Lately, i've been taking 2 meals per day.
Figured out that it's alright, maybe an even healthier diet to get slim and fit ever since after i read The Beach, where people in Thailand at a farm eats only 2 meals in morning 4am and evening 5pm.

Mood is back to depressed.
Now im reading this book called Mao's Last Dancer.
Its a very nice book, with a touch of chinese feel in it. Reminds me of the days where i spent time in the Singapore Collection in AMK library reading the hometown stories.

Yesterday was me and bebe's 3rd year anniversary..
actually wanted to bring her out and eat and get something for her but our relationship now is like... haiz

so sweet also not enough, i cant keep u by my side...
Tom says in a relationship, the 4th year is the streaming year for average couples, which will depends whether a relationship will turn sour and break or it will improve drastically.

whether u like it or not, 2 years i will still wait for you. some call it faithful, some call it stupidity, but to me, this is love for u.

on wednesday, tom asked me if i wanted to go to MINDS cafe or not with his church friends. i readily agreed.

on that day however, we had this abacus test and were quite mortified by the outcome. anyway i forgot that the meeting was at 6 and the test finished at 6.30 or 6.45.

had to make him wait so pai seh. sry tom. ahaha.
the meeting was quite fun actually, i thought it was just some random sit-down-and-talk-cock session, but i was wrong, we played board games at clarke quay in MINDS and i learned a couple of games. terry the joker was hilarious and his laughter almost everytime succeeded in bringing up one of mine. glad to know a few frens. some of whom were familiar faces which i have seen during my last outing with them at pulau ubin cycling.

yesterday i went to wild wild wet with a few of my classmates, those who we bonded with during Abacus Training Course. they had this U-shape thingy that is certified to bring up the thrill and blood excitement rush in your head! super duper fun!
u climb 3 storeys high up with a float, go sit down in a corner and zoooooooooom, the staff push u down and u goes down the U-shape thingy, u will feel like dropping off! my god, we went there twice. cheap thrills... i like man... and they had another session on next thursday where they say they will go to Ian's (a USA friend)house and play mahjong.

Bebe go Korea le.. so good weather in singapore hot, but korea is cold... i want cold cold weather!! bring me alonggggggggggg!
miss u dearly..

Every step that i take to home is more and more depressing.
The abacus class that i attended was a 3 day course and by the end of day one, i felt i hasnt really learn important things.

It's like being back in poly school days again where the lecturer rambles about some programming and you just stone there, trying your best to figure out what she says but making nothing out of it.

And on the 3rd day there is a test.

i score certain points that the teacher shoots out questions at, but those are just the minority ones. What im really afraid of, is the coup de grace, which im sure will involve lots and chunks of 'programming' stuff.

China people aint helping. they are a pissful bunch of people.
now i begin to see the light between the bangalas and the cheenas.

bangalas are now more welcomed in our land than these fags.
i think i am turning into a reverse-racist person.
imagine someone hating your own race. kinda weird to think about it.

bebe flying off to korea le. somehow i can sense there's still a barrier between us.
but i miss her so much. don't know how she feels about me though.
bon voyage and take care of yourself in korea! will miss u lots...

im beginning to hate this fellow.
HATE.
it all started quite fine and but den the remarks keep coming. i cant take it. i decided to left sch early today. and in the end i was told at the end of the class, a test was given and those marks will be included in assignment.

which makes me hate this fellow even more.

dislike is only the beginning yesterday. never did i imagine it to be hate.
wont say who this fellow is. cos this blog may be read by unwanted ppl. and u never know it will turn out to be that fellow.

POS. nub.

Assignments and test coming up. The presentation was really a screw up. really. unexpected things happen. haiz.. but cant be help. poor verbal skills by group members and no initiative on their part.

sian. but still i think it might be better than the china's group.
say how many times cannot use wikipedia they also dun understand.

Everybody short of money nowadays.
How i wish i have a laptop to bring to school or library to do with friends. haiz.
And i seriously wonder how, how are we going to foot the next school bill at 7k+ in 4 months time.

There's no pocket money for me since after poly. army savings put me up till this far, but how long can i last?

I just love u very much. all i want is the best for you.. im sorry i keep causing u pain. im sorry.. i just want to be with you.

Someone told me that Chris Benoit died and they discovered his brain's is the mentality of a child, thus causing the homicide of his family and eventually himself.

Thats scary. considering the many times heavyweight championship he got and defended. =/

My mum played bejewelled till mad liao.
I think no one can beat her at the top.
Look at her score.

Maybe you have forgotten about me.
But i hasn't.

