hee.. hello people..
thot i shld give an update on my life.. wells.. i just wanna say.. God is good. He answers my prayer. My uni letter indeed came during tt week..
God, if you really wan me in this field that just give me a reply frm the uni this week ba.
God, if you wan me to be taking up the role which was offered to me.. reply me with a letter of approval for uni ba.
remembering this prayer.. and now i'm fretting about it now. kinda soon. hee.. at least I know God dun wan me to give up on his people. yet.. maybe not be using the uni as my first stepping stone.
den... it seems like the role offered to me isn't wad God wants me to do. sounds errr.. ok. shld i double confirm it? cos they really need someone.. it probrably might not be me.. ok. so i better accept it as fact.. tho i mean for tt prayer to be vague.. haa.. so having a vague prayer.. i cannot be sure of the ans. aiyo. =/
oh okook la. now i just preparing to switch jobs le. hee.. need to gear up for church camp first. will tell you more. erm yet.. i'm having a bad cough.. stomach and flu. haha pls pray for me. thanks people.
Friday, May 25, 2007
Monday, May 21, 2007
Quiet Time
And i thot this QT is pretty apt for me right now.. thot of pasting it here so i can read it more. and you guys can read it too..
Do Not Worry
25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[a]?
28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
isn't God's words just so true and applicable? truely is Basic Instructions Before Living Earth.. (B.I.B.L.E)..
how can we humans ever able attain God's standards?
Do Not Worry
25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[a]?
28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
isn't God's words just so true and applicable? truely is Basic Instructions Before Living Earth.. (B.I.B.L.E)..
how can we humans ever able attain God's standards?
bizarre dream..
on a fateful day, the sky was filled with darkness.. lots of people turned into monsters. They flew around and capture people. Causing earthquakes and injuries.. not sure if there's death...
then families were all fleeing for their lives. my family drove off in a car with 5 of us and went off to hide... Having to abandon others for our lives made me felt horrible but was told by my parents tt it was necessary. Esp.. we gave up an old woman and left her on her own after finding her a resting area. We went to load up petrol for the journey..
some monster flew by and was creating heavoc.. my family drove off to save our lives.
secretly, we drove to a buliding.. later to realised that we entered our enemies' camp. In order to survive, we need to pretend to be performers to get thru the security..
one little girl couldn't lie.. she almost blurted out the whole truth to the enemies.. I went forward to explain to them that we are all just part of the performing band. do let us enter..
the enemies' guard challenged us whether we really do have talent and requested me to sing on the spot. However I couldn't sing like usual because i have a sore throat.. also we need to be all singing together as a choir then it would be believable...
Just then one of the bad guy appeared.. yet he seems slightly friendlier to me due to some unknown reason.. (could be cos i knew him before.. ) he looks abit like an angmoh.. den he asked me.. wad am I doing here... told me his name was walter.. and i told him i have a friend called walter too! some how we hit off...
I told him, "here to perform.." and i replied.. remember that time we shared the gospel to you halfway.. can i complete it.. He said ya sure.. Then I told him the First Spiritual Law that God loves us, created us and has a special plan for our lives... for some reason.. I couldn't carry on with my sharing..
I turn back to see who have I to call on.. I saw the whole youthphoria and its really stunning to have everyone. Then I asked all of them to help and they readily agreed. then i asked what song can we sing to bring across our message.. everyone started to discuss and talk among themselves...
one of the leaders told me that we need an upbeat song... No one told me what song they wanted.. I suggested.. through it all.. they say no no.. with all i am.. they say no no.. 2 female leader.. J and G.. they told me that.. Joyce why not sing One way..
den just as we decided.. okay. one way then. The leaders told me that they can't help me.. they need to do other stuff like publicity etc..
but they told me I have the rest... den the rest also were too busy to care about my request.. involved in their own world and conversations...
I look at the 'rest'.. there were only my family and tt little girl.. I said this won't do.. I need more help.. they say look over there...
my gaze brought me to the bb area.. with darius and other boys there.. they are one department.. and they are heading some marketing department.. and requires darius to be their impt personnel.. He couldn't help me.. none of them helped me... they had different goals frm me...
All of them drew a curtain between me and them.. I was angry and helpless.. I wanted to throw my temper.. and tantrum.. by throwing the furnitures in the room.. only to realise that I only shifted a little.. and place the chair back in place..
knowing the impending danger.. i squatted at some corner.. in anguish and helplessness.. I sobbed and cried terribly..
** woke up **
then families were all fleeing for their lives. my family drove off in a car with 5 of us and went off to hide... Having to abandon others for our lives made me felt horrible but was told by my parents tt it was necessary. Esp.. we gave up an old woman and left her on her own after finding her a resting area. We went to load up petrol for the journey..
some monster flew by and was creating heavoc.. my family drove off to save our lives.
secretly, we drove to a buliding.. later to realised that we entered our enemies' camp. In order to survive, we need to pretend to be performers to get thru the security..
one little girl couldn't lie.. she almost blurted out the whole truth to the enemies.. I went forward to explain to them that we are all just part of the performing band. do let us enter..
the enemies' guard challenged us whether we really do have talent and requested me to sing on the spot. However I couldn't sing like usual because i have a sore throat.. also we need to be all singing together as a choir then it would be believable...
