From today onwards, i shall be no longer acquainted with any form of Christianity nor anything to do with Jesus Christ. I might add an apology behind that. But it causes a fcuking problem. A dent in my relationship.
Or maybe it is fated that i do not get a wonderful relationship yet?
Funny how fated sounds now. It reminds me of something. Those who know me will know wad Fate has to do with me. I was never a deep believer in fate. Until i asked myself the question just now. Is this all fate?

They say a man can change his fate if he wills and tries hard. Fate belongs to your own hands. But somehow, today, i feel, fate is already there for each and everyone of us. No matter how hard u try, u still cannot win fate.
I refused to believe in omens. Bad omens. Someone once said first 2 weeks of a relationship is the sweetest...The carving of names of rings. I refused. Refused to believe that.
But i was eventually forced to believe. Is history about to happen again?

I can only pour my deepest sorrow in here, in this blog because, there is no one i can turn to now.. No one to hear me.. My tears, has already stopped flowing. My glands can no longer produce tears anymore. Cried till there arent any left.
Eyes red and im having a fever right now. I'm so cold. and I'm tired.

I love you. You mean everything to me. Your messages and calls, your voice, you are everything. I can't live without you. But did you realise something? Am I worthy enough of your love?

I'm not going to have another relationship anymore. You, are going to be my last one. No more. I love you. I wished i can be by your side when you need me. But sometimes, I got my own limitations. I was "forced" to do things my mum asked me to do.

Do you understand how deep my love is for you? You are the only thing on my mind. I don't care if i got knocked down by a car on the road. I don't care if i got robbed or got struck by lightning. All i asked for, is a little bit of love from you. I walked from Ang Mo Kio back home. I looked in the mirror when i reached home and I realised how haggard i looked. Dragging my feet and eyes red and blinded by tears, i could hardly see a thing on my way back. I'm losing it. Breaking down.

Head feels light now. I'm going to sleep now. Take cares all.
PS: Oh yea.. Happy New Year guys.

Christmas season!!
yo man hows everyone?
i know for one thing 2 ppl very dear to me are not feeling very well...
one is my dear~!!! the other my ah jieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

wa piang... both tio flu le.. and me cough ba.. let me join u guys ^^
take cares ok u two!! more water, more fruits, more rest, more money for me. AHHHHHHHH.

me and dear spent Christmas Eve at Vivo City! before that went to visit fang and passed her christmas present, its an orange mushroom light. round round de. quite cute.
and she was supposed to give that away as an exchange present. she got back a Forever Friends cup. OK WAD! she was complaining i guess.
but wads wrong wif a cup man. unless u give me those louya louya one like those glass cups in coffeeshops den i of cos will face black la.
this is Forever Friends man!! woooootss... bear bear leh! cuter wad. somemore its got fame and its not cheap.
wads the fuss abt it man. =x furthermore it doesnt requires battery like that mushroom light does. wahahahhahaha.

ahhhh. i'll accept anything as a christmas present as long as there is some use. a packet chicken rice oso can la. anything. im an easy-going person. enough enough can liao ^^ no nid good good de..

i still remember vividly some years back where i received a 10 inch box of chocolates imported from other country from my uncle. and i opened it they looked delicious. but i was young at that time. 1 bite on the chocolate and wine spilled out. BAH. i threw the entire box away.

ok off-track. anyway we were talking abt the Christmas Eve wif dear~~.
after find fang, we bought tea leaf egg den cos raining wad so stand outside the mall at shelter she peel for us both eat.. ^^ later a walk in the rain.. hahaha romantic.. =X

after that went harbour front vivo!! kaoz... take wrong direction de train.. her fault her fault!! she lead de.. not me!! =X
den on the way there saw oh man. a western guy holding the hands of an asian guy. holding like couple liddat. EH YOU ALL JEALOUS RIGHT.
joking joking.

disgusting. den went to buy tickets for Eragon! its a 7pm ticket we got erm some time b4 the movie starts so we went to makan at the food court there. whoa.. its so "old" inside.. into the 60's Era!!! omg.. super cool man!!! and its mega packed.. i didnt expect so many people there... oh well.. its a sunday.. AND on Christmas Eve.. cant expect much.. and den after ate just nice le go movie!! anyone watched the movie Eragon yet?
this is how the story goes. i shall simplify it.
err lets see.
i remember the movie got a boy, a dragon and a lot of crew. thats all.
YAY!!

