I just texted her and said not to contact each other today. And deleted all photos of her off my facebook. Wondered if i did the right thing. I wanted to be freed of the pain and sadness that is welling inside of me. but part of me wants her too. She no longer cares about me. She found a new partner. I just came back from Batam with mum. We waited for Dad at Macdonalds, who promised to pick us up at 5pm. We reached HBF centre at 4.25pm and i text him to tell him we reached alr. We sat and waited for his text/call but it never came. 1 hour came. I asked mum to go home on our own instead of endlessly waiting. She refused. 2 hours came. She finally gave in and left with me. All this while she kept looking at the windows at Macdonalds at the Taxi stand, waiting and hoping that Dad would arrive soon, without saying anything. From the corner of my eye, i saw her wiped her eyes. I think she cried. I saw a reflection of myself all this time, we are both waiting for someone we love to quickly come. Both of us are Sagittarius horoscope, which makes us very sensitive to love. haiz.

I thought of her whole day today. Whatever thread, whatever line I'm hanging onto our relationship, whatever little glimpse of hope I have had disappeared. It's like someone just smacked me on the head hard. Today I changed the wallpaper of us together for the first time in more than like what, 2 years? Removed the pass code of the date we were together too 1912.

Everyday i dread the day of 14th feb. thats when u are leaving le. My wound opens up again. Its like breaking up once more. Every single night after we broke up, i think of you when i sleep. Will u think of me when u are there ma?

its 14 Jan. 1 more month u go le... self emo now. haiz... so fast!!! left 1 more month. If we were still together, if i ask u to stay, will u stay ma? i still miss u so much. Do spring cleaning at home, saw the precious stuffs u made for me, our first valentine day together, u made the straw hearts for me until ur hand pain pain, and u put into the monokuro boo box. Remember ma? Sweet memories just flowed into my head. We alighted on City hall on that day and u passed me, den i accidentally topple the box and all the hearts spilled on the floor and everyone was looking at us! hehe... And the mp4 that u bought for me, but i seldom use, i promise i will use it frequently one of these days ok? and still got the bracelet u got for me at jurong point cos u know i always wanted a bracelet. Bebe where are u? why did things turn out like that? im sorry for not maintaining our relationship well, im sorry for not spending more time with you. i miss u!!!! come back please?

It's 2013! A new year, a new start... It's around this time last year you broke up with me... I still think about you, wondering how are you, what are you doing now. You are going off to Australia soon le! 1 and a half more months more. Will u still think about me? Will forget me?