needed an outlet..

just needed an outlet. if you are looking for update... next post please.

IF I DON'T ASK YOU, YOU THINK THAT I'M NOT DOING MY JOB.
IF I ASK YOU, YOU THINK THAT I'M DISTURBING YOU.

YOU SEE ONE SIDE OF THE STORY & BLAMES ME FOR IT.
IF YOU REALLY THINK I'M REDUNDANT, I'LL LEAVE SO THAT YOU CAN HAVE THE BIG SHARE OF IT (WORK)

THANKS SO MUCH, SCITILOP

IF YOU THINK THAT I CAN'T DO WITHOUT YOU,I'LL SHOW YOU WHAT I CAN DO.
IF YOU CAN DO BACKSTABBING, DON'T PRETEND THAT YOU CARE.

THE ONLY THING IN THE WORLD I CAN'T DO WITHOUT IS ---- GOD

FOR HE TOLD ME TO PERSEVERE, I SHALL

its Saturday!

oh darling darling! its Saturday!
why such a weird feeling!

I'm sick! Announced that I'm officially sick!
Sore throat, Flu and Feverish.. Bad feeling..
Yet I'm going to Founders' Day Dinner!

Over the week.. I kept feeling unwell.. Felt really responsible for the kids. Can't bear to take MC despite diarrhoea and vomit. Felt really faint.. Couldn't stand the idea of being unappreciated.. feel really 爆燥！ 但是没有人理解我！所以才会骂人，还骂到自己生病。 真是活该！:(

我真的不能当老师。。 不但搞不好学生还得懂怎么控制自己脾气! 这些日子以来，我满脑里想的都是人家的认同。如果改不了，才真的是不得了呢！

with so much worries in mind... I'm malfunctioning daily!

first time.. i know I'm not there to fill the gap. I'm there the learn something about myself.. to learn to be blessed by others. Yet how irritated i may feel.. standing between the adults and students. like how adults made out the children to be. thinking of ways to outsmart the kids. i can't even bear to be like these. but everyday the teachers are asking me to conform into a fierce machine.

these children are really important in God's eyes. I wished to be their bridge to God but.. UE is not like wad it was already. with the new adults here.. and their own prejudices against the kids.. I can totally feel how the kids feel. because I'm behaving like one of the worse person around to betray them. tho they are really naughty. i know they just wans to be loved and approved of.. isn't that the bottom line? aren't adults like these too... they just can't see themselves in such a picture.

the barriers between adults and kids are responsibilities of an adult. I'm so sorry. i dun wish to be one.

119 Founder's Day

hey all! i'm in school right now! hee..
imagine all the bustling around the school right now. some parents are coming...
some VIPs are coming and even VVIPs are coming... hee.. i supposed its the first time seeing how founders' day is run from the internal point of view..

all of us are called to be present at 7.10am! but.. the service starts at 9am! Some teachers are glad that they've got a light duty.. while others are preparing to receive the very very important persons. Everyone dressed really pretty to come for the hearty event. ITS FAIRFIELD 119TH BIRTHDAY!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAIRFIELD!!

haha.. and while everyone is busy awaya... here i am blogging! oops. am i slacking? haa... well today is the only day i can do so... no need to yell or scream at the students.. no need to feel so fatigue! FINALLY just get to be in the presence of the big community! yuppies. (the only students here are the P6)

I remember when i was really young.. (haha cos i'm still young) I had to write school birthday poems to express how much i love the school and stuff. I used to really hate it.. cos i duno what to write at such a young age!

Now.. today.. I think I beg to differ.. Nobody is asking me to.. BUT..

I love Fairfield!
I'm seriously in love with the school..
This is the place which i grew up..
with all the teachers that taught me
mould me
even punish me..

I grew to become who i am today because of...
Fairfield!
Cause' GOD really loves this place.
With loving teachers to give their all for their students...
With prayer warriors that braved the storms with the school..
With godly prilgrims that paved the road ahead of us...

I really admire GOD from the bottom of my heart~
HE ROCKS!!
It is only HE who is able to give..
Able to give in such glory!!