The pics, wallpaper in my handphone, computer still remain.
Because u are part of me already.

Been feeling very tired recently, especially after swimming. Today swam 34 laps without stopping in bishan swimming complex. Maybe next time I'll try for 40 laps and eventually go for 50 laps.

Sch assignments are worrying me. I have little clue how to go along doing it. Hope my frena aren't the slack type. especially this black guy that sherman has decided to recruit into our team who's from India. I couldn't understand him half of the time.

Moodless.

I must remember not to anyhow divulge any form of information on my blog to anyone in class.
If not i might get bashed up by Cheeeena dogs.
Today met huaqiang's friend, sherman.
He's a very nice guy, same class as hua last time and same camp as well.

Lucky got someone to talk to. If not i might suffer under the odour of cheeeenality.
Is it me or do i have a little trouble hearing the lecturer cos she's from New Zealand. slang.
Lucky that aint too bad.

Yu To said his lecturers in NTU 80% all got different slang. jialat.
Hmmmm. must find time to go do some workout. been skipping a lot lately.

Today quite tired sit till back pain during lesson but still happy cos bebe MSG me say baby.. Hehe tmr lesson start le. Must jiayou! I didn't realise how great my dislike for china ppl were till
mum started saying she hates them. And den everywhere I go, I see china ppl. On the trains, in classes even! Tmr got class
I think 80% cheeeena ppl. Die Liao lor. Go orientation den they speak in their silly slang and those clowns behind me say "dou ting bu dong"
stupid sia, ting bu dong den come here for wad. Go take a
Chinese course la zzz.
Sit on the train on the way back also this cheeena women talk in her china dialect talk so loud. Like her hometown like that. Mum
say that she detests them cos they steal we Singaporean de jobs. See them also sian. I used to laugh at her cos I was an anti black then, but now I hate them more.

The government should limit number of ppl
coming to work in Singapore or foreigners applying for work permits or PR.
When asked why she dun like cheeeeena ppl more than bangalas, my mama also say at least the blacks come here do those job no Singaporean are willing to do. clear rubbish chutes, roadside work, toiling in the sun all that. So it's understandable. Cheeeeena ppl come steal our rice bowl.

It was den that set me thinking how right she was.

I'm wonderig how long it will be before I punch some cheeeena guy in my
class for talking too loud.

It's like a sudden stab in my heart,
Slowing its beat,
Dragging its flow
Seeing ur status on ur facebook.
I know i have no right but still, it hurts.

Looked at past msgs bebe sent me.
Cause thats the only way i can see bebe and baby in the text.
<3 u...

Mum nagged at me again.
Says do things for her impatient.
Cried in my pillow and all i can think of is you.

Need someone to talk to. But its never the same again, is it?
God.. I miss you.

Woke up early morning today, dreamt that your msg still calls us bebe and baby. I was so happy, elated, even by this little acts. Wish i never woke up.

Quickly looked at my handphone, wishing your msg contained these. But there isnt any msg.

And again, this afternoon cried in my bolster.
i read ur msgs, i can't seem to forget the times when we were together, our pictures, everything.

I can't forget u at all. It's all embedded deep in me. Memories, the tides we went through.

I only have myself to blame.
Can never be good enough for you. Take care.

These times thinking of u... Thinking what u are doing now. Hopefully, u are doing fine, and wishing the best.

Just to let u know, i will always be here by ur side if u ever need me.

Something happened. Damn emo. Cried in train, cried on the way home. But no choice.. Will be taking driving lessons soon. Gg bbdc take a look tmr. Moodless. Running takes my mind off things.. But I can't do so now. Damn leg got worse after running. I love u bebe.. Eternally.

Jin's relatives Ah gong and Ah ma very kind to me...
Showed a lot of hospitality.
Offered fried rice and take drinks and apples, yes i guess thats standard for all hosts to show their guests, but its been a long time since i was shown that and i am very grateful to them.

Today meet up with Bebe~
Long time nv see her le.. Miss her sooooooooo much!!!!
went to watch up.. i give it 6/10 to 7/10.
Maybe cos we are sitted too far back and the screen is small.

after that went to walk ard and had Subway.
It always taste soooo good. yeah double choc cookies rocks..

after tat went to meet Magesh for some raw deal deck playing.

This time,
Edge went 1-0 against his Triple H
Evolution went 1-0 against his Triple H

Took me some adjusting to form Evolution.

And i finish him off in my 3rd turn.
With only 3 Maneuvers in my Ring Area.

Ahhh.. Owning... =)

This guy sms me and said he got a group of friends playing wwe raw deal cards.
so i asked where he's living at.
He identified himself as Magesh.