no la. its about this farm boy, normal de farm boy, he was the Chosen One. he later became a Dragon Rider, Dragon Riders are considered most powerful of that realm. erm, there are 3 or 4 sides, Humans, the forest monsters, the orges and the the dragon riders. oh yea wait, there are sorcerers too.. dragon riders are extinct.. all dead.. so are dragons.. until this guy found out accidentally that he is a dragon rider, he's got a dragon eventually and he defeated the most powerful sorceror using his skills and a dragon along with the help of trustworthy friends.. so the war was won, the most powerful sorceror defeated and the movie goes on to reveal the last part where the King of the bad guys open up a curtain and there lies the King's own dragon... which means that there is a part II !!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

if u dun understand the above, nvm. the important part is the part II!!! AHHHHHHHHHH.
okies. after tat we went to Long John Silver to get mashed potato skins for dear~~ and den went home le..

dear~~ gave me a present.. omg i feel so guilty.. ask her not to get me le.. we tell each other not to give presents le.. but she still gave me one.. and i think, this is the best present i received all my life.. its meaningful, and represents things that other presents cant.

i scolded her because she said she slept at 4am last nite.. and when i asked her y, she wouldnt tell me, till i opened the present and she said she was knitting it.. omg... so sweet!!! sry dear dear~~ god... xie xie ni!!!!!




nice rite!!! so sweet!!

this is the pic we took for the day!!


25th Dec 2006
dear dear fallen ill on this day le!!! omg... dear dear i miss u ....
went to cousin de house for christmas.. hmmm as usual each year.. a tree and presents.. some food and they always play mahjong.


Presents i got for the day...


well err 4 of them. combined with my 2 other cousins, Jin and Ding, the 3 of us de presents cant beat the presents of Favor, the youngest cousin of us. she's erm 6 or 7 i cant rmb. no wait, maybe 5. AHHHH cant rmb la. i got terrible memory. dunno how i can pass my exams. hacks.

anyway, hope my dear dear~~ feeling better and ah jieeeeee~ too!!! do take care girls!!

hope u guys had a wonderful Christmas time!!!

yesterday went out with dear~ Bugis!!
Bugis streets walk first.. bought 2 new shirts.. a white one and a brown one.. one's from Noobie.. err no. newbie.

i want black shirts!!! T.T

mama said i got 2 whole rows of bamboos (she was drying the clothes) full of black shirts.

well, i like black wad. Black! the symbol of -->

heh. den went to Bugis Junction and den walk walk see see. and ate papabread sweets? or is it bread papa. ahhh. cant rmb. and the corochan ar? LOL OMG i sark at names. ZZ.
lousy me. den had drinks in foodcourt and sat down enjoyed. after that Neocard taking session!! we each had a different photo in our wallets XD so sweet ^^
and den she forced me to go Cold Storage and we bought lots of food. nag and nag at me and teach me procedures on how to cook this and that.. hahaha.. =X
after that went home le..
very happy XD

well today i cooked the maggi mee hor, i everything oso dumped inside the pot. woooooo!!! the pot flooded with the things i bought yesterday.. want to put egg inside oso no space.. sumptious meal indeed.. XD

yesterday i went to meet someone special.
introducing..
my aiai!!! XD
kbox outing! been learning Duets songs recently!!
kbox
at marina square and they gave us Room No 1 which is super mega big at
least twice the size of a normal room. it can actually hold to 10
people oh man and sing weird weirdde, cos got echo and they got 2 TVs inside man. 1 is big plasma de the other is put on the top right hand corner de.

i nv actually met someone that cares and concern that much about me as her..
maybe its because i hasnt met the right person yet? or maybe i just aint worth a lot to other people.

after kbox we went Mini Toons and bought some candies and later on to BK for some fries and onion rings. ahhhhh. bliss~ XD

after that we met fang for dinner. we decided to put up a good show in front of her. pretend we quarrelled. TMD! eh not easy de ok. imagine u had to act pissed off and very ignorant. and den have to keep urself occupied while the 2 lesbs are talking among themselves. that lasted for so longggggg T.T




Christmas tree was behind but we couldnt really see it in the pic. i like this photo. very nice background.. purple!!


Lastly a handmade christmas card from dear~!!! Details inside shall be confidential =p

was playing Rose Online the whole morning till 3 pm plus.. reached lvl 97. take new weapon. damn nice and happy.. XD

went for steamboat outing at marina bay today!! wif Hero Online members

in MRT, from left QinCaiZham, Gary, JiTaoZham, MyKoyang, MyKoyang's fren, BaiMeiYingWang, AhGus, XiaoTaru





Me, Jie~ and Nar~





after the steamboat, we went city hall, Starbucks where 11 of us sat down and started talking about games! all online games! Hero Online, Maple, Renewal, Nine Dragons..
was kinda fun.. esp that BeiMei and JiTaoZham kinda entertainer.. XD

thx ah jie~~ again for asking me along!!! XD

OMG im so happy!! i finished the bloody god damn presentation and my comm skills presentation. Since from week 6, ive been stressing a lot. assesments, tests and presentations to do. and ive cleared them all!! WOOOOOOOOooooooooooooOOO.
and time for the well deserved 2 weeks breaks!!

my god.. this is heaven..
thank god.. making me lose slp.. going home and reaching home everyday at 10pm plus 11pm plus after sch... madness..

