Memories

Packing my room and chanced upon the letters u wrote me. Thank you again for all the sweet memories and silly moments. They'll remain locked in my heart forever.

To all u guys out there, treat ur partner right cause u dont know when u will lose them.

Just ended a 2 years relationship.

Though deep down i know we weren't meant for each other (we possess totally different traits), I am already missing her.

I still remember the first time she came over my house, we had so much fun and laughter, with her makeup and all. Laughing like crazy even while we waited for her grab car to come at the carpark. Its STILL just so vivid in my mind.

If only life was simpler, if only we were younger, if only..

I am sorry, for not being everything that u dreamed of. for not being the guy u wanted me to be.

Dont start to regret losing ur love ones folks, cos u asked for it.

Finally over!

Wow. It's been like 3 years since I updated the blog! Think I'm finally over her now. Took that long huh. Been going out with this girl recently. She's quite nice but doesn't know how to speak mandarin. i detect American accent? It's very enjoyable spending time with her, but too bad she's already attached. There's so much to talk about when u meet someone new. The next day after I woke up, it all felt like a dream. Too good to be true. It didn't happen just once. My 3rd time feeling it already. Oh well, back to friendzone again I guess.

I just texted her and said not to contact each other today. And deleted all photos of her off my facebook. Wondered if i did the right thing. I wanted to be freed of the pain and sadness that is welling inside of me. but part of me wants her too. She no longer cares about me. She found a new partner. I just came back from Batam with mum. We waited for Dad at Macdonalds, who promised to pick us up at 5pm. We reached HBF centre at 4.25pm and i text him to tell him we reached alr. We sat and waited for his text/call but it never came. 1 hour came. I asked mum to go home on our own instead of endlessly waiting. She refused. 2 hours came. She finally gave in and left with me. All this while she kept looking at the windows at Macdonalds at the Taxi stand, waiting and hoping that Dad would arrive soon, without saying anything. From the corner of my eye, i saw her wiped her eyes. I think she cried. I saw a reflection of myself all this time, we are both waiting for someone we love to quickly come. Both of us are Sagittarius horoscope, which makes us very sensitive to love. haiz.

I thought of her whole day today. Whatever thread, whatever line I'm hanging onto our relationship, whatever little glimpse of hope I have had disappeared. It's like someone just smacked me on the head hard. Today I changed the wallpaper of us together for the first time in more than like what, 2 years? Removed the pass code of the date we were together too 1912.

Everyday i dread the day of 14th feb. thats when u are leaving le. My wound opens up again. Its like breaking up once more. Every single night after we broke up, i think of you when i sleep. Will u think of me when u are there ma?

its 14 Jan. 1 more month u go le... self emo now. haiz... so fast!!! left 1 more month. If we were still together, if i ask u to stay, will u stay ma? i still miss u so much. Do spring cleaning at home, saw the precious stuffs u made for me, our first valentine day together, u made the straw hearts for me until ur hand pain pain, and u put into the monokuro boo box. Remember ma? Sweet memories just flowed into my head. We alighted on City hall on that day and u passed me, den i accidentally topple the box and all the hearts spilled on the floor and everyone was looking at us! hehe... And the mp4 that u bought for me, but i seldom use, i promise i will use it frequently one of these days ok? and still got the bracelet u got for me at jurong point cos u know i always wanted a bracelet. Bebe where are u? why did things turn out like that? im sorry for not maintaining our relationship well, im sorry for not spending more time with you. i miss u!!!! come back please?