And then i was thinking wtf another mutt (Other than the legendary Muhd Rumi who went to USA for World Championship 2007 in Raw Deal and got 1st).

He also said he used his tourney deck to thrash a lot of people.
I became a little wary as to what he's going to use.
More on expecting Legend Superstars like Bobby Heenan or Roddy Pipper.

It just dawned on me that we spoke on the phone and he was rapping. Figured out that he's a black after all.
Do blacks have money to buy cards? hmmm.

ANYWAY, in the end i won him 5-1.
And he was using old school superstars like Triple H and Lita.

Our Match
The Rock vs Lita 1-0
Ric Flair vs Triple H 2-0
Rhyno vs Triple H 2-0
Edge vs Triple H 0-1 =( wasted i didnt have my cards yet if not i would have trounce him.


Enjoyed feeling of winning. Oh well, it turns out he works at the Neighbourhood Police Post just below my house. lol next time got kaki already..

Hopefully can get some cards cheap from him.

Dad's coming back home rather frequently these few days.. And quite frankly, I don't like it. The akwardness, the silence.. It just doesn't feel right.

Am I the only guy who feels that the senior of cai jincao in the boys over flowers is damn handsome? Dun understand what's all the fuss about the curly hair guy. Even the youngest looks
much more handsome.
God.

Ahhhh dun tell me I'm turnig half gay.

Changed songs again.
This time a list of my own favourites.
This time some of them from hybrid blackie/whitie Michael Jackson.
No Wonder he sang the song: "Black or White"
ahahahahaha.

It don't matter if you're Black or White~~~


Goodbye RoseOnline!
Time to quit!

After reaching 3 chars of max LvL 210, (well EvilBatty my Cleric was at 208 but i've decided to stop anyway), i found the game bored.

As usual, posting what ive taken screenshots of so far,
The Materials needed for Castle Gear Crafting.



Quest for CG, Last Boss freaking HUGE!






Finally Done! Black CG!


Union War with CG
















And Finally my full set title belt. anybody wants to buy for 850-900 SGD? heh. its listed on eBay already.

Sometimes i wonder to myself, if im gone in this world, would it have made a difference to anyone in this world?
The people i know, i love, i wonder if they care...

These past few days, ive fallen sick, after going to a chalet with my relatives.
Some clown decided it was hilarious to go there with a flu coming down or a fever.
Jin said his classmates (2 of them) was temporarily suspended from school due to H1N1, well only 1 kena but the other not confirmed yet. But still, well, figures out he's the bloody clown.

In the end, after the 4 days chalet, 5 of us fell sick. Bitchhhhhhhhhh.

i fucking hate the life i have now.
fucking hate it.
a few months ago in army, all was alright until now i came out all the problems start arising.

no one understands me. no one.
im all alone.

Michael Jackson has passed away.
But i still listen and watch his videos online at youtube.
If there's any black guy worth respecting, its Michael Jackson.

The ONLY black guy i respect.
Because, he also cant stand himself being a black nigger and went to surgery and make himself white. heh.

these few days, posting in various forums stating theres a need to buy wwe cards.
people have smsed me, quoting ridiculous prices.

Prices like $80 per card. If u want like that sell, den my 2 pages of title belt cards i sell u for $100 each u want? Dumbasses.

Didnt even do research properly and offer this kind of price.
True, prices were ONCE like this. Like 6 years ago.
Nooooooobs.

i miss my life in army. where theres no worries.
now come out civi life a whole lot of shit waits for u.
hate them all.
the good 'ol days where we have fun.
in New Zealand, australia..
miss them all.

Hasnt post in a long time. Been collecting cards around and playing deck.
Bought a lot of Title Belt cards. They look nice.. XD

Today went back to camp to collect my.... PINK IC!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooOOOooOoOOOOoO!!

ORD LEH! ORD LOH! ORD LEH! Oh-Oh! ORD LOH!!
Sweeeeee....

i just sign on some web designing course using my e-credits.
hope can start soon.

bebe too busy these few days.. she very tired and doesnt have enough rest.
im worried for her.

miss her so much too. bebe sorry make u angry the other day. promise i wont do it again.. <3 u

recently got a few wwe cards from a seller.
and the trademark finisher damn cool sia. got 2 somemore.
now got buyer want to buy liao.

making profit.. XD
sweeeeeeet.
my money invested in them hasnt gone to waste after all..

today went with ganny and kiat to eat prata..
long time nv eat le..
somehow the gosong tastes a little diff.
maybe cos im not too hungry or maybe its too fried.

ahhhh. got 80k over in restaurant city. dont know what to do with it.
im lazy to trade ingredients. got lots of it.

all i can think of is wwe cards now. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
and im rotting at home. thinking of my pink IC.

screw u guys who are still serving NS.
neh neh ni poo poo.