CUT HAIR AR!! my hair so long.. after sch, leon called me and asked if NYP can print papers or not cos his house cant print. so i say ok lor, u come my sch i bring u to go and cut. he said ok, after his driving lesson that is. which ends at 2.30pm =.=
i ended at 12. so theres like a couple more hours more to go.
so i went to jubilee arcade and popular read a little before walking back to sch and meet leon.

makan at south canteen yong tau foo and den went Block L to print his resume for job in watson. wa kao. want work in watson oso nid resume and cover letter all this de =.=

den i went back home shower and change outta my presentation clothes and went out to meet xh~ to cut hair..

CUT HAIR AR!!


After cut hair





will be looking forward to Hero outing on Sunday and Kbox session scheduled on Next Wednesday. anyone interested???

wahahhahaha. my fren kiat was telling me abt prata outings wif me and ganny. the last time that happened wif him, we ordered mee goreng and nv paid for it and den we walk away. wahahaha. the Indian ppl there didnt notice anything. this time he said go there dun order mee goreng. if not the Inidians will recognise us. Kiat said this "Hard for us to recognise Indians but easy for them to recognise us."
WTF?!?!? LOL LOL LOL!!!

I GOT 1 MORE RIDDLE i came across the net.

"What did the Tamil boy said when he was having diahhrea?"
Ans: I'm meltingggggggggggg....


wooooooo.
anyway. these are some of the pics me and my classmates took during the Discovery Centre trip last week.

i just reach home from school.. omg.. so tired.. so tireddddd...
im so mentally and physically stressed out by the project and tests and assignments.
especially the project.. everyday staying back in sch and do..

and feeling that i didnt really accomplish much because of that weilin keep asking brian help her do. i dun even have A CHANCE to ask. tmd. tmd tmd tmd tmd tmd tmd tmd tmd tmd.

my part is so simple compared to hers and takes a short time for brian the pro to do i think. hers is ask for a few DAYS. TMD.

until the presentation on thursday is over, i cant slack.. ill be glad when this presentation is over.. the entire project is not over yet, but still the most crucial moment would have passed.

so tired.. Looking forward to the Hero Outing on Saturday..
Miss u guys.. Take cares all..

time to blog!! its Rose maintenance time. and time to do a little studying on my Advanced Database module =.= theres a test tmr and i still got to hand in my proj to my grp members by tues and i havent do finish cos i dunno how to do and im dead. ok nvm.

guess that little (&^#@$& weilin dun anyhow snatch brian away from helping me do my proj and ask him to help her do. knn she ask everytime lor. most of the time.. fk.. say let me ask first, den in the end she ask for a few hours den go home liao i nv get anything done.. fk up.. damn fed up wif her.. jitao dun talk to her liao. she talk to me i nv reply. just keep staring at my screen. YES!!

My hair is getting long. my mama now asking me to cut. maybe i shuld go cut it too. anyone want to cut hair or not? acc me!

OH YA! anyone free on sat or sun? theres a kbox session!!

KNN! tmd tmd tmd. the fking msn got prob.. it deleted my msn account. and i cant access into my hotmail either. everything i saved in my hotmail is gone. as well as ALL of my msn contacts. knn.. sian la!! omg lor

EVERYONE READING THIS POST PLEASE ADD ME --> batmanreturns222@hotmail.com .
sian la.
wad the hell happened. someone must have tempered with the hard disks in the sch com.. knn.. itchy fingers. i go into Hotmail and den they said that they can reset password. den i click reset password, they say send an email to my hotmail and got instructions there. DUMB ISNT IT?!?!? i cant even go into my hotmail den u want to send a mail inside my hotmail. STUPID PEOPLE.

