope with JC life. My brother told me that I should have chosen poly life. Well after hearing what Ervin they all say maybe I should have gone into a poly. But it is too late now, there is nothing I can do. The only thing now is to study hard and enter a U. If only I could turn back the hands of time. Well, I have to say good bye to my social life. Maybe I could only meet u guys in msn. Would have less n less time to meet u guys. Really hope we could have more class gatherings but not too much until we get sian by seeing the faces of each other. I would like to thank the friends around me like Ervin Catherine Jamie Annabel James Trudy Fannie Ee Wen Amanda Jin Lian Constance Angie joanne Wei Jun Yu Zhuang Serena... arg... Too many to name all out. Well thank you all my friends for giving me such an enjoyable time in secondary school. I found out I did not make the wrong choice by going into chong boon. I will miss u guys.