Recently ive been collecting wwe cards especially WWE Title Belt cards.. i think they are the coolest cards ever made in wwe..

look so nice.. got power sia.. anyone who got wwe cards sell tell me ok thanks

now im on leave.. rotting at home dunno wad to do..

Mindef sent me a letter say i got $350 can be used as credits to take up courses online. i want to take leh.. want to take some IT course but that fk shit cost $275 wtf.. got to pay 10% of it..

shit.. i think i ask mama to pay me $27.50 den i go sign up liao.. im really rotting at home.. too bored..

ive got 2 and a 1/2 more working days left!! den can claim off and leave till i ORD loh!!!

ahahhahhahahaha.

yesterday went to meet bebe at clementi for dinner. before that went to bukit batok de arcade. i think currently that arcade is the best in my list. got san guo, got strikers, got MVC, got MVC2. wahhhhh. wad more can anyone ask for? =)

met this guy in arcade, we started chatting about Strikers 1945 III. anyone heared of it? very nice aeroplane game. talk abt reservist also.. haha..

den meet bebe at clememti and we went to buy pizza for dinner. so tired de bebe blur blur de @_@.. hehe~ muacks~

im gg to change a new song. basket sick of the ai pia ah cia eh yiaaaaaaaaaaaa~!! woooo...

keep playing Texas Hold'em Poker nowadays..
i found a way to get rich already.
hahaha 350k now.. fool proof plan..

not telling anyone of cos.. if not they will be as rich as me. zzz

Anyone read the books by Stephanie Myers? Twilight and the rest of the sequels.
It's quite nice, although there are werewolves and vampires mentioned in them, they are still much more pratical than the Harry Potter series.

Breaking Dawn, the last book of the collection, was the best among all. It is thrilling right to end i think (i read till middle part only). I finished Eclipse in 2 days. Tuesday morning finish. But i didnt have time to finish Breaking Dawn cos i go TES stuffs to do.

i dun really feel like doing anything cos something bad happened. Im regretful of speaking things which i shouldnt. my fat mouth.
~
We both know that this is the best option for both of us now.
But i already miss u after that. i couldnt get to sleep. try as i might.
the whole day. and the day after that. u were in my mind 24 hours.

I know u might not read my blog anymore, but i dun care, i need to get it off my chest. There isnt any real friends i could talk to. I only have you, and when u are gone just like that, i couldn't accept the fact.
A part of me is gone too. You have been a part of my life already.
I wont let anyone stand in between us. Never.
I will wait for u.

But would you?

This week, its finally time for me to slack in bunk. Slack till im sick of it.
Pros: You get to do noting/anything you want.
Sleep all u wish to.
Play cards
Watch idol series on PSPs.

Cons: The days drag by too slowly.
You waste more $ due to the fact that you are lazy to go to cookhouse eating shitty food and instead spend them at canteen.

I'm dying of boredom, thus me writing the diary of my weekly life in camp now.

IF given a chance for me to be an Auxiliary Instructor for Driving Course, i will do it again. The previous one, me and Seng got 3 days off!

Nites off, we went to JP and watch Marley and Me. i rate it a 7-7.5 points out of 10. And we went arcade to play SF4. Still noob at the game. I like the graphics though.

Oh yeah there's company run every Monday, Wed and Friday. Monday's run was in the afternoon at 3.30pm where the Sun KO'ed most of us. Wed and Fri was much better, the run being in the morning. Bebe bought Twilight's second sequel: New Moon for me.
Lucky she did, if not i would have rotted in bunk already. I finished it on the 4thday. Figured out I need the rest of the sequels: Eclipse and Breaking Dawn to keep me going for another 2 more weeks.

God knows how I'm going to survive the remaining 11 weeks..

With half of the bunk possessing PSPs, i wonder how ppl like myself and Daniel are surviving the outbreak of boredom.

Books! ARGH!!
Ive been accepted into MDIS. Since I don't really have a clue on the course I'm taking cos its new, I decided to loan from Huaqiang the lecture notes of the Diploma course cos he studied it before. Though Di and Degree is different, but still they touch on the same topic. Hopefully i can then have a greater understanding there.

I decided to study hard this time. I screwed up both my O's and Diploma. Too much distractions at that time.

THIS time however, is going to be different. I'm no longer addicted to games like before. Well maybe Dota every now and then.