Like u got an error on the Monitor. "Error. Keyboard not plugged in. Hit F1 to continue and F10 to exit." AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. SILLY OR NOT.

noob programmers. go eat some shit will u?
anyway, if anyone can help reinstate my hotmail account, i will treat u a meal!! u name any place in singapore, u got it. My treat.
my user name for the hotmail is "tweetytoot222@hotmail.com"
original password is "pokemon"

someone HELP ME!!!
tmr dad is coming back from China. hope he gets the muffins.. tastes nice.
and i get to choose where to eat when he gets back. Hmm.. i said instant noodles cos its the fastest and dun have to wait. Mum suggested Jack's Place, Swensons, No Name Board, and dunno wad japanese food.
im so tied up wif projects i dunno can come home in time or not.

Oh yea.. listening to those 2 songs xin hui~ sent me.. perfect le!! can go kbox and sing.. Duet!! woots... i need more duet songs.. MORE MORE MORE..

Sometimes listening to songs makes me feel lonely.. i need a companion.. and that special someone is near me? i nid someone..
.
..
...

My phone has upgraded Memomry card since last week!! last time was a lousy 64mb card which can store 5 or 6 songs at the most and the rest of the space goes into pics. now is a 1 GB card!! wooots!

My handphone was flooded today. Here are my birthday wishes from some of the dearest people i have known.. Thank You all!!

Xin Hui: Happy birthday to u! Happy birthday to u! Happy birthday to leslie! Happy birthday to u! Les, 19lor! Wish u all the best in everything u do! Gdluck, take care!

God Mum: Happy birthday to you leslie

Ah jie~: Happy birthday ah di (",)

Nar Nar~: Happy birdday!

Wen Jie: Hey good morning les and:) happyy birthday haha.

Ting: Happy birthday..=)..haha.=x..heh hehs..takecare..stay happy..i go vivo liao..

Ding: Yo dong! A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fang~: HappiE bdae les! =p

Marcus: Happy Birthday And you are 1 year older.. waHaha

Also thanks Ping~ and Tak for ur bdae wishes to my friendster testi, though i dun log in there anymore lols.

Today very happy.. i spend my day with... Xin Hui~!! at... KBOX Cine Leisure!!







After kbox we went to eat cakes at Cafe Cartel.. Hmm these are 3 slices we ordered and in the end, we couldnt finish them all.. i just felt like puking man.. eat till want to Blek!!

Auntie Amy's Chocolate cake
This cake has got current on the certain layers of the cake with a lingering scent of wine..


Bitter Chocolate Fudge Cake
This cake has an excellent chocolate crust on the side.. But its not bitter, though the name implies it is..


Oreo Cheese Cake
A very rich and thick chunk of cheese in the middle of the slice with nut crust on the bottom and oreo "powder" on the top. Eating 2 mouthfuls of this slice will guarantee u to feel like u dun want to have another go at it anymore..


When i reached home, got cousin and relatives waiting for me to... cut cake again!!! den after eating all the cakes, i go and make cake. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.


Me and Ah Ma~

Relatives


Lastly, my day ends with this beautiful gift from Xin Hui~~



Thank you for spending time out with me today.. Xie Xie~~

Heh. Today i shall talk about my group members. theres this fellow he's the leader la and den he very demanding. den saying "U all got prob wif ur proj, must come ask me. MUST ask" den we all ask den he like give attitude like not happy. win liao.
thats silly man.

and the 2nd one is maybe his gf la. cos i everytime see them together. anyway, she is very cheerful person. always laugh and den kind of helpful.

the 3rd one is fit. he has a fit body and has looks. im sure lots of gals would like him. he is quite strong in sch work too.

the 4th one is weilin. she is errr,
a little fan sometimes.. i regret being nasty to her when she was fan.
but when i need her help, i very guilty. T.T but she always want tochiong her proj la. so drag me down. which is actually good. i dun mind err staying back 1 more sem so that i can play more games at home while other ppl is at army. YAY.

the 5th one is a good for nothing. he likes to finish school early and can go
home so that he can spend the rest of the day gaming. he likes to
"philosophise" about any other non-chinese race.


SO CAN U ALL GUESS WHICH ONE IS ME?!?!? AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Not funni.

EH Speaking of non-chinese race, tat joa really go and assign to me the most interesting race we got on Earth. Indians!! and besides that, she asked me to do additional info on Hindus. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
tmd u purposely rite.
nvm. i know more about these 2 races than any of my classmates! AHAHAHAHAHAHA.

OH YA!! I saw Tammy in school!! omgomg.. she looks so pretty too! darn , i was too busy noticing her to get an autograph... damndamndamn..

This is my guild in Rose Online.. im now 6x in it.. but mega poor.. T.T



EH EH EH!! ANDY LAU MOVIE Battle of Wits OUT FOR 1 WEEK LIAO! i want to watch!! who want accompany me watch!??!?!!?!? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.