Just then one of the bad guy appeared.. yet he seems slightly friendlier to me due to some unknown reason.. (could be cos i knew him before.. ) he looks abit like an angmoh.. den he asked me.. wad am I doing here... told me his name was walter.. and i told him i have a friend called walter too! some how we hit off...
I told him, "here to perform.." and i replied.. remember that time we shared the gospel to you halfway.. can i complete it.. He said ya sure.. Then I told him the First Spiritual Law that God loves us, created us and has a special plan for our lives... for some reason.. I couldn't carry on with my sharing..
I turn back to see who have I to call on.. I saw the whole youthphoria and its really stunning to have everyone. Then I asked all of them to help and they readily agreed. then i asked what song can we sing to bring across our message.. everyone started to discuss and talk among themselves...
one of the leaders told me that we need an upbeat song... No one told me what song they wanted.. I suggested.. through it all.. they say no no.. with all i am.. they say no no.. 2 female leader.. J and G.. they told me that.. Joyce why not sing One way..
den just as we decided.. okay. one way then. The leaders told me that they can't help me.. they need to do other stuff like publicity etc..
but they told me I have the rest... den the rest also were too busy to care about my request.. involved in their own world and conversations...
I look at the 'rest'.. there were only my family and tt little girl.. I said this won't do.. I need more help.. they say look over there...
my gaze brought me to the bb area.. with darius and other boys there.. they are one department.. and they are heading some marketing department.. and requires darius to be their impt personnel.. He couldn't help me.. none of them helped me... they had different goals frm me...
All of them drew a curtain between me and them.. I was angry and helpless.. I wanted to throw my temper.. and tantrum.. by throwing the furnitures in the room.. only to realise that I only shifted a little.. and place the chair back in place..
knowing the impending danger.. i squatted at some corner.. in anguish and helplessness.. I sobbed and cried terribly..
** woke up **
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
NPCCC_Yr3s
As i was thinking about stuffs.. i went back to watch this video that tabi made for all of us.. i think it really brings back alot more memories than at that moment.
it makes me really think hard that if i dun get into uni.. this is my last good bye to school life. isn't it really sad.. yet filled with sweet memories. how i wish i was still studying la. I meant.. i really wan to study somemore. i dun wish to work at all...
it makes me really think hard that if i dun get into uni.. this is my last good bye to school life. isn't it really sad.. yet filled with sweet memories. how i wish i was still studying la. I meant.. i really wan to study somemore. i dun wish to work at all...
loving God is...
what God values most about his people is how they love him...
how true is this sentence?
Jesus died on the cross with humiility and love.
God wants us to follow Jesus example.
so by loving God is to live a life of love and humility.
loving God is not just about how much we serve in the ministry.
loving God is not just about how we attend church faithfully.
loving God is also about people.. the people whom we encounter daily.. people whom we stop by to care for.. people whom needs the gospel..
haven't we heard before that God's heartbeat is - PEOPLE~
***
Today i was late for work. Somehow work has disappeared to the back of my head. cos i have come to a decision to quit my job. Somehow i'm contemplating between 30 May or 15 June..
I'm not sure why i'm earning the money for. all my money have been outflowing.. now that there are mission trips..i know God will give.. so i'll do so. i had really wanted to save up a sum of cash for uni... but seems like all is bleak.
knowing about God's heartbeat all along...troubles my heart. cos i'm not doing his call over here.
Quitting this job also brings me to the realization of knowing that i've nothing to do after this. having a diploma in Business.. where should i go? what can i do? what job to find? Relief teach is just a short-term relief to my problem. I want a career. I want something that i can offer God with. of cos.. alot of people thinks i should just be a teacher. or a nurse.. or wadever lah.
i dun want to do what people think i should do. I wan to try the social n community services for God. For some reasons.. my uni application is taking a long time to approve..
God, if you really wan me in this field that just give me a reply frm the uni this week ba.
God, if you wan me to be taking up the role which was offered to me.. reply me with a letter of approval for uni ba.
if not.. tell me wad you wan me to do o lord... tell me wad you wan for my life.. have i been hearing wrongly all this while.. I believe God dun give me a desire for no reason..
how true is this sentence?
Jesus died on the cross with humiility and love.
God wants us to follow Jesus example.
so by loving God is to live a life of love and humility.
loving God is not just about how much we serve in the ministry.
loving God is not just about how we attend church faithfully.
loving God is also about people.. the people whom we encounter daily.. people whom we stop by to care for.. people whom needs the gospel..
haven't we heard before that God's heartbeat is - PEOPLE~
***
Today i was late for work. Somehow work has disappeared to the back of my head. cos i have come to a decision to quit my job. Somehow i'm contemplating between 30 May or 15 June..