Dota boosts mind power, making you think and expect what is your oponent's next move, and one wrong move might mean a victory over your opponent or vice versa. Sort of like Chinese Chess.

Speaking of that, I played a 1 hour game of Chinese Chess against an opponent online and won. You have to think of all possible moves and what your opponent next move will be and counter it.

I played the hard mode against the computer and won that too. An hour match too.

Ippt's coming. Really hope i can get Gold. Only thing stopping me is the 2.4km run. ARGHHHHHH.

Got to prepare for the 3km click run tmr. Sleep ear;y.. Nites all~ Nites bebe~ Muackssss~ <3 u~

I hate my home more and more nowadays.
Mother is interfering too much into my life.
Play game say this say that.
See show on the comp also say this say that.
Den wad u want me to do.

Keep nagging i think ill seldom come home liao.
Rather stay out and walk around till late nite den come home slp.

No mood to argue with you anymore.
I'm tired. Frens all slacking in bunk the whole week. They everyday wake up at 10am. Dick even slp till 12pm. Then go canteen eat. Go Mess and play billiard. Go back bunk slp. Wake up for dinner. Go Mess eat. Watch 9pm show. Go back bunk slp. That's their life style this week.

For me and Seng, outfield on first day Monday. Wake up at 6.30am everyday. Sweat like hell cos its hot and humid. And because its hot, it started raining at 3pm. Got drenched. Training still must go on. Outfield on Tuesday, Night training included. reach back camp 9.50pm. Wednesday outfield again. And so is today. Drenched again cos rain. Stupid weather.

Come back home see Chris msn put :"chalet life in camp now~"
See liao fucking du lan. ccb.
I dun understand why ppl who has got no appointment their whole lives get to slp till 12pm and slack whole day.
While those doing work, settling statements and 12o6 for the entire company, worrying about how to explain to the csm or settle them are slogging off.

The AMB ppl are really very nice. They are very warm-hearted and when our attachment to them for 4 days has ended, they thanked us profusely and the Master Foong even drove me and Seng to Lot 1, which saved us the trouble of calling a cab and waiting for it in the rain.

After that, me and Seng went to Sakae Sushi to eat dinner. He has a craving for sushis. Ahh well. Tmr is MSU's Cohesion Day. Watching a movie called Valkyrie.
Danny told me about the movie already so im not really looking forward to it.

Well, hope they offer us coke and popcorn. Im going to send my application for MDIS tmr to Syed the programme consultant. Already sent a photocopied copy of my Diploma and Transcript over to him. Its processing now, he says.

Looking forward to study. Im sick of games and army. I have a "Dont-care attitude" now in army.

Still got about 3 more months to go after clearing my leaves and offs. Can coutdown soon.

Jesus.
I logged in Cabal and all of my guild mates were so much higher lvl than me.
Before i went over to NZ, thet were 6-7 lvls lower than me. now they are 6-7 lvls higher than me.
Anyway, i started pvping my guild mates and they all got owned.
I dun wish to say it, but its really bursting out of my mouth.
Noobs. BAHHHHHHHHH. ahahahaha.
Who can beat me with my godly items?
Heh.

im flying to New Zealand soon.
and guess wad date is that.
2nd day of Chinese New Year. =.=
that means i will miss out fun and hanging out arcade with jin.
argh.

rush to new zealand.
i hope its fun there. they say its 3 degree Celsius there. heh.
bought lots of heat packs.
im going to quit Cabal already.
already reached my goal and im pwning lots of ppl in it.
thing is, still got 100m inside dunno wad to do with it.
aiya just leave it as it is ba.

Lost my camp pass and 11B and atm card.
dunno clerk got help me apply for new one or not.
why i havent kena confine leh?
sian i want my camp pass and 11b. -.-

later void me from gg New zealand i go jump down.
we just finish a 5 day outfield last week.
now damn shiok. fell into a drain. basket a drain that is up to my shoulders that height.
fking hell that thing was camouflage by leaves and overgrown weeds and grass. the moment i climbed down from my vehicle and walked ard, i fell into that thing.

leg hurts for 2 days. now ok can run liao.
we heared a 'plop' sound during outfield and we went to investigate. turns out my vehicle was parked underneath a Durian tree. got Durian eat liao lor. Take parang and go open the Durian. taste shiok ah!!!!

so fast weekend flies. now dunno at home do wad. i dun even want touch cabal. log in sian liao.

Heres my screenshots i accumulated.
Guys, meet BatmanReturn!!

Astral Bike






My record of the longest combo


Goodbye CabalSEA!!

anyway, let me try uploading a new song into the blog. my html sux, i forgot how to insert liao.