I'm not sure why i'm earning the money for. all my money have been outflowing.. now that there are mission trips..i know God will give.. so i'll do so. i had really wanted to save up a sum of cash for uni... but seems like all is bleak.
knowing about God's heartbeat all along...troubles my heart. cos i'm not doing his call over here.
Quitting this job also brings me to the realization of knowing that i've nothing to do after this. having a diploma in Business.. where should i go? what can i do? what job to find? Relief teach is just a short-term relief to my problem. I want a career. I want something that i can offer God with. of cos.. alot of people thinks i should just be a teacher. or a nurse.. or wadever lah.
i dun want to do what people think i should do. I wan to try the social n community services for God. For some reasons.. my uni application is taking a long time to approve..
God, if you really wan me in this field that just give me a reply frm the uni this week ba.
God, if you wan me to be taking up the role which was offered to me.. reply me with a letter of approval for uni ba.
if not.. tell me wad you wan me to do o lord... tell me wad you wan for my life.. have i been hearing wrongly all this while.. I believe God dun give me a desire for no reason..
Monday, May 14, 2007
3 days alone!!!
i'm going to be abandoned and left to no one for 3 days...
today, tomorrow and the day after.. wan to know why??! cos my partner took 3 days leave...
tho i abit sad that got nobody to talk to.
but i kinda like the way it is too. cos it gives me the freedom to do wad I want.
like do the real work, spending time resting.. or even set time to think thru things. I dun really wan to watch youtube or crunchyroll anymore.. i've watched enough. want to know the list i watched? i try my best to list all k.. might even missed out.
dramas (average about 18 episodes in one; longest is 33 epi, shortest got 10?)-(kor, jap, chi)
haraku 17
which star are you on?
the mischievous princess
smiling pasta
devil beside you
it started with a kiss
full house
the queen's classroom
nurse aoi
tokyo juliet
marry me
magicians of love
let's go to the beach
summer scents
Movie (kor & chi)
100 days with mr. arrogant
200 pounds of beauty
a battle of wits
makeover
just at work for about a month.. i watched all these le.. not to mention those i watched before i started working...
wad do i do now? i think i'll need some time to clear my mind and focus on the right things instead of being a candle that can't shine under a bowl...
today, tomorrow and the day after.. wan to know why??! cos my partner took 3 days leave...
tho i abit sad that got nobody to talk to.
but i kinda like the way it is too. cos it gives me the freedom to do wad I want.
like do the real work, spending time resting.. or even set time to think thru things. I dun really wan to watch youtube or crunchyroll anymore.. i've watched enough. want to know the list i watched? i try my best to list all k.. might even missed out.
dramas (average about 18 episodes in one; longest is 33 epi, shortest got 10?)-(kor, jap, chi)
haraku 17
which star are you on?
the mischievous princess
smiling pasta
devil beside you
it started with a kiss
full house
the queen's classroom
nurse aoi
tokyo juliet
marry me
magicians of love
let's go to the beach
summer scents
Movie (kor & chi)
100 days with mr. arrogant
200 pounds of beauty
a battle of wits
makeover
just at work for about a month.. i watched all these le.. not to mention those i watched before i started working...
wad do i do now? i think i'll need some time to clear my mind and focus on the right things instead of being a candle that can't shine under a bowl...
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
random days..
i've been living in random days. much like without a cause. so much for envying people whom pursue after some good cause, some meaningful job. its just wonderful living life that way. how i wished i'm busy la!
everyday going to work is killing me. this job just bores me to the max! i duno. but i dun wan to live such random life. that's probrably why i keep saying that i'm not ready for work.. really can't stand it.
I need a bigger motivation, bigger amibition than this la. I wonder what of job will i get once i get a full time job... i wan it to be meaningful and busy! slacking too long just makes me like some slug.. goodness. its like yearning to get myself back to my peak.
if you do realised.. your stress tolerance level rise and fall.. according to your work level! i think my work level is zero.. tt's why.. i'm falling sick to such small stresses.
oh God, Can you please get me out of this mess... get me something i wanna do! i really hate my life now. makes me really tired everyday..
=( i'm feeling all so random....
everyday going to work is killing me. this job just bores me to the max! i duno. but i dun wan to live such random life. that's probrably why i keep saying that i'm not ready for work.. really can't stand it.
I need a bigger motivation, bigger amibition than this la. I wonder what of job will i get once i get a full time job... i wan it to be meaningful and busy! slacking too long just makes me like some slug.. goodness. its like yearning to get myself back to my peak.
if you do realised.. your stress tolerance level rise and fall.. according to your work level! i think my work level is zero.. tt's why.. i'm falling sick to such small stresses.
oh God, Can you please get me out of this mess... get me something i wanna do! i really hate my life now. makes me really tired everyday..
=( i'm feeling all so random....
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